episode_0041

The tears couldn’t stop. I couldn’t help but be happy that I could finally feel the taste that I had never felt no matter what I ate before.

Of course, it’s not that good in that you have to eat it with something slippery and soggy, but after spending a few days here, I felt like it was finally filling the unpleasing feeling I had no matter what I ate.

“Ugh, black… ”

What on earth was the problem?

Wiping my tears with my sleeve, I munched on the tear-soaked sausage and then quickly swallowed what was in my mouth.

My palm was covered in semen, but what was more important was that I could somehow taste it.

I felt like what I gained right now was greater than the discomfort.

With my head down and tears streaming down my face, I recalled over and over again the strong taste of the sausage I had just eaten, and was immersed in that lingering feeling for a long time.

Unlike Kailon, who said he couldn’t eat it because it was too fishy, I realized that Kailon’s semen tasted sweet and that I could taste the sausage I ate with it.

Clearly, this could only be called miserable.

I couldn’t understand why I had a body like this at all, and it was only by doing things like this that I could truly enjoy it.

I also had a feeling of self-destruction, wondering if I had to go this far to taste it.

It was inevitable that a feeling of rejection would seep into me once I was faced with the fact that this was semen.

However, because it didn’t have that unique fishy smell and when I thought that it might give me a taste, that reluctance was cut in half, making it easier to approach.

I clenched my squishy fists and shook my shoulders.

Shivering, I leaned forward further, placed my forehead against the edge of the table, and closed my eyes.

Then the tears flowing from the corners of my eyes fell to the floor.

As I was crying like that for a while, Kailon was behind me with his hand on my back.

“Are you okay? Oh, you can taste it?”

The warmth that came through me calmed my shivering body a little and I was able to let out a calming breath.

“Uh, yes… ”

As I stood up feeling his touch, I realized that the semen was now getting colder and hardening in my hand, and I looked down at it in confusion.

“… Please clean this.”

“character.”

When it gets cold, no matter how much I dislike it, it quickly fills up, so I had no choice but to ask for cleanliness magic, and when he saw that, he willingly used cleanliness magic.

In an instant, my hands became soft and the floor became clean. I looked at them and then picked up the fork again.

But all I could do was stop and hesitate.

When I remembered that I couldn’t taste the food properly unless I was eating it together, I felt a sense of shame and furrowed my eyebrows.

I was stuck and couldn’t go any further.

“… … .”

No matter how much it makes you feel the taste, or how much you don’t repulse the smell, in the end it can still be said to be excrement.

Of course, I don’t know if it’s okay to call the seeds that make babies excrement, but whatever.

As I bit my lip and carefully lowered the fork I was holding, he looked at me blankly.

“What’s wrong?”

“No, yes… I don’t know.”

I couldn’t give a proper answer to what Kailon said.

Doesn’t it look crazy? In the first place, it’s unreasonable to ask for semen every time you eat, and I doubt whether you can mentally endure eating like that.

I’m at a loss. After experiencing a taste like this, is it possible to eat with a slight taste that can only be felt if you concentrate on whether it is there or not?

It was a moment that made me think a lot as I wondered if I could survive such a bland taste after such a stimulating taste.

Damn taste.

I couldn’t help but realize that something was wrong with this body.

I couldn’t understand how broken I had to be.

As I started to feel that my body was strange, I found it increasingly difficult to accept it.

“I don’t know… ”

So, I just mumbled the answer I gave to Kailon again.

Really, I don’t know what to do next.

“… Don’t you eat more?”

“I have no appetite.”

There were still a lot of sausages that were cut into pieces that were easy to fit into one bite. But now I didn’t want to put it back in my mouth, even though I knew I wouldn’t even be able to taste it properly.

Because I knew how extreme the feeling of loss would be.

“Can you taste it?”

“… yes I’m fine. I’m full.”

So, despite what Kailon said, I just kept my mouth shut and beat myself up.

If you eat any more, you may be able to fill your stomach, but it will be difficult to satisfy your mouth that feels lost.

Isn’t that something like that sometimes?

If there is a taste, the number of masticatory movements increases, but if there is no taste, the number of jaw movements automatically decreases.

It has no taste, so what pleasure can you get from putting it in your mouth and chewing it?

So, in the end, I had no choice but to give up.

The feeling of self-destruction that didn’t occur when I was eating came flooding back after I finished eating and cleaning up, so it felt like I was asking for semen so I could eat it again.

It’s not those lesbians who are crazy,

Maybe it’s me.

*

I took off my veil, brushed off my bangs a few times, and squeezed them tightly, but my stomach still wasn’t completely relieved, so I sat on the bed in a daze and let out a breath.

However, before I could sort out my emotions, I had to move rooms due to Linda and Agnes returning for a while, so I moved carefully.

Kailon could sleep with Linda, and I could sleep with Agnes, so I did that.

I winked at Kylon, and before he could even open his mouth, I moved to the room I would share with Agnes, where I took the clothes that Kylon had given me and placed them on the blanket.

Take off your veil and straighten your hair.

After brushing away my flowing hair, I untied the cape from around my shoulders and slowly took off the one-piece dress that accentuated my chest.

Of course, the stockings and garter belt were still there so there was nothing I could do about it.

After changing into comfortable clothes again and taking off my necklace properly, I felt lighter.

Well, unlike before, it wasn’t that I didn’t like the saint’s clothes I was wearing.

I was glad that because the side slit disappeared, I had less to worry about. As expected, I was able to gain peace of mind by wearing something more rather than taking it off.

As I was organizing the clothes I had taken off, Agnes, who was looking at me from the side, asked cautiously.

“Saint, what kind of dagger is this?”

What she was interested in was not the outfit I was wearing, but the thigh-high stockings and the stilettos held in place with strings.

Unlike a knife, it was quite heavy, and because of its size, it gave off a subtle sense of intimidation.

I secretly brought it with me when I was changing clothes at the convent, but I thought it would be okay to tell Agnes, so I opened my mouth.

“It’s my self-defense weapon… It is a dagger filled with divinity that has passed through the prayers of the religious leader. Would you like to take a look?”

“… really? Well, let me take a look then.”

Still, Agnes, perhaps because she was a noble from a holy kingdom, acted like a devout believer, but with sparkling eyes, Agnes approached me and pulled out a dagger from a scabbard attached to a leather strap.

The neatly refined sword and the gold that decorated it were pleasing to the eye.

And on the central iron near the hilt of the sword was a cross encrusted with gold and a unique pattern, officially announcing that it belonged to the Holy Kingdom and that the process of granting divinity had been completed through prayer.

Agnes, who saw it, let out an exclamation of “Oh,” as if she had seen something amazing, then nodded and handed it back to me.

“It really is a sword of high value.”

“Haha… I took care of my body because I thought it should be healthy.”

I grabbed the dagger she handed back and carefully put it in the drawer.

I thought that if Kailon saw it later, he might throw a fit and take it away.

No, wait a minute.

The reason Kylon takes the blade from me is because he’s afraid I’ll hurt myself.

So now, if you don’t have that ability, you won’t harm yourself even if you have a blade, so wouldn’t it be okay to not take it even if you know it?

When that thought crossed my mind, I groaned for a moment, then slowly put my feet up on the bed and fell into a state of worry.

Then, it seems like there’s nothing wrong with asking Kylon to buy a weapon later, but wouldn’t it be good if I learn how to fight now?

If you have magical power, you can use magic, but since you don’t have divine power anymore, it’s out of the question… If I didn’t have both, I thought it would be okay to just help out with my physical strength or at least keep myself healthy so that other colleagues wouldn’t worry.

Just when I thought it wouldn’t be surprising if I finally got my own weapon, Agnes’ voice suddenly turned towards me.

“Now that I think about it, you are a saint?”

“Yes, Sister Agnes.”

“Stir… Have you been going with Kailon from the beginning?”

“… … Yes.”

I was startled by the sudden call, but soon realized that the topic was related to Kailon, so I willingly agreed to listen and looked at her.

Agnes, who boasted a beautiful appearance with blonde hair, opened her mouth cautiously and with a slightly shy expression.

“By any chance, what does Kailon like… Did you know? Well, I can’t be as debauched as Lee and Linda… ”

A check has already been put in place on Linda. Linda, you’re talking about debauchery.

Well, it would have been strange not to know since they kept sharing the same room every night and kept moaning every night, but I could only admire and praise Agnes for trying to get in between them.

It was clear that there would be a muddy road ahead, and it was clear that those who met at the end would have a muddy fight, but isn’t dog fighting the most enjoyable way to fight?

I cautiously tilted my head and pursed my lips.

“I don’t know, but… The warrior seems to enjoy color, so it wouldn’t be a bad idea to ask him.”

“Birds, colors… ? Sir, isn’t the saint opposed to that?”

“No. This is the action of the person closest to the goddess, so there is nothing to object to.”

“Ah… ! Is that so?”

A smile appeared on Agnes’ face, as if she was secretly happy.

When I saw that, I nodded and got back on the bed to get ready to sleep.

Rejoice, Kylon, because I am helping you with your dating business.