episode_0048

by fnovelpia

fault.

My body was faster than my head could think.

I ran like crazy to Teacher Baek… no, Arin.

Splash splash.

The repulsive force of the water was strong.

But I didn’t care about that.

“Arin!!!”

Maybe it’s because my thigh muscles have weakened as I get older, but I feel guilty that I can’t push the water out as much as I want.

Splash splash.

Splashing water.

Her appearance is getting closer and closer.

My hair felt calm because it was wet.

Her eyes look even sadder because they are wet.

A beautiful pink tip that is neither too small nor too big on milky drawing paper that is wet but has not lost its color.

But it is something so beautiful that it has to be covered.

“Arin, why are you like this!!”

terup.

There was only one thing that could be covered.

It was instinct.

I covered Arin with my whole body.

No, I hugged him.

Me and Arin.

Heart and heart.

Chest and chest.

That place is adjacent.

Exciting!

Two hearts flaunt their presence like crazy.

“Arin…! What on earth are you thinking!! Don’t you know that doing this…is a problem?!”

Exciting!

Miraculously, the sound of each heart beating became one and began to beat at the same pace like one heart.

click.

Camera sound.

This…?

Yes.

Arin was holding a waterproof cell phone in her hand.

So…even though I was at the swimming pool, I received a text message right away.

“Wow…Senior, look at this. Doesn’t it look great on you?”

She hands the phone over to my eyes.

It was a picture of me and Arin holding each other.

It was a picture.

I don’t know how I took such good pictures while holding it.

A perfect couple.

A photo that is nothing more or less.

“It suits you so well……”

Arin’s delicate hands wrap around my waist.

When her arms touch my body with a gentle, rather than strong grip, it gives me a chill.

…Actually, it doesn’t feel creepy.

It was a powerful energy of reproduction that she felt.

“Why is my senior rejecting me?”

Come on.

Her hand joined my stomach.

Her cell phone, warmed by hot water, was placed on my stomach.

The will to never lose sight of myself.

The noose made by her hands proved it.

My head turned white.

I don’t know how to answer.

How should I make an excuse…

okay.

In this situation, making excuses is useless.

Arin is a woman.

That’s how excellent his sixth sense is.

No, I don’t have a great sixth sense, but she and I lived in the same space for 10 years.

Anyone with a little sense would easily notice that I was making a hasty excuse.

Let’s be honest.

okay.

There’s nothing to hide anymore.

And the reason is not because of Arin.

“Because I’m a divorced man.”

“…I know.”

“Teacher Baek…no…Arin is still young so she doesn’t know.”

“Don’t treat me like a child!!”

A high-pitched sound that will tear your eardrums.

Her angry cry was noticeably different from the low tone from before.

“I know that you are a divorced man and that you have a daughter!!”

Come on.

Her noose began to tighten.

“I was the one who was happier than anyone else when I heard that you were getting divorced!!!”

“…What?”

For a moment, my mind was blank.

“Because I have a seat next to my senior again!!!!”

what?

“Because I have hope that I can conceive my senior’s child!!”

Arin…me….

“Because I thought this was an opportunity I would never miss again!!!!”

Have you liked him for a long time?

Everything turned white.

Even before my eyes.

My thoughts too.

Everything in my brain turned into plaster.

I stumbled from a dizzying sensation.

I feel like my sense of balance is falling apart.

Yes.

Everything is plastered.

There is no way the plaster could stand upright.

Slurp.

Things in my field of vision.

my body

It feels like everything is melting.

Kuuk.

But I didn’t fall.

Because there was Arin, holding me like an anchor.

“Senior.”

I didn’t answer.

No, I couldn’t answer.

Because I was out of my mind.

Of course.

“Senior’s heartbeat… are you feeling it now?”

Exciting!

a little.

Her artificial side lifts from my chest and her hands touch me.

“I tried until I could match my heartbeat to yours.”

…what?

Is that…if you try hard?

“I tried so hard, but my senior… didn’t care about me.”

Kuuk.

I felt the palm on my chest being clenched into a fist.

“He asked me to look at him as a woman…I waved my hand like that…”

Tuk.

Small fist.

It comes and hits my heart.

“That empty spot…I have been silently trying so hard to find it…”

Tuk.

“I got everything my senior wanted…!!”

Tuk.

Tuk!

“Why…! Why on earth… won’t you put me in that empty seat?”

puck…!

It hurt.

It wasn’t because her fists were strong that it hurt.

I guess I misunderstood.

You were completely…completely misunderstanding her.

What Arin has always wanted.

He held it in his hand and has been abusing his power until now.

Honestly, I didn’t know it would be like this.

I just thought that as I continued to be single for a long time, he noticed me spending time with him.

So I tried to let her know that her choice was wrong.

No matter how urgent it is, divorced people have problems.

The most difficult thing of all is the prejudice of society.

-Oh my gosh, what on earth did she do to run away?-

-Don’t you know that divorce is a two-way thing?-

-Can you raise your daughter well without listening to bastards?-

I came here after hearing a lot of prejudice.

The same goes for women who love divorced men.

Society’s prejudice is scary.

I didn’t do anything wrong regarding the divorce.

my divorce.

That’s my ex-wife.

Park A-young was 100% wrong.

The child born from an affair with another man is my daughter, Minah.

From the time I dated her in college until the divorce… no, I never once laid eyes on another woman until now.

I did my best for my family.

I brought home every penny I earned and spent every vacation I could have on my family.

But what came back was that I was treated like an incompetent husband.

A piece of trash who can’t earn or spend money or time properly for his family.

It turned out that she was having an affair with a muscular young fitness trainer.

I couldn’t believe it.

Something that should never happen.

Even my daughter Minah, whom it would not hurt to put it in her eyes, was not my flesh and blood.

There is nothing I am not good at.

But the blame was solely mine.

The woman cheated because I wasn’t a good husband.

Dating a divorced man who has such prejudices?

It’s 100% Arin’s loss.

But…if she liked me since college…

And if you came with the intention of dating me because of the divorce news…

It might have been a slightly different story.

“I’m sorry…I…didn’t know Arin was like that…from a long time ago.”

“…A person without any sense…”

Her face is buried in my chest.

“No matter how hard I tried…why…why…”

The rain is falling cold.

But hot water flows through my chest.

Those were her tears.

I stopped to take her in my hands.

Do I deserve to hug her?

At least 10 years.

I’m a fool who never knew what she was thinking.

Arin’s goal.

Is that alone enough to make me hypocritical in comforting her by hugging her?

My hands reached her head and eventually fell to the floor, unable to move.

“…I’m sorry…..”

“…Bad……”

Her hands grabbed both of my arms.

“Bad…Bad…!!”

“What…what…?”

“Why does it stop?”

He lifts my arm and begins to slowly raise it over his shoulder.

“You said you would catch me, but why are you giving up again?”

Without any will on my part, my arms rise above her head.

“Am I just that kind of girl who doesn’t need to be hugged by my senior?”

“That’s not that…”

“Hug me……”

Kuuk.

Her hands start to caress my arms.

To hug her.

“Hug me…with your broad chest…with your big hands…wrap me…”

I deserve to hug her.

It’s happened now.

I raised both arms of my own free will.

The arm that had been forcibly held by her hand now moves of its own will.

Kkooook.

I feel her icy hair on the inside of my arm.

Her soft hair became matted as it got wet from the acidic rain.

I can feel the lines of her face in my chest.

hot breath.

Hot tears.

A terrible result after waiting for 10 years.

The sadness of that terrible outcome spread from her face to my heart.

“Uuuu….”

She started crying.

“Hhhhh!!!”

The saddest thing I’ve ever seen her cry…

There was nothing I could do.

I was a villain in her shoes.

A villain who did not accept his heart and only took advantage of it.

It was no different from her father, who was squeezing Arin.

Like that wicked father who gaslighted her and used her as his wallet…

I’m just an asshole who used her thoroughly and threw her away, torturing her with the hope that I could date her someday.

“Senior… I hate you… I hate you!!! Haaa!!!!!”

Shoot.

The sound of the rain gradually became thicker, but her cries sounded even louder in my ears.

It was as if it had been my job for about 10 years.

I was a hypocrite.

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