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Haryeong looked at the man in front of him. Even though it was her first time seeing this face for many years, it looked very familiar to her.

It was because it was the face that Sujin always observed. He was expressing that he was asleep, but that was not true. It’s just that she doesn’t show it on the surface, but she still has all the memories from that time.

“What should I do with this idiot?”

Haryeong blatantly placed his hand on his head.

“From now on, I will live again under the name Cha Haryeong. I’ll tell the other kids everything.”

He seemed completely unaware of the situation.

So, you’re saying such carefree things. I knew he was stupid from the moment I first met him, but I never thought he was this stupid.

Haryeong remembered.

The moment Sujin fell into the sea, he jumped in without the slightest hesitation. According to common sense, it is impossible to jump into the dark sea at night without any rescue equipment.

‘Well, that’s why I trust Sujin and leave her in charge.’

If he were an ordinary person, he would never have made such a suggestion in that basement. I probably ignored it, thinking it was some kind of bullshit.

“At least cover this for now.”

A warm blanket was covered over my chilly body. I didn’t realize it because I was thinking about other things for a while, but her body was shaking mercilessly. The face seen in the mirror was blue at first glance.

“Well, I’ll be grateful.”

Ha-ryeong did not refuse. If Sujin caught a cold if she left it like this, she would also suffer the same. Su-jin cannot share Ha-ryeong’s feelings, but Ha-ryeong does not.

If you want, you can feel the pain, happiness, joy, and sadness that Sujin feels.

This was because the personality of Cha Soo-jin was derived from the main body of Cha Ha-ryeong.

In other words, Cha Soo-jin is Cha Ha-ryeong’s wife.

Unlike Ha-ryeong, who was aware that she had two personalities, Su-jin did not even remember that there was a person named Ha-ryeong. Also, Sujin has no memories before she was 10 years old. That was because Ha-ryeong wanted it to be so.

The existence of Ha-ryeong, who was somehow damaged as a human being, was nothing but an obstacle for Su-jin to live a normal life from now on.

“So what is the purpose in the end? It’s not like you called me to have a private conversation after such a long time.”

Ha-ryeong, who was wrapped in a blanket, asked Yoo-seong who was sitting next to him.

Yoosung said.

“Come out. Don’t run away.”

“As expected, that was it.”

“The person I wanted to help is you, Cha Haryeong. Not some random person named Cha Soo-jin that you made up.”

Yoosung’s serious voice reached Ha-ryeong’s ears as he fell onto the bed with a sigh.

“If you are afraid to reveal your identity, I will help you. They are all good kids, so if you tell them your situation clearly, they will understand.”

“Stagnation…”

“Why?”

“No, I wonder who I am.”

Haryeong asked a question.

Those weren’t words directed at Yoosung. These were words directed at a young girl who had no choice but to become a different person countless times in order to survive for many years.

A young girl named Cha Ha-ryeong had no concept of self.

Before her identity was even formed, she had to play the role of an abused child, and after her confinement, she had to show the appearance of a girl suffering in constant pain.

It was so painful that I literally vomited. Every day was hell, and the constantly recurring pain gradually wore away her soul.

For many years, the only person she had contact with was her mother, and her mother never saw Ha-ryeong as a single person. I saw it as a tool to satisfy my own ugly desires.

In order to survive in such a hellish environment, the character of Cha Ha-ryeong was unnecessary. Wearing countless masks. I forcibly suppressed the ego that was trying to grow.

Nine years of living as Haryeong, eight years of living as Sujin.

Although the former was longer in duration, the latter is overwhelmingly superior in terms of depth and content.

Unlike Ha-ryeong, who had nothing around her, Su-jin already had many people by her side.

The relationships and memories she built up were Sujin’s own.

“Do you know what your brother is talking about right now? You’re telling me to take away the life Sujin has built up.”

“…that is.”

Ha-ryeong and Su-jin cannot exist at the same time.

As long as they were sharing the same body, one of them had to step down at some point.

In that case, wouldn’t it be right to prioritize Sujin, who can live a normal, happy life, over Ha-ryeong, who is already ruined?

Even though I was a junior, it didn’t mean I wasn’t greedy.

The world seen through Sujin’s eyes and heart was so beautiful that it could not be compared to the cramped and dirty 3-pyeong basement room of the past. I didn’t have to spend the night crying in pain that felt like my flesh was being torn, or shudder from the bitter loneliness.

I also had regrets.

He said he should have not said that at that time.

In a way, the current uncontrollable misfortune was something Ha-ryeong brought upon herself.

“But I can’t leave you alone.”

“…He’s such a damn good person. To the point where I’m sick of it.”

Ha-ryeong hated him very much.

He is the one who keeps driving Soo-jin, who should be happy, towards becoming unhappy, the one who barely understands her situation and keeps trying to bring out the person who is trying to hide behind it, and the one who keeps trying to shake her heart.

It was enough for him to live a secretly satisfied life behind Sujin, who was living an ordinary life.

A small fragment of happiness that I had never felt before. If I could get that, I couldn’t ask for anything more.

“How can you make it stop? Would they really cut Sujin’s body while she was sleeping? So are you going to stop? Or should I just go outside naked every night? You never know, you might meet some bad guys and be taken to a warehouse or something and get gang raped. Do you really want that?”

“That’s a way for both you and Sujin to get hurt. No one can be happy.”

Yoosung responded in a calm voice to Ha-ryeong, who jumped out of bed and glared at him.

When I looked at him up close, there was not a single tremor in his eyes.

“Why would a person who knows this well choose to become unhappy? Please forget about me. It’s been 8 years, right? If this is the case, wouldn’t you think that I didn’t create Sujin, but that I was born inside Sujin?”

In reality, Ha-ryeong thought half of himself that way.

Cha Soo-jin is already the main body, and Cha Ha-ryeong is a parasitic personality there.

That was the most comfortable ending for her.

A world where no one gets hurt and everyone is happy.

Even though there was an easy and perfect path right in front of him, Yoosung tried to walk on the thorny path.

Just because Haryeong can’t be happy.

“The truth doesn’t change just because you do that. Sujin is Sujin and you are you. It may be difficult, but I want to find a way for both of us to be happy. Instead of unilaterally sacrificing only one side like now and pretending not to know.”

“Ha.”

It was a wall window.

He was a more retarded bastard than you could imagine.

It was obvious that such an ending would not exist, but I was trying to pursue an ideal that could not be achieved.

‘Why do you like this guy?’

If Sujin didn’t like him.

If only I was just a simple older brother living with him.

Haryeong wouldn’t have clung to him this much either.

But Haryeong knows.

I felt it through our shared heart.

That this is the only person that Sujin can truly like and love.

Sujin will only continue to become unhappy if she is ignored by such a person like she is now.

For Ha-ryeong, who wanted Su-jin’s true happiness, it was the worst ending.

“…You really have no intention of bending your will?”

“None. From the moment I found out you were still alive, there was no such thing as giving up for me.”

“…Okay. I see.”

Haryeong nodded. It wasn’t resignation or understanding. It was simply because I came up with a good plan to convince this idiot.

“Then…”

I moved my body and approached him secretly.

The warm body temperature that I have felt many times was conveyed through Sujin.

As I closed my eyes, I could hear my heart pounding. This is yours.

To be exact, the sound of Sujin’s heart comes from her fondness for him.

I carefully hugged his arm.

A blush appeared on his pale face, and a small smile appeared on his lips.

I picked up the long hair that was blocking my vision with my left index and little fingers and pushed it back.

It was a habit that only Sujin had.

The character Cha Ha-ryeong who existed until a moment ago was deleted.

What comes to mind is the image of Cha Soo-jin that I have seen and felt countless times.

Every action, every gesture. Perfectly, without the slightest error.

“Guess who I am. You only get three chances.”

She, who became Cha Ha-ryeong and Cha Soo-jin, declared to Yoosung.

Look for the fragments of Cha Haryeong, completely broken and broken into nano-sized pieces, in the huge mirror called Cha Sujin.

He doesn’t know yet.

That Cha Ha-ryeong is a professional actor and a person who can fool his parents who have lived together for many years.

He still didn’t realize it.

The role that Cha Ha-ryeong is most confident in is Cha Soo-jin.

“How about it? Do you want to try?”

A confident smile spread across Haryeong’s lips.

Playing hide and seek, risking her life, was her specialty.