episode_0061

“My, my chastity… It’s worth using in itself… Huh?”

Even though his eyes are trembling with tears, he constantly tries to persuade me. It’s almost ridiculous that they are so desperate.

What on earth does this person think of me?

Well, I guess her impression of me isn’t very good…

“So… First, sit down… Stories… ”

“Senior.”

“Huh, huh… Uh, uh… ?”

“I’m here to help you sleep.”

I got to the point where I couldn’t listen any longer, so I stopped talking. Only then did Yeon Myeong-ha stop crying and look at me with blank eyes.

After a moment of silence, Yeon-sik’s lips stutter, as if she has finally grasped the situation to some extent.

“… that… It can’t be done far away… ?”

“Yes. No.”

“Well, but… Obviously in the dormitory… ”

“One wall is okay. But isn’t my room too far from here? But you can’t hang out the window all night, or wander around in the hallway.”

“Well, then… Hee, hee… ”

The tears were falling, but Yeon Myeong-ha’s face turned bright red like blush.

He completely wrapped his head in a blanket and now only looks at me with resentment.

” How dare you… This, this… Sexual harassment… ”

“Did I commit sexual harassment? The senior did it himself. And what will you do if I do?”

“Hmm… Ugh… ”

I get irritated and try to snap at him, but I feel weak when I see him flinching at even the slightest action, like a small animal.

I gave up trying to reply and sat down on the chair in front of the table, and a loud sigh escaped my mouth.

“Ha… I don’t. You obviously signed a contract, right? And if you thought that way in the first place, why did you leave the window open?”

“Myung, it was an order… And if you don’t open it… What would you do… know… ”

“Senior. What do you think of me?”

“That, that… ”

“Be honest. This is a command.”

Yeon Myeong-ha, who was shaking, lowered her head. When I urged him again, he gently turned his head to the side and with difficulty parted his lips.

“Perversion, perversion… goat… Sniff… ”

“… ”

I deplore that absurd perception. Of course, I admit that I have been a bit harsh on her in the past, but I don’t remember ever crossing a line in that way.

… Now that I think about it, it seems like the leader’s image has been overlaid on me…

“I have no interest in my senior’s body. I don’t even want to be touched. So, stop worrying about unnecessary things.”

“Ta… Such a thing… My, how pretty my body is… !”

For a moment, he got agitated and tried to argue, but he seemed to realize that it was an inappropriate comment, so he stopped talking and bowed his face.

Self-love is a word that has nothing to do with me, but at least it doesn’t seem like pity.

“That’s it now, right? So go to sleep quickly. It looks like you’re already tired from all the way down to the south.”

“Yes, how can I sleep when you look at me like that… Even though… The same room… ”

“It’s not the first time, so what do you think?”

“It’s not the first time… ? Sleep, wait… then… ”

As if she had realized something, Yeon Myeong-ha looked at me with wide eyes.

“Well, back then… What came in the morning… It wasn’t… ?”

“I was next to you all night.”

When I brought up the story of the day after returning from the first request, Yeon Myeong-ha let out a sound as if steam was escaping from a kettle.

I was about to tell her that I knew all about her tossing and turning and her little snorts, but out of respect for her, I decided to stop.

“Okay? So stop lying down now.”

“ugh… ”

At the somewhat coercive tone of voice, Yeon Myeong-ha unwraps the blanket she had rolled up around herself and only then lies down somewhat.

But she still can’t sleep. I felt eyes glancing in the direction where I was sitting several times a minute.

“You, you’re not sleeping… ?”

Then, he took a deep breath as if he had made a big decision and stuttered to ask a question.

“It’s better not to sit like that… Lying down on the floor… ”

“I don’t mind not sleeping for two days.”

Compassionate negotiations continue. I guess it feels very unreliable that he is the only one asleep and I am the only one awake.

However, when you sleep, the power goes beyond your will and extends in all directions, so you cannot project it limited to this space like you can now.

On my way back, I solved the problem by sleeping out on the street a little away from Yeon Yeon-ha, but I can’t do that now…

“Me too… For one night… ”

“After going through that, your eyesight continues to blur.”

“Ha… Haha… ”

Perhaps because she was embarrassed by the sudden criticism, Yeon-sik lifted up her blanket and instantly covered her entire face.

I didn’t say this to make you feel embarrassed. He seemed to be enjoying his sleep quite a bit, as if he was lost in a sweetness he hadn’t experienced in the past 10 years.

He went to bed early and I almost didn’t see him waking up before me in the morning.

“… Why, why are you doing this… It’s not helping me… But not the other way around… ”

As time passes, Yeon-sik peeks out from behind the blanket and asks a question.

There is absolutely no point in coming up here just to get a good night’s sleep. It looks like she has no intention of sleeping alone.

I thought about how to proceed for a while, but in the end, I think that resolving some of the doubts might be helpful in improving the relationship.

“Didn’t I tell you? It’s for the benefit of me and my sponsors.”

“If you are a sponsor… Black lotus?”

“Yes. So I just chose the method that I thought was best in the current situation.”

“… but. Heukryeondo and Paecheon are not like that at all. So me… Wait.”

Out of respect for her pride, she did not mention the principal’s request.

However, Yeon Myeong-ha, who seemed to understand at first glance, suddenly made an aggrieved expression and screamed.

“Well, if there are such circumstances… Like that from the beginning… !”

“To be honest, I don’t think you would have listened to my request. Isn’t that right?”

“Huh, huh… ”

Yeon Myeong-ha lowers her head with an expression of resentment and injustice. I thought it was all over, but he started asking questions again in a hesitant voice.

“… I think I have a pretty good relationship with Sa Jae-hyuk… ? So ‘passionately’… When you see the work being done… ”

Today, her curiosity never ends. In a strange way, it seems like certain words put a lot of power into them.

Should we see this as a good sign?

“… Because I owe my life to him and my sisters.”

“Well, I guess there was something going on… ?”

“Yes. If it weren’t for them, I probably wouldn’t be in this world by now. They are good people. They are not like that at all as rumored.”

“Well, I see… Now that I think about it, you are clearly a gangster… No, I think I lived in the outskirts… Your hometown… I felt that way earlier… ?”

It’s a question that clearly doesn’t seem malicious. But that pure curiosity makes me submerge myself in the water.

Just thinking about it makes me dizzy, and the things that were buried deep rise to the surface again, bubbling away.

It had everything I wanted there.

But now, they have become nothing more than memories of a day that has been shattered like grains of sand picked up by hand and will never come again.

“… I did more. In fact, it’s not even something to compare in the first place.”

“Yeah, right… ? It must have been hard for you too… To live in a place like that… ”

Still no sense of malice. In your opinion, precious lady, that may be a natural thought.

but…

“… It was the happiest time in my life.”

In a voice filled with remorse, Yeon Myeong-ha looks at me with slightly surprised eyes.

As if it had never happened before, there was deep silence in the room again.

I didn’t really want this kind of atmosphere.

“That story is over now. But if I ask you one thing?”

“Well, what is it… ?”

I decided to just turn the story around.

“If this request is successful, how much will it help your position?”

“… It doesn’t really work. Transport requests basically have a lot of extra points, and the agricultural district is one of the long-term tasks selected by the Supreme Council, so it has its own symbolism… ”

“Then… Is it possible to catch up with senior Seoyeon Baek?”

“That’s… It’s impossible.”

Suddenly, Yeon Myeong-ha looks slightly sullen, as if pouting.

“That bitch… He even received the Silver Star Military Merit Medal for his performance in subjugation last year… There must have been a huge amount of extra points. Unless you’re receiving the Gold Star Medal, it’s a bit difficult to catch up in one go… ”

“Is that so?”

“… huh. Although transport escort is an important mission, it is nowhere near that level. And I can’t even go out of the cradle because of mental contamination… Actually, this is my first time receiving an external request… ”

After all that, you seem quite skilled. If I hadn’t told you, I probably wouldn’t have known at all.

Looking at this aspect, it seems clear that mental contamination was acting as a strong shackle on her.

“… You will be able to finish well.”

“Uh, uh… ?”

“Go to sleep now. If your seat is uncomfortable, I will move towards the window. I’ll leave around dawn, so don’t worry.”

“Uh, yes… ”

Soon, Yeon-sik’s eyes, which had been blurry, completely close. Then, only the sound of someone exhaling deeply and slowly fills the dark room.

What I said to Yeon Myeong-ha is also my hope.

The fact that it is so peaceful, to the point of being awkward, actually feels like an obstacle to my heart.

I hope that this uneasy peace will last at least until we leave the South.