episode_0057

“… Why aren’t you coming?”

The entrance gate of the third outer castle.

Marien was shrugging her shoulders, crossing her arms, and stamping her feet in the chilly night.

The young lady who said she would come by alone to take care of business was in mourning as it was news that she had not been able to see anything.

What on earth is it taking so long?

I was anxious because I felt like my plodding steps would stop at any moment, but since the girl refused to accompany me, I had no choice but to wait.

After meeting Sir Gelwood, his condition seemed unusual.

One of his cheeks was flushed, and his eyes were lost and lost.

Despite repeatedly urging her to take a break, the young lady stepped forward, saying she had work to do herself.

“The days are getting colder… … .”

And eventually.

Fighting.

As the drizzle suddenly started to fall, Marien hurriedly took out an umbrella.

Although it was made of cloth attached to a wooden frame, it was enough to block drizzle.

“Lady-!! Where are you-!!”

Just like that, Marien was running around the vast castle in all directions, looking for her young lady.

**

“Ugh… Hmm… … .”

Lemian, who didn’t even know why he was crying in the middle of the street, cried for a long time.

In the drizzling rain, tears poured out.

While holding the ointment Elden gave me.

Something that may be rainwater or tears falls onto the ointment container.

Something that may be rain or tears falls on my head.

He scolded.

It was sad that he only offered help now that everything was over, and that the help seemed like a condolence to himself who had become a monster while trying to catch a monster.

and.

It was painful to think that his change might have been real thanks to this help.

I was tormented by the regret that the ending would have been different if I had acknowledged the changes in him that I had denied and ignored until now.

If we had focused on three worms instead of focusing on one loach, we wouldn’t have had to go through this catastrophe.

He would have been liberated from hell through the battle of marriage that was held secretly and quietly.

I wouldn’t have had to feel the helplessness and extreme helplessness that everything had become meaningless.

I felt like I now knew how foolish and foolish it was to believe that human nature never changes.

The meaning of tears may also reflect them.

Madness, regret, despair, and self-destruction caused by foolish obsession.

I felt like I was finally realizing that I was a real idiot, thinking that they were foolish and building up my trampled self-esteem in a distorted way.

Lemian cried for a long time and wiped his tears.

Before I knew it, my whole body was wet.

Head too.

Clothes too.

Face too.

witnessing.

Hands too.

and.

Mind too.

Click.

I opened the lid of the container containing the ointment.

It was a pure white semi-solid ointment.

It was a white color that contrasted so well with my mind, which was engulfed in pitch-black darkness.

It was as dazzlingly white as the snowy fields of the Northern Territory.

The white color was too much for my dirty self.

I took off the bandage on my left hand.

I looked down at the scars left on my palms from that day.

Four fingernail marks that had not healed were clearly visible.

I scooped up the ointment with my index finger.

Absentmindedly, I applied ointment to the wound.

I felt a tingling sensation once.

It was throbbing.

I liked that pain.

Because I am a human being who feels pain and suffering.

The pain felt for healing actually informed the sinner of what he should do.

Smirk.

He smiled and stretched his left hand forward.

It was turned at an angle to give it an incline.

The rain falling on it begins to wash away the ointment.

Is there any healing for sinners?

This false start brought great pain to Gelwood, and soon my father would also feel the bitter pain of his youngest daughter’s ugliness.

Furthermore, if things continued like this, the efforts of the winner of the Marriage Battle and those who were preparing a grand parade for themselves would be in vain, and it would also cause great disappointment and hurt to the northerners who were eagerly waiting for the parade.

Children will cry, and adults will be sad.

The memories of laughing and talking about the wedding battle will be ruined, and you will no longer look forward to the next wedding battle.

In this way, he becomes a sinner who commits a greater crime than Deron and his group.

To that end, letters were sent directly to Duke Kelid and Marquess Rosfell.

Isn’t healing your own wounds the same as trying to avoid sin?

If you have committed a crime, pay the penalty.

After saying that to Deron and the others, he said he would avoid being punished for his crimes.

It was no different from repeating the foolish past.

The four fingernail marks will remain as clear imprints, reminding and proving that you are no different from them for the rest of your life.

Eat.

‘okay. me too… No different from them… ‘Because it’s trash.’

Lemien laughed again and saw the ointment gradually washing away.

I hoped it would wash away cleanly.

With my own ugly wish that I dared to dream of healing.

How dare you be different from them, with your foolish beliefs.

It was then.

The rain that was washing away the ointment suddenly stopped.

“… … .”

I raised my head.

I saw Elden holding an umbrella.

He came face to face with Elden, who had blocked the rainwater that was washing away the ointment.

He was looking down at himself and smiling.

What does it mean?

Why did the rain stop?

Why did I leave my scars as a mark and block my resolve to regret my life?

Why did they block my decision not to wash away the sin that cannot be washed away?

When you need it, you don’t pay attention to it, but when you don’t need it, it suddenly appears and shows you off.

why.

why.

Am I constantly making myself miserable?

The academy trampled on the hands that hoped for help and made them miserable, and now they are making them miserable by blocking themselves from throwing away the help that was in those hands.

There is no need to be miserable anymore.

Are you saying not to wash off the ointment?

Are you saying let the wound heal completely?

Are you telling me not to blame myself when I see my scars?

Are you telling me not to throw away the help I just received?

But I am a sinner who brought disappointment and hurt to my family and the people of the North.

I am a sinner who does not deserve to be a member of the Grand Duke of Winterfell.

How can I heal my wounds like that?

How can I stand up after breaking down the fate of all people called the Battle of Marriage?

If I think about it, it was all my fault.

It was a mistake to go to the academy despite the risk of being cursed, despite the family’s dissuasion, it was a mistake to persevere despite being harshly abused, it was a mistake to obtain a diploma in the end, and the sacred traditions of the family and the great festival of the Northern Territory were a mistake. It was wrong to decide to use the marriage battle even though I knew it was wrong, it was wrong to block your abstention, and it was wrong to slap you in the face at the end.

And now I will be making a big mistake to my father and all people.

I can’t hide it any longer, and I have no intention of hiding it.

I, who pretended to be noble and made a fuss, am a piece of trash no different from Deron, Blund, and Kyle.

no.

Maybe even dirtier than they are.

There is only one thing I want to say to you.

I smiled brightly along with him who was smiling silently.

Tears welled up again in my eyes, which I thought were dry.

He lifted his hand towards his scratched right cheek and spoke softly.

Just a few days ago, these were words I never dreamed I would say out of my own mouth.

“… Sorry. Eldon.”

His smile flutters.

His face blurs.

soon.

“Ah, lady-! Come to your senses-!!”

It was Lemien who lost his mind with a bright smile.

**

Elperion Kingdom.

It was a kingdom that ruled the northwestern part of the Tmirias continent and was the most influential among the five kingdoms ruling on the continent.

It is the next most influential kingdom after the Ateria Empire, which rules the heart of the continent.

In the southern part of the kingdom, a vast granary spread out, providing endless food, in the western part, adjacent to the sea with abundant water resources, in the eastern part, where useful minerals can be found without digging, and in the barren area thanks to the export of thermal insulation products developed with excellent technology and ice with excellent retention power. to the prosperous North.

In addition, King Elperion, who possessed excellent academics and the strongest military power in the capital city, ruled the country with a benevolent personality, making it a good place to live.

of course.

Just because supplies were plentiful and life was good did not guarantee peace.

Externally, it was a peaceful kingdom, but just as human greed was endless, the secret struggle of the aristocratic society was at its peak.

It is a habit of intelligent beings with a long history for the rich to exploit those who have less to get what they want, and the clandestine group that has been around since ancient times has become more cunning and wicked as time goes by, spreading its roots wherever people live. .

and Northern Territory of Winterfell.

At one of the secret troupes located there.

A request for a large amount of money that cannot be refused comes in from an anonymous client.

[Lemian Winterfell]

It was a request for eternal darkness for the name that has now seen the light of day.

It was another desire for revenge born of a desire for revenge.