episode_0042
by adminIt was while the Blue Dragon was getting permission.
The chaos that occurred within Baekho’s family was beyond words.
The reason was none other than the madam’s seizure, which was not a seizure.
“Absolutely not.”
No matter where they tried to go, the two of them were stuck.
“I’m going to class now, Mom.”
“That’s not the problem! How can you two… .”
But Yeon-i couldn’t understand her appearance like that.
In fact, he wasn’t her child. But she was telling him not to go to her, saying it was dangerous.
To anyone who knew their circumstances, it would seem like a strange sight.
That sight made the secret rumors that had been spreading among the servants come to be accepted as an established fact.
‘There’s a reason why they called that child an illegitimate child!’
There was no one in this mansion who dared to say it out loud. Perhaps it was because of this, but those who had been treating the child a little badly were uncomfortable with the current atmosphere.
In the first place, you probably don’t even know that your child doesn’t care about it.
“However, Madam, it is truly time for you to take a class now.”
“You’re saying that too!? Both of you! You almost died!”
At her words, Lee Yeon just stared at her. It seemed like there was no point in caring about it. It wasn’t important to him.
From the beginning, the only thing that was important to him was simply following orders.
Reduce emotional exhaustion, protect this family as a member of this family, and just do what you have to do.
That was how he had learned it, that was how he knew it. And on top of that, he was now feeling a contradiction from her.
He was not her child. He was the one who grew up thinking he was not her child. There was no reason for her to care about him.
What if, just what if. What if he were her child? Then he could understand why she acted like this. But, if that were the case… .
‘Why did I have to grow up like this?’
Such questions began to arise in his mind. If everything was as he had assumed, as he had thought, then why did he have to go through this?
He continued to think, but no answer came to him.
It would have been more accurate to say that it couldn’t happen. That’s why he didn’t feel it was important to think about it anymore. It had no meaning to him in the first place.
What does it matter whether you are the child or not?
What if, in fact, you were her child? So what?
Baek Yi-yeon is already a “illegitimate child”.
No matter what others may think or see, the identity that Baek Yi-yeon feels is that of an ‘illegitimate child’.
Even if anyone denied it, he himself felt that way.
Family treatment? That had long since ceased to be important to him. So, he answered.
“I don’t care if I die.”
In an instant, everyone’s eyes were turned to him.
Jin-ah rushed at him. Absolutely not. She was the most important child to him.
It was one of those things that could be called one’s own life.
“You, no. I mean no. If you die… !”
“Mom!”
Driven by emotion, she almost blurted out her feelings. The truth. The many, heavy truths she and her family had kept hidden from the child.
That didn’t work out.
No, in fact, it was she who had a stronger desire to talk than anyone else.
I couldn’t do that. If I did, I don’t know how the child would change.
Besides, Lee Han had the same thoughts. He didn’t want his brother to wish for death. He wanted his brother to continue to protect him and stay by his side.
Even though it was an order and a mission that he had to keep, he kept it more diligently than anything else.
That was the kind of person he was. He died before he could feel the joy of life. I didn’t want that.
‘At least I want to face my brother and have a conversation someday.’
But what’s scarier than anything else is none other than that.
It was his rampage. They were all afraid of it.
Jinah Choi staggered for a moment and then got up from her seat.
“… … . I’m sorry… . I need to rest for a moment.”
This incident later reached the ears of the family.
Office.
A huge room where you can hear the sound of paper moving.
What was visible inside was Baek Han, watching the work. Still today, as always.
-Square square.
The sound of the brush moving fills the room.
Into that room, a woman comes in.
“… … . Honey.”
“… . Jin-ah. What’s going on?”
He quietly puts down his brush and looks into his lovely wife’s eyes.
My wife, who had always been intelligent, strong and beautiful, was shedding tears.
“Please stop now.”
“… .”
‘That’s what I’m saying again.’
I just thought so. No, I couldn’t help but think so.
“I’ve given you everything. Yes, I’ve endured everything, for ridiculous reasons like I couldn’t escape from the dragon, or the gods wanting to protect the country, no matter what! So, please-”
“… Jina… .”
It was the first time I saw Jin-ah break down like this. My teeth were grinding. I even felt like my head was hurting.
My beloved wife is falling apart, becoming something I don’t know about.
If things continued like this, it seemed like something bad would happen to my wife.
“I’m sorry, ma’am.”
You might as well hate me. That’ll do. That’ll do. Then – there won’t be any problems.
“… You want me to hate you?”
Her words began to become venomous. Her words grew louder and more vicious.
“You!! Don’t you even know what that kid said today?! Why am I, now…! Running here like this, begging you like this? You don’t even care… .”
It’s not that I wasn’t interested. I was just too busy to be interested.
Since the evil has returned, all the children were going to practice together for the actual battle from now on to prevent it.
Originally, it was only once in winter… .
“I’m sorry… Me too, me too, I can’t help it, Jinah… .”
I went to her, to hug her. It was clear that I couldn’t do anything more. I just hugged her tightly, recited the promises we made together, and told her to rest assured that I would do this. I felt like I couldn’t do anything else but do that.
She pushed me and kept yelling.
“Stop saying that you can’t help it! You can’t change it, you can’t help it! What the heck!!! The kid, taking his own death lightly…!! That, that’s the big deal?”
-Suddenly.
As I approached her, I felt my body suddenly cool down. I felt my blood getting cold.
“Child, what?”
“You’re taking my death lightly!!!!”
Tears flow from her eyes. She swore she would never cry again in her life. She swore that in front of her father.
Even that promise has now been broken. Even I, who promised to take care of any child born with love, was gone.
“… … . Death… . You take death lightly… ?”
I couldn’t accept it. Of course, there were signs. That everyone would die equally and equally.
It was possible because we feared death, but on the contrary, it was possible because we thought of death lightly. Why did we overlook it?
Why did I forget that? It’s the parents who should know better than anyone what their child is thinking.
How can this be solved when I don’t even know what the child is thinking?
-dump.
I sat down in my seat. I sat there in my chair, staring blankly at the floor. Now, I began to doubt whether there was any point in doing anything, or even approaching anything at all.
It was so obvious that the child had already collapsed.
I was a little skeptical about whether there was any point in doing anything anymore.
“Jina… . I really don’t know.”
“… . What?”
“What I did was the most right thing I knew.
But, I don’t know.“
“… … … .”
I can’t see Jinah’s expression. No, I can’t see it.
Maybe, they’re looking down on me like I’m trash. Because I know that, it makes my heart ache even more.
“I’m sorry… .”
“Then let’s clean it up.”
“… What?”
“Come with me and learn.”
Jinah looked at me and showed just one wish.
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