episode_0053

What is this?

“Hello. I am Jeong Eum-ju, the head of this sincere study group. Oh. Well, there is nothing special about being the head. I just help to keep the center. Things like the meeting place and time. Since we are all job seekers, we should help each other.”

While I was confused, the study group started naturally.

‘Wait. Wait. Wait. Just a minute.’

It’s really fucking embarrassing, isn’t it?

What should I say?

It all seemed wrong from the start.

If you join the study group today.

‘Hello. My name is Kim Hyun-woo. I… … This. You may find this strange, but I’m a man. I’m currently dressed as a woman. But you can just call me Kim Hyun-ah in everyday life. Well, Kim Hyun-woo doesn’t matter either. I may be a little unlovable because of this kind of person, but please take good care of me. Oh, I’m currently attending Gyeon University.’

It’s a bit awkward to say that.

I’ve been thinking all night about how to introduce myself in a way that people wouldn’t naturally accept.

If this happens, something will go wrong.

‘Huh? If I look at it, it was a gathering of five men? Or did Chaeyeon accidentally put me in with the women?’

I looked to the side just in case.

“… ?”

Han Chae-yeon, the number of people sitting next to me and on both sides.

And then, looking at the four men on the other side, he tilted his head, then quickly put on an expression like, ‘Oh, whatever, so what?’ and quietly reached out under the table and clasped his hands together.

You’re such a horny bitch!

Now is not the time for that.

Me. How should I introduce myself?

“Hello. My name is Yoon Bo-kwang. I am currently attending Seoul National University.”

“Hello. My name is Hyeho Ahn. I’m embarrassed, but I’m currently attending Astronomy and Astronomy University. I’m on hold to graduate and preparing for employment.”

“Hello. My name is Park Bu-yeon. Please take care of me.”

While I was thinking about it.

Before I knew it, they had finished introducing themselves and were back in front of me.

“Hello. I am Han Chae-yeon. I am currently attending Gayeon University. Please take good care of me.”

Let Han Chae-yeon introduce herself.

Everyone let out a small exclamation of admiration.

The general public may not be very interested, though.

Or use SNS a little.

Or anyone interested in things like university communities or bamboo forests couldn’t help but know Han Chae-yeon.

‘There are only a few people who go to university in the first place. If you are in the top 3 out of that many people, you are bound to be famous.’

If Han Chae-yeon were to debut as a celebrity right away, wouldn’t she be successful without a hitch?

And then it was my turn.

“Hello. Kim Hyun… … .”

I was speechless.

What should I choose?

After a long time, I’m having trouble choosing.

I looked to the side just in case, and Han Chae-yeon seemed to be telling me to just do whatever I wanted.

“… … My name is Kim Hyun-woo.”

Before I even give further explanation.

A sound of ‘Huh?’ came out from somewhere.

That makes sense.

The name Kim Hyun-woo is definitely not one that would be confused between a man and a woman.

It would actually be correct to see it as a boy’s name, unless the parents had really malicious intentions in giving the girl that name.

“Hey, as you can imagine, I’m a guy.”

“… … ?”

“… … !”

A variety of reactions emerged.

From people who tilted their heads in disbelief to those who looked like they were utterly shocked by what I was saying.

“That… I’m a cross-dresser… I guess you could call it a hobby. I often do this on a regular basis. I apologize if it offended you.”

In some ways, this might have been my first step.

It’s about overcoming the negative reactions people have toward cross-dressing and fully coming out in front of the public.

Even though it’s a small group.

It was a very meaningful coming out for me.

“Ah… … That. That! Ah! That. I’m not offended at all! That. Now that I think about it, I think Mr. Kim Hyun-woo was definitely on the list of applicants. So you have a hobby of cross-dressing. But you’re too great to call it a hobby… … .”

“Yes. Ma. That’s right. Everyone feels that way. It’s not particularly unpleasant or anything.”

The group leader, Jeong Eum-ju, was the first to cover for me.

Then I felt the men on the male side desperately wrapping their arms around me.

Except for two people.

The people were Yoo Young-in and Yoon Bo-gwang.

They looked at me like I was a bit of a weirdo, pretending not to notice.

huh.

Perhaps that view is correct.

‘Well, it’s like thinking that everyone will unconditionally accept you from the beginning. Isn’t that like having a flower garden in your head?’

Even this was no different from men showing their affection for women, as my cross-dressing skills were overwhelming.

still.

They even use that.

“Thank you.”

“… … !”

Let me smile shyly.

The men on the other side couldn’t help but flinch in surprise this time.

One of them seemed a little uneasy.

He gave me a look that made it seem like he was very interested in me.

“Sleep! Sorry, but. As you probably know. Dating or socializing is prohibited within the study group. Of course! You can do it outside of the group as much as you want!”

Han Chae-yeon, who had been gently touching my butt, pulled her hand back.

I just realized it now because it was so natural that I didn’t even realize when he was touching my butt.

“By the way, cross-dressing? That’s quite an amazing hobby. Don’t people around you say anything bad about it?”

When a man named Yoo Young-in said something like that.

It’s not that I didn’t feel a little bit uneasy.

I am not a child like I used to be.

“… … What are you saying? But you can’t stop what you like. I think I’m okay with who I am now.”

This is really fucking random.

It was only when I said this that I remembered.

I just uploaded my writing to the cross-dressing gallery a while ago and completely forgot about it.

I guess I’ll have to check it out during or after the study group meeting.

“Well. If you’re okay with it, then it’s okay. So is this the end of the introduction?”

Jeong Eum-ju nodded her head at Yoo Young-in’s shrug, but then flinched.

It was a face that reminded me of something.

“… … Uh. Um. That’s it. Before we start, I want to point out one thing. It wasn’t really my intention. But somehow, in order to balance the genders, we ended up with 4:4? So the gender ratio. So, if Kim Hyun-woo came in as a man, that means there are four women here… ”

“Isn’t it net?”

My name is Hye-ho Ahn.

The other seven looked a little disappointed at the words of the guy who was giving me a blatant look.

“Ah… … If Mr. Kim Hyun-woo had come in as a man. That’s… right. Ahaha. Wait… I’m sorry. Ah. That’s embarrassing. Huh.”

But I’m not a complete idiot, am I?

An Hye-ho quietly rests her head on the table after understanding what Jeong Eum-ju said.

As expected, love was definitely the thing that had the greatest power in lowering a person’s IQ.

[Unfortunately, that man’s love can never come true.]

huh.

yes.

I just like cross-dressing.

Because I didn’t like guys.

“… … So. So.”

Jeong Eum-ju couldn’t continue speaking properly as she looked at the four people sitting on the men’s side.

He muttered softly as he swept his face a few times.

“… … Just in case. I’m asking just in case. Pia Cafe’s gender is listed as female… … Are you a man?”

and.

Smart.

It was something that could really happen.

If that’s the case, then Jeong Eum-ju mistakenly thought she was a woman and invited her, but it turned out to be a man, so there’s nothing we can do about it.

You can conduct the study group with the feeling that there are five men and three women.

“… … .”

“… … .”

“… … .”

“… … .”

The problem is that no one seems to see it that way.

“That. Then really, ho. I’m asking just in case. I’m not asking because I’m particularly offended. No. Actually… … You can go into the cafe right now and check. So… … Is there anyone who is ‘cross-dressing’?”

That’s the moment I said that.

“… … .”

Suddenly the atmosphere became incredibly cold.

That wasn’t all.

Even the way people who used to think of me positively started to look at me became a little more uncomfortable.

I guess that’s the only way.

There are also cases where a woman sneaks in between men and pretends to be a man.

There are also cases where a man sneaks in between women and pretends to be a woman.

If you think about it carefully, you can’t help but feel a little uncomfortable.

At first, I thought that it was okay because she was pretty, as that fact was overshadowed by Kim Hyun-ah’s charm.

It can’t help but be a little uncomfortable.

“… … .”

“… … .”

“… … .”

“… … .”

This time, there was no answer.

no.

Before that, the study group had not even started, but it seemed like it was going to fall apart.

Jeong Eum-ju paused for a moment in that uncomfortable atmosphere.

Said.

“Excuse me, I’m really sorry. If there are no inconveniences, I’d like to proceed with the study group as is. Is that okay?”

Certainly, ‘human relationships’ are difficult.

To use a slightly extreme analogy, it might not be a big deal to defeat an assassin who is trying to kill me.

That’s not it.

It was really hard to say something unpleasant to someone when everyone was polite and respectful to each other.

‘You read the mood.’

No, to be exact, I should call it consideration.

Unlike me who spoke openly.

If there was anyone dressed as a man… … it seemed like that person had no intention of revealing himself.

At least for now, that is.

“What. Okay.”

“Let’s do that.”

Everyone had a bewildered look on their face, but they still nodded their heads.

‘Who is it really?’

I think I understand a little bit why people hate cross-dressing.

This is what it feels like.

I’m also curious about what it actually looks like.

After all, ‘cross-dressing’ is a way to hide one’s true appearance to some extent, so it is understandable that people feel uncomfortable with it.

I have a feeling there might be a man in this place.

Naturally, I also understand that position clearly.

“Wow! I think we’re all done with the self-introductions. Since it’s the first day, I don’t plan on making it too long. I don’t really want to make things messy until the first day. Let’s just have a quick chat about this and that, have a meal, and then disperse. What do you think?”

“Like.”

“Okay.”

and.

As an adult.

I also learned that in order to go out into society, you have to work quite seriously.

“Do you all have the companies you want?”

Everyone answered Jeong Eum-ju’s questions quite refreshingly.

“I want to go to Saseong Electronics. It’s my department, too. After all, the welfare and evaluation are the best.”

“Of course, work-life balance, and more than anything, you can’t ignore the company atmosphere. I’m more interested in games, so I was thinking about a company in the N sector. The atmosphere these days is… …right?”

“Why? There isn’t just one N side. There are places with a good atmosphere too.”

“The standards are secretly strict. The standards have gone up a lot these days. My sister said that about 5 years ago. She said that things like study groups might disappear by now.”

Everyone burst into laughter.

I really did have that kind of hope back in the old days.

It will become easier to get a job.

That it will rebound.

But what about the rebound?

The level of difficulty has increased to the point where something called a study room has been created.

It was a really tough time to live in.

So there was no need for us to say bad things to each other.

… … I thought so.

“Excuse me. Mr. Kim Hyun-woo. Can I see you for a moment?”

Everyone is secretly calling me ‘Kim Hyun-ah’.

Yoo Young-in, who was the only one calling me ‘Kim Hyeon-woo’, called me out separately.

what.

Are you bullying me?