episode_0043

Grumble, I was hungry. But it was okay.

Eating would eventually cause a sense of loss, and I might not be able to support myself any longer.

I didn’t want to collapse. At this moment, when I didn’t like eating it with semen, and I was reluctant to just eat it, the only choice I had was not to eat it in the first place.

After skipping breakfast and lunch, I stayed alone in my room this afternoon and tried to suppress the feeling of my stomach shrinking.

Agnes went into Linda’s room to talk to Kylon for a while, but she guessed it would be nice. With that thought in mind, I lay down on the bed and curled up.

Yesterday and today, I gave Agnes some cheek pampering, and I decided to be thankful that it created a situation where no one would say anything even if I rolled over in bed alone.

I didn’t know it would happen like this, but isn’t it true that people actually roughly guess what will happen in the future? I frowned, thinking strange thoughts.

After all, should I eat anything? I used to eat all three meals a day, but suddenly I skipped two meals, and it wasn’t really painful.

If I had skipped a meal or two from the beginning, this wouldn’t have happened, but it was really driving me crazy.

After suffering for a long time, I unconsciously placed my hand on my thigh.

I fumbled with my hand on my right thigh, where the dagger for self-defense was, then lifted my skirt and took out the dagger inside.

People can only feel pain. I’ve heard this somewhere before.

Wouldn’t it be better to feel pain somewhere else than to feel your intestines tightening and your stomach shrinking? A foolish thought passed by.

But isn’t it a good method? There was me doing it.

So, after staring at it, I hurriedly got up, sat down on the bed, and gently grabbed the hilt of the dagger.

I shouldn’t have stabbed too deeply, as my abilities would have disappeared.

Just pressing down was enough to relieve this stomach pain.

So I took a deep breath, carefully placed the blade on my finger, and applied force.

Then the sting of the sharp blade digging into my fingers soon turned into pain as it dug into my skin a little.

Oh, no. If you do any more, Kylon will catch you.

Because now my body won’t be able to heal the wound.

Thinking like that, I immediately took out the dagger and looked at the index finger of my left hand, where there was a wound and blood was starting to form.

The drop made of blood gradually grew in size and turned into a sphere, and at the end, the surface tension became so large that it could not withstand it, and it lost its shape with a pop.

I started sucking the blood flowing from my finger with my mouth to prevent it from touching my clothes. At the same time, I felt the taste of iron in my mouth and at the same time, I licked the wound with my tongue in the hope that it would heal quickly.

Lick.

After sucking for a while, I took out my hand and looked at the index finger I had been sucking just a moment ago.

I don’t know if it was my tongue, my saliva, or the wound healed quickly because it wasn’t that deep, but I was relieved to know that it had healed quickly, and I gripped the dagger tightly to erase the pain of empty stomach that I felt again.

Deep.

“Oh, I made a mistake… ”

it hurts. sick.

When it comes to controlling my strength, I was paying too much attention and putting too much strength into my hand to control my strength, so I ended up exerting too much effort with just one misstep.

As I was looking at my finger where the knife had gone deep, I thought that sucking it with my mouth would only make the wound more painful, so I placed it away from my clothes and away from my body.

The straight, deep wound hurts so much. It was throbbing, as if signaling pain, revealing its presence.

Blood drips, drips, drips towards the floor.

What should I do if my hymen is gone and my body won’t heal on its own?

so painful.

As I looked at the blood drops falling to the floor with such embarrassment, the throbbing sensation in my hands disappeared, and at the same time, the blood falling to the floor gradually decreased.

“… … Huh?”

After breaking the hymen, I was sure I lost my powers, so I haven’t hurt myself since.

Above all, I never dreamed that this ability would come back because Kylon protected me from getting hurt.

It’s true that you can’t necessarily believe what the king said in the first place, but I didn’t know much about it.

I had to think a lot about things like that just having a hymen pierced doesn’t mean my abilities disappear, and that the standard for losing a virgin is a little different from what I thought.

Why are you doing this? What’s the problem?

Even in the midst of all this confusion, what was certain was that my body’s ability to heal itself on its own terms had not disappeared.

Does the fact that the ability did not disappear even after the hymen be pierced mean that losing a virgin is different from losing a hymen?

Since I had no idea, I had no idea what to do.

“… … .”

I put the dagger back into the sheath on my thigh.

Then, just in case, I pushed it into the table drawer and looked around carefully.

I saw a rag in the corner of the room, and I was relieved after quickly wiping the blood with it.

First of all, I thought it wouldn’t be good for Kylon to know.

All I have to do is pierce the hymen right away, right? What I was doing was a hymen penetration show, but it was obvious what would happen to me if I found out that it wasn’t the end.

After groaning, Kailon looked towards the room where Agnes and Linda would be.

Feeling a cold sweat break out, I carefully took off my veil and placed it on the table.

Maybe I was momentarily scared, but after shaking my stuffy hair and straightening it up, I trembled at the sound of the door opening.

I turned my head toward the opening door, put on the veil I had picked up again, and Agnes was there.

“Ah, that saint.”

It’s a surprise.

I thought my heart was dropping.

“Yes?”

I didn’t want anyone to know that my abilities had returned, so I looked at Agnes calmly.

As I gazed at my brilliant blonde hair, she saw my reaction and spoke cautiously.

“Thanks to you, I feel a little closer to Kailon.”

“Thank goodness.”

As Kylon’s second cock told me about his progress, I just listened.

There will come a day when he directly says that he is becoming more and more addicted to Kylon and cannot escape from it.

Come to think of it, Linda is a masochist, Flora is a hypnotist, then what is Agnes?

I do not know. Well, I didn’t think it would be that helpful even if I knew, so I thought I’d just leave it at that, but Agnes continued speaking.

“Oh, come to think of it, you didn’t eat a single meal today. Kailon bought you a meal, and he said he was looking for a saint?”

Why is Kylon me? I almost freaked out, but after hearing the reason, I quickly understood.

Still, seeing that he was trying to feed me separately, I thought he must be a good guy, so I nodded.

“Ah… Thank you for letting me know.”

“Are you in pain?”

“Yes, yes. I’m fine.”

Rather than that, we just talked a few times, and it felt strange because I felt like I had built up goodwill from someone I was wary of.

There was no need for him to be that friendly with me, but seeing him be so friendly made me feel like I couldn’t get used to it.

After hearing Agnes’ words, I looked around and looked closely at the table drawer, thinking I should take the dagger back with me, but I thought it would be a bit of a problem if I had the dagger in front of the needlessly sharp Kailon and it was taken away, so I decided to stop. did.

I knocked on the door of the room where Kailon was, and when I went in, there was Linda, who seemed to be in a bad mood, and Kailon, who had already prepared to leave.

“Ah, you’re here. Linda, stay with Agnes in the next room for a moment.”

“Ugh. Okay.”

Maybe it’s because of Agnes? I thought about it, but soon realized that it felt like I had taken Kylon away from him, and I sighed internally.

Agnes’ likeability seemed to have risen, but Linda’s likeability had hit rock bottom and it felt like she was going into a basement.

It would have been great if they had just added plus or minus zero, but I could only feel through human relationships here that the world is not so easy.

After leaving the inn, I walked carefully next to Kailon.

A veil, a cape, a dress, and gold threads embroidered in various places were draped over my body, and perhaps because of that, many people’s eyes were focused on me.

And sometimes there were people who looked strange.

While feeling those gazes, I was quietly following Kailon. Kailon, who had packed food on the streets of the royal capital, put the food in his inventory and took me to a deserted place.

When I came to the outskirts of the royal capital, where I thought there would be no one and no one would pass by, I looked around and looked at Kailon.

“Why are you here while eating… ?”

“… Are you asking because you don’t know?”

When I asked Kailon with narrowed eyebrows, he looked strange at the question and was unfastening his belt.

As he showed his will to take off his pants, my eyes were wide and my mouth was speechless in shock.

I knew why he was doing this, and I was grateful, but I wanted to decline.

“It’s okay, so don’t take it off… !”