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A few more days passed.

I made more Holy Water, prayed more often, prepared Mass every morning and evening, and helped the nuns manage the fields in my remaining time.

Even though I was busy, I cherished this time of peace more than ever.

Even though the world was a mess, the fact that a relaxed daily life was flowing on our small island felt like proof that the Goddess’s grace was real.

The only things that made me feel the signs of ruin were a talking jet-black cat and a simplified diet.

Of course, this peace was thanks to the nuns’ efforts, not mine.

Their daily lives, already confined to the island for a long time, hadn’t changed much since the apocalypse, and they naturally continued their daily routines as they had always done.

Thanks to them, I was able to enjoy the leisure and happiness that ordinariness brought, within the peaceful time created by the nuns.

Of course, it was true that all the nuns were still young girls, so they were always scattered and chattering, or squealing loudly, which was a bit annoying,

But even that noise was a piece of peace that I couldn’t have dreamed of outside the island, so I didn’t find it annoying.

“… Hah,”

However, just because I was living a peaceful life didn’t mean that my heart was always peaceful.

Rather, the more comfortable my body became, the more complicated my mind felt.

Worries about the monster-covered world,

Compassion for the people suffering outside,

And fear of the sinister plots the devils of Hell might be scheming.

A sense of duty as a priest to set all those things right and save the suffering people, etc.

These various thoughts were rummaging through my head and tormenting me,

And the thought that tormented me the most was none other than ‘disappointment in myself.’

Yes.

I was greatly disappointed in myself right now.

“That I’m… such a weak person when it comes to temptation.”

I muttered silently, sitting in the small confessional in the corner of the prayer room, and reminisced about the past.

The day I was ordained as a priest.

I knelt before the Bishop and swore to maintain and continue my chastity for the rest of my life.

It was a mandatory vow to become a formal priest, but it was a promise I made to the Goddess with my own will, so it was a constraint and duty that I could never break.

Even though my religious faith started from a materialistic mindset with the simple goal of making a living, the vow I made that day was sincere.

The Goddess gladly accepted my vow and gave me the divine power to fight demons.

To me, the vow of celibacy was not just a constraint, but a duty to be kept and a trivial price to be willingly accepted.

“Back then, I couldn’t have imagined that this would happen to me.”

To be honest, keeping the vow of chastity wasn’t that difficult.

I was already so ruggedly built that no women approached me, and most of the women who seduced clerics were young virgins targeting the young altar servers at their churches.

Of course, there were often cases where the fallen deeds of formal priests who touched parishioners or nuns were discovered.

I was called in to investigate whether such clerical deviations were the work of demons, and during the interrogation, I scolded their corruption and pressured them with a coercive attitude.

Looking back now, I think I investigated them more harshly because I thought such a tragedy would never happen to me.

However, it eventually became clear that this was an arrogant thought.

I put my hands together and prayed again.

“Forgive my sins, and graciously forgive all their sins as well…”

Although I didn’t cross the line, I couldn’t deny that I had been shaken a little.

I falter, my heart flutters, and I feel an indescribable sense of satisfaction and masculine confidence stirring secretly deep inside my heart.

But every time that happened, I was greatly disappointed in myself.

Harboring thoughts that shouldn’t be harbored is also a sin.

I couldn’t turn a blind eye to myself like that, so every time I felt a flutter in my heart for them, I would sit in the confessional with no one to listen and offer a prayer of repentance.

Of course, I had told the nuns that feelings alone were not a sin, but it was right to apply a stricter standard to myself as a formal priest.

“These delinquent nuns.”

Lucia and Anna.

Beautiful girls armed with bright youth approached me, showing me pure affection.

I couldn’t even stop my own heart from fluttering and my gaze from turning to them.

Of course, I never abandoned my duty as a cleric by succumbing to their seduction, and I never will, but…

At least, it was true that I realized that I hadn’t been strong against temptation, but simply hadn’t been tempted before.

*

Lucia has been contacting me more frequently these days.

That night when I almost violated my duty as a priest.

Whether it was effective to caress Lucia’s chest at the risk of danger, her body calmed down a lot.

However, perhaps because I had already touched her bare chest once, her physical contact became more daring than before.

Unlike before, when she would only secretly lean against my shoulder when we were outside the island, now she would hug me and walk with her arms intertwined with mine anywhere, without a care.

Lucia’s appearance, running to me with a bright smile and nestling in my arms when she found me from afar, was certainly lovely,

But for some reason, her sweet scent, which had become even stronger than before, kept reminding me of her beautiful nakedness that I had seen that night.

Lucia even clung to me in the presence of Anna and Sola.

She rubbed her body against me as if an animal was marking its scent, and even asked me to stroke her head like a pet dog.

If I refused, Lucia would make a sullen face, go behind me, hug my waist tightly, and wouldn’t let go.

I was troubled by such Lucia, but at the same time, she was so cute that she stirred my heart all the time.

However, since Lucia’s appearance was clearly reminiscent of a canine animal, I was worried that she might have been affected by a demon.

When I asked Kunat about this, Kunat simply said, ‘You’re an idiot,’ and ran away.

Of course, I responded by activating the needles in Kunat’s chest.

Anna’s case was the opposite of Lucia’s.

That evening when she forced a kiss on me,

I took Anna and gave her a sermon and prayer of repentance for over two hours.

It felt like a kind of light punishment.

Perhaps thanks to that, Anna didn’t kiss me or hug me like Lucia after that.

However, she confessed her feelings to me several times a day.

One day, it was a morning greeting filled with lovely confessions.

Another day, she confessed her desires with a lewd expression.

And on another day, she suddenly missed me while working in the fields, so she came to me, revealing her sweaty skin in a sleeveless and bold outfit.

Every time that happened, there was no way to stop my heart from fluttering.

Moreover, what was strange was that even though she approached me in different ways and with different appearances each time, they were all very fascinating.

She was like a pure girl, but she also acted like a seductive woman, and she showed the appearance of a healthy country girl, and even the appearance of a haughty city woman.

Anna came to me with a different concept every day.

Some of them reminded me of the fantasies of many men that I had heard in bars before the world was destroyed.

‘I want to spend a night with a country girl who doesn’t know anything.’

Or.

‘I want to have a good time with the most beautiful noble lady in the city who secretly went out for a night.’

Such ridiculous fantasies.

Anna, who had lived in the city until a few years ago, would have heard a lot of such stories, and she was taking advantage of that to show me various appearances as if she were acting.

It was as if she was saying, ‘There must be one of these that Father likes.’

To be honest, I think she looks most beautiful when she is neatly dressed in her nun’s habit, but

I didn’t dare to say that because it could cause unnecessary misunderstandings.

Lucia hugging me anywhere.

Anna trying to confuse my mind with her words and attitude.

It was exhausting for me to have to endure these two people seducing me every day in different styles.

I had warned them in a strong tone, but Lucia burst into tears, and Anna laughed and blew air into my ear.

Will this kind of life continue in the future?

I sighed and muttered, resolving to focus on finding survivors in the next exploration.

“Lead me not into temptation, but deliver me from evil.”

I finished my prayer earnestly, made the sign of the cross, and stepped out of the confessional.

It was then.

“Father.”

“…”

As soon as I stepped outside, I saw Anna standing right in front of me.

I took a step back and asked.

“… How long have you been here?”

“For a while now. I was waiting.”

“No… You should have called me.”

“Hehe… I could hear your prayer outside, how dare I interrupt?”

“…”

Anna smiled brightly and approached me.

“Father, I know you’re tired from sitting in such a small place…”

“…”

“I want to use that confessional. Is that okay?”

“Okay…”

I couldn’t turn away someone who wanted to confess as a priest, so I went back into the confessional.

Anna also opened the opposite door and sat down.

I recited the ritual formula familiarly.

“God illuminates our hearts, and we believe that his mercy will forgive our sins.”

“…”

“Confess your sins.”

With only a thin plywood with a small groove in between, Anna slowly began to speak.

“Father, I have sinned.”

“…”

“Last night, I couldn’t stand it and sneaked into Father’s room.”

“… What?”

Even at my ridiculous voice, Anna continued her confession without a care.

“I masturbated while looking at the sleeping Father’s face…”

“…”

“And… honestly, I don’t want to stop.”

“Anna, leave if you’re not going to repent…”

“Ah, I’ll repent.”

“…”

I couldn’t see it, but I knew.

Anna, you’re smiling right now.

“When I was masturbating next to Father for a while. The door slowly opened and Lucia came in.”

“…”

These things…

I should lock the door before I go to sleep.

“Lucia didn’t seem to know what I was doing.”

“…”

“I had a chance to tell Lucia before, but I didn’t tell her properly then.”

“…”

Feeling ominous, I waited for Anna’s words with a cold sweat.

Anna sat quietly for a while, then slowly continued in a low voice.

“Father.”

“…”

“Lucia now knows how babies are made.”

“Good heavens…”

Then, the next time Lucia’s body heats up again…

I felt my entire back soaked with cold sweat.