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[Episode 44] -Can I kiss you?

On the last morning of the sweet weekend, the massage the maid gave me yesterday really worked, my whole body felt so light and my skin was as shiny as a peeled egg. I thought I understood once again why the young maid said, “Wives enjoy getting this.”

It’s been a while since I woke up feeling this refreshed. After a long, healthy sleep, I opened my eyes and felt refreshed. I opened the window that I usually don’t open and stretched out, taking in the warm morning sunlight streaming in through the window with my whole body.

“Keueuung~”

I took a deep breath until my lungs were full, and slowly exhaled, and the smell of the refreshing morning air tickled my nose. It was an ordinary morning air, no different from any other day, but it felt sweeter than ever, perhaps because my body was light and my mood was refreshing.

Just as I was about to start my day in such a pleasant mood, there was a knock on my door. I wrapped the shawl that was lying around around my shoulders and told them to come in. The one who opened the door and poked her head out was none other than Elise, who had been ordered to stay out of my room.

Elise looked at me through the slightly open door, as if trying to keep her promise not to come into my room for a while. I couldn’t help but sigh at how pitiful that sight was, and when I motioned for her to come in, Elise smiled brightly and walked into my room.

“Elise… Didn’t I tell you not to come for a while?”

“That, that’s right, the postman came yesterday and delivered a package. I forgot to give it to my mother, so… I think I should give it to her now…”

“Parcel?”

Elise hesitantly handed me a small packaged box. I took the small box that Elise handed me, wondering if there was a package coming, and checked the invoice written on the paper. The delivery address and the recipient’s name were correct, ‘Trisha’. However, the invoice did not have the sender’s name written anywhere.

I carefully unwrapped the package with a puzzled expression, carefully opened the box and checked inside. Inside the box was a small cosmetics set. I turned my head to check on the dresser and the cosmetics in the box were from the same brand as the cosmetics on my dresser.

“Ahh… The cosmetics store I live in sent me a sample of the cosmetics.”

Now, a memory suddenly came to me. Among the buildings Trisha owned, there was a cosmetics store that lived in a three-story building. I just remembered that the owner of the store, who I knew was doing quite well with noblewomen, would regularly send samples of cosmetics to Trisha, the owner of the building.

“Thank you for telling me, Elise. Is there anything you want? You can take anything.”

“Ah…then…”

Elise, who was staring blankly at the cosmetics in the box, took out a small lip balm from the box. Then, she opened the cap of the lip balm in front of me and slowly began to apply it to her lips. As she bit her lips, which had been completely covered with lip balm, the rough lips of Elise gradually became moist because of the lip balm.

“I’ll do this.”

“Okay, okay.”

I was speechless and stared blankly at Elise as she applied lip balm without realizing it. The sight of her slowly rubbing the lip balm on her lips felt strangely erotic, so I swallowed my saliva without realizing it. In order not to let my throbbing throat be noticed, I turned my head and headed toward the vanity.

Even though it wasn’t a colored lip balm or a colorless lip balm, when I saw Elise’s lips that were so moist and shiny that they were red, I couldn’t help but think of the kiss we had in class, and I felt my face flush as I thought of her lips that were glistening and soaking wet with saliva.

‘Ha… Really…’

Was it the class that was the problem, or was it my body? My body that would get hot whenever I had the chance was now annoying. When I looked at Elise’s lips, I thought of that kiss. If someone heard me, I might sound like a pervert who couldn’t control my sexual desire and would console myself by recalling the things I did with my daughter whenever I had the chance.

‘Is this really a case of sexual frustration…?’

His body was definitely telling him that he was frustrated, but his mind was refusing to admit it. He couldn’t believe that after being treated like that by his daughters and Catherine in class all week, he was still getting hot flashes just from seeing Elise’s lips once.

‘Should I exercise?’

Of course, I remember hearing somewhere that exercise is the best way to relieve sexual frustration. Should I start doing some exercise that I can do in my room? I thought that if I moved my body, these thoughts would be reduced a little, but in that moment, I felt annoyed.

‘I’m not a middle school student. Whenever I get the chance…’

Hoohoo- I let out a sigh that felt like the ground was going to collapse without me realizing it. Isn’t this serious? I’m not an animal, nor am I a hot-blooded middle school student, but I don’t know why I get hot flashes whenever I get the chance and have so many dirty fantasies.

As I was licking my lips without realizing it and organizing the cosmetics in the box, Elise approached me from behind. She peeked her head out from behind my shoulder, stared blankly at the cosmetics I was organizing, and asked me a question as if she was curious.

“Your mother doesn’t wear makeup very often these days, does she?”

“…I don’t have any reason to leave the mansion, I’m just taking care of my skin.”

It’s true that I don’t have to leave the mansion, but the truth is that I’m still not used to wearing makeup. I have Trisha’s memories and my body remembers, but I’ve never worn makeup before coming here. Up until now, all I’ve worn was skin and lotion.

“Mother?”

“Huh?”

While I was organizing my dresser, I heard Elise calling me and turned my head to look at her. Suddenly, something cold and slippery touched my lips. I flinched and tried to pull my head back, but Elise was supporting my head.

In that moment of confusion, when I lowered my eyes, I could immediately see what was touching my lips. The lip balm I had given Elise was resting on my lips. I unconsciously closed my eyes tightly as Elise’s face came close enough for our noses to touch.

Maybe because I had my eyes closed, the feeling of the lip balm sliding down my lips was vivid. The moist corner of the lip balm that touched my upper lip began to run down my lips. When I opened my eyes and looked at Elise, she looked at my lips as if drawing a picture on them, and she opened her mouth slightly and focused on applying the lip balm.

When the lip balm reached my lower lip after my upper lip, I felt a tingling pain on my lower lip. When I bit my lips earlier, my lips were injured, so the part where the lip balm had passed started to hurt. When I saw Elise putting her fist on my cheek and applying lip balm, I swallowed my saliva and my throat started to tingle involuntarily.

‘I thought we were kissing for a moment…’

If Elise had suddenly kissed me, would I have been able to refuse? If she had just brought her lips to mine, wouldn’t I have just let it slide and accepted the kiss like last time? I could feel Elise breathing at a very close distance, and the hot breath felt dizzying as it heated my skin.

As I unconsciously bit my lips that had been coated with lip balm, I could taste the rough taste of lip balm on my lips. As I bit my lips that had been coated with lip balm, I could feel them quivering. As I opened my eyes wider, my eyes met with Elise’s, who was looking down at me while holding the back of my neck.

And then, when I saw her playfully squinting eyes, my heart sank and I had a hard time breathing. It was just Elise who smiled, and she was just looking at me with a smile like usual, but I had no idea my heart would flutter like this.

No, I thought I knew. The way Elise was looking down at me now.

“…Mother?”

“……”

It was a pair of lustful eyes that whispered words of love and looked at me.

Elise’s breathing became more labored, and her excited breath leaked out through her lips. She was looking down at me with a gaze that was a mixture of affection and desire, from a distance where our lips seemed like they could touch at any moment. As her breathing became more labored, and in an atmosphere where it seemed like it wouldn’t be strange if deeper skinship continued naturally, Elise opened her excited lips and asked me.

“…Can I kiss you?”

Elise’s eyes, as she asked me with a sorrowful voice, were dripping with excited desire. As our lips, moistened with lip balm, drew closer and closer, my breaths passing between Elise’s and mine, I barely managed to hold onto my sanity, tightly shut my eyes, and covered Elise’s lips with my palm.

“…No.”

“……”

Elise, who had been rejected for a kiss, made a face as if she was disappointed, but soon smiled again and took a step back. Fortunately, she was able to stop him before he lost his sense of reason. If she had allowed the kiss, it would have been straight to bed.

“…I’m sorry, I ‘promised’ not to do this.”

Elise smiled bitterly and took out her ‘promise’ with me. To me, those words seemed to confirm that I hadn’t forgotten my promise with her. A promise with Elise. A ‘promise’ that she would ‘care’ about Elise’s feelings, so that she wouldn’t forcefully touch me like she did back then.

Elise has kept her promise to me so far. She doesn’t come into my room without permission, and she hasn’t touched me without permission since then. She keeps a certain distance from me, and unless I get close, Elise doesn’t try to approach me. It’s as if she’s giving me time to think.

“Mother, you didn’t forget your ‘promise’, did you?”

“Then,then…”

Elise’s face, smiling faintly while lowering her voice, was somehow scary. Elise, who took another step closer to me, gently turned her head with the corners of her eyes wide, and placed her finger on my lips. I avoided Elise’s gaze by just rolling my eyes out of some inexplicable pressure, and Elise burst out laughing.

“Mom, I’m not very patient.”

“Huh..?”

Before I could even ask what he meant, Elise lowered her head slightly and pushed her face in. Then, with a slap on the cheek, a hot and smooth sensation settled on my skin. At that moment, I was so surprised that my heart sank at the sensation touching my skin. Elise lifted her head and looked down at me.

“I’ll take it for today. To be honest, this time it’s entirely my mother’s fault.”

“My, my fault..?”

“Yes, it’s your fault, Mom. I can’t stand it when you look at me like that.”

While I was speechless and stammering, Elise quickly ran out of the room. What on earth was my expression that made me say something like that? I turned my head and looked at the mirror on the dressing table, and my face reflected in the mirror was so red that it almost burst.

“….ha….”

I tried my best to control my facial expressions, but my reddened skin was beyond my control. I wiped my face with both hands, washed my face dry, and then collapsed on the vanity table.

‘I am…the children’s parent. I am their mother…’

Even if it wasn’t a child I didn’t give birth to, the reality was that I was now Elise’s mother, parent, and guardian.

So I…

‘There’s no way I can accept that kid’s feelings.’