episode_0052

Her name “Sentry is Martina”.

Born as Duke {Sentry}’s only eldest daughter and the only heir to the Jeongcha family, she grew up to be a noble being who would carry on everyone’s expectations and envy, as well as the family’s important mission.

But even for her, there was a curse that seemed like an unavoidable fate.

It’s none other than…

It was impossible to feel any emotions.

I didn’t feel happiness in happy daily life, sometimes crying when sad things happened, or feeling pain when I fell… I didn’t even feel the boring feeling of boredom.

Therefore, Martina lived a meaningless repetitive life of waking up when her eyes opened and falling asleep when her eyes closed, without even recognizing the purpose and reason for her simple life in this world.

I wasn’t even aware of the feeling of being bored in the first place.

just as expected. Her mother, the duke of the {Sentry} family, who was always worried about Martina, tried all kinds of methods to cure her daughter’s curse-like illness.

A prescription from a pharmacist who claimed to treat himself by combining various herbs.

Of course, prescriptions from a psychotherapist help with psychological stability and emotions.

They called in all the therapists who said they could fly and ran and tried to force the treatment, but in the end, they only served to convince me that it was of no use.

Of course, Martina didn’t just sit back and watch.

Could it be possible for you to feel emotions like other ordinary people? With that thought in mind, I diligently took all kinds of swordsmanship, magic, and management classes so that I could inherit the family lineage, without missing any of them, and reached a perfect level in all areas, but…

Despite all her efforts, Martina felt nothing.

As if the fruits of all these efforts were just taking it for granted… For her, only the feeling of “nothingness” surrounded Martina’s mind.

Martina will never know why she was born with this curse.

She is the reincarnation of {Piece of Greed}, one of the seven pieces of the evil god and the main culprit that caused the {{War of the Gods}} in the past.

Because he was greedy for everything, he ended up being robbed of his past memories and all emotions so that he could not feel anything, and had to live his whole life over and over again in a human body, paying never-ending atonement.

Until that day comes.

***

Not long ago.. the day when Dahein tried to implant the “Mu” attribute [Slime] magic stone into his left hand.

Today too, Manita, who was just standing still looking at the clear blue sky, is caught by a sudden impulse wondering if someone is going to kill her.

Passeuuk..

Like these countless flowers that are cruelly crushed by one’s steps and are slowly losing their vitality.

While I was thinking about what death is like, I thought about it for a while.

Throbbing.. Throbbing..

I vividly feel the throbbing pain in my right eye along with an unidentifiable pain.

It was my first time.

Even though she had harmed herself dozens and hundreds of times, she had never felt pain like this.

That’s why I had no choice but to hang on. I hope this pain never ends…

no..

I hoped this feeling would last forever.

For her, this feeling of pain has never been easier!! It was filling up the parts of my emotions that had dried up.

＂What is this..?＂

As if to prove that this feeling of unknown pain was not a lie, Martina tried to compare by cutting her arm with a dagger, but vivid and clear emotions that could not be compared to this were being conveyed through her right eye. .

This is the feeling of Da-hein being left alone in the cave.

Hunger caused by excessive hunger.

The threat that you might be attacked by a monster and die at any time.

Anxiety about having to survive every situation alone.

The intense burning pain in my left hand that hurt like crazy.

and..

This is the image of a boy who slowly emerges from the midst of all the pain.

A boy with black hair like Martina herself and blue eyes that sparkle like sapphires.

Excited.. Excited..

And the more I see him like that, the more my heart beats violently.

At that moment, Martina could feel it.

The fact that you are alive.

That boy and himself clearly feel and share all the emotions together.

“haha..”

Martina, who accepted all of Dahuin’s negative emotions for the first time, began to smile as if she were ecstatic, clutching her throbbing right eye.

A deep red blush bloomed between extremely white skin.

The red eyes are so trembling that I can’t control them.

Martina sits down with her arms covered in red blood.

dump..

Martina’s expression, smiling for the first time in her life, was so awkward that it was creepy. It was as bizarre as its creepy expression.

“haha..”

＂This, this..＂

＂Are you feeling something..?＂

No one had ever given Martina such strong emotions that her lower body went numb.

No one… no one had made Martina’s heart flutter like this.

After thinking, thinking, thinking, thinking about this overwhelming feeling of pain for a long time, Martina was soon able to come up with an answer.

＂This feeling is happiness.?＂

That word I’ve been so sick of hearing…

The positive emotions of happiness and joy, which all ordinary people should feel equally, became the moment when they were transformed into the concept of pain for her.

No, for her, pain was love, and all the emotions she could feel toward that boy were all that Martina had.

And Martina eventually becomes obsessed with the crazy urge to have this blue-eyed boy, whom she sees through her right eye.

She manifested {greed} for the first time in her life.

＂I will have it..＂

Only this boy could make Martina feel, and only this boy could fill Martina’s empty heart.

Manita, who was able to feel all of Dahuin’s emotions even at the moment when he fainted in the cave, unable to bear the pain in his right eye, soon came to accept all the emotions felt through his presence as positive signals. And Dahuin became Martina’s reason for living.

＂I will definitely have it..＂

Martina’s eyes, whose legs were already weak and trembling, gradually began to turn red.

When humans reach the peak of any emotion, whether it is happy joy or terrible sadness, they reveal that emotion through endless tears.

Grumbling..

“What is this..?”

Just like Martina is now.

And I could feel the moment of emotion that had reached such a peak drying up in an instant. Of course, Martina’s blackened right eye also began to return to its original state.

This was the loss of connection with Dahuin.

“I don’t like it, give it back..”

＂Let me feel it..＂

just as expected. Feeling the desire to become one with him again, Martina suddenly picks up the dagger that fell on the ground and stabs it into her thigh without hesitation.

Phew!!!

Despite the red blood stains spreading everywhere and the terrible feeling of her skin being torn apart, Martina could not feel pain.

For Martina, who had already tasted what emotions were once, this sense of “nothingness” that came again made her feel a strange emptiness, as if she were trapped in an abyss.

Losing the reason for living.

Martina nonchalantly pulled out the dagger that was deeply embedded in her thigh and slowly got up and headed towards the mansion.

From that day on, Martina began looking for people with black hair and blue eyes to find the boy she had seen through her right eye.

The few people with black hair who didn’t exist before disappeared without a word due to Duke Sentry’s Martina.

I did this because I thought that the blue-eyed boy and I were the only ones in this world who could have black hair.

just as expected. Her mother, a factory worker for the {Sentry} family, could no longer just watch Martina’s tyranny continue day after day, but tried to watch over her daughter.

Perhaps Martina couldn’t even tolerate her mother’s black hair, so she walked up to her and grabbed her mother’s neck with her cold hands, squeezing her with one hand.

＂Gagging!!＂

Martina’s mother, who was perplexed as to why she was acting like this, seemed to be trying to say something with such a frightened look.

Even my mother, who was my own blood, only looked at me with cold, indifferent eyes.

Even the gaze of those red eyes… It was my mother’s hair that had been dyed black.

That moment..

Black, opaque magical power gradually began to stir around Martina, and soon formed a shape and began to strongly entangle her mother’s entire body.

＂Ma, Martina..＂

“How can you do that?”

just as expected. As a terrible scream filled the room, the female knights guarding the door seemed to have rushed in to check on the situation, but they too were caught in chains made of black magic and were immediately restrained.

Unlike ordinary humans, Martina’s magical power was also a unique entity with the attribute of “nothingness”. Martina, who felt the magic of these women being naturally absorbed by the chains, begins to be caught up in the greedy feelings again.

“Ma, Martina.. Please come to your senses..”

Martina, who paid no heed to her mother’s pleas and immediately began to absorb their magical power, realized that the reason for her existence was… As if she was born to covet magical power, she simply moved as if guided by instinct and did not feel any emotions.

Martina’s mother and the female knights, whose magic power was sucked out, eventually turned into pure white dust and began to flow in all directions, and Martina, who felt an emptiness that could not be filled despite absorbing the magic power, began to move while remembering the boy again.

‘It’s not enough.. a little more..’