episode_0047

“How long has it been since Dohyun liked me?”

Some time had passed since I started drinking.

My sister asks with a curious expression.

“Well, it’s been a year now.”

Not long ago, it was exactly one year since I started liking my older sister.

I still vividly remember that day a year ago, but I can’t believe time has already passed so quickly.

It’s an amazing feeling.

“1 year, I see. What did you like about me? If it’s burdensome, it’s okay if you don’t answer. I’m just asking because I’m really curious.”

It is true that the herbal tea had a temporary effect, so it was true that it calmed me down to some extent, but even so, I must have been quite shocked by this incident.

So, what do people close to you like about yourself and what do they consider to be your strengths?

You probably want to hear those positive words.

“The first time I saw my sister was really by chance. I often watched game broadcasts, but no one particularly subscribed to them, and I didn’t really enjoy watching them.”

Even before I started liking my sister, I enjoyed playing games, and that didn’t mean I didn’t watch streamers who played games, but I wasn’t the type of person to actively subscribe and watch someone’s broadcasts.

“By chance, the video that auto-played was my sister’s YouTube edited video, and I was in a very difficult situation at the time. It was so hard, I was really exhausted, but the sight of my sister being endlessly bright… To be honest, I hated it at first.”

It’s a really selfish thing to say, but it was like that at the time.

It was a time when feelings of inferiority that I felt because I was having a hard time, but this person was living happily and smilingly while doing what he wanted, were literally taking over my entire body.

“But it’s really annoying and I don’t like it, but I keep thinking about it.”

The first time I saw it, I turned off the video without even watching it for a minute.

However, the video that I had not watched for less than a minute kept lingering in my head again and again.

“But I didn’t bother to look for it and kept pretending not to know, until one day I really wanted to die.”

There was a dark time when I felt like there was no one in the world on my side.

“But that’s when I think of it. For what reason am I putting up with all this? Even though I want to die anyway, I think I should do everything I want for just one day.”

I had no money and nowhere to turn, but I wasn’t left with nothing to spend the time I wanted for a day.

“Once I made up my mind, the first thing that came to mind was my sister’s video.”

I remember searching through my YouTube viewing history and finding the video.

Of course, as it was difficult at the time, I didn’t watch much YouTube, so I found it easy.

“I watched it again and it really made me cry. I really like the unique brightness and strength that my sister shows. It felt like he was telling me to live. If you hold on and live, the light will eventually reach you one day. It seemed like he was saying that.”

So I lived.

Of course, my sister didn’t even know I existed at the time, but that’s how I lived.

Even when things were difficult and I wanted to die, I thought about that moment and held on.

“But the light really reached me.”

I never thought that the light could also be my sister.

“Anyway, I liked it, but at some point, I just started liking everything about my sister. That’s what being a virtue is all about.”

It seems like when I was talking with Eunchae, I was able to casually list my strengths and passionately talk about my selling points in front of her.

I feel embarrassed to mention something that was quite serious in a situation where we are alone.

“Ah, it’s hot, it’s hot.”

I fan myself with my hand and take a sip of the soju in front of me.

“Wow, it tastes bad..!”

But it was also a wrong choice.

It’s so bitter… it feels like I’m using hand sanitizer…

Why on earth do people like this?

“…”

The whole time my sister was listening to the story, she asked me what I liked about myself.

And even now that my story is finished, he keeps his mouth shut with an expression on his face that I can’t tell what he’s thinking.

..Did I make a mistake?

Was the problem that you said you were annoyed and disliked it at first?

But it wasn’t that I was annoyed or disliked my sister, it was just that I had a sense of inferiority..!

“That.. sister, ta-da..?”

If you fill up your glass with soju and say something awkward and salty for no reason.

“Thank you, Dohyun.”

Jang-

My sister laughs as she raises her glass and clinks it against mine.

Ah… you’re really pretty, noona…

I still think like that often.

A system was created, and Eunchae and I did things like that.

I wonder if all these moments of working and sharing emotions with my sister are actually dreams.

“Thank you. I am more grateful.”

“Hmm? It’s not? Am I more thankful?”

“No. I’m more grateful?”

I’m even more grateful. When the battle unfolds, I keep saying thank you as if I can’t lose.

It really feels like I’m dreaming.

“Ugh, I’m going to wake up just saying thank you. Let’s just say I’m a little more grateful and end this.”

“No, I’ll end by saying something I’m more grateful for.”

“The real Choi Do-hyun, you stubborn person!”

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“Ugh!”

He seemed to be coming closer with a distressed expression, but was startled by his older sister who pinched his cheek and squirmed away.

“Anyway, it’s so cute I’m dying!”

How cute.

I want to look manly and cool if possible.

Is it unreasonable because she is younger?

“Ha, yes! I don’t know, forget everything! Get it wet! Let’s drink this until we die~!”

“No, you can’t die though.”

“Uh huh, no T-footers.”

“Tbal guy.. it’s too much.”

Of course, I’m the type of person who gets a T on the MBTI test.

Even so, if you say that out loud, T will also get hurt?

T is a human too..!

“Hmph, ah… drinking with you is so fun and nice. Eunchae I can’t believe this guy enjoyed this fun thing on his own! That’s too much!”

I think he’s probably talking about a company dinner.

“But at that time, my sister had to skip it because she had to broadcast..”

“Are you going to continue playing T-foot, Choi Do-hyun?”

I shake my head at my older sister, who is looking in this direction with narrowed eyes.

“Well, I’m sorry.”

“Okay. good. I like the quick apology!”

My older sister, whose tension has suddenly risen, smiles happily and drinks.

“You’re good at drinking this tasteless stuff, sister.”

“Dohyeon is still a baby, so he doesn’t know the bitter taste of the world. Sobbing. Once you know that, the day will come when alcohol will become sweeter..!”

Some people look at my older sister with a puzzled expression as she says things that make it seem like their age difference is 20 years.

“Anyway, Eunchae, I do all the fun things with you. Let’s do something fun with me too~!”

I’ve done all the fun things…

Well, that’s definitely true.

We drink, we play games together, we have sex, and uh… well, I mean.

“I heard it all.”

“Huh? What?”

He seemed to be gulping down a lot of alcohol, but his cheeks were red and he looked quite cute. Even if I said it with a serious expression, it was just cute.

“I heard you and Eunchae did it!”

“Puuuup-!”

Crazy, what is this guy talking about?

I was so startled that I spit out all the alcohol I had been drinking.

“Oh, sorry.. I was startled..”

“Why are you playing around?”

“No, I can’t help but be surprised. If you say something that can be misunderstood…”

No, if someone said something like that, would you react like this?

Of course, Eunchae and I did it, but isn’t that what you’re asking?

But if not that, what did you do?

“Isn’t it a misunderstanding?”

“Sister, what on earth do you know and how much do you know?”

Jump, jump, jump-

Of course, I don’t have the confidence to listen soberly, so I ask while gulping down soju.

It’s strange, it seems like I used a lot earlier, but now it doesn’t seem to taste anything.

“Ah, if you say something like this, it will be true. Well, Eunchae told me everything. I slept with you.”

No, crazy..! Jeong Eun-chae, what is this bastard really talking about..!

“Oh, I also heard that you are a sex partner.”

…no..! No matter how close you are, don’t you usually say things like that?!

Even though my sister and I know each other, what are you trying to do to my image by saying things like that, you bastard…!

“I’m jealous..”

But my sister’s reaction…

Something is a little strange..?

“..Sister, what did you just say..?”

If you ask back, wondering if you heard it wrong.

“Huh? I’m jealous.”

“I’m jealous, no, what is that…”

“That’s right, I’m jealous because I think I want to do it with you too.”

…is it a dream?

Ah, it’s a dream. Yes, that’s right.

It’s a dream. It’s a dream, then.

Honestly, it doesn’t make sense.

Yep. That’s right.

Oh, if it’s a dream, then okay. This can be happen!

“Ah, what is it? It’s just an ordinary dream, this. Haha!”

Maybe it’s because I’m drunk, but what I was thinking inside comes out of my mouth without me realizing it.

But it’s still okay, right?

Because it’s a dream anyway.

“Huh? This isn’t a dream. It’s reality.”

“Oh, that can’t be possible! It’s a complete dream!”

“Hmm.. Are you still going to call it a dream?”

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uh..? No, what is this…

Suddenly, my older sister leaned in this direction and kissed me.

But the feeling of my lips touching… was so vivid.

“..Don’t play around, sister.”

I had no choice but to admit that this was not a dream.