episode_0063

One leisurely morning on a public holiday.

I was sitting on a bench.

Two months have already passed since I entered the academy.

There was still a lot of work to be done,

Most of the children who needed to be saved were saved.

The first apocalypse that would occur at Yangjae Station was also somehow resolved.

‘I have a lot of work to do in the future…I wonder if I have time to leisurely fool around like this…’

I sighed and leaned back on the bench.

A member of an organization that worships the ancient god I hate so much.

And Xiao, one of the four executives of the cult.

Azur was foolish and managed to roast and boil it through mental manipulation,

In terms of simple combat power, Xiao was the most powerful awakener among the executives.

Needless to say, Tae-beom, who became the new director of the management bureau,

If we were to compare her combat power along the same lines, she would not be taken lightly.

Rather, if there are no major variables in the situation,

There was a good chance that Xiao could overpower that bastard.

‘The problem is… I have no idea what she was thinking when she called me out today…’

Even before her regression, she was extremely obsessed with me.

During my academy days, Xiao dropped out before I even knew her.

Even in a situation where one’s mind is broken and one is about to take one’s own life,

Because she showed up in person and stopped my stupid decision.

When I think about it now, if I had died then, I would have quickly returned to the past and started anew.

In the end, it is true that Xiao saved my life many times.

But that didn’t mean Xiao was on my side.

‘That’s that, and this is this.’ With the words.

Because while he saved my life, he completely destroyed my colleagues who trusted and followed me.

The two friendly hunters who belonged to Griffon were lost on the battlefield.

When the girls, including Lauren, Surtur, and Lapis, come back after being seriously injured.

Because without fail, I heard her name ‘Xiao’.

“Ah, you came earlier than I thought, Seojin.“

She approached me quickly, walking quickly.

I’ve often seen them wearing church uniforms or academy uniforms.

It was the first time that Xiao came to see me in civilian clothes.

Black knit sweater and jeans.

And on top of that, he was wearing a brown trench coat.

“No, I just showed up a little early.“

“I wasn’t sure what to wear on my date with you… so it took up a bit of time.“

She smiled slightly and sat next to me,

Out of habit, I quickly looked around the park.

The only signs that can be felt are ordinary citizens coming out for the holidays.

Thinking it might be a trap from the church, I was very nervous as I adjusted my gloves.

Xiao just smiled and gently held my hand.

“You can rest assured, the only reason I came to see you today was because I really wanted to spend the holidays together.“

“…Do you have time to spend your time so carefree? I don’t know when or where I might aim my sword at you.“

“…Sadly, it looks like my prediction was right.“

She adjusted her clothes with a slightly sad expression,

I slowly let go of the hand I was holding.

“I know very well that you feel extreme anger towards our organization, although I don’t know why. At least I don’t think you’re holding that grudge over something ordinary.“

“Don’t be so harsh, Chairman. Because I know that you are in the same company as those cult bastards… and that you are even an official of that cult.“

“Ahaha…you are true…but I like you very much. Even though we all know that the multiple terrorist attacks committed against the church so far were carried out by you.“

She looked at me with a slightly subtle smile,

Xiao’s deep eyes were staring at me.

She wore a black knit sweater and jeans.

Moreover, she even wore simple makeup, which she doesn’t usually wear.

In contrast, I wore a black denim shirt and simple slacks, full of Yuri’s taste.

I even sprayed a little perfume when she said it was a date.

It was equipped with a lot of various accessories so that it could always be ready for battle.

Except for the black gloves that match well,

All of them were transformed using magical power to make them invisible.

“Anyway, I like you very much. And I believe that one day, the day will come when you will be by my side and make this world a more perfect world.“

“…Even though you know that I hate your ancient gods and such?“

“Well, that’s how much I like you very much. Even though our thoughts are a little different, I won’t give up on persuading you.“

Xiao always said that to me, even back then.

Let’s escape this terrible pain and be with ourselves.

And since she would always protect me, I would no longer have to insist on this difficult life.

‘There’s no difference between then and now, except that we approached a little faster than before.’

I sighed and stood up,

She immediately came next to me and crossed her arms.

“Then, Chairman Xiao, can I ask you one thing?“

“Sure, as much as you want. If you are Seojin, you can ask me anything.“

I turned to Xiao and asked calmly.

“Why do you like me so much? I haven’t done anything to you, and from the perspective of a church official… I can’t help but regard you as an enemy.“

“That’s…“

She thought for a moment and said,

Soon, he pressed his soft body against me and blushed.

“Just being with you makes me feel a little more at ease, and for some reason… I feel like I want to protect you. What can I say, you are like…“

Xiao spoke to me kindly.

“Is it like a flower that misunderstands the season it will bloom?“

“…?“

I just feel her warm body temperature,

With a sigh, I held Xiao’s pure white hand.

“I don’t know what it is… Anyway, I just wanted to have a normal date today. Is it okay to understand this much? And stop talking about pseudo-scams?“

“Yes, that’s enough. Now, I’ve reserved a movie, so let’s get going. Because I knew right away that you get cold a lot.“

‘Is this okay…’

My mind became a little complicated, but

Her expression smiling so brightly.

And even though I wanted to look into his heart, it was no use at all.

Because it was a situation where I only felt like he had a crush on me on the outside.

Ignoring my impatience for a moment.

I decided to spend a peaceful holiday with her.

——

“It’s been a while since I’ve been to a movie theater…“

“It’s been a while for me too, when was the last time I saw a movie…“

She and I were sitting down eating caramel popcorn.

No matter what movie I watched, I wasn’t very impressed.

I chose a romantic movie that Xiao wanted to watch and sat down.

The content of the movie was not much different from what I expected.

Tragic love, a relationship that cannot be fulfilled.

Even if it seems like the broken relationship will eventually be restored.

In the end, the two men and women find themselves in an extreme situation due to a disaster that has spread out of control.

In the end, the protagonist succeeds in rescuing the male protagonist by sacrificing himself.

Bleeding from severe wounds.

In the end, she closed her eyes while being held by him.

Nevertheless, the two men and women.

In the end, I had no choice but to realize it deeply in my heart.

I will never experience such a beautiful love again.

You won’t find it anywhere else in the world.

” Seojin, your hands are shaking. Are you unwell?“

Xiao held my hand and looked at my complexion,

I closed my eyes tightly as I wandered through the terrible nightmare that had come back to me again.

Always giving me soft and warm warmth,

I share it without hesitation, even though I am so desperate that my heart freezes.

In the end, my children may leave one day.

Although he barely survived due to numerous sacrifices,

In the end, I couldn’t even say thank you to them.

I took a deep breath and hoped this reminder of the past would end.

This too, will pass someday.

When the movie ended.

She and I were sitting in a cafe.

I sipped my Americano without saying anything.

Xiao ordered a cup of cafe mocha and didn’t even say a word.

“Your face is particularly pale today. If you are not feeling well…“

“Xiao.“

“Ugh…Ugh..“

I spoke to her coldly.

“I like happy endings. Even if it is a little improbable and far-fetched. A story where everyone is happy.“

“I agree with that too. If the result of anything is good, the process also looks good.“

“So…I’ll do my best. Although I may still be less capable than others, I will do my best to protect my precious people.“

Xiao smiled softly and took a sip of coffee.

Then, he gently flipped his hair and brought his head closer to me.

“You are never weak. Among the men I have ever met… no, in terms of growth potential, he is by far the best among other awakened men.“

“…I guess that’s how I appear in your eyes.“

“Then, this is not my opinion, it is fact. Not only that, you have the ability to lead people. Not only me, but also the chairman and other students. Because I can feel that everyone has feelings for you.“

Xiao looked at me with a slightly sad expression,

He then sat down next to me and gently pulled my shoulder.

“I don’t care how many people I go through. In the end…if only you were by my side in the end, if only I could hold you in my arms. Because there’s nothing I want more than that.“

“Well…it’s close, so could you please stay a little further away…“

“Didn’t you say it with your own mouth? I like happy endings.“

She grinned and pulled me towards her,

I hugged her without saying a word.

While the movie was playing, I was wandering around in a nightmare and lost all my mental strength.

I knew I shouldn’t do this, but

If I had to somehow revive my torn heart that felt like it was about to collapse again,

It seemed best to just lie in her soft arms without saying a word.

“You can be mistaken in thinking that I have a crush on you. Because I also want to think that Seojin likes me.“

“You are my enemy, Xiao. As long as you continue to stay in the church, you never know when my sword will be pointed at you. On the other hand, someday, you may be sent a script telling you to immediately deal with me who caused terrorism against the church.“

“If that happens, I…“

She rubbed her cheek against me and thought for a moment without saying anything,

He soon widened his distance from me and sat down on the other side.

“If that is the mission given to me, I have no choice but to follow it.“

“…Okay, so I’m saying don’t give it affection. Because you and I both know that that day will come someday.”

“…”

‘…even though it was five years ago, is her belief still as strong as this…’

After drinking all the remaining coffee,

I immediately stood up.

“Well, then. I guess I should have fun playing a little more. We might face enemies someday, but right now we’re just out on a date, right?“

“Yes, that’s right. Still, I hope you don’t worry too much. Such an absurd script…“

Xiao took my hand and stood up.

“Because the Great Mother will never tell me anything.“

“…that’s…“

I smiled without saying anything.

“Maybe so.”

So I went to many places with her.

For lunch, I ate pork cutlet and pork set at a restaurant she introduced.

The food I ate at that restaurant was quite excellent.

Although I couldn’t eat much because my stomach felt crazy after eating a few pieces.

To the point where I felt like I had to bring other children later.

It was a truly satisfying restaurant.

Then we sang a few songs at a coin karaoke bar.

It was quite cute to see Xiao holding the microphone and singing passionately.

I picked out a few old songs that made me feel hoarse.

When I sang, she laughed and clapped to the rhythm,

If you had a girlfriend in high school, would you have felt this way?

With that in mind, we had a great time.

I also took some funny sticker photos at Photonecut.

We walked slowly to her house and talked about various things.

After our conversation at the cafe, we didn’t talk about anything serious,

Talk about future events, written exams for midterms, or practical exams.

Or we exchanged trivial jokes or reviews of the movie we saw today.

‘She was a much more docile woman than I thought…’

“Huh? Why are you staring at me like that? Is there anything on my face…“

“No, it’s nothing. It’s just that I feel like I’ve never seen a face smiling so brightly.“

“Hehe, I guess…this might be my first time being with someone so carelessly.“

We walked together for a while and wandered around the city center.

My hands, which I was still holding with one of my gloves off, were slightly sweaty, but

She didn’t care and kept holding my hand more gently every time I tried to pull it away.

“Ah…we’ve arrived…at last.“

“It’s late, so I should go back soon.“

She seemed to be living in a more ordinary officetel than I thought.

Even though it felt like I was living alone, without anyone living with me.

Xiao turned around and smiled at me as if he didn’t really care.

The scarlet street lights were shining on us,

In the cityscape, where it is already late at night.

Her brown hair and pure white skin,

It was gradually turning scarlet.

“It was really fun today. Actually, I didn’t know you would really come out to see me. I thought Seojin really hated me.“

“Rather than saying I hate the president, it would be more accurate to say that I hate that religion. And the chairman can be seen as the leader among those people… so it can’t be helped.“

“I’m sorry that things happened like this. Seojin, won’t you tell me honestly? Why do you hate our organization so much? Otherwise, I too…“

I spoke coldly to her.

It also contains a little bit of all the resentment I’ve been holding in until now.

It might sound quite cruel, though.

I wanted to be at least honest with her.

I hope you don’t come closer to me anymore.

“You killed him. My precious people. How many people, how many times. Constantly…repeatedly.“

“Ah…“

Xiao made an embarrassed expression and wiggled his fingers.

Without saying a word, while she was lowering her head, I took out a box from subspace.

“Well…if that’s the reason…I’ll apologize on your behalf. I’m so sorry.“

“…You didn’t do it.“

“Then…if such a terrible thing happened…we would really…have to deal with each other as enemies in the future.“

“Probably so. Unless you change your mind. No matter what the cost, I will take revenge on the church. And…if you get in my way too, I won’t be able to smile and talk like I do now.“

“…“

It was the first time in my life.

Someone from the church, not even anyone, but Xiao.

I never thought a situation would come where he would apologize to me like this.

Even if I scold her, the pain I’ve been through until now will go away.

However, that doesn’t mean that everything that will happen in the future will never happen.

Nevertheless.

Let’s express to her some of the feelings that we have been harboring in our hearts.

It seemed as if the affectionate hatred that had been growing towards her was subsiding a little.

Hate the sins of the organization.

The executive named Xiao was just one of the adolescent girls.

Only now did I realize.

“…I really enjoyed today, Seojin. Although we will face each other as enemies in the future… if possible, I hope we will not point our swords at each other.“

“Me too, you and I both like happy endings.“

“…Yes, go in and rest. I have to go back to the academy early in the morning tomorrow.“

I took out a box that I was hiding behind my body.

And handed it to her without saying anything.

“Now, this is my last gift. Please open it.“

“This is…“

She opened the box carefully.

Inside was a doll that looked like something you would see in a claw machine.

Although his eyes are wide and he looks like a cartoon character,

Brown hair and eyes, and even the black uniform she wears when working as an executive.

They were all dolls made in the likeness of Xiao, who always saved my life on the battlefield.

“It’s hardly a gift, but I tried my best to make it. Oh, there’s no ring or anything inside, so you shouldn’t cut open the stomach.“

“Yes…! I will never…never cherish it…Ahaha…it looks really stupid…but it’s really cute…“

She seemed to like it so much that she held the doll in her arms and stroked its head.

When I saw her holding Mini Xiao, my cold heart seemed to melt little by little.

“Then let’s go in. Have a good night.“

“Well…wait…“

Thump-!

She grabbed my collar and pulled me hard,

“I know I shouldn’t do this, but…Please forgive me for this…“

“Now…wait…!“

Xiao roughly hugged me and kissed me.

Her lips are awkward but warm,

And the moment when she pulled my waist strongly and pressed her whole body against me.

She and I closed our eyes and kissed.

Like the first kiss between two fresh-faced lovers.

Xiao approached me like that.

“Well…then…b…let’s meet tomorrow.“

“…“

Xiao immediately grabbed the doll and ran inside the officetel.

I touched my lips and felt the remaining touch.

“What…what happened…“

I watched her run away without saying a word.

I was organizing my complicated thoughts little by little.

I can’t properly hug her or hate her because of the mixture of love and hate.

I’m in the middle of a city street at night.

It felt like I was wandering aimlessly in an unfamiliar city.