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by adminEpisode 56 – Defection from North Korea 6 –
The angel’s face hardened after hearing my words.
And her expression hardened from embarrassment to anger.
From anger to doubt.
And doubt was slowly replaced by fear.
Embarrassed to understand the true meaning of what I said.
Anger that means being ridiculed.
Just a question.
Lastly, the fear that it might be real.
Maybe it’s because I haven’t had a conversation with another living being in tens of thousands of years.
He didn’t even try to hide his expression.
[Don’t say nonsense. The Heavenly God imprisoned Yeo here when she escaped the shackles of Yeo.
In other words, it cannot be explained by anything other than something that was thrown away. How can that be possible?]
“You finally admitted it. The Heavenly God abandoned you.”
[Are you mocking her? Are you intentionally slandering me just to get that kind of recognition?]
“It’s not really a slander. Because in the end, nothing changes. I’ll keep it simple. The Heavenly God has never abandoned you. You escaped from heaven yourself.”
This is not wrong.
Because the heavenly gods have never abandoned the angels.
It was just she who got out of that position on her own.
“I know very well why you thought the Heavenly God had abandoned you. If I didn’t, I wouldn’t have been able to bear it.”
[Don’t say nonsense. How can I think like that!]
“If the unconscious mind could control it, it wouldn’t be called unconscious. And even if you can control it, you cannot say that you can control the unconscious.
Because it is not unconscious from the moment it is controlled.”
[What do you want to say?]
“Even if the one given to you is a heavenly god, the one who escaped is you. So you want to say that you are excellent because you succeeded in escaping?”
[I accomplished what no one else could do. This is an indescribably great achievement, so all I can say is that it is amazing.]
“It’s sophistry. Are you saying it’s amazing that no one else has been able to do it? Someone may have been the first to practice homosexuality, but is that amazing because he did something that no one else has been able to do?
Is this a great person who overcame his nature of being sexually attracted to the opposite sex?”
[You are trying to put things on the same line that cannot be placed on the same line! Don’t spread ridiculous sophistry!]
The angel begins to struggle.
But you have to push.
An angel who has been alone for tens of thousands of years.
And the thoughts that have solidified over that long period of time.
We have to break through that.
In my own way.
“If you think about it, there are a lot of problems. Because there are many things that cannot be explained in the memories you showed me.”
I know the whole truth because I saw WFS.
And there are things that cannot be explained by what the angel showed.
“Why didn’t you ask me to have the bridle made again? Why didn’t you go under the Heavenly God again?”
[Heavenly God-]
“I hope you don’t make the obvious excuse that you are that kind of person. Because I know very well that he is not that kind of god. You’re not going to insist, are you? I came here on my own?”
I know Heavenly God.
This is because I saw it through WFS.
Now that I think about it, I wonder if that game was something created by God.
Or maybe there was something there that made the production team create this place, I don’t know.
I saw a heavenly god.
I know full well that the being won’t do that.
“You thought this in your heart. I don’t want to just follow the will of the Heavenly God again.
That’s why I didn’t want to admit that I was giving up that and going under the wing of the Heavenly God.”
Angels live long.
The reason why people tend to be wiser when they live longer is because they have more experience and knowledge.
That is, if you haven’t accumulated a lot of experience.
You may lose out in wisdom to a child who has lived for 10 years.
“You probably didn’t know. of course. Who taught it? There would not have been an object from which one could learn for the past 100,000 years.”
I thought it was abandoned.
But it wasn’t abandoned, it was left.
But I rationalized that it was abandoned.
Because I didn’t know.
“Even if you entrust your thoughts, the memory does not disappear. Your experience as an angel was driven by anxiety about new things.”
The angel was uneasy about new things.
But I expected that much.
However, I could not understand the feeling of excitement while tied to the bridle.
Heavenly God is the creator of this world.
Because it was not a being that could feel excitement.
Therefore, the angel felt fear rather than excitement.
Ignoring my own feelings, I rationalized them to reduce my fears.
The Heavenly God abandoned him.
To transform fear into hate.
And I felt superior.
Because to justify hatred, you had to be special and miserable.
In order to show off in such a miserable situation, it was right to become a great man who resisted injustice.
Of course, it’s a long way off for me.
Anyway, I am not a wise man who realized something, I am just reciting the story from the WFS report.
[stop… Do it.]
“Why? I think it’s because I’ve been living alone for a long time. If you are not an angel, you are nothing. There is no status or racial characteristics whatsoever.
The reason humans feared angels was because they were messengers of God. Why should I respect you if you are not a messenger of God?”
[stop… He told me to do it.]
“So, please give a justifiable reason. If the claim is strange, attack the claim. If there is a reason why I should stop, please tell me why.
At least try to use the excuse that it’s because you feel bad. It’s petty, but that’s a reason.”
[I’ll stop it… Wouldn’t you… ?]
“Ah. For your information, don’t be too upset. It is common for humans to mistake the authority of their position for their own authority.
After retiring from a high-ranking position, I realized this.”
[stop… Please do it… ]
“Would you like to say a final word? Even if one were to say that he was special among angels, it would be an achievement similar to that of the first human being to live by eating blowfish. No one did it because it was not necessary, but it is not easy to do. It’s like that.
So, isn’t this what happened? If you are truly amazing right now. This prison is… ”
[Didn’t I tell you to stop!!!!]
Even if you are an angel, there are limits.
No matter how good you are, your patience may eventually run out.
The reason angels are so patient.
This is because the patience of the Heavenly God operates due to the nature of the bridle.
From the Heavenly God’s point of view, no matter what he does, it will be meaningless.
If you want, you will always return to a handful of ashes.
An angel pulls a sword out of the air.
The distortion of the slightly translucent space takes the shape of a sword.
It was translucent, but for some reason there was a shadow.
The shadow on the edge made the edge of the sword clear.
It can be said that it is by no means an ordinary sword.
It’s a familiar sword.
Heavenly Sword, Heavenly Sword.
The reason I came here.
The angel eventually pulled out the sword,
Aimed at me.
[I have forgiven your rudeness out of consideration for you, but you must also understand that there must be limits.
Did you think that just because your level was high you could beat her?]
I didn’t give much of an answer to that.
Because there was no need to do it.
This was the first time our opinions crossed since entering this dimension.
We both knew what we wanted.
[come. Salvation lies in a strong horse.]
Huge wings sprout from behind her.
There were 12 wings in total, 6 on each side.
She spread out six pairs of wings and held a heavenly sword in her right hand.
In his left hand is the shield given to all angels.
Above her head is a halo that proves she is an angel.
The energy coming out was divine power, the energy of God.
She goes through a series of processes.
Ready to rush at me.
And before long.
Her sword rushed towards me.
can not avoid.
In any case, he is an angel who was given the sword of heaven.
Even if the majority died in the battle against the evil spirits.
He is one of the most powerful angels at the moment.
Although it is impossible to interfere with the present world without the help of the heavenly gods.
This is a world of imagination.
You can fully show off your strength.
But even if I don’t care much for my life.
I don’t prefer to leave without leaving anything behind.
It means that there is always a way for me.
“Is it really possible?”
The angel paid no heed to my questions.
He didn’t hesitate to approach me.
There was no hesitation to be found in her eyes.
but.
Hesitation is something that doesn’t exist in the first place and then arises.
If there is something to hesitate about, you start to hesitate without any reason.
That is an intelligent body.
I have that kind of mindset.
The angel expressed his sincerity.
“It would be contradictory to the reason you didn’t go back, right?”
With that said.
The heavenly sword held by the angel stopped.
The angel also looked like he didn’t know why he stopped.
The angel was momentarily embarrassed by his own appearance.
He tried to continue his actions of cutting me.
Then I continued speaking.
To stimulate sincerity once again.
“That’s not what you want. Becoming an angel again or returning to a heavenly god. That’s not what you really wanted.”
[what… Do you mean… ]
“You don’t know yourself. It’s not strange. How many people know exactly about themselves?”
Angels don’t know themselves.
Although he lived a long time, he simply acted according to the will of the heavenly gods without ego.
After escaping from the heavenly gods, he stayed on this earth for a long time.
“You are an intelligent being with emotions and desires. Therefore, there must be a reason for action. But it’s strange, right? Why didn’t you even think about going back?”
Even though there was a possibility that the angel could return.
Didn’t try.
Even though I got out of the loop.
“If you are an angel, it is because God does not want you, but you have already escaped from the Heavenly God at that time.
Because you’re arrogant? Were you arrogant when the power of the Heavenly Sword was recovered? Nope. You have something else to wish for.”
because…
“Because you just admired the intelligent beings on earth.”
Although angels lived without freedom. He knew freedom better than anyone else.
It is not something that moves according to the will of the Heavenly God.
Because I have seen countless people trying to find their own way.
No one else knows.
Even herself.
But I know as much as I did, having seen Heavenly God and WFS.
What feelings did she have?
“A long time ago. You couldn’t contain your joy after receiving the Heavenly Sword. You were innocent until then. You admit that, right?”
[…] ]
“It’s strange. The reason you were given the Heavenly Sword was not because you were special, but because all the angels better than you had died.
I know that better than anyone else. I wasn’t even arrogant right before I was trapped here. Has it changed that much? Isn’t it obvious why that happened?”
[what… Do you mean… ]
“You could have gone back. I didn’t go back. I wasn’t arrogant either. Then there is one reason.
You didn’t want to go, and it was hard to find a reason, so you made the decision out of arrogance. I don’t want to become an angel again because I’m special! I thought about this for this reason.”
[Are you saying that things change just with my thoughts?… ]
“Is there any reason not to change? The reason why the source of living things changes is because of the will of those living things, right?”
[Even so, there are things that don’t make sense. How… Are you saying that I yearn for an intelligent being? ]
She asked me the truth.
The tower of false rationalizations she had built herself over tens of thousands of years.
It was destroyed by me in just a few minutes.
No matter how many lies there were, they were nothing in front of the truth.
She probably knew it subconsciously too.
The problem was that I had too little experience to bring the unconscious to the conscious level.
“The ego remains, but because emotions and feelings are shared… You can’t notice it when it’s in sync. But after you get out of it, there are parts you don’t understand.
Why did you make this choice? Why did I think this? These thoughts may have just started to come to mind.”
[The Heavenly God… Because you don’t share all your memories… ]
“Questions lead to curiosity, and curiosity leads to action. And what I saw through my actions was probably more terrible than I thought.”
[My life has been denied. Humans betrayed the heavenly gods without any hesitation.]
“So I would have instinctively hated it. But you couldn’t truly hate it.”
[why… ?]
“Because you eventually escaped along with them. Unlike now, at that time my personality had not become distorted, especially so.”
[I guess so… ]
“Empathy leads to a sense of homogeneity. A sense of homogeneity creates a sense of familiarity. If intimacy is established but cannot be achieved… That feeling appears as longing.”
[Are you saying you wanted me to become human?]
“Freedom, not human. They also wanted freedom of thought. After all, angels do not have freedom of thought. No matter how moderate it is, it limits even thinking.”
[Why did I do that… For so long… ]
“It’s normal. People who understand without being taught are special. If that happens, it’s really okay to be arrogant. It means genius.”
The angel was persuaded by my words.
It’s been a mistake for tens of thousands of years.
What I have been dreaming of in my heart for tens of thousands of years.
And that expectation was about to come true.
I told her that she had such expectations.
It’s time to get out.
“Now it’s time to escape from this land. In this northern land.”
[You can go out… Does that mean it exists?]
“I could leave anytime. It’s just that you were so absorbed in one thing that you didn’t notice.”
[I can’t figure out what it is… ]
The angel said he didn’t know.
Of course, it is natural not to know.
But from my perspective, who knows the answer, this space is full of questions.
Why didn’t the Heavenly God kill this angel?
Would he have been imprisoned even after committing such a serious crime as betrayal?
Detention has a strong sense of atonement.
But this angel has no reason to atone.
If you really wanted to correct it, all you had to do was take away the power and put restrictions back on it.
But why did the Heavenly God place her here?
“Isn’t it strange? Why did so many people come here, but why couldn’t you escape? Have you ever had any doubts?”
[Isn’t it obvious? It is an opening angel. Angels are heavenly beings.
That is why we cannot escape the contradictory space where heaven and earth exist. Humans were only able to escape because they did not belong.]
That is correct.
Angels are heavenly beings.
This contradictory space detains the angels within by its very existence.
But to put it the other way.
This means that you can only go out if you are not an angel.
“Then it’s simple. Get away from the angel.”
[Are you saying to change the race? ? But it is impossible to open. How to change your race… ]
There is no way to change race.
But there is something you are mistaken about.
You can change your race.
Only angels and devils.
“Angels are impossible.”
[It is impossible for all races.]
“No. ‘Angels’ are impossible. But you are no longer an ‘angel’. So it is possible. Because you are not an angel.”
[What is that… !]
The angel said he did not understand.
But this is the answer you will find if you think about it a little.
Gods exert their power through ideas.
Therefore, a loophole in words is a weakness in God’s power.
That is why angels can be of different races.
By taking advantage of God’s loophole.
“As a race, it is true that they are angels. However, when we call angels, we do not call them angels as a species.”
[no way… !]
“An angel is an agent of God. A being that represents the will of God. From that perspective, you are no angel. So it would be possible. Because you are no longer an angel.
You are no angel. So we should be able to escape, but why can’t we still escape? What hints to you that you are still an angel?”
All answers were given.
If you don’t know this, you should be called heaven and earth, not angel.
Fortunately, angels were not heaven and earth.
She immediately looked at what was in her hands.
The precious things I received when I was an angel.
“Give me that sword. Then you are no longer an angel. Even though only the shell remains, it can only do its original job as a sword. Symbolism is a big weapon.”
The Heavenly Sword is a treasure given by the Heavenly God to his favorite angel.
Therefore, as long as the Heavenly Sword exists, angels can only be angels.
If the Heavenly God wants, he can re-create the bridle and restrain the angel.
I could have killed the angel altogether.
The Heavenly God left her alone.
Because she was no longer an angel.
Now that I am free from the bondage, I am no longer an angel.
He told me to give up being an angel and live.
and. The process of realizing that is just that.
It is a punishment given to her.
“Be human. You didn’t have a name, did you? So, I will build it for you. If you accept this offer, you will no longer be an angel but a human.”
If at any time she said she wanted to be an angel again.
The Heavenly God would have taken away her identity and made her an angel again.
But she refused.
Because I longed for freedom.
The heavenly gods abhor sin.
It’s not that I hate freedom.
[I will allow it.]
She no longer treated herself poorly.
Because she is no longer God’s representative. Because it wasn’t an angel.
Because it was just an intelligent being that roamed freely in this world.
“You are Petroel. You can even name it yourself. The original name is usually given by someone else.”
I recited her name exactly as it was given to me by an NPC in WFS.
Petroel. Angels who should live in heaven will now come down to earth and live with us.
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