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Again… … Again… …

“… … ”

Seldiane Elconza was walking down the street.

Just blankly, relying on the unconscious for direction.

Her staggering steps seemed to represent her consciousness, which was barely able to conceive of composure.

She still held the fan she had broken in her hand, but she had forgotten even the feeling of it and just walked home like a person who had lost her soul.

The crimson eyes that always held a fierce and fierce aura were actually open wider than usual, but they had lost focus and were staring straight ahead in a helpless manner.

Her cherry-red lips, painted with lipstick, were slightly parted, giving her a foolish expression that had lost all of her dignity as a noblewoman.

“… … ”

As she walked away, as if she had seen a ghost, people passing by looked at her face with a start.

Among them were noble female students returning home from the academy.

“Oh my, Elconza!”

“It’s nice to see you here.”

“How did it get to this point… ”

A group of schoolgirls approached me without any notice,

“… … ”

Crunch… … Crunch… …

Seldianne passed by them as if possessed, unaware of their presence.

“Huh…? What’s wrong…?”

“Why is your expression like that…?”

“Shh, something doesn’t seem right, let’s just go.”

The female students noticed her condition and, although they did not know what was going on, they left quickly, fearing that something unnecessary would happen.

In this way, Celdianne continued walking down the road without paying any attention to her surroundings, as if she had entrusted her consciousness to another being.

The place we arrived was the Elkonza family’s mansion.

“Welcome, Miss.”

“Bag… ”

“Oh my, the debt is ruined.”

From the entrance, as the attendants took her belongings from her hands, Celdianne did not respond at all.

The crimson eyes were wide open, just staring into space.

“I’m ready to take a bath, Miss.”

Seldianne, moved by the hands of her female attendants, took off her clothes and immersed herself in the bathtub of a large bathroom, as if she were a product being manufactured in an automated factory.

“I’ll wash your body for you, miss.”

After soaking for a while, the female attendants who came into the bathhouse in light clothing wiped every corner of Seldianne’s body with soft, lathered towels.

“… … ”

Even as the two people on either side of her were caressing her various parts of her body, Celdianne had a blank expression on her face, as if she had lost all sense of feeling.

After bathing, Celdianne sat on a luxurious chair, wearing a luxurious silk gown, drying her hair with a magic tool that generated warm air, while having her ears cleaned with a cotton swab.

Her normally perfectly curled hair was now loose, flowing down her shoulders in natural waves.

“You’re quiet today, miss.”

“Is there anything that feels uncomfortable?”

After the bath, the maids who were massaging Celdianne’s hands and feet asked her questions with soft smiles.

“… … ”

The female servants felt something was strange as they watched Seldianne remain silent, but they did not bother to ask questions and just went about their work.

After returning home from the academy, the daily care routine was over and the attendants left Seldianne alone in her room to make her feel comfortable.

“If you need anything, please call me anytime, Miss.”

Click—

“읏.”

At the sound of the servant closing the door and leaving, Celdianne’s shoulders flinched as she sat on her chair.

Because the sound seemed to remind me of what had happened before.

“… … ”

Seldianne, who had time to herself, sat on a chair and did nothing, just looking straight ahead until the sun set.

In fact, I wasn’t even aware that time was passing by.

Click—

Once again the door to her room opened, and the butler and maids greeted her politely.

“Dinner is ready, Miss.”

At those words, Seldianne slowly got up from her seat and headed towards the restaurant.

The restaurant had a long, high-end table that could seat about twenty people, and served luxurious, yet healthy, balanced food.

Seldianne naturally took the seat at the head of the table.

Because in the first place, the only food prepared on the table was for her alone.

Her parents, the heads of the Elkonja family, were always busy with their business activities, so they were often out of town for meetings.

That’s why eating dinner alone was a natural habit for Celdiane since childhood.

She was not particularly lonely or had any weak feelings such as wanting more love from her parents.

But today, strangely enough, the image of me having a pleasant meal with someone was before my eyes.

For example, when the boy was eating the packed lunch he brought together in the garden―

Moon, moon, moon, moon, moon, moon, moon,

“Oh, Miss… ?”

At the sound of the butler’s voice calling her in a panic, Celdianne suddenly looked at the trout steak she was slicing.

“… Ah.”

Her knife was scraping the empty space on her plate where food had already been eaten.

At that absurd sight, Celdianne realized that she was truly dumbfounded.

“Is something bothering you, Miss?”

Seldianne quietly shook her head at the old butler’s question.

“I’m okay. I’m just a little under the weather. I’ll stop eating and rest.”

“I see, I understand.”

The butler nodded politely and escorted Celdiane to her room.

Soon the maids took her place with the butler, took off the bathrobe she was wearing and changed her into a negligee.

Although the sun had set and it was still too early to go to bed, the servants had been considerate of Seldianne’s condition and had allowed her to have some time alone in her room early.

“Jasmine tea is prepared.”

Soon the servants brought hot tea to the tea table in her large room.

After pouring the tea appropriately into cups embroidered with ornate patterns, the servants greeted Celdianne and headed out of the room.

“Well, have a good night, Miss.”

“… ”

Click.

The door closed again, and Seldianne sat down at the table, quietly picking up her teacup and taking a sip.

Huroop-

“… Sigh.”

As the warm air spread throughout her body, Seldianne finally felt herself coming back to her senses.

But the first thing that came to mind when I regained consciousness was the memory of the last moment when I parted ways with the boy.

‘You’re so fucking annoying.’

“… !”

The moment she recalled those words, her hands holding the teacup began to tremble.

‘Get out of here, I don’t want to see you.’

“Ah… Ugh… ”

A strange sound comes out of my mouth without me knowing.

But once the memory came to mind, it wouldn’t stop and kept bringing up the next moment.

‘How dare you act friendly with me when you were going to expel me?’

“Haa… Haa… !”

Her heart began to pound and her breathing became rapid.

His last words were extremely fierce.

“Ugh… !”

His voice was as cold as ice.

“Ugh… !”

The look on his face was one of genuine self-loathing.

“Ugh… Ugh… Ahh… !”

A pale despair bloomed on her face, and her crimson eyes trembled endlessly.

The last thing I remember is,

That doorbell that meant the end of a relationship.

bang!

“Aaaaah!”

Clang!

Celdianne, who threw the teacup against the wall without realizing it,

“Miss! What’s wrong?!”

Ignoring the cries of the maids who had rushed into the room, she sat down on the floor and covered her head with both hands.

“Ugh… Ugh… Ah… !”

“Miss!”

The maids surrounded her as she groaned in fear, stroking her arms and shoulders, but Celdianne shook her head and barely managed to squeeze out words.

“Me… Get out… ! Leave me alone… !”

“Yes, net!”

The maids felt a cold sweat run down their spines as they watched Seldianne appeal, forgetting even her usual way of speaking, but they quickly closed the door and went out as ordered.

Left alone in the quiet room, Celdianne staggered to her feet and walked over to her bed, which was decorated with a luxurious canopy.

Bam,

She crawled across the bed to the head of the bed, knelt down, and buried her head in the pillow―

“AAAHH …

I screamed loudly.

“Ahhh! Aaaahhh!”

Boom! Boom!

Her fists pounded the bed as if venting her anger.

“You lady… You lady ruined everything! Aaaah!”

It’s ruined.

Now it’s really ruined beyond repair.

That was the greatest emotion that Celdiane Elconza felt.

“Why would I… Why on earth would I say something like that! Ahh!”

Puck, puck, puck,

Celdianne continues to cry, banging her head on the pillow.

An explosive number of thoughts began to bloom in her head.

They were all memories associated with one boy.

Erto the commoner.

Every moment she interacted with him was swirling around in the girl’s heart.

“This fool! This idiot! Because of his pride!”

Celdianne looked at the chessboard, which was already checkmated, and thought back on her actions up until this afternoon.

That shouldn’t have happened.

You shouldn’t have hurled such abuse at Erto.

It’s really over now.

His patience ran out.

Erto, who seemed like he would always accept her, was looking at her with clear resentment and hatred.

‘You’re so fucking annoying.’

Every time I recalled that look in his eyes, a scream burst out as if my lungs were being squeezed.

“Ahhh! Aaaahhh!”

It was a good thing he had buried his face in the pillow, but if he had screamed, the servants would have disobeyed their orders and barged back into the room.

“―Aaaaahh …

After screaming like that for a long time, Celdianne’s thoughts went back to the beginning of all the incidents.

Erto the commoner.

Meeting him was the starting point of this torn heart.

*

Celdiane Elconza.

The eldest daughter of the Elkonja family, a magician with exceptional talent, and the daughter of a noble family who is naturally destined to inherit the position of head of the family.

From a young age, she realized that she could shape the world as she wished.

Just because I was born great,

Even though he didn’t show any signs of it, those around him took the initiative and supported him.

Wherever you go, whatever you do, whatever you say,

There was no human being who raised an objection to that.

To rebel against oneself is to rebel against the Elkonza family.

She had never in her life witnessed a human being so foolish as to commit such a suicidal act.

It was in this way that Celdiane Elconza’s values were established as she experienced firsthand how important the innate gap in the life of a noble family was and how it was a high wall that inferior beings could not overcome.

But at some point, she began to feel an emptiness in her heart.

No, it didn’t just happen in an instant.

An empty space that has never been filled from the beginning.

After a long time, that empty space began to feel like a hole.

Celdiane Elconza thought.

What is the identity of that feeling that keeps leaving a feeling of emptiness in my heart?

But no matter how much she thought about it, she couldn’t find anything in her life that would fit there.

It was strange.

The world was a place where things went the way I wanted them to.

If you have the status of the Elkonja family on your back, there is nothing you cannot achieve.

The question grew and grew, and eventually became Celdiane Elconja’s greatest worry.

She feared that the void might be filled with the fruits of her labor, so she trained hard without letting her natural magical talents rot.

Although she was born with noble bloodlines, she achieved more than that on her own and eventually succeeded in gaining everyone’s recognition.

But the hole in his heart was not filled even by the gaze of those around him who looked up to his efforts.

no,

This is not it.

Celdiane Elkonja constantly changed the direction of her life to quench her thirst.

He tried to crush those who were superior to him, and he also tried to suppress those who were inferior to him.

On the other hand, I tried to show them favor.

But none of those paths led to the results she wanted.

The thirst grew endlessly, burning my throat.

As the center of the noble Elkonza family, he thought of his life as an ideal banquet where everything was perfectly arranged.

But as time went by, the thought that became clearer in her mind was that the food she most wanted to eat was missing.

Where on earth can you find such fantastic food?

With such burning questions and longings, Celdiane Elkonja was old enough to enter the Academy.

The Academy was a new stage, but for Celdiane Elkonja, it was a familiar environment filled with beings she could naturally place under her feet.

No matter where you go, it is just a miniature garden that narrowly embodies the world called society.

Disappointment filled her heart at the thought that even there she would not find what she was looking for.

Then one day,

She saw a common boy daring to set foot in the garden where she reigned.

A very ordinary boy who doesn’t seem to have much of a talent as a man or as a wizard.

It was extremely frustrating for such a being to appear in a place for the nobility and lower its dignity.

So she ran straight to the boy and questioned him about his right to enter this place.

Nothing irritated her more than the inability of an inferior to be aware of his own place.

however,

The words that came out of the boy’s mouth were,

“So what? What do you want me to do?”

―

――

Huh?

At that moment, Seldianne Elconja felt the corners of her lips twitching without her knowing it.

A drop of water fell into the emptiness of her heart,

It was causing a huge stir.