episode_0043
by adminA few days after receiving his first daughter from Su-ah, Si-hyuk is going to the bookstore with Chae-won.
Because today is the autograph session of the author of ‘To the Ant I Love’ that is being held at the bookstore where we went on a date last time.
The two rode the subway to the bookstore and had a pleasant conversation about books.
After receiving the autograph, I quickly arrived at the bookstore as I chatted with the author about what I wanted to say.
About ten people were standing in line to get the author’s autograph as he sat at his desk.
Chaewon and Sihyuk also stood in line, taking out books from their bags to have them signed.
The writer was much younger and prettier than Shihyuk had expected.
‘I knew she was a woman, but I didn’t know she was pretty.’
She wears glasses like Chaewon, has a large chest, and a calm aura, so I thought that if Chaewon were to mature more, she would act like that.
Of course, Chaewon was prettier than the writer.
While I was thinking like that, it was soon our turn to get autographs.
“Hello~”
The author greeted the much younger Chaewon and Sihyuk kindly and picked up his pen with a friendly smile.
“Hello. Please sign here.”
Shihyuk said while handing over the book, ‘To the beloved Ant’.
“Oh, please help me too.”
Chaewon also held out a book.
“Oh my, this is the first time I’ve seen such a cute couple as my fans.”
Shihyuk responded lightly to what the writer said.
“We’re not a couple.”
“Ah···.”
When Si-hyuk said that, Chae-won made a slightly strange expression.
Shihyuk continued speaking with an expression that seemed both disappointed and sad.
“Not yet.”
“···!”
Then, Chaewon suddenly looked down at the floor with a red face.
It’s a cute reaction that can easily tell the emotional state.
“That’s how it is~”
The author, who looked at Sihyuk and Chaewon as if they were cute younger siblings, signed the two books he had prepared.
After receiving autographs, the two said they were looking forward to his next work and took a picture together.
After receiving the autograph, Chaewon hugged the book with a look of joy on her face that anyone could tell was there.
Si-hyuk also felt good because he was a fan of the author of ‘To the Ant I Love’ just like Chae-won.
“Want to read some more of the book?”
“Let’s do that!”
The two took out books and sat next to each other to read them, just like on their last date, and spent time together.
After about two hours, it was almost time for dinner, so Sihyuk suggested that we go eat dinner together.
Of course, Chaewon nodded her head in agreement.
After buying the book he wanted, Sihyuk came out of the bookstore and asked.
“What do you want to eat?”
“Um···. Sihyuk, is there anything you want to eat?”
“There’s a famous meat restaurant nearby. How’s the meat?”
“I like meat.”
Chaewon smiled brightly while eating grilled meat at a restaurant.
Chaewon, who usually covered her eyes with her bangs and gave off a gloomy vibe, seemed like a completely different person.
Shihyuk thought that this side of Chaewon wasn’t bad and ordered a drink.
“Now that I have your autograph, let’s have a drink.”
“Yeah, but··· You can’t get me drunk and take me to a hotel···?”
Chaewon said that she was a little scared that Sihyuk would make her drink too much, even though she had suggested that they drink together.
“Don’t worry. I don’t have any forced tastes.”
It was ridiculous for someone who was blackmailing to say those words, but Chaewon believed them.
If it was the good Sihyuk she knew, he really wouldn’t have such tastes.
Chaewon had come to firmly believe that there must be a reason why Sihyuk was threatening her and her sisters.
Sihyuk poured soju for Chaewon and asked her lightly.
“How much can you drink?”
“Um···. Actually, I don’t know because I rarely drink alcohol. I only had a light drink with Soo-ah once···. Then, what about you, Si-hyuk?”
“I have about two bottles.”
“Really? You drink really well.”
“This is average.”
I could drink more than two bottles if I wanted to, but then I would have a hard time controlling myself, so I said two bottles.
“Salty.”
“Salty~”
Chaewon, who was unusually tense, emptied the soju glass in one go.
“Ugh···. It’s not tasty.”
And then he picked up the meat and ate it, leaving a sour expression on his face.
Sihyuk silently grilled the meat and placed it on Chaewon’s plate.
Chaewon noticed Sihyuk’s consideration and said in a small voice, “Thank you, shyly.”
Chae-won, who had poured soju into Shi-hyeok’s glass, tried to pour it into her own glass, but Shi-hyeok stopped her and poured it for her.
“You shouldn’t make things yourself at a drinking party.”
“Oh, sorry. I don’t know···.”
“They say that if you do it yourself, you won’t have a lover for 3 years. So don’t do it. It’s hard to wait 3 years.”
“···.”
Chaewon blushed at Sihyuk’s fluttering voice and toasted again.
After emptying her glass a few more times, Chaewon was amazed by the tingling sensation she felt for the first time in her life.
“Something feels weird.”
“What’s weird?”
“Uh···. I feel dizzy, um···. Something feels really hazy···.”
Chaewon, who was blinking her eyes slowly, drank a few more glasses and then staggered as she tried to get up to go to the bathroom.
“Ugh.”
-Snap
Si-hyuk, who caught Chae-won like that, was worried about her.
“Are you okay? Can’t you drink any more?”
“Hey, I’m not drunk at all. I’m going to the bathroom, so order some soju. ”
As Chaewon spoke with a big smile, Sihyuk noticed that Chaewon was drunk.
“The amount of alcohol is not even half a bottle.”
In the end, Si-hyuk, who had been following Chae-won around until she returned from the bathroom in case she fell, ordered another bottle of soju as Chae-won had said.
-Kkkk
“This is weird···. I clearly didn’t like it because it tasted like alcohol before, but why doesn’t it taste like alcohol now?”
Chaewon tilted her head while drinking the soju that Sihyuk had poured for her.
Chaewon, who had been staring at the soju glass like that, took a light shot.
Maybe it was because she had a pretty face, but her drunken appearance was cute, but I was worried about how I should take her home.
Sihyuk, who had eaten all the remaining meat, wiped his mouth and said that it was time to leave.
“I’m drunk, should I go now?”
“Who got drunk?”
“···I’m drunk. Let’s go now.”
“What, you’re drunk? Hehe, Sihyuk is drunk~”
Chaewon, who had been so quiet at the academy, disappeared, and only a drunken girl remained.
Si-hyuk came out after paying the bill while supporting Chae-won, whose face was bright red and she couldn’t even walk properly.
Si-hyuk, who arrived at Chae-won’s apartment by subway in that condition, sat on a bench for a while.
“After···.”
Although Chaewon wasn’t heavy, Sihyuk felt tired because he was drunk and talked too much, so he rested quietly.
Chaewon, who was rummaging through her bag to get out the book she had just gotten signed, accidentally dropped a bundle of papers.
-widely
“···.”
Chaewon’s face, which had been smiling all along, suddenly became serious.
“Why?”
Si-hyuk, who found Chae-won’s sudden silence strange, picked up the bundle of papers and gave it to her.
Chaewon took the bundle of papers and asked.
“Do you remember what my dream was?”
“Yeah. You’re a writer.”
Si-hyuk remembers that Chae-won’s dream was to become a writer.
It’s the same dream, as it was when I was young, and it’s the same dream now.
“···Then, can you evaluate my first writing?”
With a determined expression, Chaewon handed Sihyuk the wad of paper she had dropped earlier.
“Can I read it?”
Shihyuk carefully received the bundle of papers that were said to be Chaewon’s first writings.
“I’m really embarrassed, but··· I’ll show you. Anyway, there’s not much I can show it to besides you.”
If I hadn’t been drunk, if I hadn’t accidentally taken it out, I wouldn’t have shown it to Shihyuk.
It’s extremely embarrassing to show someone else what you wrote.
But I also showed the writing to the other person because he was Sihyuk.
Because they have similar reading tastes to me and are capable of reading and analyzing texts.
Sihyuk began to read with a serious look on his face, flipping through the pages.
Chaewon remained quiet as she looked at Sihyuk’s focused face.
Chaewon felt excited when she saw Sihyuk focusing on his writing.
As a writer, I was excited, and as a woman, I was also excited to see the man I liked.
Soon after, Shihyuk read the entire article.
It was a short piece to begin with, but after thinking about it over and over again, it became longer.
The title of the short story is ‘Hidden Happiness’. It is a story that calmly unfolds the life of a girl.
The main character is a girl who is bullied at school and not loved by her parents at home.
It has a simple plot where the main character, who suffered endlessly at school and at home, meets a boyfriend and becomes happy.
However, in a story that seems like it has a happy ending, the protagonist’s sadness is evident until the very end.
The female protagonist, despite meeting the perfect boyfriend, feels slightly insecure and constantly asks herself, “Is this okay?”
Shihyuk easily found out the reason.
That’s because the boyfriend in the text is actually the girlfriend.
‘It’s an autobiographical novel.’
Autobiographical novel. Simply put, it means a novel that contains one’s own story.
The female protagonist, Chae-won, is hurt by bullying and her parents, but she becomes happy after meeting her girlfriends, Su-ah and Da-yoon, but she still feels fear and anxiety.
Because homosexuality is a crime.
It’s very stressful for a woman to date another woman.
Because if someone catches you, you’ll be dragged straight to a reeducation facility.
Moreover, since we are born in Korea, we are taught that homosexuality is a sin.
It means that you keep thinking that you are doing something bad while dating your girlfriend.
It was Kim Soo-ah who saved Chae-won, who was covered in wounds, but her presence is slowly eating away at Chae-won’s heart.
“Good article.”
Sihyuk met Chaewon’s eyes and gave his review.
“The writing style is plain, but it’s sincere, so it’s good and somewhat entertaining. I didn’t expect it to be this good, so I’m surprised.”
“Really? Phew···.”
Chaewon sighed with a relieved expression.
“Was it really hard?”
Sihyuk said, holding Chaewon’s cold hand warmly.
“Huh···?”
“This novel is your story.”
Sihyuk comforted Chaewon, who had a surprised expression on her face.
“···I thought I wouldn’t get caught, but I got caught right away.”
“Other people may not know, but I can tell.”
Sihyuk slowly caressed the hand Chaewon was holding.
“I found out after reading the article. So this happened, so this was hard, so this was painful.”
“Thank you for comforting me···.”
Chaewon told Shihyuk, who was sincerely comforting her, not to worry too much.
“But it’s okay now. Because I have sister Su-ah—”
“Were you scared and anxious?”
Shihyuk hugged Chaewon, cutting off her lies that she was okay.
“Because you were taught in school that lesbians are bad, you were worried that someone would find out and you would get in big trouble, right?”
I patted Chaewon on the back with a pure heart that had no sexual desire whatsoever.
“Uh, how···.”
“You let me read it. It was all written down.”
If you don’t know Chaewon well, it was a sincere heart that was hidden so cleverly that it would be hard to know.
“It’s not your fault.”
“···.”
“It’s not your fault that you were bullied, that your parents didn’t care, that you became a lesbian. So it’s okay.”
No one has ever said something like this to Chaewon before.
Although Soo-ah and Da-yoon tried to comfort her, they didn’t know Chae-won’s pain in detail.
Only Shihyuk understood her heart accurately and embraced her warmly.
“···읏.”
A tear fell from Chaewon’s eye.
“Drunk, I’m getting a bit emotional.”
Chaewon, who made excuses for her tears, buried her face in Sihyuk’s shoulder and started crying.
Sihyuk quietly patted Chaewon on the back.
That night, Chaewon truly fell in love.
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