episode_0062

“Then, Bianca. Do you like Carlyle?”

“Ah, huh… ?”

Vita’s eyes stopped.

Because it was an unexpected question.

Moreover, the content is extremely confusing.

I never dreamed that Emily herself would ask me such an honest question.

So Vita’s hair turned completely white and she became dazed.

‘Do you like that Carlyle guy?’

What on earth does that mean? What does it mean literally?

So how should one answer this question?

I like that Carlyle guy, but even after thinking about it again, I can’t come up with an answer.

No, actually. I think you might like Carlyle Schultz.

Since yesterday, Vita has been somewhat aware of it.

Yes, but I can’t answer that question for sure yet.

‘… Well, that’s strange.’

I find it odd that I like Carlyle. It’s quite a difficult question to answer.

Why is it weird?

There’s no need to give a reason for that, because I’m a man by nature.

Vita, I can’t define exactly what I’m feeling right now. The moment I define it, it’s a feeling that I can’t turn back.

“Uh, um… ”

The other two are holding their breath and focusing on me.

‘What should I do with this…?’

Vita bit her lip, wiggled her fingers, and hesitated to answer.

Seriously, what should I do with this?

How can I answer this question well?

Vita licked her lips, and eventually smiled vaguely.

“I have to answer, right…?”

To try to sneak out.

“Okay, then.”

But Emily’s expression is quite serious.

There is even a hint of enthusiasm to hear the answer.

‘I have to know this time.’

Actually, Emily had made up her mind to do so.

This time, his actions, somewhat unreasonable and stubborn, also had an ulterior motive.

I tried to force myself to know the true feelings of my friend Bianca Shamal.

So, Emily, I think, wants to know.

Actually, the opponent is Bianca Shamal.

I think it’s strange not to admit it.

It would be better if we both acknowledged each other’s feelings and were both aware of each other’s feelings.

Of course, one side may not be able to give in easily, but it would be at a huge disadvantage for them.

Maybe we can have some friendly competition.

If that happens, at least I won’t feel wronged even if I lose in the end. What can I do if the two of them like each other?

But if it stays like this.

Bianca Shamal doesn’t even acknowledge my feelings. And yet, it still hurts my pride to lose in this state.

‘At least, Bianca… if you truly love Carlisle, admit it.’

And then, even I, who already like Carlyle, did my best.

Even after both of them did their best, if they were to be chosen and Bianca were to be chosen, I don’t know if I would be able to accept it. In fact, that’s how it should be.

Emily prides herself on having that much common sense, so she can accept it even though it might hurt her.

Because I like Carlyle. My heart was so big that I hesitated until now and ended up like this.

At least, I don’t want to lose to someone who doesn’t even have the courage to say that he likes Carlyle. So, for my own sake and certainly for the sake of the other person, it’s definitely the right thing to do this time to move on.

“Tell me, Bianca.”

So Emily says,

“… ”

Tick tock- Tick tock-

The ticking of the clock rings in Vita’s head.

Vita absentmindedly recalls something Shasha had said before the truth game.

-I think friends shouldn’t hide anything from each other!

It’s not that difficult. Just answer.

Yeah, actually.

He said that he didn’t like that Carlyle guy at all. It would have been easy if he had just said that one word.

But for some reason, Vita can’t do that. Thinking about the honest confession Carlyle has made to me.

Emily’s serious expression, she can’t tell a lie even in a sudden situation.

Emily added:

“Oh, by the way. Like liking someone as a friend? That kind of thing is completely prohibited.”

I was thinking of that excuse, but now it’s blocked.

“I, I… ”

So I kept hesitating and couldn’t continue speaking.

My head was spinning, and I felt out of breath.

So, for now, I can’t answer this sudden question.

Because I can’t be sure.

‘Do you like Carlyle Schultz?’

I think it’s possible. Honestly, I’m aware that I’m being swayed by him, and maybe I’ve already gotten past that stage.

At the same time, I thought it was strange in my head.

‘I… originally… ‘

Because I am originally a man.

I have this thought, but how can I say that I like Carlyle Schultz and that I am seeing him as a romantic interest?

But at the same time, why can’t he say no? Vita feels like her identity is being shaken.

“… Sorry. I need to go to the bathroom for a sec… !”

So in the end, Vita ran away. After going through countless troubles in a very short period of time.

Because the agony did not subside easily, I decided to run away. At some point, Vita got up from her seat, hurriedly opened the door, and ran out into the hallway.

“Where are you going, Bianca?!”

But a shout was heard from behind.

Bita started to run, closing his eyes tightly and covering his mouth with his hand. There was one place that instinctively came to mind.

***

An unexpected chase in the middle of the night.

Emily followed right behind Bianca Shamal.

‘Don’t run away, Bianca…!’

Because this time I really want to confirm my feelings.

I can’t help but follow it.

Right, last night. There was an accident.

But since everyone is asleep, there’s no need to attract attention.

Fortunately, Bianca Shamal had no idea that she was being followed. In other words, because she was so absent-minded, her running speed was slow. Emily followed Bianca Shamal, who was staggering, holding her breath.

‘Why me…’

In reality, Vita was barely conscious.

Why are you running away?

Couldn’t it have just been a no?

Even if Emily’s attitude was serious, why didn’t she just do that?

But why?

Why didn’t you do that?

Maybe yesterday’s cabin. The honest confession of the guy I heard in that cabin. The words I heard then, the quiet voice, the warmth of his warm embrace, or the emotions I felt.

‘Yeah, definitely…’

Maybe they were all just bothering her, Vita thought.

Now, it’s hard to answer definitively, saying that I don’t like Carlyle Schultz, that shameless guy.

My head is full of confusion.

Vita finally reached her destination, the balcony of the lounge. Fortunately, it was deep in the night, so there was no one around, and Vita leaned against the railing and took a quick breath.

‘This is… no.’

I think to myself that this is not like me.

‘Me… Carlyle…?’

You might like it, I think you might. But at the same time, Vita can’t confirm it.

Well, he is a man. He was definitely originally a man.

‘And Emily…?’

What is Emily Swan?

Isn’t this the person you’ve always had a crush on?

Wouldn’t it be confusing if the person you had a crush on directly asked you if you liked Carlyle Schultz?

He still cannot figure out his own heart.

In fact, it’s becoming more and more one-sided, but the moment you become certain, everything becomes strange.

And then there’s Emily. The person he’s always liked. He’s originally a man, so of course he likes women.

‘… wouldn’t it be weird if I liked that Carlyle guy?’

‘Yeah, anyway. It’s not like that’s going to happen-‘

Oh, wait a minute.

The moment I realized it, a clear realization struck me.

Yeah, right from the start. There was no need to worry.

I’m going to go back to being a man. So there’s no point in liking Carlyle.

So, once again.

Vita realized anew that there was really no need to worry.

‘What the… ‘

Did you feel a little better after getting some fresh air? Vita laughs in vain, feeling ashamed of herself just now.

Either you like Carlyle or you don’t.

What I’m saying is that such a concept has no meaning in the first place.

‘…because that’s impossible.’

A future where you like Carlyle, and Carlyle likes you too. So, they can understand each other. Because you will return to being a man.

moment.

Ugh-

For some reason, Vita nodded, even though her chest started to hurt slightly.

‘Yeah, that’s right.’

After organizing my thoughts, I feel a little lighter.

This is an obvious conclusion.

I think I can now answer with certainty why I don’t like Carlyle Schultz.

Because it has to be that way. Because it’s natural.

‘… This is absolutely correct.’

After barely gathering her thoughts, Vita sighed deeply.

‘Tomorrow for both of you…’

I guess I should apologize separately.

As Vita was thinking like that, a voice suddenly came into her mind.

“Have you organized your thoughts a little…?”

***

“It’s pretty good here.”

The person approaching me with those words was none other than Emily Swan.

Vita was extremely flustered because it was unexpected.

“, Emily… ?”

“Your friend went out like that, how can you just sleep?”

A tone of speech that is insulting.

Vita bit her lip because it wasn’t a wrong statement at all.

“… Sorry, Emily.”

Emily laughed and said quietly.

“I was right behind you. You didn’t even notice?”

Were you that out of your mind?

But it’s been quite some time since I’ve been here.

‘During that time, Emily…’

It looks like he’s been waiting outside the break room.

“Ahh… ”

Vita ended up sighing.