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As you wish.

How wonderful it would be if I could tell the truth correctly.

The fleeting past mistakes pierced her body like arrows, but I, who couldn’t keep my oath due to past regrets, still had a secret hidden from her until now.

Brittany Rachel.

I have been using the name Rachel for a long time.

There was no such thing as a name before it changed.

In the underworld, I almost died fighting with the scum on a fake day, and I survived only because of this appearance and ability.

Desperately, I tried to survive and easily abandoned humanity.

She didn’t know Al Li.

“…Why am I holding a grudge against this man?”

I stared at his face, which was deep in a nap. It’s a face I’ve seen many times.

Because I felt guilty about my past actions.

Whenever I confronted him, it made me feel somewhat relieved.

Because I had lived with so much guilt just a few weeks ago.

I had no strength to keep anything, lost my family, and was a weak human being who even broke the pitiful oath I had held in my heart.

“…Hm,”

I gently touched my lips with my hand.

His warmth and moist feeling still seemed to linger.

Rough and soft. Perhaps it would be better to ask for a slap on the cheek next time.

Rachel wiped her face with one hand and thought to herself.

“…What am I doing?”

I have never felt so nervous before, even after living until now. Even more than being trapped with colleagues in a cave while dragons roamed outside.

The brain that maintained composure even in desperate situations felt strange when standing in front of him.

“But…”

In the end, I couldn’t push it away.

Instead, wasn’t it pushed away from that side?

She was just reaching out half-heartedly, and he must have noticed.

He ignored it or got angry, but she had nothing to say.

Despite knowing that,

“…I couldn’t control my feelings.”

Regretful and pitiful mindset.

The greatest enemy and puzzle.

Rachel thought.

Ian is his exclusive maid and lover. Moreover, after dealing with a saint, some signs were shown.

Already two of them are there, but is there room for his miserable self to intervene?

Especially if he really reveals the long-standing acting and lies to him.

How will he see himself?

Amidst endless questions,

He suffered more from the longing that unconsciously looked at him somewhere in his mind without any thoughts.

-…Rachel?

Really, an unfamiliar voice.

I wish you wouldn’t call my name.

No, I feel good inside. But this good feeling was clearly false… No, it was definitely wrong.

Even when he became rough and sensitive.

A kind personality that accepts without pushing away.

-Another nightmare… Well, you probably didn’t bring the medicine. Would you like to lie down together after a long time?

As if knowing everything about himself, he immediately grasps the problem.

It’s more unsettling to know that he understands everything when pretending to be indifferent.

Such pure concern.

If I had a wicked heart… would you be disappointed in me?

-A good person…. The end, go….

A faint plea heard in the mind as if muffled by noise.

Certainly, the thought of becoming a bad parent to him was bitter.

In fact, the heart that once swallowed that oath was now harboring affection for him.

The nightmare was a lie.

Until I left, you and I lied alone.

Since that day, I no longer have nightmares.

…Not having nightmares was all thanks to Ian.

“….Ian.”

“…”

“When the time comes, I will tell everything with my own mouth. I’m sorry. If that time comes, even if you hate me, I will accept it calmly.”

Rachel briefly placed her gloves on the table and began to mutter while touching his cheek.

However, she couldn’t cling to Ian.

She had to return to her family.

Ian would leave the family like the other sons and live in the estate.

Most of the incurable diseases had also been cured.

“…This might be the last.”

He took off his deeply pressed hat and coat.

It wasn’t the Ian who was awkward and couldn’t catch a single light.

Now he knows.

He is a different person from before.

If there is a goal that he really wants to achieve, he becomes capable of sacrificing himself to obtain it, such a person.

“…Even covered in stubbornness.”

There was no way around it. She had been a woman who couldn’t resist even until the moment when he pulled her into his arms.

…

The next morning,

Rachel, who got up early and straightened her clothes, touched the letter.

“…”

Will she write again?

Even if they can’t meet. It was a hope to keep their hearts connected like this.

At that moment,

“Are you already trying to leave?”

“…!!!”

Unintentionally muffling her mouth, she let out a silent scream.

Just a moment ago, she had secretly embraced him and inhaled his scent from his chest, but he seemed to be smirking as if he knew everything about her.

Blushing like a tomato, embarrassed, he grabbed her hand and pulled her onto the bed.

“Just a moment ago, you were embracing me passionately, why are you leaving without even saying goodbye now?”

“Ah, um…. I… I, don’t!!!!”

Sucking-

Once again, the thread of saliva formed between the man and woman who clung to each other.

Unable to push him away, Rachel resisted.

Her pupils seemed to be swirling right now.

Giggling,

She thought she was asleep.

The fact that she left a mark on the maid’s biceps and pressed her face against his chest so hard that her waist hurt, all of it was exposed.

As the truth sank in, steam seemed to rise from Rachel’s forehead where she had screamed silently inside.

“I guess he woke up just now,” she comforted herself.

Ian, who hugged her again after detaching his lips, said, “You, you’re… too much. Pretending to sleep and playing with someone’s feelings…”

However, Rachel, who was secretly thrilled by Ian’s grasp, avoided his gaze.

As her subtle breath roughly touched the area around her neck, the corners of her mouth twitched.

She couldn’t approach him directly when he was awake, but if she pulled away from him, he would respond faithfully.

“Ian, is… my embrace comfortable?”

“Yes, of course. Is there any reason for me to dislike it?”

“…What about more than that maid?”

“……”

It’s a timid revenge.

Rachel remembers it well.

In front of her eyes, the maid had said something about how her embrace was the best in the world.

But she wouldn’t deny that Yuria, the maid, suited the seat next to her the best.

When they were alone together, she secretly hoped for herself.

Casting a sidelong glance, the boy spoke with a confident voice rather than a troubled expression.

“Yes, it’s fine.”

“…”

She knew it was a lie.

But her body ‘misunderstood’ due to his gaze and fervor.

Unconsciously erasing the records in her mind.

To the extent that her heart had deeply and greatly penetrated the dry desert-like feeling.

Afterward, leaving marks on her body or wearing a ring on her finger.

It was a bit too obvious.

“So, what will you do about the saint?”

While changing the subject, Rachel probed his thoughts.

It had been momentarily forgotten, but the starting point was the curse of the saint.

“First, I partly lifted the curse. I thought of using the uncertainty of what might happen in the future as an excuse to take her around or send her to the family.”

“…Without sending her to the Holy Kingdom?”

“For the higher-ups, the saint is merely a convenient consumable and a signboard. Even if she returns, there will be competition to get hold of the saint whose name has risen again. It’s better to pretend to have taken in the bomb because we couldn’t completely lift the curse. The saint also agreed to this.”

Listening carefully to Ian’s words, Rachel suddenly remembered.

“By the way, what happened to the curse?”

The demon has been removed, but the magic and magical energy remain. Even if a professional curse discriminator from the Holy Kingdom were to come, they wouldn’t be able to find fault with our words. That’s actually the case. The curse still remains.

…

…But are you coming back towards our family? Why?

Actually, I need to go to Mount Seol to find the remains of the Ice Dragon.

Rachel raised her head for a moment.

Her hand holding the shirt was trembling slightly.

Isn’t that a story from mythology? Finding such imaginary things…

If you see, you’ll understand. It’s not mythology.

…I hate that I believe your words so easily.

I’m fine with it.

…Shut up.

Look at you. You’re embarrassed because I interrupted-

– Pinch.

Ian pinched his side hard, twisting.

…!

Looking at Ian’s arrogant face made her feel refreshed.

However, Rachel’s cheek turned slightly red as she calmly organized the situation.

Then… you need my help. The path to Mount Seol is bright anyway. I’ve lived there half the time… or so I thought.

He was a former expert dragon hunter.

There were times when he roamed Mount Seol like his own home, so there shouldn’t be any obstacles like last time.

But unlike Rachel’s sparkling eyes, Ian spoke while avoiding her gaze slightly.

It’s okay. It’s a story from mythology, so we’ll take it slow-

…

Rachel stared blankly.

It meant giving him a chance.

As if asking, “Do you really want me to leave the room?”