episode_0063

“Usher.”

“Ah.”

As Belka called his name and came close, pressing her forehead against his, Usher could face the golden light right in front of his nose. Meeting the girl’s eyes, so familiar to him, he could feel the warm, sweet heat permeating that golden light washing away the hands trying to drag him from the cave into the abyss below, the terrible sensation of crawling over his body. So he was relieved.

“Was there a problem?”

Phariar’s voice was heard, and when he looked to the side, he was looking at them with a bewildered expression. Donar and Siff were also looking at Usher with worried eyes, so he quickly shook his head.

“It’s nothing. I just don’t feel well. I’ll go into the carriage first.”

So Usher went into the carriage. He felt sorry for Phariar, but he couldn’t bring himself to eat that rock-hard food. Looking at it, it felt like he would keep remembering those disgusting things he had seen in the cave.

“Why did such a thing come to mind?”

Honestly, aside from being a living thing in the shape of a rock, there was nothing in common. The size was different, and there were no terrible features such as sharp teeth or the melted hands of a person. As he lay sprawled out on the empty bed, the shadows of those guys kept coming back to his mind like a tail biting another one even with small thoughts, and he recalled the awkward atmosphere due to him thinking of such things in unrelated events, he sighed and heard a voice.

“It’s okay not to be too tormented by that. Such things are ultimately natural.”

“Belka.”

When he raised his gaze to Belka’s voice coming from above, he met the warm golden light again. The girl was looking down at him from his bedside, as if she had followed him.

“…Is that really so?”

“Yes, Usher is here like this now.”

The girl said that, but Usher frowned at the images of the pure white mermaids that still vividly came to his mind. In fact, what he thought was most terrible was not the bizarre fish or mermaids he had seen in that cave. The most terrible thing to him was the seething desire that asked if he could stay there forever, even though he hated the relationship he had to make with the mermaids in the cave, and himself who had such a desire.

Perhaps if it hadn’t been for Belka, who was waiting for him, he had a strange conviction that he would have entrusted himself to the mermaids full of dark and viscous desires. It felt like that dark and sticky desire was still boiling inside, and he felt like he was going to vomit. He knew that such desires had hurt the girl countless times, so he couldn’t control the revulsion that washed over him.

Above all, even now he was feeling such desires for the girl who was trying to comfort him. Usher closed his eyes to stop his gaze from unconsciously scanning down, as her bare skin under her clothes kept coming to his mind. He hated himself so much. Then, surprised by the feeling of a presence slowly rising to his bedside and a soft sensation sweeping across his cheek, he opened his eyes.

“B-Belka?! What is this.”

He could see the girl looking down at him from the opposite position. When he closed his eyes again at her face slowly coming down, he felt a moist and soft touch on his forehead. It was a sensation that disappeared immediately, but it was like a hot branding iron, and the sensation did not easily disappear, so he blankly wrapped his forehead and looked up at the girl. Although it was not clearly visible due to being covered by deep shadows, the girl’s face, reddened enough to be noticeable even in the faint moonlight, came into his eyes.

“…Will this cheer you up?”

It was the girl’s words whispering in a small voice as if she was unsure of herself, but her voice was heard so clearly to him inside the carriage where only the two of them were. He wanted to hold back as much as possible. Would his desire hurt the girl like other people’s desires? Would it cause pain? He was constantly suppressing it while being anxious, but. The girl’s loveliness was so great that he could no longer suppress it. The appearance of the girl’s small cleavage and the budding areola revealed by the loose robe and the loose dress that had flowed down made his eyes glued to them.

“Hic?!”

Usher could no longer hold back his desire and grabbed the girl’s body and pulled her down. He could feel the girl panicking, but before that, he pushed away her dress and took her fruit into his mouth. No matter how much he sucked, bit, and rolled it with his tongue, nothing came out of the girl’s fruit, but he couldn’t stop the act.

“Heuht, heua… Aeu…!”

-Chup chup!

For a while, only the sound of him sucking on the girl’s chest and her moans echoed inside the carriage. How long had he craved the girl’s chest like that? He looked at the girl’s slightly trembling arms, raised his body, and laid her on the bed.

“Heueueu.”

Then, the girl’s small chest, revealed in the dress that had flowed down to below her chest, shimmered in the moonlight, glistening with his saliva, thanks to him sucking it to his heart’s content. The sight of the girl, breathing heavily in such a state, was so erotic that he stopped his actions just as he was about to take out his thing at the sight of a scar he had never seen before engraved on the girl’s neck. As if not caring about the girl at all, the bruised appearance was vivid, as if someone had bitten her neck hard.

The biting force was so strong that the bloodstains that were now hardened could be seen slightly, and if he thought about how he had not noticed it until now, the girl had been covering the wound with a pure white robe as an outer garment.

“Eut!!”

As he blankly brought his hand to the mark and carefully touched it, the girl frowned and let out a cry of pain. Belka covered the mark with her hand and looked up at him with trembling golden eyes. Usher’s heart ached at her eyes, filled with sadness.

“Who did this again?”

“…Do you remember what I said I would tell you?”

The girl seemed hesitant, but soon lowered her hand covering the mark engraved on her neck and opened her mouth. If it was something she said she would tell him, he remembered it. It was the story of Belka coldly rejecting Logi, who had come to find her before passing through the cloud zone. It was an incomprehensible story, but he could tell because the girl was definitely expressing a sense of rejection towards Logi.

“…Logi?”

Belka nodded silently. And what came to his mind was the night before that happened. That day, the girl had definitely been urging him to go for a night walk.

“Heuaahm, does it have to be today?”

She usually never urged him to do anything, but that day she kept urging and asking him. But what had he done that day?

“I’m too tired… Can’t we do it tomorrow?”

Was it because he was relieved by the thought that he had seized the initiative? He couldn’t overcome the sleepiness that was coming over him, so he couldn’t grant the girl’s request to go for a night walk. It just so happened that that guy violated her at that time. It wasn’t certain, but the girl’s golden eyes full of sadness and the girl’s appearance of not being able to look at him straight were telling him what had happened that night. Usher staggered, feeling like someone had hit the back of his head with a hammer.

The fact that he had sympathized with such a guy even for a moment was terrible. Where did it all go wrong? From the moment he let Logi off the hook for trying to force himself on the girl? Or even before that? But one thing was certain. He failed to protect the girl this time as well.

“I, without knowing such a thing.”

He felt guilty that she had to go through such a thing again because he couldn’t even grant her one request, nothing else. Even if he wanted to stop the tears that kept overflowing, he couldn’t stop them. He hated and cursed himself, a weakling who always failed to protect the girl. Unable to handle his tears that kept flowing, Belka eventually stopped wiping his tears. Instead, Usher was surprised by the warm and soft sensation enveloping his face, and he opened his eyes.

What he saw was the girl’s white skin and small collarbone. He was now being held in the girl’s arms. He was ashamed of his desire that swelled up again at the sweet scent permeating his nostrils. Why doesn’t this desire lessen even in this situation? As he tried to pull away, the girl hugged his head even tighter and didn’t try to let go.

“Don’t be ashamed. I, I don’t want anyone but Usher. So please. Fill me with Usher.”

Perhaps because she was hugging him tightly, or because the sensation there was particularly sensitive, he could feel his thing touching the girl’s secret place as it was.

“Eut, heueuk, heut!”

The girl’s moans tickled his ears. He could feel everything as it was without seeing his thing penetrating and coming out of the girl’s small crevice. The sticky and viscous space of the girl swallowing his thing also vividly became one with him and conveyed the sensation inside to him. He explored her inner flesh with his thing, using the honey water that flowed out of the girl as a lubricant, and then honey water came out again and wetted his thing. Then, the endless cycle of exploring the inside of the girl again with his thing soaked in the girl’s honey water.

“Eueung!”

He could see the girl’s slender body, shaking according to his movements, yet accepting his thing into her secret place below. The sweat that he would normally feel uncomfortable with even made him feel good, a fever that was like burning, yet not hot, and hot enough not to call it lukewarm. The sweet fragrance of the girl bloomed on her body, which had become mellow and hot as they mingled together, filling the carriage even more intensely. The pleasure that he could never get used to struck his mind the more he shook his waist. A powerful pleasure that made him want to forget everything and entrust everything to this sensation.

“Hueueu, Usher.”

Then he saw the golden light looking at him hazily, as if sweetly intoxicated. Along with that, there was a clear affection looking only at him, as if intoxicated by the intense pleasure. When he faced those eyes, one corner of his heart tingled in a way that he could not express with simple pleasure. But more than that, he was happy. Usher liked the girl’s golden light that sweetly filled the empty space in his heart so much. When they were touching each other like this, he could feel Belka’s warm body temperature, and the sweat he felt from the bare skin and the intertwined hands clearly told him how close they were.

“Ah, eut!”

Even in the dizzying and distant pleasure as if all of him was becoming one with her, the girl’s moans were clear. The girl’s touch that embraced him, her bare skin that was so incredibly soft, and her body temperature that was warm as if it was hot. This moment when the boundary between him and the girl was becoming precarious. His thing that had crept into her inside throbbed. An indescribable climax that was meaningless to endure after realizing it. The girl he met at that moment was smiling as she looked at him, so he poured it into her without hesitation.

“Aheueut…! Ah!”

The sensation of his vision turning dark and his mind turning pure white was like falling into somewhere else. The time he was coloring the girl. Usher briefly came to his senses in the time made because she wanted him, not anything else. He felt a little uncomfortable with the feeling of his clothes sticking to his body because he hadn’t taken them off properly, but that was only for a moment.

“Aeut?!”

His thing had not yet shrunk. Because of that, Belka seemed a little surprised for a moment, but soon entrusted her body to his movements and accepted his affection filling her inside countless times.

“Haa haa.”

“Heueut heua.”

Time passed without them even noticing how much time was passing. Usher came to his senses amidst the sound of rough breathing echoing inside the carriage, and he realized that they were still overlapping each other, sweating profusely. He was bothered by his body, which was exhausted and languid as if he had been doing strenuous exercise, and his clothes, which were soaked with sweat. As he, who had been lying on top of the girl as if he had collapsed, raised his body, their clothes were soaked through as if they had sweated so much.

Transparent threads stretching sticky and then snapping off abruptly as he carefully pulled it out, showing that the girl’s secret place was still swallowing his thing. Perhaps his thing had been blocking the entrance, soon a white liquid flowed out.

“Haeuh, Usher.”

Then the girl also came to her senses, called his name, and blushed. For some reason, he also blushed at the sight, feeling embarrassed. It seemed like they had overdone it because they were caught up in the atmosphere. However, there was one thing that was a little disappointing.

“I should have taken off my clothes.”

It was nice when they were doing it, but it was too uncomfortable to be wearing clothes that were soaked with sweat. Belka, who had raised her body, said as he grumbled.

“Then let’s take them off next time.”

“Next time too?”

As he looked at Belka while saying that, she blushed even more, her face still flushed from the effects of the intense act.

“Uueu, idiot.”

He was happy at this moment. This act felt good, but the reason why he was so happy was because the other person was Belka. The most lovable, beautiful, and cute girl of all. Because he was with her, he could feel and think that he was happy now. Wishing that this moment would last forever, Usher whispered.

“I like you. Belka.”

“Yeah, I really like Usher too.”

Their shadows overlapped once again. As Usher rested his head on the girl’s chest, Belka patted his back and hummed a little. Humming that quietly echoed inside the carriage in a low and comfortable tone. Usher fell asleep slowly in the arms of her, listening to her singing and feeling the cozy sensation that came over him. Even after he fell asleep, the girl sang a song with unknown lyrics and looked down at him. Then, her golden light seemed to ripple in the moonlight, and soon it turned into a stream of tears and flowed down.

“Uueuk… Heueu, I’m sorry… I’m sorry. Usher.”

Would her crying disturb his sweet sleep? The girl suppressed her breath and cried again and again.

“I don’t have the power to protect myself.”

And what flowed out was the truth that she couldn’t dare to tell her beloved, who was leaning on her in her arms.

“Even though it’s so hateful, painful, and agonizing. I have to accept it.”

That’s how I was made. The girl whispered like that, forcefully spitting out broken pieces of glass. Not even knowing that someone was watching her.

Logi muttered inwardly as he watched the girl’s appearance.

‘What is that.’

It wasn’t that he had intended to peep at their lovemaking from the beginning. He needed time to think quietly alone. He didn’t deserve to see the girl who had made his heart flutter for the first time. Even so, the kind touch that had stroked his crying head made it impossible for him to let go of his lingering feelings. It was a relationship that had gone wrong from the beginning. He had violated the sleeping girl, although it was at the urging of Pan. But when he witnessed that scene at that time, there was also the option of telling the adults.

If he had done that, people might have found out about what Pan had done sooner. But Logi succumbed to the temptation of the moment and made an irreversible choice. Unpleasantly, the sensation of violating the defenseless girl was still so good that it still came to mind. But the real problem was after the girl came to find him in person. He had misunderstood that the girl had come to interrogate him. The last thing was the worst of all. He violated the girl, who couldn’t even resist properly, because of his ugly jealousy.

He was just angry, he should have stopped when the girl stopped him. But even if he regretted it, everything had already passed.

“What should I do now.”

His heart was still pounding just thinking about the girl. He wanted to keep the girl’s redness, white skin, the clothes she was wearing, and the pure white skin under it in his eyes, and he wanted to be with the girl. However, he had already lost too much to be with the girl. He wasn’t even hungry, so he skipped his meal and came to the carriage where the girl was and lay blankly on the bed. Then, he realized that he could smell her fragrance from the bed where the girl had been lying.

He was annoyed at his thing that had swollen up against his will and wouldn’t shrink easily. He sighed, not knowing what to do, and tried to calm it down by touching his thing with his hand, but he felt strange. It wasn’t as good as when he put it inside the girl, but it felt good to hold it tightly in his hand. With that feeling, he grabbed his thing with one hand and started shaking it. While recalling the girl’s touch.

The fine red color like the texture of luxurious fabric, the moist and soft lips, even the inside of the secret place under the skirt. He was chasing after that ecstatic sensation that was soft yet wet, warm yet stickily enveloping him. It was at that time.

“…!”

He heard the sound of someone approaching the carriage. Logi, startled by the sound, also dropped his thing that he was holding in his hand and hid under the bed next to him. He wondered if he needed to hide this much, but he absolutely didn’t want anyone to find out that he was doing this alone. Especially not that girl. The moment the door of the carriage opened violently with a thud, Logi felt like his heart was dropping with a thud. He was so nervous that he was watching the scene, and what he saw in his field of vision was a boy.

Golden hair close to yellow, fair skin as if he hadn’t been in the sun much, and a boy wearing slightly shabby clothes were illuminated by the noisy outside lights. It was Usher, not the girl he was waiting for. Logi was disappointed at that, but he also harbored an unavoidable animosity towards him. Honestly, it wasn’t that he hated him. But even so, if there was a reason to hate him, there was only one reason.

“…Will this cheer you up?”

It was because of Belka, the girl who had come into the carriage following Usher, who had been depressed after something had happened, and gently embraced him. Logi liked her from the first time he saw her. There was nothing he didn’t like about her, from her redness, white skin, and the clothes she was wearing, to the golden eyes that were looking at him. That’s why he was so envious and jealous of Usher, who was close to her. While he was suppressing his burning emotions as much as possible.

“Hic?!”

He realized at the girl’s moan that was suddenly heard. That the actions they were about to take from now on were definitely that act that he knew. He had no choice but to watch their actions. He wanted to run out and separate the two right now, but he couldn’t. Not only did he not have the confidence to handle what would happen after that.

“Who did this again?”

“…Do you remember what I said I would tell you?”

“…Logi?”

Because his name was heard. He couldn’t do anything because he knew that the girl was hurt because of him.