episode_0054

It’s not that Arin hasn’t been popular in her life, but she’s never felt like she likes anyone.

I have never felt any special emotions towards men who approach me.

Both men and women felt like they were just friends to her.

To that extent, there were times when I wondered if I was not the right person for dating.

However, as time passed, such thoughts only felt like a luxury, and there was no reason to hang on to emotions that I could not feel anyway.

“I have never liked anyone before. I just thought I was the type of person who couldn’t feel those things.”

Even when a nice-looking guy approached me right in front of me, I wasn’t particularly impressed.

“Honestly, when I was young, I even thought that I actually liked girls.”

So, I actually wondered if I might be a lesbian.

“But I never felt the same way about women.”

In the end, I just passed it off as something that had nothing to do with dating.

“..But to feel this way just by hearing your voice.. Isn’t this really strange? I don’t know what that person looks like or what kind of person he is. All I know is his voice and maybe that he’s from Sogang Group?”

It was confusing.

The more she felt this feeling of liking, the more her confusion became.

The fact that she was feeling emotions for the first time from someone she didn’t even know made Arin increasingly scared.

“I feel like I’ve become a strange person.”

“Um, Arin. Just calm down first.”

And Eun-jeong, who felt the emotions getting stronger, cut off the story.

It was to give time to sort out the emotional confusion.

“This is Arin’s first time doing this, so it may get more intense. However, there are not as many reasons for people to like people as you might think.”

Eun-jung could understand why Arin was confused, as it was the first time she felt love, and it was something she had expected.

However, Eun-jeong knew very well that people who first fall in love think that love itself is something very big and great, which only makes the situation worse.

“There are cases where you fall in love even if you just passed by.”

Of course, such cases are not common, but the reason why the saying “love at first sight” exists is because such situations actually exist.

“I’m not saying that love itself isn’t a big deal. To like someone, give your heart to them, and receive that heart in return. That’s very cool. But the reason why that feeling starts may be something really not that big of a deal.”

It’s because of Arin’s feelings that she’s fallen for someone she doesn’t even know properly.

I was afraid that I might be a strange person, but Eun-jeong told me that it was not strange at all.

“Just as Arin developed feelings for an unknown person, it is possible to fall in love just by hearing a voice. You can fall in love simply by observing small, everyday actions. It’s a very difficult but simple, simple but complex emotion.”

As Eun-jeong spoke softly and step by step, Arin felt her anxious mind calming down a little.

“Then I’m not strange?”

“Yes, it’s not strange at all. Of course, as you don’t actually know much, you get to know the person and those feelings may cool down. That’s not strange at all.”

Just as love is easy to begin, it was also much easier for it to end than I thought.

So, it is an emotion that can hurt each other.

“So for now, why not just enjoy the feeling itself? It’s my first love.”

Perhaps the beginning of first love that can solve all the things Arin was so worried about as a child.

Moreover, since it is not like dating without knowing anything, unrequited love may be a little difficult, but it is a feeling that will not hurt anyone even if the feeling comes to an end.

The feeling of starting alone and being able to finish it alone even if you are disappointed.

“First love is like that. I’m scared that it won’t come true, but I’m excited because it’s the first time for everything.”

It was a completely natural phenomenon to feel such emotions in life.

“…I see, it’s not strange.”

Arin, who was afraid of her own emotions, slowly broke through that fear and began to come out.

“Really, the teacher is amazing. When I talk to the teacher, what can I say, I feel like the fears and fears I feel are not that big of a deal.”

Arin wondered if this was the great thing about a person who provides psychological counseling.

Until now, there have been times when I felt like my frustrating feelings couldn’t be relieved even when I talked to other people.

When I was consulting with Eunjeong, there was nothing like that.

“Well, Arin is a strong person. This is possible because I am a person who knows how to accept other people’s stories well.”

Eun-jeong thinks of Arin as a very kind and strong person.

There were not as many people in the world as I thought who could listen to someone’s story, accept it, and admit that they were wrong.

“The teacher is amazing.”

“No, no matter how much I say, it means nothing to someone who is not ready to accept it. In that sense, Arin is a really strong and wonderful person. He is also a person who is ready to go further.”

Now, the trauma that is bothering Arin has been resolved to some extent.

Arin, who was able to overcome emotions other than trauma and move on, could only be seen as truly prepared.

“Now it’s time to move on to the next step, Arin.”

“The next step… hmm, what is it?”

“Well, I have to go to the gate.”

While giving psychological counseling on emotional issues, when the topic of gate was suddenly brought up, Arin looked embarrassed.

“Now that you’ve achieved emotional growth, shouldn’t you try doing what you wanted to do?”

Although she didn’t know that love would be the trigger, Eun-jeong was reporting while also taking Arin’s emotional side into consideration.

The opinion expressed in that regard was that they were not ready to go to the gate yet.

But Eun-jeong clearly felt that now was the time to move on.

“I won’t report today’s story, but I will report that Arin is ready to go to the gate. Then, your schedule will be set quickly and you will be at the gate soon.”

“Wow, a gate..! Are we finally going to go?”

The story about the gate, which would have been scary even a little while ago, now only felt exciting to Arin.

It was both amazing and strange that he had changed so much.

“Yes, that will happen. So, I’m looking forward to it. No, are you already looking forward to it?”

“Complete! I’m really looking forward to it!”

Eun-jeong’s excited appearance reminded her of the day she first met Arin.

The little girl who was eaten by trauma and cried was no longer there.

“Then shall we go back to skill class? If you want to get to the gate, you have to train harder.”

“Yes! I love it!”

Eunjeong’s expression was also very bright when she contacted Hanseo.

***

“What? really? We can go to the gate soon?!”

The three people who had gathered to have lunch after finishing their morning class heard Arin’s story and screamed in surprise.

“Ugh, I guess it kept being put off because of me. Gate Schedule.”

In fact, the three people except Arin had already finished preparing.

There was already a schedule for each person to enter the gate individually.

“Are you going to go after the individual gate schedule?”

“Wouldn’t Arin’s individual gate schedule be set once?”

“Ah, but honestly, I’m a little nervous if it’s not just the four of us going.”

The individual gates were literally like entering a different engineering school one by one and taking practical classes.

It was planned that Geon-woo would go along just in case something happened, so only one person could go per day.

“Hmm, well. I think it would be most convenient for the four of us to go.”

“I heard it before, Arin said there would be no individual gate schedule.”

Nahyeon, who was quietly listening to the story, spoke up.

“Huh? Really?”

“Yes, they said so.”

Na-hyeon, who happened to witness Geon-woo talking with the instructors the other day, briefly relayed the story she heard.

“As Arin was so traumatized, she said she would definitely go to the first gate with the three of us.”

Since Geon-woo said that, no one would refute it.

“Then, should I get some more skill training, and then after we finish our individual schedules, should we all go together and experience the first gate?!”

Of course, for this to be my first gate, there were many things I had experienced so far.

It wasn’t wrong as it was the first gate leading to and from the guild.

“Wow, the four of us were properly recognized as engineering students and went to the gate..”

Everyone looked as if they were dreaming.