episode_0041
by fnovelpiaIn my life, I have never once gone to see the sea with anyone other than my family.
It is safe to say that I actually have no memory of going to the sea with my family since I was young.
As time passed, my expectations grew as I was finally able to go to such an ocean with someone.
To be honest, I wanted to go on a sea trip with Yuchan from the beginning.
As I haven’t made a single memory in the sea for 14 years.
I wanted to create new memories in a new relationship and new atmosphere.
Of course, even if everything is ready now, you can’t go right away.
Because there is something I need to do before going on a sea trip.
I’ll go now. Like I said last time, I’ll be here on Thursday.”
“You’re using me as a porter until you go.”
“It’s more convenient to have someone to carry your luggage.”
“Quickly, get on the bus and disappear. Spend time alone.”
“What would you do by yourself, sending me away in such a hurry?”
“It’s not what you think, so don’t worry.”
Since it was vacation, I came to the terminal to go back to my hometown. Yuchan needed someone to carry his luggage, so he brought him along.
If you hear me say that, you might think that I brought it here by force.
If you think about it, Yuchan took on the role of porter.
He said my suitcase looked heavy and I might fall, so he came with me.
“Anyway, I’m going. You’re doing well while I’m away.”
“I can do well without it.”
“Don’t eat ramen. I made side dishes again last time.”
“I understand. Let’s go quickly.”
Yuchan, who looked like he would leave as soon as I got on the bus, stayed there and looked at me through the window.
I suddenly remembered the past and started laughing.
When I was dating.
Every time I went down to my parents’ house, Yoo-chan would become as dumb as he is now and stand there until the bus departed.
As the bus departed, Yuchan’s appearance became increasingly distant.
But his presence could be felt even though he was no longer visible.
because.
-Wheee!!
[Han Yu-chan: Can you see this?]
About 10 minutes after departure, a message arrived.
Yu-chan took a picture of the road filled with cars and sent it to Tok.
Just looking at it, I was about to go home, but it looks like I was lamenting my situation when I saw my car stuck.
Although I am grateful that you came all this way to help me carry my luggage.
Unfortunately, going back is none of my business. It’s your job.
To appease Yu-chan, I took a picture of the inside of the bus and sent it to him.
[Well, it’s comfortable. It feels so good. It’s a highway so it’s not clogged.]
It’s always fun to tease Yuchan.
Even though I’m depressed, I feel energized whenever I can make fun of Yuchan.
Yuchan responds to my talk like this.
[Han Yu-chan: Let’s go and buy it.]
He cursed.
Of course, I’m not the one to get upset and angry at such curses.
Because I expected this to be part of the repertoire and had an answer in mind.
[If I die after the accident, you will never be able to eat tteokgalbi.]
[Han Yu-chan: You can eat it. Just buy it and eat it.]
[Are you confident you can live without eating the tteokgalbi I make?]
[Han Yu-chan: Write… It’s going to be expensive.]
It’s still a long way from making me embarrassed and angry.
Han Yu-chan, train more and come back.
***
Thanks to spending time chatting with Yuchan from time to time, I arrived at the terminal without any time to feel bored.
Now I just have to take a taxi and go to my hometown, but for some reason, my steps didn’t move like my heart.
I haven’t called my parents even once since I returned. The only contact I received was text.
The reason I didn’t contact my parents by phone.
Because I didn’t want to hear my parents’ voices from 14 years ago.
It’s not that my relationship with my parents wasn’t good.
As an only child, he showered me with a lot of love and attention.
The problem is that while he showered so much love and attention on me, he didn’t actually pay any attention to himself.
As time passed, the mom and dad I saw had changed so much from the ones I knew before.
“Phew… That doesn’t mean you can’t not go.”
If it were 14 years ago, the faces of my mom and dad I would see would not be the ones I was familiar with.
I expect that he still maintains his youthful appearance as he is in the midst of his work and is passionately paying attention to me.
And the voice too.
It will be different from the voice I am familiar with.
First of all, I told my parents in advance that I would arrive home today.
I can already imagine how much attention and welcome I will receive when I arrive.
-Wheee!! Wow!!
While I was waiting for a taxi, thinking about various things, I got a call from Yoo-chan.
How did he know the arrival time and call at the right time?
“Hello?”
[arrived?]
“Yes, I’m waiting for a taxi now.”
[Go back carefully. I say hello to my parents.]
“Yoochan, I’m a little nervous right now.”
[I guess so. Because the image of your parents in your head will be different from what it is now.]
“That’s why I hesitate to go.”
[Are you stupid?]
When I heard Yuchan’s completely unexpected answer, my emotions soared for a moment.
I’m so nervous right now and don’t know what to do, but suddenly you’re calling someone an idiot.
I’ve never said anything that could be considered stupid in the first place.
“What are you saying all of a sudden? What do you mean by stupid?”
[It’s not like I lived alone with my parents.]
“Yes, that’s right.”
[Do you hate seeing your parents when they were younger?]
“Is there any way you wouldn’t like it? just… I’m afraid I’ll cry when I see it.”
[Then go see him. I just cry because tears come to my eyes. It’s not like anyone told you not to cry.]
“I thought mom and dad would be embarrassed to see their daughter suddenly crying.”
[You’re not going to be angry and you’re not going to cry, but there’s so much to worry about.]
Although the tone was blunt, it was helpful enough advice to instill courage in my heart.
I’m a little dissatisfied that I didn’t say something nice, but that’s because I’m Han Yu-chan.
If he had spoken softly, I would have felt a sense of disconnect and not been able to listen properly.
“Thank you, Yuchan.”
[Don’t think too much and just go.]
“Yes, I understand. Let’s go on a trip to the sea right away.”
[okay. Hang up.]
Thanks to Yu-chan, my steps became lighter and I took a taxi and headed to my home.
In front of the house we arrived at after traveling for about 15 minutes.
I rang the doorbell with trembling hands.
I should have pressed the door lock password, but I couldn’t remember it because it was my house password before I moved in.
“Yes, who are you?”
An unfamiliar voice was heard through the front door. But at the same time, it was a somewhat familiar voice.
The door opened and I finally saw my mother’s face.
“Huh?! Eugene!!”
My mother’s face, brightly welcoming me, came into view.
Although he clearly smiled brightly and looked happy, I couldn’t help but smile along with that expression.
just…
“Uh, Mom?”
Just surprised.
The reason I was so surprised was simple.
Because it was so different from the image of my mother in my head.
Wrinkles that had been visible countless times are now faintly visible. The gray hair that was visible here and there is no longer visible on my mother now.
Along with that, my mother’s voice.
It flows into my ears like a beautiful chord.
“Oh my daughter!! Are you here now?”
“Uh, yes.”
“What’s wrong? Stand still.”
The moment I realized what a beautiful person my mother was and what a beautiful voice she had.
As my emotions intensified, my legs slowly moved.
And I am.
“Mom!!”
I threw myself into my mother’s arms and hugged her tightly.
Of course I knew that this behavior would embarrass my mother, but I just couldn’t stop.
The forgotten image of my mother reappeared in my mind and my body moved like an instinct.
“Huh? What’s wrong with my daughter? Hugging my mom.”
“Just. It’s been so long since I last saw you.”
“My daughter, how are you?”
“Yes!! Who is your mom?”
“Mom was doing well too. Mom feels so good when my daughter hugs me like this!!”
I entered the house while hearing my mother’s happy voice.
I was able to see the room I used when I was 20, along with the scenery inside the house filled with memories.
As if I was looking at a scene from a fairy tale, I couldn’t help but admire the scenery that I had imagined in my head.
Even though it was clearly the room I had stayed in, I found myself fiddling with it with my hands, feeling strange.
“Mom, what about dad?”
“Dad went shopping to feed my daughter something delicious.”
“When will it come?”
“I’ll probably be there in 10 minutes. Do you want to see your dad too?”
“Yes!! I want to see my dad quickly too.”
My dad has always been a dependable and cool person.
Even though time has passed and he has grown older, his charisma and atmosphere have not changed.
“Mom.”
“Huh?”
“I love you.”
“Why did my daughter become so cute?”
Since my regression, whenever I feel unfamiliar, I have never felt at ease.
That’s why I always hoped it would be familiar.
But now.
I want to accept these unfamiliar feelings without any hesitation.
Spending time with my parents.
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