episode_0057

Sae-ah, the older sister, leaves the room after stealing my first kiss in this life.

I could only stand there in a daze for a while.

It was a moment when my lips, which I had worked hard to protect for 10 years, were stolen, but I didn’t feel angry or offended.

It’s ambiguous to express it well, but what on earth is this feeling?

Is this a good feeling? Or is this an exciting feeling?

It was a strange feeling of my heart beating for the first time in my life.

I don’t know how you feel, but I guess I’ll find out when I meet Sae-ah again later.

I quickly came to my senses and lay back down on the bed, clasping my hands together and praying.

Now that your lips have been stolen, I hope you come back even prettier…

And so the 10-second prayer ends.

After lying down and tossing and turning for a while, I was finally able to fall asleep.

***

Eyes that sparkled open today.

After thinking back carefully on yesterday’s memories, I’m sure the kiss wasn’t a dream.

She caressed her lips once, got up from her seat, and started getting ready for school.

As usual, I eat, wash, get dressed, pack my bag, and leave the room.

After finishing my preparations and sitting on the sofa, I said goodbye to my pretty daughter Ye-eun and her mother who were waiting for me, and left the house.

As I was taking the elevator down to the first floor, I heard my aunt next door shouting as usual.

The only thing that wasn’t the same as usual was the first floor.

When I came down, there was an empty seat for Sae-ah, who always stood in the same spot.

As I stood quietly and looked at the empty spot, unlike usual, I suddenly remembered what my older sister Sae-ah had said before.

Wasn’t it important to naturally blend in with daily life? If it doesn’t exist, it’s over if you just make it feel empty?

I found myself laughing without realizing it.

“Brother? Why are you laughing? Aren’t you going?”

“Ah! Ye-eun, I have to go.”

At this point, I think Sae-ah Noona has succeeded.

Seeing that the place where Sae-ah noona used to stand feels empty, I guess Sae-ah noona must have been successful enough.

“Brother.”

“Huh?”

“Do you miss your sister?”

“No? Why?”

“I just asked if you wanted to see it?”

“No. It’s just there and then it’s gone, so it’s empty?”

“I see.

”

Ye-eun suddenly laughs as if she finds it funny.

“Huh? Why are you laughing?”

“No. My sister asked me to do it yesterday.”

“What?”

“When I went to school. I asked if she missed me and when I heard her answer, she told me not to forget and to tell her later.”

“Can’t you just forget about it, Ye-eun?”

“If you forget, there’s nothing you can do!”

Realizing the presence of a spy next to me, I quietly headed to school.

I entered the classroom, greeted my friends, and sat down. After a while, the teacher came in.

After greetings and calling attendance as usual and morning assembly, first period began shortly thereafter.

If I had sat down and meditated as I usually do, the first period of class would have ended naturally and break time would have come naturally.

Because of the thoughts that kept coming to me, I couldn’t concentrate on my meditation and time passed very slowly.

The first period was ethics class. The teacher was diligently explaining the concept of kinship in front of us.

Unlike usual, I happened to see my partner’s answers while he was working on the printout the teacher had given him.

“Pfft!”

“Why are you laughing?”

“Is your uncle your dad’s friend?”

“Yeah, you call your dad’s friend your uncle?”

“I see. Your aunt is your mom’s friend?”

“Yeah.”

A partner who doesn’t seem to be trying to make you laugh, but is genuine.

I guess it’s fortunate that my aunt got it right.

This wasn’t something that could be said to be a mistake in home education.

I also call Minjun’s mother ‘aunt next door’.

Without bothering to tell the uncles and aunts that their partners were calling them that they were wrong.

So the first period ethics class ended.

Could it be because of my classmate at school who made me laugh for the first time in a long time?

Luckily, Sae-ah was able to forget about it for a while and spend the rest of the class meditating.

After lunch, school was over and I was heading to the school gate with my bag on my head. Ye-eun was already there waiting for me.

Is it a habit or is it emptiness that I am looking for one more person without realizing it?

Or maybe he just wants to see his older sister.

Ignoring the thoughts that were coming back to me, I headed home with Ye-eun.

“”I’m back.””

“Are your son and daughter here?”

I greeted my mom, who greeted me warmly today, and went into my room and turned on the computer as usual.

I checked the stock market today and then shut down my computer because I couldn’t remember the details.

Then I lay down on the bed, massaged my growth plate, and took a nap as usual.

“Adul!!”

“Let’s eat~!!”

Today, I woke up to my dad’s call, which sounded unusually appropriate, and headed to the kitchen.

A clean table welcomed me.

“What about food?”

“No?”

“But why did you wake me up?”

“Do you want to talk to your son?”

Today I didn’t have the energy to say anything, so I didn’t argue and just sat quietly on the sofa.

“How is it?”

“What?”

“The new baby that we used to hang out with every day is gone~”

“Isn’t it just empty?”

“Do you want to see it?”

My dad looks at me with a sinister expression.

“I don’t know about that, I just feel empty.”

“That’s why I said I did well when I had the chance~”

“What did I fail to do?”

“You know how to keep your distance from others all the time, right?”

“…..”

“So Sae-ah also tries this and that on purpose and fails?’

“…..”

“So you didn’t even say hello properly at the end?”

“…..”

Dad, who is getting to the point today.

“So what are you trying to say?”

“Are you just giving your son medicine?”

“…..”

“It’s a long-awaited opportunity.”

“…..”

“You can’t miss it.”

“…..”

I felt like I was going to curse without realizing it if I stayed any longer, so I got up from the sofa and headed to my room.

“Son~ Where are you~”

“Let’s play with dad~”

I lightly ignored my father’s voice coming from behind me.

As I lay back down in bed, my father’s words came to mind.

I couldn’t answer because everything my father said was true.

Outside of my family, I set a line and kept a certain distance from everyone, whether they were my friends or my new sister.

To begin with, I didn’t trust most people that much, and beyond a certain point, I didn’t feel the need to get any closer.

Of course, Sae-ah Noona was much closer to me than the others.

Still, next time I see Sister Sae-ah, I’ll have to try to be better.

At least, I think we can be closer to the little sister who stole my lips, even though she is still young.

Excluding my family, the only people I’m close with and have grown fond of are my older sisters Geumjeong, Aram, and Saeah.

Come to think of it, they are all older women.

Of course it’s a coincidence, but wouldn’t it be better to be a woman than a man?

What’s good is good.

“Hey, let’s eat for real~”

The second time my dad called, it was real food, so I got out of bed and headed to the kitchen.

But the second time I called my dad, he ended up betraying me.

Once again a clean table welcomed me.

“What?”

“I do that because I want to play with my son~”

-puck

“Aaah!”

Today, for the first time in my life, I committed violence against my father.

At that moment, without realizing it, my foot moved out and I kicked a low kick.

“Sorry Dad, I stepped out without realizing it.”

“Okay.. It’s okay, son.”

Dad sitting on the floor rubbing his thighs as if he was in pain.

I felt sorry for the violence I had committed without knowing it, so I sat on the floor and rubbed my father’s thigh.

“That’s why. Why do you keep giving people medicine?”

“That’s fun, son!”

“What’s wrong with you? Are you hurt?”

Mom, who was coming out of the bedroom, was surprised to see Dad and came over to him.

“I lied to Jaehoon and got caught.”

-match

“Oh my, it hurts, honey.”

Dad gets hit on the back by Mom.

“So, Sae-ah must be upset about going abroad to study, so why do you keep picking on her?”

“When else will you get a chance like this? This is your chance, honey!”

“Sigh.”

Even though I broke my promise to my mom, she didn’t scold me and instead went into the kitchen and started preparing food.

As I was rubbing my father’s thighs, we all sat down at the table and started eating dinner.

“Son.”

“Why”

“Time is the medicine.”

“…..”

“If you believe and wait, a few years will pass quickly and you will come back soon?”

“…..”

“Isn’t it? Couldn’t it be?”

“…..”

“If you don’t know, maybe you’ll come back?”

I wonder if he’s trying to comfort me because I seem to be feeling less well than usual.

Or I can’t tell if he’s really trying to get me to do this.

I just ate quietly, ignoring my dad.

After finishing my meal, I got up and watched the news with my family as usual.

After some time had passed, I went into my room and fell asleep.

The next day after that visit.

The days without Sae-ah continued as usual, no different from the days when she was there.

But especially in the morning, I felt the emptiness of my older sister Sae-ah.

As several months passed normally, and time passed, Sae-ah’s emptiness was naturally forgotten.

Even now, when I go down to the first floor, I suddenly think of my older sister Sae-ah, but I think I’ve realized once again that humans are creatures that can adapt.

And so, each and every day continued to be the same.

Sometimes, as Ye-eun’s pretty appearance began to shine, flies would come and ask for permission to date, but I would fight them off.

Also, sometimes I work out at the gym with my older sisters, Geumjeong and Aram.

Sometimes my relatives come to visit, and sometimes I go see them in person.

Naturally, time continued to flow.

The hot summer is over.

The cool autumn has come.

The cold winter has passed.

Warm spring has arrived.

Many seasons passed like that.

10 years old, 3rd grade elementary school student.

I was 13 years old and in the 6th grade of elementary school.

Now it’s time to pay for breast milk.