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This concern will probably continue to the point where everyone watching will feel frustrated.

“Actually, I’m the one who feels the most frustrated.”

There was no choice.

That’s what it meant for a man born as a man to pretend to be a woman.

Even after a clear decision has been made.

I am sure there will be moments of hesitation here and there.

“Ah. Right.”

I honestly don’t know how many times I’ve forgotten.

[Crossdressing Gallery]

This time, when the thought occurred to me, I wanted to check what I had written right away.

I don’t even remember what I wrote.

I barely managed to find it by searching for the article I wrote.

[236 recommendations]

[1,024 comments]

“Huh? What is it?”

I was momentarily scared and excited at the thought of my writing receiving so many recommendations and comments.

After all, there is nothing more enjoyable than other people’s reactions.

-Huh? This is cross-dressing? This is awesome!

-This is so awesome.

-If I could cross-dress like this, I would cross-dress every day.

“Right? That’s right. I’m not saying it’s weird.”

How happy I am.

Do you think I’m answering comments to myself without even knowing it?

Of course, it’s the recognition of other people.

It didn’t seem like a compliment, but I couldn’t help but feel this good.

but.

-Let’s make it a little less complicated.

-How much Photoshop did you do? Even if that weren’t the case, I think this is just a real photo of a woman and she’s dressed up as a woman.

-Or try authenticating it.

-Look at this. If you can’t authenticate it, then it’s probably just a fabrication.

-No. But. Honestly, even if it wasn’t a fabrication, it’s fucking shit. It’s not like a man is living next to me, breathing proudly as if he were a woman. Fuck. I’m vomiting. It’s so disgusting I think I’m going to pass out.

-If that kid was next to me, I would have just stamped him with OO.

As expected, I felt that I was hurt more by the words that indiscriminately ‘criticized’ me than I could have imagined.

“… … .”

[But there are more good things to say.]

[They say that people who curse indiscriminately curse even masterpieces recognized by a million people.]

I think there is probably no one among those who are being criticized who does not know that.

at the same time.

However, I thought that there were few people who were not hurt by criticism.

Wouldn’t even a robot without emotions feel sad when it receives such criticism?

“I shouldn’t have seen it.”

It felt good to see compliments.

But when I saw the criticism, I felt even worse.

Even more than the kind words, criticism kept lingering in my head.

That’s why seniors say that the people they remember the most in the military aren’t the ones who did a good job, but rather the ones who were shitty.

Well, I don’t know yet because I haven’t been in the military.

Now that I think about it, I guess it’s time to go get that physical exam I’ve been putting off.

‘Come to think of it. Getting a job wasn’t impossible in the first place, was it?’

Because I have to go to the military.

‘They say if you can withdraw the military, you should.’

That was now a thing of the past.

These days, even people who would have been exempted from military service or received public service in the past are being openly forced into active duty due to population shortages.

‘What would be the reaction if I went dressed as a woman?’

Yeah, that’s right.

I kind of think about that.

I was worried that I might be exempted from the duty because I was dressed as a woman.

“Phew.”

It was a really funny thought.

Isn’t that too positive?

If you look at it that way, anyone would expect to be exempted because of something like a physical defect.

“For now. For now… … .”

Whether I worry or not.

In fact, time continues to pass.

Choi Yoon-ha, who has been practicing acting while even reducing the frequency of having sex recently.

That’s not all.

She spent all day naked in front of her laptop, surfing the internet, researching auditions for roles that suited her and interested her.

no.

Not only that.

Like a newspaper.

I also focused on the news I heard here and there.

Becoming an actor was never easy.

Even though there are fewer cases of agencies using famous actors to recruit new recruits from their own agencies than there used to be.

Nevertheless, the fact that it is still a networking society remains unchanged.

Is it because the momentum of Korean works on public broadcasting has decreased so much recently?

It wasn’t picked as actively as I thought.

After all, among the countless works, only a few are selected as masterpieces of the year.

‘Even if it’s a big production, you can still film your next project smoothly even if you debut as an extra.’

I know that being an actor is a really cool and pretty job.

Actually, as my older sister said.

Among those who have the profession of acting, only the top few percent make a living doing just that.

The rest receive support from their families.

I was only able to make a living as an actor by doing other side jobs on my own.

“Wow! I decided. Oppa!”

“Huh? What kind of work?”

“ is a work. What should I say? To be honest, it’s ambiguous to say that it’s definitely a masterpiece. The director is ambiguous. The lineup of leading actors that have already been confirmed is also ambiguous. So I think the probability of it becoming a huge hit is a little higher than other works. More than anything, I liked this.”

I was wondering what kind of work it was.

It was the story of a boy named Samsik who started out in a remote village and came up to Seoul to become a successful actor.

Like a synopsis.

Audition overview, etc.

It is obvious that a lot of meticulous attention was paid to detail in many ways.

First of all, there was a lot of content that caught people’s eyes.

Among them, the person Choi Yoon-ha was after was Sam-sik’s childhood friend.

A little stupid. A little cocky.

However, he plays the role of a mean character who constantly interferes with and becomes an obstacle to the love between the protagonist and the heroine.

He wasn’t the type of character that people would say nice things about.

But I think that’s why it left a bigger impression.

Oh, there was a kid like this.

“Is it okay? It’s obvious that you put a lot of thought into choosing it.”

“Right? So, what I’m saying is. Oppa. Please help me with my profile and acting video before I go to the audition.”

“Yeah.”

“If I film a sex video and upload it, it’ll be a big problem, right?”

“This would be a big deal. I’m more worried that those people might have your sex tape in their possession.”

“Oh my! Why don’t you just debut as a porn star? It’s really possible if you’re with me.”

“Stop talking nonsense. Have you decided what kind of acting video you’re going to shoot?”

In response to my question, Choi Yoon-ha answered with a cold smile befitting an actress.

“That’s right. I’m thinking about filming a scene where a woman is raped. After all, it’s important to get an impression from a 30-second acting video.”

I forgot what I was going to say for a moment.

I wonder if that can really be called acting.

No.

Could it be that the reenactment of an incident is ultimately just an act?

[The email has been sent.]

[Unread]

“Kkwaaang! I’ve already applied for one audition. I’ll look for another one.”

“Okay. I’ll cheer you on. Let’s make sure you become a great actor.”

Time continued to pass.

Choi Yoon-ha, who had been a wreck for a year, just waiting for the day to die, is now a full-fledged actress, honing her charms and already going out to auditions.

[Kim Hye-rin: Hey. Get ready for next week. I think you’ll have to come out again for a bit. I’ll take care of the transportation and accommodation costs. And the bonus for your hard work.]

Filming for was also progressing smoothly.

There is less than a month left until the first episode airs. Before that, 10 episodes have been filmed.

The plan was to start filming the remaining six episodes as soon as the first episode aired.

‘Korean dramas are so fucking intense.’

In other countries, they usually film up to episode 16.

Even if that weren’t the case, it usually takes about 6 months from filming the first episode to airing it.

Should we really say that the Republic of Korea is a country of speed?

In the end, it came to this schedule.

It is said that Han Chae-yeon obtained another journalist license in that short period of time.

He is truly a talented person.

Na Yu-ran has now signed a professional contract and is training hard with her schoolmates from the Samcheon Yoohan Bank basketball team, which is considered the best among women’s basketball teams.

It’s not easy.

I pretend not to know, but it’s still the sports world.

Military discipline is strict.

Besides that, Park Moo-shin is said to have made a living as a broadcaster his entire life. But just in case, he is planning to return to school to get his diploma.

The army is leaving as late as possible.

That Korea might be unified.

‘You crazy kid.’

As the school festival approaches, the girl group band members are also said to be diligently preparing for the stage.

“… … .”

Thump. Thump-.

To be honest.

I was scared.

“… … .”

[Lucky Elementary School]

I came to an elementary school whose name I didn’t know again and started walking around alone.

Even though it’s past 8 p.m., if you’re just walking around the playground, all your distracting thoughts will probably disappear.

What was scary was scary.

The more people around me lived so honestly and diligently, the more scared I became.

“Ah… … I’m so bad. Fuck.”

Some people say that they deliberately keep ugly people around them.

I think I understand a little bit what that means.

Furthermore, it is somewhat understandable that you would feel stressed just by having someone who is too talented right next to you.

“Hoo.”

It’s that time of year when warmth begins to creep in.

The world is a place where time passes even if I just breathe.

The moon in the sky that I was looking at while walking around the elementary school was also moving little by little.

It felt like I was the only one… … standing still, unable to make a clear decision about what I should do.

[We’re in a study group, right?]

[I also have my own harem application.]

That’s right.

Harem application.

In some ways, it’s a much more reliable insurance than a study group.

I’ve already confirmed that the effort you get here is no joke.

And yet, why am I so uncomfortable?

[Isn’t it because you don’t have confidence in yourself?]

[Honestly, the people who are by the master’s side right now are all bright and smiling and can run with all their might because they know what they have to do right now.]

[It doesn’t mean that those people will live their entire lives without any worries.]

[just.]

Pia said.

[It’s just a time of worry for the owner.]

[When you have worries, you have to worry.]

[If you ignore it and run away because it’s so painful, you might just end up as a piece of trash.]

“I’m really glad you’re here.”

Should I call it pride to other people?

I’m too embarrassed to talk about this or give advice.

Pia knows all about me like this.

Because you said nice things to me too.

[Master.]

[I’m doing well.]

You’re doing well… … .

In some ways, people might be able to gain strength from just these words.

Actually, I heard that from Pia.

My heart suddenly started to swell with emotion.

“Okay. Let’s think about it a little more.”

Time passes.

And as time passes, my worries will eventually come to an end.

[LC Flower Town]

Now I started to think that it was time to break up with Choi Yoon-ha.

Because now she is someone who can move forward on her own without anything like my help.

I think it would be enough to just meet up and help each other out occasionally.

… … I thought so.

“Brother. Are you here?”

As I opened the door to Choi Yoon-ha’s room, I stopped in my tracks.

Because there were several empty soju bottles rolling around on the floor of her room.

“Auditions… …I failed them all. Sooo.”

The world.

As expected, it wasn’t as easy as we thought.