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Episode.61 The first kiss is always in my heart

After our first meeting with Jena, time passed and we became close enough to go home from school together.

How much time has passed, until the end of fall?

Yena and I tried not to make it obvious that we liked each other.

Like a fool.

Why did you do that?

Maybe I knew better at the time.

I already like Yena.

She probably already knew at that time.

That she herself likes me, Han Si-woo.

You probably already realized it.

That the feeling you feel at that moment will not end with just playing with fire.

Crush.

It can only go on if you really confess.

However, I have never been in a relationship for 17 years, and I have no interest in dating, so I have never seen any romantic works.

It means there is no knowledge at all.

When I think about it now, I really don’t know how I confessed to her or what I had in mind at that time.

But one thing is certain…

I am….

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I don’t know what Jena thinks of me.

But the atmosphere of this place speaks for itself.

Autumn with a red sunset.

We were spending time together sitting on a bench in the park.

Even at this moment, sitting on the bench, my tongue is tingling.

Why does my tongue feel numb?

After school, we went to a snack bar to eat spicy food, which Yena likes, and ate spicy tteokbokki.

I ate tteokbokki that was so spicy that it brought tears to my eyes and I drank a lot of water.

Maybe that’s why my tongue still tingles.

Anyway, that’s what Jena said then.

– ‘Ahaha! You really can’t eat spicy food. Sorry, did I order something too spicy?’

– ‘Next time, let’s go eat something you like. For reference, what do you like?’

At this time, I almost said ‘you’ without thinking, but I held back and chose what I thought was the most correct option and answered.

– ‘Hey… I didn’t see it that way, but you liked sweets?’

Well, after chatting like this, we left the snack bar and enjoyed other entertainment such as claw machines.

Then, the time reached such a point that it became sunset.

We sat on a park bench and watched the sunset, perhaps sensing that the moment for separation was approaching.

We can meet again at school tomorrow.

But I was sad that this moment was ending.

Under the maple tree where you can feel the beauty of nature.

As the sun went down, the sunset filled the sky.

A calm breeze is brushing my cheek, reminding me of the moment I first met her.

Before we knew it, we were holding hands.

“Oh…”

“Oh…”

Realizing that we had been unconsciously holding our hands together, we immediately took our hands back.

Red maple leaves fall on a mid-autumn evening, and Yena’s face turned red like the red maple leaves.

When friends around me talked about relationships, there was always one friend who talked about their own experiences.

The friend who was talking about his own experience said that there is always a romantic atmosphere before two people connect.

It seemed like it was.

I didn’t believe it.

What is a romantic atmosphere?

Does such a thing exist?

I thought so.

Until you experience it yourself.

Even in this moment of silence, we forgot about the approaching moment of separation and just sat on the bench in silence, looking at each other on the floor.

An unknown feeling ate away at my heart.

“”Over there!””

Yena and I spoke at the same time.

We looked at each other and smiled awkwardly.

“… Siwoo, you say it first.”

Yena turned her head and covered her mouth with her gently cupped left hand, hiding her embarrassed expression.

“Then, without hesitation…”

I took courage.

I carefully took a breath and walked towards her sitting at the end of the bench.

“You know… actually… that.”

“Yes, I’m listening…”

Yena strangely seemed to be waiting for the next answer.

“Hehe… From the moment I first saw you… I thought of you as more special than others.”

Yena was seen swallowing her saliva.

Seeing Jena, who seemed more nervous than me, gave me a little more courage.

“Your smile, your eyes, everything about you made my heart flutter. So…”

“So?”

I couldn’t get the last word out.

Even though I wanted to bring it up, I didn’t have the courage to continue with my last words.

But you have to do it.

At least for her, who opened my eyes to the field of ‘love’, a field that I had never found interesting in my 17 years of life.

It must be done.

So I’m not giving up here.

Isn’t it a waste of what I said before to come this far and give up?

“I really like you. As a member of the opposite sex.”

Yena’s eyes widened.

Her eyes were sparkling and full of surprise and joy. She was already expecting me to confess, but when she actually heard it in person, she seemed to feel strange.

Yena soon responded to my confession with a satisfied expression.

“I thought so too. Every moment with you is special… Maybe I like you more than you do. Thank you for confessing to me first… It’s my first time in a relationship, so I might be very frustrated…”

Yena says this is her first time in a relationship.

“There is no need to worry, the happiness you give me is too great to be expressed in words. And… it’s my first time dating too. So… let’s work together and move forward.”

I nod my head lightly.

Our hands naturally went towards each other’s hands.

And catch up.

‘I succeeded in confessing… but what should I do now?’

I didn’t think about it at all after this.

To be honest, I didn’t think I would get dumped, but after successfully confessing… I have no idea what to do.

I thought the easiest option was to just go back to our respective homes and meet again at school the next day.

“… Okay…”

Yena suddenly appeared as if she was pledging something in a low voice.

Then he came closer to me and held my hand even tighter.

“Close your eyes…?”

I closed my eyes as Yena said.

That’s when I felt like it hit me.

I reflexively opened my eyes to the sensation of my lips, and what I saw was…

It looked like Yena was kissing me with her eyes closed.

Yena suddenly kissed me.

As soon as I saw that, I closed my eyes again.

I couldn’t believe the moment our lips met had arrived.

The first kiss was a soft and sweet moment.

Yena and I’s feelings deepened through kissing.

Her awkward touch and first kiss felt like an invitation to a world where my heart pounded.

With that feeling, we held each other’s hands even stronger.

My heart beats even more violently, as if I had discovered a treasure.

The emotions at that moment were fear and anticipation for our future.

And the intersection of anxiety and happiness makes it even more special.

We continued to share our affection for each other with our lips.

People say first kisses taste like lemons.

… That’s a lie.

The taste of my first kiss was like sweet tteokbokki.

I shared my feelings with her through long, deep kisses and began to move toward a deeper relationship.

This moment will remain in my memory as a beautiful moment where we only show our honest feelings to each other and confess our love for each other through action.

I felt like this first kiss would always be stored in my heart forever.

As if signaling the end of a first kiss, I felt a lack of oxygen.

Yena seemed to have reached her limit as well, as our lips parted and we began to carefully open our eyes.

As light penetrated my eyes, the sight I saw was a string of intertwined saliva that stretched like cheese between my mouth and hers.

“… They say it’s better to have your first kiss on the day you start dating.”

Yena said, blushing pink and avoiding eye contact.

I also felt my ears turning red.

“… Who says that?”

“I had a friend before I transferred here.”

I told a joke to break this awkward atmosphere.

“Oh… there was a friend? After transferring to another school, she stopped playing with other girls in our school and only talked to me, so I thought she had no friends.”

“There is. Of course you have friends, right? This is a kid named Yang Soobin. Well, you can say it, but I don’t know. And talking with you was more… enjoyable.”

“Yang Soobin? Well, what does that friend do?… Haha…”

As soon as I said this, I immediately knew I had made a mistake.

How dare you say something in front of someone who just became your girlfriend, as if you were interested in another woman.

It was a situation that would not be easy to overcome even if we changed our positions.

It was the negative effects of living alone for 17 years.

“Huh, huh… Are you curious about Soobin?”

“No, I said it wrong. Sorry.”

“You know what you did was wrong, right? Then… he deserves to be punished, right?”

“Please gently…”

But I was curious what kind of ‘punishment’ she would give me.

Because the Yena I have seen so far is far from ‘violence’.

Because it seemed like it would be difficult to kill even one bug.

I was even more curious about what kind of ‘punishment’ would be handed down to me.

“Then…”

– gulp.

I swallowed my saliva without realizing it.

Her actions may seem desirable at first glance.

– Sreuk.

“Hey, won’t you kiss me one more time?”

Her wide smile doubled the excitement I felt.