episode_0043

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Time passed. As the second hand continued to run continuously, the sun was setting and evening was approaching. The sky had become dark, but it was not completely dark, and for some reason it felt pleasant. I felt comfortable with this cool breeze flowing through my cheeks.

It’s as if it washes away my current worries and conflicts.

Hayoon went outside for a moment and enjoyed the cooling air. The warm spring sunlight gave way to a pleasant coolness in the evening. However, contrary to the refreshing wind and clear air, Hayun’s hair was extremely complicated.

No matter how much she let go of her worries and concerns, the residue that remained made her groan. A painful today, and a painful tomorrow. The fact that she would now have to face the anxious gaze of others when she went to school scared her. Well, it’s clear that anyone who treats someone sensitively will be immediately ostracized from the group.

If it were his true friends, there would be a few people who stayed, but regardless, he didn’t think he could endure the attention of those around him. As a result, Hayoon’s mind became distracted little by little.

What should I do? I had no idea what kind of face I should leave school with or how I should greet the kids. That’s right, since he often hangs out with girls, there was no guarantee that my story would never come out.

Thinking like that, she sighed and slumped her shoulders.

“Ha.”

Just as there were clouds in such a clear and beautiful sky, Hayun’s mind was becoming complicated. I was wondering if I should really take a leave of absence like this and be with the students of class 19, the same class as Hansol. As she was walking around the apartment complex, Hayoon caught the sight of Hansol, who had come down and was heading to a nearby supermarket.

Hayun was worried that she might be burdening Hansol, who already had a lot of worries, but in the end, she said that all such worries were pointless and closed her eyes tightly and moved forward.

Hayun walked quickly and caught up with Hansol, who had wide strides, and pulled the hem of Hansol’s clothes from behind. Hansol was embarrassed by the sudden feeling and turned his head back.

He knew that his sister had gone out, but he didn’t expect her to be hanging out in a place like this, so he was surprised and spoke to Hayun.

“Who, older sister?”

Hansol was a little embarrassed because his sister, whose instability was evident on the outside, looked like she was about to collapse at any moment, but he tried not to show it and spoke calmly.

Hayoon then trembled at the sound of Hansol’s voice, but soon came to her senses and carefully opened her mouth.

“Hansol, what should I do?”

Hayoon, like a lost child who couldn’t even figure out where to go or where to go, asked Hansol. And after hearing those words, Hansol carefully asked back, ‘Why?’ Even though Hansol already knew why he said that, he joined in to make him look weak.

The more a person showed weakness, and the more a person was provided with a place to lean on, the weaker the person became in front of that pillar. And, the closer the relationship, the easier it was to penetrate that gap.

And Hayun, who had no way of knowing that, carefully continued speaking in response to Hansol’s question.

“I think I failed a lot of exams anyway… I was wondering if I should take a leave of absence.”

Hansol was silent for a moment after hearing those words. Should he keep dropping his older sister out of school like this? Or, I wondered if I should encourage my sister like that. While he was thinking about it for a moment, a sigh came out of Hansol’s mouth.

Not long after that, Hansol came to a conclusion and spoke to his sister.

“Sister. Just wait a little longer. Because not even a day has passed yet.”

Anyway, even if my older sister dropped out of school like this, she wouldn’t have more opportunities to talk to me, so it wasn’t a good thing. The most important thing was what happened to my sister.

If he didn’t go to school like this, he would recover and go to school the next year as if nothing had happened, only to have his older sister who was two years ahead of him while he was in the military. Hansol decided that it was a bit difficult and turned his head with a worried look on his face.

Hansol faced Hayun and continued speaking calmly in a voice that seemed to reassure her.

“Besides, you’ve already reached the midterm exam. If you think your score is the problem, just skip that lecture.”

When I made a suggestion that seemed appropriate, Hayun nodded, saying that it could be right. However, Hansol had different thoughts than Hayoon.

Anyway, if the problem was interpersonal relationships at school, I just hoped it would get worse and my sister would get even more tired of school life.

With those thoughts in mind, Hansol looked at his older sister intently, hoping that her relationships with others would become estranged and that she would become mentally devastated to the point where she would say that she did not want to go to school like this.

However, Hayun, who does not know Hansol’s true intentions, opened her mouth with determination, saying that what Hansol said was right, and that since there is something that has been done so far, what has not yet been ruined can be corrected.

“… So, should I hold on just a little longer?”

“Hold on just a little longer. Still, it’s okay.”

Hansol comforted Hayun, and Hayun nodded, feeling a little relieved. I kept my mouth shut and told myself not to judge too hastily, thinking that I could just visit and judge for now.

Has it calmed down a little like that? Hansol brushed Hayun’s hair for a moment, then glanced at the surroundings and spoke in a whisper.

“It’s outside. Just calm down a little. Just rest for now. I’ll go to the supermarket and come back.”

“Huh?”

Then he pulled away Hayun, who was clinging close to him, and carefully took a step back. Hayun, who was suddenly pushed away, looked blankly at Hansol.

Hayun, who was looking at that, just stared blankly at Hansol’s back.

Oh, maybe the relationship before was maintained because Hansol tried to cling to me even when I tried to push him away. Thinking like that, I lowered my trembling gaze.

It wasn’t a good relationship to begin with. However, I had no idea that the feeling of being suddenly thrown away would be so unpleasant. Could it be that he treated Hansol like this? The anxiety passed by me.

I knew very well how scary it was to lose the relationship I had maintained for so long. Isn’t this a feeling and thing that I felt desperately even during the day?

I couldn’t bear this relationship breaking down at school, these emotions happening at home as well. But Hayun, who had no idea what to do, just stood there blankly and watched.

“… What should I do?”

Hayun, who could no longer tell whether she was on the right path or on the wrong path, looked at the street with empty eyes. I had the illusion that all the sounds next to me had gone far away. Something further away than what was visible caught my eye.

It was now difficult for her to decide for herself what was what, so she just stayed still, unable to follow Hansol or turn her head.

Now that Hansol was clinging to him and following him around, he felt like he was alone. There was nowhere to lean on. There was also concern that the sanctuary might disappear.

I was afraid of losing the relationship I had until now. It wasn’t a simple sexual story about lusting after Hansol’s body. I was just afraid that everything I had been so close to would disappear. If that happens, who will he be able to talk openly about now? saying.

Even though I tried to distance myself from this relationship, once I did, the anxiety didn’t go away.

As close as our bodies were, weren’t we also close in our hearts? Wasn’t it a relationship where we were able to open up about the concerns that were deep in our hearts, as our bodies were deeply intertwined?

Regardless of whether it was a younger sibling or a family member, once you treated him as a person, he soon became someone you couldn’t lose. I felt resentful at myself for trying to push him away, and I had no idea what to do with this relationship that had suddenly developed, so I just stood there in a daze.

He was a fool who knew nothing, and he was such an idiot that he couldn’t even make a sound decision. He said and closed his mouth.

Seeing Hansol turn around and walk away like this made Hayun feel uneasy, wondering if their relationship was really going to end like this, so she raised her head and walked away. Step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, step, she moved forward.

The pace got faster and faster, and before I knew it, I had caught up with Hansol, who was far away. Hayun, who was out of breath, followed behind Hansol, and Hansol, who noticed this, carefully turned his head to look back at Hayun.

“… Sister?”

Even after seeing that scene, Hayun couldn’t put her thoughts into words. Well, the relationship he had been trying to push away until now was finally clinging to him, so he couldn’t ask for it to stop.

As expected, Hansol was now trying to give up his feelings. He knew that if he said something like this to Hansol, he would be criticized by now.

Hayun, who was hesitant to speak, took a moment to choose her words. Hayun, who was thinking about what excuse to give, finally opened her mouth and said something else.

“No, there was something I wanted to buy, but I forgot.”

“… … If you just send me a text, I’ll get it for you.”

Hansol, who had no way of knowing Hayun’s true intentions, simply reacted indifferently to Hayun’s words.

“No. This means that you can only know what is good if you choose it yourself.”

Hayun somehow tried to make excuses for her actions. Hansol, who was dazed for a moment at the situation whose meaning he could not understand, moved on, satisfied with the fact that his older sister wanted to go shopping with him.

*

After returning home, I focused my attention on the video on my smartphone. Inside, there was my sister who took off her clothes as I told her to, and there was my sister who masturbated and climaxed while squirting fluid.

When I listen to other friends’ stories, most of them talk about their relationship with their older sister, saying that the older sister takes good care of them, that they bicker and fight, or that the older sister just tells them to do various things.

But that was all natural, and we had fun talking with each other.

Even in those stories, it was never mentioned that there was an older sister like this. The topic of conversation about one’s older sister was something that came up only when it was changed to the older sister from an AV, but after actually entering it, people often pretend to vomit and tell people to clean it up.

I couldn’t understand that reaction. He had a sister who did as he was told and did what she was told, so he wondered why he didn’t get along with her so well. Is it because humans are creatures with self-centered thinking? I couldn’t understand what my other friends were saying because I had never experienced their family situations.

However, since he couldn’t even talk about this relationship, he could only think about it.

It was pretty. I’ve always heard other people say that my older sister is pretty, and objectively, I thought the same. Of course, if you are brother and sister, you can just say that regardless of what the older sister looks like, but for me it was a little different.

I watched my older sister, naked, leaning back on the sofa, masturbating with her waist forward, over and over again, and my erect penis was twitching as if it was going to come out of my pants at any moment.

I just wanted to see it, but I guess I have no choice but to solve it once. A thought occurred to me.

I thought I did something a little disappointing. To be honest, I wanted my sister to quit school and just focus on me, but now that I don’t know if it will work out or not, I don’t know if it was a good thing to reduce the number of times and the deadline.

It was just a gamble that my sister didn’t seem to like, so I still had to wait. Even if it doesn’t work out, if summer comes after the end of the semester, you can stay at home all day with the air conditioner on and say you want to mix, and you can go to the sea and do it in a place that is out of sight from the beach, or at a pension with the window open and body in. .

I doubted whether my sister would accept those things, but I moved my hand, imagining that it would be nice if that were possible.