episode_0063

I’m definitely sorry that Emily kept waiting.

Vita bit her lip, slightly lost in thought, and eventually confessed honestly.

“I don’t know, well… why did I do that earlier.”

“Okay, it’s okay.”

Emily accepts it calmly.

“The questions were very difficult… ?”

This time the silence was longer.

But Vita had already made up her mind. To be exact, after she had organized her thoughts rather than made up her mind.

“No, not really.”

So you can talk.

“… That question from earlier.”

Vita forced her lips open with some difficulty, as if she couldn’t open them for some reason.

“As expected, I… ”

The other person’s gaze is directed towards you.

Vita took a deep breath, clenched her fists, and continued speaking.

“I don’t think I like Carlyle.”

Emily’s blue eyes sank into the moonlight.

Emily hesitated for a moment, then moved her lips.

Then Emily spoke to Vita again.

“Bianca, tell me. Is that really what you mean?”

To the question I heard again.

For a moment, Vita was at a loss for words.

You just answered, so why again?

Emily’s calm gaze, her sunken blue eyes, stare quietly at Vita.

“Bianca, you… don’t you know the expression on your face when you said that to me earlier?”

“No, that’s not it… ”

“Don’t try to run away.”

I’m not agitated. I’m not annoyed.

But just calmly.

So it seems more serious and sincere.

“At least, it doesn’t seem that way to me. So, Bianca, I’m just asking.”

For a moment, an emotion passes over Emily’s face.

In Vita’s eyes, it looks slightly distressed and at the same time, a little hesitant.

“What are you hesitating about…?”

Emily Swan said.

The other person probably has no idea how much thought went into her words before she could bring them up.

But Emily continued to think as she waited outside, outside the break room.

It was only natural that Emily’s heart couldn’t help but ache as she watched Bianca run away in a state of near-conviction.

In fact, ever since Bianca Shamal’s accident, Emily had been feeling uneasy.

What is it that makes Bianca Shamal hesitate, what is it that makes her run away? So why did I make myself think of unnecessary things? After thinking about it for a long time, I came to one conclusion.

“Haa-”

Emily was so taken aback that she ended up laughing out loud.

‘Why this now…?’

I guess you just realized it now.

At the same time, it also felt a little bit miserable.

‘So you care about me…?’

Perhaps, almost. I feel confident that my guess is correct.

‘Bianca, you are such an incredibly innocent and kind child.’

It’s about caring for yourself. You should know that your friend has always liked Carlyle.

What if I think that I can’t intercept the guy my friend likes?

Because everything can be explained with such absurd logic.

But even in that state, even while pushing Carlyle away for the sake of my friend.

Meanwhile, Emily feels a little miserable that Bianca has won Carlisle’s heart.

“… There’s no need for that.”

So Emily says, there’s no need to do that.

“Rather, why don’t you just… not care about me?”

Yes, if you would at least admit it.

If you can’t even say that you like Carlyle Schultz, and you just push him away thinking of him as your friend, then it would be too cruel to steal Carlyle’s heart.

A display of childish pride. But it’s an emotion that can’t be helped because he’s also human.

Jealousy, envy. But in this situation, it just worked strangely and Emily pushed the other person away.

“Be honest, Bianca. Tell me exactly who you like.”

Tell me honestly.

“When I got my courage up. But Carlyle-kun still only cared about you?”

Do you know how miserable that was, Bianca?

“If you really don’t like Mr. Carlisle…! Then, Bianca. If you like someone else, as you said, prove it once.”

So, suddenly.

Vita is flustered as Emily Swan pushes her around.

Even though I barely managed to answer.

Why, why?

“I, I… ”

At that moment, Vita felt like she couldn’t breathe.

I still can’t figure out why Emily is pushing herself like this.

Yeah, but.

‘Who is the person you like…?’

The truth was obvious.

That’s Emily Swan, the girl in front of you right now.

Vita Shamal’s first love and long-time unrequited love.

Because it’s always been that way.

However, Vita can no longer understand why she is so confused, why she is making things difficult for those around her while trying to return to being a man.

Emily’s expression looks a little, a little bit pained.

But just now, from what Emily had said, Vita had found a clue to overcome this situation.

-If you like ‘someone else’ as you said once…

Then, wouldn’t it be enough to reveal the identity of the ‘other person’ that I mentioned before?

Of course, before that, there is a truth to be told first.

She can only be persuaded by revealing to Emily that she is actually a man and that her real name is ‘Vita Shamal’, not ‘Bianca Shamal’.

But there is a sure way.

The person he liked wasn’t Carlyle Schultz, but rather Emily you. The surest way to break this situation.

‘Is this right…?’

‘I really mean this…’

But this is the only way that comes to mind right now. Because I can’t say that I like that guy Carlyle. I can’t like him, and there’s no future like that.

So, in the split second, many thoughts came to mind, but in the end, Vita made up her mind.

Emily is suffering. You can see it.

I will go back to being a man, but I am causing unnecessary misunderstandings.

‘As expected, honestly…’

It might be a good idea to tell her. If the other person is a thoughtful Emily, you can trust her and tell her, and she won’t spread the word about it anywhere because of her personality.

‘So, I…’

A confused mind, a wavering youthful heart.

Maybe I’m just a little tired of this whole situation, I feel sorry for Emily, and I’m just so confused.

Eventually, Vita impulsively opened her mouth.

“Actually, I…!”

***

After the story ends.

“… ”

“… ”

For a while, a deep silence fell between the two.

“… Trust me, Emily.”

“You’re telling me that now… ”

Emily’s expression is one of bewilderment. To be honest, she’s extremely bewildered and confused.

“Then, could it be… that medicine I’m taking right now…?”

Nod- Nod-

From Emily’s perspective.

It’s an unbelievable story, but it feels like several devils are hitting each other at the same time.

The conversation from last night.

-Today is better than yesterday, tomorrow is better than today. That’s what Emily told me.

Sure, ‘to me’. That’s what you said.

Emily never said that to Bianca Shamal. She said it to Vita Shamal. So that conversation earlier was definitely out of context.

In addition, there is a lot of shame between same-sex women, and in many ways, they are different from female students of the same age.

For example, not being able to wear makeup at all, or not being interested at all. Even the way she wore underwear seemed a little awkward. When we talked about so-called ‘girls talk’, she was unusually quiet.

Emily covered her mouth.

‘Yeah, in many ways…’

Come to think of it, Bianca really has a lot of strange sides to her. And I was really embarrassed when I saw her taking pills.

So, as if the story were true.

“You, Vita…?”

“Yeah, that’s right.”

The other person nods. It seems like he has made up his mind to speak.

Emily was dumbfounded, but then she remembered something, although she still couldn’t quite believe it.

So, no way.

“Surely, Carlyle knows about this fact?”

“… No, I don’t know.”

The other person shook his head as his expression hardened slightly. Emily’s expression also became even more confused.

“Well, then… ”

I just don’t understand.

Actually, my thoughts didn’t change even after hearing the story. Even if Bianca Shamal’s true identity was ‘Vita Shamal’, my thoughts wouldn’t change.

‘You like Carlyle.’

Emily thinks so. So it’s strange.

‘What is this…’

Bianca, the girl Emily herself had been seeing recently, only now she claimed to be Vita.

I definitely like Carlyle. That opinion hasn’t changed at all.

-Should I take Carlyle?

The reaction I saw at that time.

In addition, there are various reactions that ‘Bianca’ usually showed towards ‘Carlyle Schultz’. Judging from those reactions, there is no room for doubt.

But if it happens like this-

Emily is speechless, because she is having a hard time accepting the situation.

“That is, Bianca… If you were originally a man… ”

Doesn’t his childhood friend Carlyle already like Bianca Shamal?

Suddenly, an unpleasant word pops into Emily’s head.

‘So, this is…’

Maybe it’s ‘deception’?

After all, Carlyle comes first to Emily. Her childhood friend comes first.

‘But what if Carlyle doesn’t know this at all…’

In many ways, it doesn’t seem right. Strictly speaking, aren’t you deceiving Carlyle?

But still, though.

For a moment, Emily barely managed to control her expression.

“If what you say is true… Yeah, right. I think it’s weird that you like guys.”

Emily can also believe that he likes her. In the past, Vita clearly liked her, but now she doesn’t.

So, it’s strange.

‘What if that kid is really Vita?’

If what you’ve been saying is true.

Yeah, that’s right. My head is so dizzy.

“But why are you…?”

“Uh, huh… ?”

Emily Swan’s basic personality was supposed to be good. She was kind and quite considerate.

But at the same time Emily.

There was one very bad habit that even I reflected on.

Sure, sometimes. When I get too flustered, like when I got a public confession from Vita Shamal.

Sometimes Emily reveals her true feelings.

‘Why did I do that…?’

There were times when I made a slip of the tongue that I later regretted.

“Ah, so… ”

And now Emily was extremely embarrassed.

As expected, really.

Because I thought it was weird.

I don’t think this is the case if Carlyle was deceived.

“You’re a man… Why are you with Carlyle?”

Emily’s expression is one of confusion.

“No, that’s right. It’s strange that a guy likes Carlyle, and it doesn’t seem right… The thing Carlyle hates the most is lying… ”

While talking nonsense-

‘…!’

Emily realizes that she has repeated herself once again. It is a regrettable slip of the tongue that happens once in a while.

It was obviously difficult for the other person to say those words. However, I didn’t listen to them. As a result, that’s how it turned out.

To someone who clearly has feelings for her, but is denying her feelings for Carlyle because she is originally a man.

Maybe Emily herself did the killing. And she said it out loud that it was weird.

Stop revealing your honest thoughts.

“… … ”

The opponent’s face turned pale.

“Ah… ”

Emily covered her mouth, but it was too late.