episode_0054

I regained my composure and entered the bathroom.

Lily had prepared the bathtub for me, filling it with warm water. The tub, emitting a gentle steam, looked like heaven.

“Oh.”

Perhaps the desire to bathe was overwhelming, as I had entered without even removing my underwear.

I quickly moved to the changing room.

Having sweated profusely, Lily had already removed my servant’s attire, leaving me in just my undergarments, allowing me to undress swiftly.

Feeling the coolness brushing against my skin, perhaps due to the excessive sweating, I cautiously dipped my left foot into the tub. The warmth that enveloped me as I slowly immersed myself felt like it could cover everything, rising from my toes.

Carefully sliding my body into the tub.

-Splash!

In an instant, everything but my head was submerged in the warm water.

“… Ah…”

I couldn’t help but let out a sigh as my body was enveloped in warmth.

Closing my eyes, I savored the sensation of my tense body relaxing.

The unfamiliar gazes and attention I received. The feeling of everyone around me staring at me.

The sensation of my body not moving as I pleased was terrifying. I never knew I could experience such a panic attack.

From now on, unless it’s in the dormitory or with my family, I must never undress. It was an experience I never wanted to go through again.

My vision blurred, my heart pounding, yet my body remained still. Ah, it was truly the worst.

The only relief was Lily telling me that she had received help from the elf Charlotte to cast a spell on my body to prevent such incidents.

I was so surprised to see Charlotte when I opened my eyes.

Lily never mentioned being friends, never got close to anyone, yet she always stayed by my side, making me anxious.

But to hear her say we were friends, how fortunate.

When Lily turns 16 after graduating from the academy, things will likely change. First and foremost, the impending war.

No matter what you do in the game, the part where you die the most is during war.

I can’t fathom what war will be like. I’ve received plenty of education on the horrors of war in the modern world or seen it in videos, but experiencing it firsthand is different, I believe.

Honestly, it’s a bit scary. Just thinking that these peaceful days will crumble.

In the game, it was summarized in a few sentences, but standing here in person, it won’t end in just a few sentences.

It might amount to several volumes of a novel.

I should start preparing now. Perhaps a transformation potion for unforeseen circumstances?

This Sunday, when I return to the family, I must go meet Camilla after a long time.

Will they be able to cope without me?

Will Lily and Helena be okay if I die?

I want to live happily together. I want to love Lily without any reservations……

I was taken aback by the sudden outpouring of my true feelings in my heart. I opened my eyes and sat up.

The warm body quickly cooled by the chilly breeze.

That’s how fickle people are. Originally, we wouldn’t have met. In the modern world, we would have been strangers. We should be satisfied with being able to meet and spend time together happily.

Life with Lily was happy. Helena’s antics were adorable. I want to continue like this. But now, I only have six years left.

Short or long, it can be said to be a short time or a long time.

Pull yourself together.

I decided last time, but this time, I feel like my mind has weakened again due to a panic attack.

But, but have I ever thought that I want to live like this in this world? Have I ever wanted to share Lily and Helena’s affection and antics to this extent?

I like happy endings. And I like epilogues the most.

I like happy endings, but there is a happy ending that I dislike.

It’s when they lived happily ever after~ ending with just one sentence.

I want to see “They lived happily ever after” with my own eyes! I want to see them being lovey-dovey! That’s what I think.

In other words, even if I disappear, I want to see Lily and Helena living happily.

I’m worried if I can handle it well.

But… but…

I think I might feel a little sad if I live happily even if I disappear…

Ah…

I realized why I suddenly felt depressed, moody, and sulky like a middle schooler in the bathtub.

At some point, blood was flowing in the bathtub. I didn’t realize it because I was mentally exhausted.

Living with Amelia for 4 years, I’m starting to get used to the irritation that comes with each period.

Despite the menstrual cycle being 10 days away, the period started. It’s probably irregular due to excessive stress.

I’m already emotionally unstable, and now with the period, I can’t help but feel angry.

For the sake of cleanliness, I got up from the bathtub. It wasn’t long, but for my health, I had no choice.

After quickly finishing my shower and arriving at the dressing room from the bathroom, I met eyes with Lily.

“Oops…!”

“…”

But Lily’s behavior was strange.

She was squatting next to where I left my underwear, holding my panties in her hand and sniffing them.

It was clear that she was trying to smell my underwear. Lily looked at me with a face of confusion that was not usually seen, then quickly hid the hand holding the panties behind her back as she realized how she appeared.

Seeing Lily like that, I felt something break inside me.

The mental breakdown from the panic attack I was experiencing for the first time, the onset of irregular periods due to it, the depression and irritation that followed.

All the negative things piled up, and I lost my reason due to Lily’s behavior.

I grabbed Lily’s hand, who was trying to make excuses, and forcibly dragged her out of the dressing room.

“Amelia! Blood! Blood!”

Lily shouted at me, but I ignored everything and pushed Lily onto the bed.

Lily’s face filled my vision.

Lily’s eyes, bewildered by my actions, and her small lips asking if I was okay.

I covered Lily’s small, cute lips that were moving vigorously with my own lips.

“Hmm!?”

I’m annoyed.

I’ve been holding back, but she keeps provoking me. I asked her to stop a little, but she keeps tempting me. How can she handle me with such a small body?

I explored Lily’s small mouth with my large tongue, dominating her startled tongue.

After some time, I finally pulled my lips away from Lily’s.

And then, a continuous stream of saliva. I sucked up that saliva as if I were eating noodles.

I always feel it, but Lily’s saliva is incredibly sweet.

“Amelia…”

This time, Lily’s kiss began. Lily’s lips on my neck, holding me.

The kiss that started like that ended soon after with Lily’s hand.

As the kiss, which began with sharing affection, ended with Lily’s hand exploring my body, I did not resist at first.

Lily’s hand came down from my back to my buttocks, and she squeezed my buttocks.

I could tolerate that much. Up to my buttocks.

But as her hand gradually slid to the side from my buttocks, touching my stomach, I grabbed Lily’s hand full of greed, and the kiss ended.

“No…?”

Lily’s face was flushed, a clear sign of arousal to anyone who saw her.

For a moment, I almost unconsciously nodded my head at her face, but I managed to resist with a crazy amount of mental strength.

“Not yet. Lily. Just up to here.”

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After the kissing session ended, Amelia and I went back to the bathroom. In the process, I reassured her not to worry about the drops of menstrual blood visible, and I sent Amelia into the bathroom first.

“Sigh…”

As soon as Amelia entered the bathroom, I exhaled a sigh and replayed the recent situation in my head.

It felt like the first time. Amelia’s desire-filled eyes and her passionate kiss were so exhilarating.

It felt like Amelia liked me too, not just me liking her.

But why won’t she let it happen! Huh? She felt it too!

Clearly, Amelia also has sexual desires and feelings. But why, as adults, why aren’t we doing it? Does she still see me as a child?

Even though she raised me since I was 8 years old, hasn’t it come time for her to see me as a woman? After seducing and tempting me like this?

Sigh… I really can’t understand Amelia’s thoughts.

Putting that aside, I turned my body over to clear Amelia’s menstrual blood on the floor.

With high expectations for the sight of Amelia’s menstrual blood right in front of me, I extended my tongue.

Not wanting to be caught in this act and for Amelia to suspect anything, I quickly grabbed a nearby rag in one hand and moved my tongue rapidly.

As I tasted Amelia’s essence, I realized that her next period was about 10 days away, but considering the recent events, she must have been more stressed than I thought.

-Swish.