episode_0063

That very night when Memer went to Remilie’s room. What was Remilie thinking as she was left alone in the empty room after he left?

“I should’ve just said I’d follow along… . I was just being proud, dammit.”

It might have been an opportunity that would never come again. If I ran out again now and grabbed his hand, would he continue doing it?

“… … … . Sigh… .”

She ran out of the room barefoot, but no matter what, she must have thought that it wasn’t right. She sighed and went back into the room, crouching down with a miserable look on her face.

Then, suddenly, Remili felt ashamed of herself for feeling regret over each and every one of these things, and she held her head in her hands.

“I am… the direct descendant of the Kindle family… the romantic maiden Remili… . A noble and honorable bloodline… who does not carelessly abandon her chastity… .”

She muttered. But now, what good does it all mean? Is the problem this world that has lost its moral value, or is it me who is the problem, being stubborn and stubborn all by myself?

As they say, suffering comes in waves all at once, painful memories that she can never forget come flooding back into her head no matter how hard she tries to forget them.

‘Ehhh… … .’

‘Hehehe… .’

‘What’s going on? Is there anything interesting?’

‘Oh, sir! Take a look at this!’

Remili still vividly remembered that memory. The members who were sitting together showed her a long sausage that had been served for dinner that night. They pressed the bottom of the sausage with their hands, showing the sight of the meat inside coming out of the outer skin.

‘Ugh, ugh…’

‘Ahahaha… .’

‘… … ? What is this? What’s so funny?’

At that very moment, the eyes of the agents who had been giggling among themselves changed. Their reaction was so shocking that even now, just thinking about it makes goosebumps appear on my back.

‘Ah… You don’t know what this is?’

‘I heard you’re popular with guys…’

‘Huh? I thought you would definitely know, Captain…’

‘… ?… … What? Aren’t you going to explain it to me?’

Even the face of Ailee, who was passing by and smiling incomprehensibly. And then, a little while later, when I looked into a pornographic book for the first time in my life and found out what it meant, that feeling of shame.

“Keuuu… … !”

Remili was in agony, her hair all messed up.

“I just didn’t want to look down on you… .”

It was natural. It was so easy for inexperienced people to imitate experienced people among experienced people.

“So what if I’ve never done it before? What’s wrong with something like that! Ugh… Ugh… … .”

She cried. She cried and cried.

And back to the present, Remili has been pacing outside in the cold wind for an hour now, looking anxious.

‘I think you’ll like it!’

‘See you later tonight! I’ll fill you up.’

What does it mean? She was worried. There had been a fight over the differences in opinions between the Teria and her daughters from the Songrad family, and by rejecting Memer’s persuasion, she naturally supported the opinions of Mila and Ray, who were on the other side. Even to the point of throwing away the opportunity to have a long-awaited first experience. Was this a way of returning the favor?

What kind of return is this? Even the most inexperienced virgin knows why a woman’s belly swells. If you think you don’t know that, you’re making a big mistake. So is this really… really… ‘that’ kind of return?

Remili frowned. Why on earth would such a nobleman give himself to her so easily? It was a painful truth, but she knew from experience. Men in general were not attracted to her. Let alone Ray?

No? Then how can Memer explain it? Even though he didn’t really like her, didn’t he use sex as a tool for coaxing her? If it can function as a bargaining chip, then why wouldn’t it be used as a kind of return gift? Are men like that?

“Hey, what are you doing there?”

When Remili looks back in surprise, she sees Mila walking towards her.

“Ugh… … . What, nothing much happened.”

Remili brushes her hair behind her ear and mumbles.

“I see. Good luck.”

“Uh, Uh… … Wait a minute!”

He stopped Mila as she tried to wave past him.

“Huh?”

“That’s what…your lover said.”

Remili regretted it as soon as the words left her mouth. Why should she confide in him?

“Ahh… . I heard he was really grateful to you. Didn’t you hear? Maybe tonight… … .”

“…! Oh, oh, oh. I heard. ”

Remili replied with a start. I didn’t think they had come to an agreement. For some reason, she felt like her guilt had been relieved. The possibility that Ray, who she had been holding in her heart, had turned his heart toward her had faded away.

“You can look forward to it. Even though he’s still young, his dexterity… is amazing.”

“Really?”

Mila said, her lips licking. Remili swallowed hard. Who would have thought that the innocent-looking Ray had such a secret? She was the type of person who thought that you shouldn’t judge a person by their appearance.

“I guess it’s because he likes it and finds it fun. Isn’t it strange? There aren’t many men like that, right?”

“That’s right… … . Ahem, hmmm. But are you really okay? After all, I’m your lover… .”

“What’s wrong! I’d rather show it off to others. It’d be a shame to eat it alone.”

“… … What a piece of trash.”

Remili clenches her fists and mutters in response. It was pitiful to see Ray with such a woman as his lover.

“What?”

“Don’t you even think about that kid’s feelings?”

Remili asks.

“… That’s a man’s job, right? And like I said before, he does it because he likes it. I never forced him to do it. ”

“Ugh… … .”

Her ruthless and authoritarian attitude towards men. Remili shuddered at her shameless words. Was this how a powerful female treated a male? With royal bloodlines that everyone looked up to, and even the title of Grandmaster. Surely, meeting a man would be nothing to this girl. She began to hate her for having a completely different perspective from herself, who was always at a loss with the opposite sex. At the same time, she was madly envious.

“So, are you going to decline? You’ll regret it. It’s really delicious. Really.”

Mila furrowed her eyebrows and began to urge Remili on, whether she knew or not what was in her heart.

“Who said no? Get that grumpy face off!”

Remili, her face flushed red, lightly pushed Mila away. Mila, as if she had expected this, took a step back with a smile on her face.

“Then I’ll go. I have to go eat dinner.”

Mila waved her hand dryly as she greeted them and walked towards the food distribution center.

“Then me too… .”

“?”

Mila tilted her head as she looked back at Remili, who was also taking a step towards the distribution center.

“Why?”

“Why, you later today… … .”

I have a bad feeling. It’s definitely the same face as back then. Their world, unknown to me as an inexperienced person. In front of this guy, I can’t say that I’ve never done it before. If I look down on him even a little bit, I might get caught.

“Ah… . Right. I know, it’s not the first or second time. Haha, really. It’s not the first or second time, but I almost forgot. ”

“…? Yeah. Then I’ll go first. Take care.”

I don’t know for sure, but Remili thought that it was a kind of manner to do it on an empty stomach before starting a business. I think I would have gotten away with it somehow, and fortunately I avoided the same embarrassment as before.

But the aftereffects of the shock still hadn’t subsided, and her heart was pounding uncontrollably. Is this how romantic relationships are supposed to be? Remili felt uneasy, as if she was falling behind in the changing values of this world.

She had no time to lament the reality of this era, where things like purity had all gone, and where the practice of procreation, which should be extremely solemn, was being treated lightly and traded. In any case, the important thing was that the possibility of carrying out the uprising arose today.

“I’m going to wash up… … . Should I go wash up?”

***

Remili was crouching in a corner of her room, feeling just as nervous as before. Every now and then, she would bring her hair close to her nose and sniff, then her clothes, then her pants, then she would put her hands deep inside and take them out to check the scent of her fingertips. This was the seventeenth time in total.

Am I doing it? Am I going to do it? In just a little while, will I break my virginity? And with someone else’s lover, without any love at all.

She felt that something was wrong.

Could it be that she is about to commit some sin? Such anxiety began to gradually suffocate her. No matter how much times have changed, it was not the case. Could it be that Ray also got caught up in such an unwanted incident simply because he met the wrong woman?

She took out a small folded piece of paper from her bosom. It contained a few basic doctrines, also called the Word of God, and contained the basic things that humans should and should not do.

It must have been written somewhere around here. Do not commit adultery. Do not commit adultery.

“Commit adultery… …?”

Even if I close my eyes for a moment and open them again, the words are still there. For some reason, the words on the paper clearly say, “Commit adultery.”

Of course, there was a good chance that she had missed a few letters when she first copied this doctrine. But now, at this moment, Remili thought that perhaps all of this was a revelation from God.