episode_0042

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Seha has many mysteries.

He acts as if he knows everything about this, but rarely talks about himself.

Saya seems to know something about Se-ha (it is said that Masters can see the state of their Slaves), but she rarely speaks.

Somehow, Yuna felt that asking that question would reveal that she was interested in Seha, so she tried not to ask if possible.

But I couldn’t help but be startled when she told me that she had her period for the first time today.

It’s hard to believe, but it’s not a lie. He acts calm, but his pale, astonished expression shows that he’s in a great shock.

I think it was when I was in elementary school. I remember seeing a child crying for the first time at school because she had her period.

Yuna had already started her period and had been feeling nothing special about it, so she thought she might cry.

But if even Se-ha, who is naturally easygoing and easy-going about everything, reacts like that, it seems like Yuna wasn’t normal.

… No, is it normal to be scared when your period comes at this age?

At a moment when the thoughts flowed in a different direction, Se-ha began to explain what he should keep in mind while training in the future.

“If you categorize awakening abilities into four, you know that they are divided into transcendence, magic, martial arts, and special. In fact, the special is something that is reserved to mean ‘I don’t know yet’, so you can actually say there are three. Then, what do you think the chairman should categorize it into?”

“Transcendence… right? You didn’t become an Awakener by studying magic theory or through special training?”

“Yeah. But you know… Strictly speaking, there are two categories of Transcendent Awakened.”

Se-ha borrowed a tablet from Su-in and scribbled something on it.

The tablet that was lifted had ‘Piece -> Manifestation’ written on it.

“I’m sorry for using this as an example, but Yuna’s awakening abilities are [Acceleration (Physical)] and [Resistance (Homeostasis)], right? This means that Yuna is still in the early stages of awakening.”

“… What?”

“Can you find some connection between these two abilities? It’s hard, right? That’s because these two awakening abilities you have are actually just a part of something bigger.”

I was dumbfounded when I first heard that.

“Let’s take the case of the Chairman as an example. The Chairman is truly an Awakened Person in the Manifestation Stage, and as proof, he has a unique skill called [Blade of the Mother Goddess].”

The goddess of mercy is a Buddhist deity that protects the Dharma.

Originally, he was a yaksha who raised ten thousand children and stole and ate other people’s children. When people petitioned him, it is said that Buddha secretly hid one of the children of the goddess of honor.

The mother of the noble child cried and searched for her child until she met the Buddha. She was taught, “If you are so distressed by the loss of one of your many children, how can you not think of the feelings of those who have lost only a few children?”

It is said that he deeply reflected on the teachings, reformed, and became a guardian deity who protects children.

The Chairman’s unique skill [Blade of the Mother Goddess], named after it, has the following description.

‘Pain is not proportional. You, who know that truth, will protect the one you love at all costs. No matter what tragedy it may bring.’

“Among the Chairman’s awakening abilities, the most well-known is [Thousand-Million-Slaughter Method], but in fact, he also has conditional [Frenzy] and [Immortal]. All together, they are a part of the transcendent ability called [Blade of the Mother Goddess].”

If we verify the data of [Blade of the Mother Goddess] with the sum total of awakening abilities, it becomes like this.

Condition: It will be a fight to protect someone precious.

Deals the same amount of damage to enemies within sight. Until the end of this fight, you can survive fatal injuries (except when your head or torso is completely destroyed), but you will continue to lose your sanity and go into a frenzy.

““What is that… .””

Even though the words and the words overlapped completely, I didn’t even feel any discomfort.

“Yeah, is the quality bad? They hurt themselves to protect someone, and as they do that, they gradually lose their sense of reason. However, that is the original scenery of the Chairman’s mind, and when it develops to the point where it interferes with the world, that is the Awakened One of the Transcendent Realm.”

“That’s not what I’m talking about! To the chairman… How can you call him crazy…?”

Suin screamed loudly.

Yes, he seemed to admire the chairman. Even if that weren’t the case, considering the chairman’s usual sharp and lively attitude, such words don’t seem to fit at all.

But Yuna was able to understand it well.

I think I felt that way from the first time I saw the Chairman take down Typhon on TV (although it was a deleted version).

There is madness there.

“Isn’t that obvious? There’s no way a girl in her twenties could slit her own throat in her right mind.”

“… You can draw as much as you want for Saya.”

The answer came immediately.

“I’ll find another way, but if that’s the only way… .”

“Please don’t do it even if that’s the only way!”

Saya’s scream of distress was also heard.

This guy, did he forget that he just said something about madness with his own mouth?

Since Su-in couldn’t seem to get over the shock of what she had just heard, Yuna forcibly brought the story back to its original state.

“I get what you’re trying to say. And this is information about the chairman. But what does that have to do with me?”

“The ability you can use now is part of your unique skill that you are not aware of. So, look back at yourself and find the original scenery that is the basis.”

An event, a memory, a moment of emotion or resolution.

Anything is fine. Anything can be the foundation.

When it swells and overflows and affects the world, it becomes an awakening ability.

“If you find it and desire it more strongly, you will discover your true power. The ranks of your existing powers will increase, and more complex effects will be created.”

“… Don’t you think that’s too much nonsense?”

“Well, that’s true. Fortunately, there are clues. [Acceleration] and [Resistance]. If you think that a particularly prominent part of your original scenery has been revealed like this, it might help you find your original scenery.”

I can’t help but think that it’s just empty talk, but there’s no use asking Seha about it.

Yuna asked finally.

“… Didn’t you say something about me not having unique skills and the sadness of being a beginner character before? ”

“Did you remember? Well… Actually, most Transcendent Awakened people end up in the partial stage. I thought they might have moved on to the manifestation stage, but they didn’t.”

Yuna calmed her mind slightly. And then she confirmed it.

“That means… you know what my unique skill is.”

I know my original scenery that even I don’t know.

“Yeah. Sorry I can’t tell you. It’s meaningless if you don’t realize it yourself. I can only ask you to try.”

I wanted to punch him in the face and tell him that I didn’t want to say something like that, but I held back.

Because I don’t want to be caught caring about that fact.

†

I went to the training room with Suin

Se-ha’s words to Su-in were short and simple.

“The potions you can make now are enough to be effective in battle. The problem is how to use them. When creating potions, practice while visualizing ‘where, how, and how much’ you will create.”

That was all.

Whether long or short, both are vague stories I’ve heard.

But is it really true that the person who said that can see the future is the only thing to rely on?

Suin grumbled about what she wanted him to do, then went to a corner of the training room and started doing something.

Yuna ran for a while. She decided to think while running.

It’s a strange thing.

The reason I started to like running was because I didn’t have to think about anything while I was running.

Even without [Acceleration] abilities, Yuna enjoyed running.

If I could have endured the oppressive atmosphere unique to the sports world, I might have joined a track and field team or something.

The story of the road not taken is meaningless, but if that were the case, I might have been living a completely different life than I do now.

Of course, if you look at the possibilities… there’s a high chance that he couldn’t stand it after a few days and hit his senior’s head with a hurdle and was kicked out.

Seha said that he had to find his own original scenery.

The original scenery. The original scenery that made me wish for [Acceleration] and [Resistance].

What is there to find and do here?

Isn’t that a clear ‘will to escape’ there?

A world you don’t like. People you don’t like. A self you don’t like.

My original intention was to run away from them.

As a result, [Acceleration] and [Resistance] came out. To escape quickly, to avoid getting hurt.

It’s so simple, what do I need to look for?

Okay, now quickly show me that unique skill or whatever and lead me to the manifestation stage.

… of course, nothing changed.

Yuna wasn’t disappointed either, because she didn’t really think anything would happen.

Even if you try to run away and do whatever you want in the world, it won’t be of any help in fighting the Chairman.

So then what is it?

Was there something that was that intense for you?

“Don’t bother people too much… .”

A sigh came out.

Since I met Seha, my heart has always been in turmoil.

It was shocking enough to realize that he liked Saya, but for some reason he was also drawn to Seha, and the three of them even slept in the same bed.

When I think of Saya saying with a trembling expression, “I think it’s important for the three of us to be together,” after saying that she had a favor to ask, I still can’t stop feeling agitated.

I couldn’t stop thinking, “Is this okay? Is it okay to like both of them?” But the two of them held hands as if nothing happened.

They firmly decided that they like each other the most, but they also think that there’s nothing wrong with liking someone else if they can be together.

My heart is in utter confusion, but I don’t care about that and just send my heart my way.

Since Se-ha appeared, my mind has always been in confusion.

When I run in the name of training, I don’t have to think too deeply, which is nice, but today, I ended up throwing a headache at it.

“… Haha… . Eeeeek… .”

Yeah, there was another headache.

Yuna unconsciously looked at the source of the sound, towards Suin, with sharp eyes.

Saya and Seha were already complicated enough, but with the addition of Suin, the number of headaches increased.

Yuna didn’t forget what Suin did.

I can’t forget the shock I felt the moment I saw the ‘karma’ that Se-ha had taken. Just thinking that Sayana herself could end up in that situation makes me angry.

It’s annoying that that guy keeps sulking, but as if that wasn’t enough… Huh?

Yuna realized that Suin’s condition was strange.

The sight of her lying face down on one side of the training room, groaning, was not normal at all. Her cheeks were flushed and her breathing was extremely ragged.

The way he held onto his own arms tightly and twisted his body looked like… .

“… What on earth have you done?”

I asked that because I was reminded of Se-ha’s appearance the other day when she was in heat and rushed at Saya.

Suin looked at Yuna with her hazy eyes and then shouted in fright.

“Oh, don’t come here…! I, I lost control… Haha…!”

It was annoying to see him struggling to continue speaking because he was out of breath.

Se-ha had said that Su-in’s medicine didn’t work on Yu-na. When she actually approached her, she felt something strange, but the next moment, she returned to normal.

I walked over to him briskly and flipped over on my tiptoes to check his condition. I sighed when I saw him curled up and looking helpless.

“What should I do? Get out?”

“Mi… I’m sorry… . I have to go out… .”

As he said that, he tried to get up, but he couldn’t. Maybe it was because he was drunk, but his limbs didn’t seem to obey him.

Yuna, who was hesitating what to do, finally grabbed Suin’s arm and supported her. Her incredibly light body was easily pulled along.

Outside the training room is a funny-looking basement.

I placed Suin on the bed in the corner and covered her with a blanket. Ignoring her mumbling apologies, I went back to the training room and ran for a while.

I checked the time. It was about 30 minutes later.

I thought it would be enough by now and left the training room, but Su-in was groaning in the same way as when I threw her on the bed earlier.

His face was covered in sweat and he looked very pale, but he didn’t look calm at all.

“… What the hell is wrong?”

After checking several times, he said sorry in a voice that was almost dying.

After I pressed him to shut up and explain the situation, I heard him speak with difficulty through his wheezing breath.

“Mi… I’m sorry… . That… That… I can’t… masturbate… .”

Yuna felt dizzy for a moment.

Why on earth did I care about him even for a moment? I was going to hear such ridiculous stories.

But… Suin’s next words were a little different from what I expected.

“When I try to touch a sensitive part… I get scared… and my body freezes… .”

The memories engraved on her body since she became a woman have never been light. There are more memories of pain than of pleasure.

And that wasn’t the only thing that was scary.

Suin was afraid of feeling good, of feeling pleasure. If it was going to be ruined, it was okay. If it was going to be ruined, she could gladly accept it.

It’s okay when Se-ha is your opponent. I don’t know if it’s okay or not, but if you keep being toyed with, you’ll find yourself shaking with pleasure before you know it.

But by myself… I couldn’t do it.

“This is ridiculous, really… .”

The sight of Soo-in muttering that she shouldn’t be happy while her face seemed to have lost all sense of reason was absurd.

It was also absurd that Sehara was treating this guy, whose mental state was very strange, so nonchalantly.

What was more absurd than anything else was that I myself had complicated feelings when I saw such a person.

Strictly speaking, he was also a perpetrator who participated in the bullying of Saya. He was also a victim who was toyed with by Seha and ended up in a mess.

It was true that he felt disgusted by what Soo-in had done, but he couldn’t believe that it was fake when he tried to approach her hesitantly or when he tried to change.

I felt like sighing.

And this is also the case. After Se-ha, my mind continues to get more complicated. Nothing is resolved clearly.

So Yuna stopped thinking complicated thoughts.

“If it doesn’t matter if it breaks, I won’t complain even if it hurts a little.”

He approached Sooin and put his hand inside her sweaty T-shirt. He pushed it up and took it off along with her sports bra.

“Hah… !”

Suin made a strange sound. It must have been because her hand brushed against her chest while she was taking off her clothes.

He spoke as if making an excuse.

“I want to ask Se-ha to take responsibility, but I’m not in a position to do that right now. Are you dissatisfied with me?”

“Oh, no… . I’m sorry, senior… .”

Likewise, the lower body was also stripped off, revealing the entire body.

You can tell that she’s horny just by looking at her whole body flushed red. Her lower body, soaked in sweat and bodily fluids, was particularly shiny, and despite her immature body, she gave off quite a sexual image.

However, I didn’t feel that pent-up desire in my heart like I did when I met Sayana Seha.

I don’t think there’s any particular need to provide service.

We don’t get entangled to exchange affection or to confirm that we like each other.

Yuna hugged Suin from behind and placed her hand on her chest.

I was a little disappointed with my chest, which I already knew, but couldn’t feel any sense of nourishment. I gently caressed her entire chest as if turning it, and watched Sooin’s reaction.

Judging from the way his body was trembling, he didn’t seem to dislike it. He just put his hand over his mouth and tried to suppress his sounds.

Is it because of humiliation? Or is it because of shame?

It’s a good thing, but you can be much more honest with yourself if you don’t suppress your voice.

He took one hand off and brought it to Suin’s mouth.

When he tapped her hand as if to say, “Vicky,” both hands, not knowing what to do, left Su-in’s mouth.

He grabbed her moist tongue with two fingers and pulled hard. It was too rough to be called caressing.

Of course, a scream erupted.

“Ahhh♡ Oh, my gosh… .”

Yuna didn’t miss the sweetness mixed in between the moans.

Yeah. This guy has that kind of temperament, too. Of course, since he volunteered to say he wanted to be ruined.

The hand that had been caressing her breast gained strength. As she grabbed and twisted her nipple, Su-in’s body also bent like a bow.

“Haaang!!!”

I changed my posture as I heard a sound whose meaning I couldn’t understand.

In a downward-pushing position, he pressed down firmly on Suin’s two wrists together. Suin struggled as if she felt a sense of crisis, but it was no use.

As I put my knee between her thighs and pressed against her scrotum, even that lukewarm resistance subsided.

Let’s check again, the light of reason had completely disappeared from Suin’s eyes.

Yeah. It felt like this before when Seha was in heat.

I thought that maybe the level of arousal wasn’t as severe as Se-ha’s, or maybe Se-ha was overreacting at the time (since he’s always like he’s aroused when it comes to Saya), but it seems that wasn’t the case.

I guess I’ve been holding back until now.

He lowered his head and bit his chest.

Even though she was in pain, she was hugging me instead. Her small but heated voice was muttering that she wanted me to hurt her more.

I was going to do it anyway even without being asked.

He bit again, and twisted the empty nipple with his free hand. The knee that had been pressing the cunt now began to move up and down, rubbing it.

Su-in’s face collapses dramatically. Her eyes are swollen from tears flowing down her face and her face is distorted in pain.

I changed my position and put my hand between my legs, and my body froze in fear. I put my legs together and turned my body, trying to get away from Yuna somehow.

Until just now, you were accepting it as nothing, but now you must be really scared.

Even if that is one of the reasons you revealed yourself.

Yuna asked.

“Didn’t you say you wanted to ruin it?”

Strangely enough, there was a reaction to those words.

Yuna let out a sigh without realizing it as she watched Suin stop struggling.

Does this guy really want to get ruined? Is he really looking for that much punishment?

Contrary to her fearful attitude, Suin’s body was already ready to accept anything.

Unfortunately, Yuna couldn’t think of a way to ruin Suin in this situation.

I learned all about how to hug someone from Seha, but no matter what the middle was like, the last moment always left only a hazy sweetness.

So Yuna took a different approach.

He grabbed Su-in’s hand, who was just hesitating, not knowing what to do, and made her caress his body herself.

I held onto his hand, which was startled as if it had been burned by something hot, and squeezed it tightly.

As Su-in’s finger was added to the already cramped vagina with just one of Yuna’s fingers, the movement of the squirming vaginal walls was clearly felt.

He grabs her other hand and forces her to caress herself.

“Did you think I would be so kind to you like Seha? There’s no way that would happen, right?”

He continues to masturbate while whispering like that.

The climax came quickly.

Anyway, because my body was weak, it was as if I had prepared for it a long time ago.

The fear from Se-ha’s experience of punishment and the guilt of not being able to feel pleasure were what kept her from crossing that line even when in arousal.

Suin couldn’t even make a proper sound and could only make a gurgling sound as she was breathing.

You reach climax by twisting your body violently, your tense muscles relax, and fatigue covers your entire body.

As the drug-induced abnormal arousal subsides, Suin gradually regains her sense of reason…

“Seo, senior… ?! What, what… Haeueuee♡?!”

Su-in screamed as she was caught by Yuna again and had her fingers dig inside her body.

She was extremely sensitive because she had just climaxed, but Yuna had no intention of letting go of Suin.

“You might make another mistake. Are you going to ask someone else to fix it for you every time?”

“Ah, no… . No, that’s not it… Ah… Ah, it won’t go in! It won’t work like that! ”

About an hour later,

Yuna didn’t stop until Suin proved that she could self-defense.

†

After seeing Su-in collapse from exhaustion, Yuna reflected a little and thought that maybe she had gone a bit too far.

But I didn’t say it out loud.

I just let out a small sigh, and Suin heard my sigh and apologized in a weak voice.

“Mi, I’m sorry, Senior… . I made you do something strange… .”

I didn’t like the attitude of keeping a close eye on things.

If it were before, I would have just let it go without saying that I didn’t like it. But now that I know a little more about Suin, I can’t bring myself to do that.

“You didn’t want to do that. There are many other things you have to be sorry for, so there’s no need to apologize for each one.”

After talking, I felt a little more at ease.

I decided to just say it all while I was at it.

“I’ll correct what I said earlier. It’s true that I thought you were disgusting and absolutely unacceptable, but… I said that no matter what you did, nothing would change… That probably wasn’t true.”

It’s bad to know.

Once you know, you can’t treat it like you didn’t know.

From the moment I said that, I could no longer think of Suin as a disgusting and unacceptable being.

But that’s right. That’s the kind of treatment that’s right for someone who did something like that, so I tried to force myself to think that way.

I felt much more at ease when one of the factors that had been complicating my mind disappeared.

Yeah, this is it.

This is exactly what I was hoping for….

“Senior… !”

I almost remembered something, but Soo-in’s almost tearful words suddenly pulled me back to reality.

No, Suin was really starting to cry.

What could it have been? I couldn’t even guess what words could have touched Soo-in’s heart.

However, I felt a bit complicated because I didn’t find it that bothersome that he kept repeating that he wanted to change.

Yuna herself didn’t know, but it was natural.

By Seha’s standards, Yuna is the type of person who falls in love with Saya.

The type of person who likes to try hard cannot hate someone who tries hard, even if they don’t achieve results.

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