episode_0041

[Today’s Bar]

After class.

I was killing time at the PC room and met Park Mu-shin at 7 o’clock.

“… … .”

It’s scary to meet me.

Park Mu-shin is in a daze, with his mouth open as if he is spilling water that isn’t there.

“Why are you so flustered? You’ve seen me like this before.”

My cross-dressing is scary.

It’s as if another personality has emerged.

The way of speaking that comes out is ‘Kim Hyun-ah’s’ way of speaking, not ‘Kim Hyun-woo’s’.

Without realizing it, I waved my hand in a soft voice and spoke.

Park Mu-shin said, bending his waist at a 90-degree angle.

“Come in, Princess Hyuna.”

“Ah. Seriously, don’t do that.”

If another man had done it, I would have been shocked.

If Park Mu-shin does it, it’s nothing.

“Boss. Two! Two! One woman! One man!”

The guy who usually sits quietly in the empty seat is acting unusually noisy today.

Why do you keep winking and giving me the thumbs up when you call me boss?

“Sit down! I’m busy!”

“Pre-pressure!”

Meanwhile, the boss answers coolly without even looking at me.

As expected, it was a regular restaurant.

Park Mu-shin and I sat in the corner seat where we usually sat.

The first one to speak was Park Mu-shin.

“No way… … I never thought you’d hide such feelings from me. I honestly thought I had a normal sexual orientation. You’re different. If you were me, I could be gay too… … Bam!”

I used the power of ‘Fairy Dance’ to punch Park Mu-shin in the face.

“… … Hitting someone in the face while they’re wearing glasses is murderous… … bang!”

“How about just leaving?”

“I think this is the first time in my life that I’ve seen a woman’s beautiful smile so scary.”

Park Moo-shin said this while wiping his glasses, which had not broken even after being hit by two of my fists, with a glasses cleaner he bought at Comic World, which he kept in his pocket.

“No. But you really panicked? You suddenly asked to meet up, so I figured you’d be like that. I thought maybe you had a new girlfriend. What the heck. I really didn’t know you’d show up as Kim Hyun-ah. And are you really excited today? You even came wearing a skirt? Thank you!”

Ding-ding-.

As I watched Park Mu-shin deliberately drop his chopsticks and try to go under the table, I quickly kicked him in the face and picked them up for him.

“Stop it. I’m serious today.”

“Yeah… Sorry. I’m sorry. But should I say this is an inevitable instinct?”

“… … .”

Could it be that coming to this guy for advice was a mistake?

Still, I had no idea that the harem app ended up in my hands the day after I drank with this guy.

I explained the problem I was having right now.

“Hmm. I dressed up as a woman to date Han Chae-yeon again. But then I found out that Han Chae-yeon was a man, so I guess she was playing with you. I kept doing it, and I ended up doing it. Lately, I’ve been dressing up as a woman a lot. It’s like the old Black Flame Dragon is coming back to life, right?”

[This human.]

[Your interpretation skills are quite good. Not as good as Pia’s, but it’s definitely possible.]

How on earth do you understand it to come up with such an interpretation?

Still, Park Mu-shin was considerate.

I think I’ve told you all the H-related stories.

I can see you changing all the words to be okay, for fear of being rude to me.

“I’m embarrassed, but I’ll confess in advance.”

“Huh?”

“… … My brain woke up after hearing what you just said. I changed the subject on purpose. It was definitely not out of consideration for you. ”

This kid!

Somehow, even though the food was coming out, he didn’t get up.

“No. But. Hmm.”

“What. Speak.”

“No. What should I say… … Hmm. Hmm.”

Park Mu-shin stared at my face intently.

“Somehow this feels like a one-on-one date between a couple, I feel good… … swoosh!”

“… … .”

“I’m sorry. Anyway. I’m telling you this because we’ve been friends since elementary school. Since kindergarten. Personally, I vaguely expected that one day, sooner or later, you would have these worries.”

“Oh… Really?”

It was a little unexpected.

I wasn’t even thinking about that.

I never thought my friend would have been thinking like that all along.

“That’s right, you… You liked cross-dressing since you were little. Do you still remember? You came dressed as a woman and acted like a real woman. You became my first love. Suddenly, you… You waved your pepper in front of me, saying it was weird. The shock when you did that.”

“… … .”

Come to think of it.

I vaguely remember it too.

When I was young.

I remember watching a cartoon called Ttanggu and imitating it, shaking a chili pepper in front of adults and other people…

“… … Really. The shock from that time still comes to my dreams sometimes. The shock from when my first love, Kim Hyun-ah, had a pepper. Sigh.”

“Uh. You can’t help it when you’re young. I know this because I’ve seen kids recently. Kids are just like that.”

“Still, I don’t think there are many guys who wave a chili pepper in front of their friends.”

“shi. Noisy.”

“Ah… … No matter what I hear from Kim Hyun-ah, I feel like my body is being purified. Friend. No. Hyun-ah!”

what.

Who is this disgusting little bastard?

But funny enough.

There was nothing at all unsettling about what this kid was saying.

Because I know you probably don’t mean it.

Furthermore, it might be because I know that Park Mu-shin will never look at me with the eyes of reason.

“By the way. When you get a confession from a guy because of an old trauma or feel like he’s looking at you like that, you feel sick, right?”

“… … Right.”

“Is it okay for you as a fan?”

“I think that’s okay. I just finished filming a drama.”

right.

Honestly, I didn’t mind taking a picture with a guy who indirectly confessed that he liked me.

It was okay for others to see it.

just…….

“You say that you keep feeling uneasy whenever you see a sincere man. Hmm.”

Park Mu-shin stroked his chin.

“But. It’s not necessarily because you’re cross-dressing. If a guy suddenly confesses his feelings to me with sincerity, I might be shocked and traumatized, right?”

Suddenly, Park Mu-shin’s face turned pale.

“What is it? Why is that?”

“No… … Kim Hyun-woo, who I thought was relatively easy, ran a simulation of saying ‘I love you’ to me in his head, but I suddenly felt sick.”

“Hey! I’m serious.”

“No. I’m serious too. You like cross-dressing, but that doesn’t mean you’re gay, right?”

He was a guy who was good at using really explicit words.

“That’s right… … .”

“Huh? But you. The way you talk is like you graduated from being sympathetic. It’s like you’re with other women too, besides Han Chae-yeon… … .”

“… … Just by chance.”

[Would you like to order 10 sets of disposable egg tenga?]

[Yes/No]

“What are you doing?”

“No. Nothing. Because I have precious partners.”

Park Mu-shin had a somewhat liberated atmosphere.

I said while looking at that Park Mu-shin.

“But. It’s not just because I’m not gay. It’s more than that. I feel uneasy. Should I say that my body is already rejecting me before I even confess? No. Should I say that I’m scared?”

“That’s scary. They say habits formed at age three last until you’re eighty. Bad habits are bad habits, but if trauma is deeply engraved, it doesn’t get better easily. You and I went to different high schools, so I only heard about your recent situation through messages. You said you were a bit depressed back then, right?”

“… … .”

“Trauma. If you could get better with just one word of your own will, ‘I want to get better!’, then all the counselors in the country would starve to death?”

Park Mu-shin is smart.

Should I say that he is a guy who makes a living by streaming with just his skills?

They say that the guys at the top of the game are basically smart.

Looking at Park Mu-shin, I could see that that statement was not wrong.

He has a quick mind.

Be cool.

Furthermore, the way he stated facts, as expected of a broadcaster, wasn’t that unpleasant.

“You are playing a horror game right now. No matter how scary the horror game is, it is scary and difficult at first. But once you get used to it or start to recognize it, there comes a point where even the scariest horror game becomes nothing.”

“You’re saying it won’t get better in an instant?”

“Yeah. Well. Honestly, it’s not good for anyone to hear other people talking about this or that. But as your precious friend, I think you don’t need to worry too much. And at the same time, you don’t need to make a hasty decision.”

Park Mu-shin said.

“We’re 23. Inma. When adults look at us and say, “You’re old enough to do anything…” it’s not a lie. We haven’t even finished our military service yet. We have plenty of time.”

“… … .”

“Think about it calmly. In my view, this will have a huge impact on your future. It would be ridiculous to have a conversation with me or make a decision on impulse like, ‘I should do this!’ ”

“Okay, that’s right.”

Boom-.

He clinked his beer glasses and downed it in one cool shot.

Not much has been resolved though.

I feel somewhat relieved.

“Hey. If you think about it, I’m drinking in front of you while dressed as a woman, so I think I’ve changed quite a bit, right?”

“Of course.”

Park Mu-shin said with a happy smile.

“I’m also glad that I can drink with Kim Hyun-ah instead of Kim Hyun-woo. Ah. I thought I’d only drink with men for years, sitting in the corner of my room, but now I’m drinking with this beauty. I feel like I’m going to win 10 games in a row as soon as I get home today.”

Park Mu-shin said.

“Please contact me again if you make a decision. If you do, I will have to revive the Kim Hyun-ah Lovers Association.”

“Was there something like that?”

“Yeah! It’s actually good because it’s Kim Hyun-ah.”

Park Mu-shin seemed sincere.

“She’s more beautiful and attractive than women, but she’s not a woman, so her breasts are a bit disappointingly large. That’s why we can see beyond that… … Ahem. Anyway, there’s something like that. Once you fall for that charm, you can’t get out? Isn’t it because of you that I’m still single? ”

“… … Ugh. Suddenly, I feel sick.”

“Don’t worry. I won’t ask you to take my Ada away. Our group’s motto in the first place was to just look from afar.”

Park Mu-shin said.

“Still, I hope you don’t feel offended by guys who are too serious about you. Honestly, just because you cross-dress now, there aren’t any kids around you who make rude or hateful comments like they did in middle and high school, right?”

“That’s…that’s right.”

“You said it before. All kids are like that. Well, 23 is still young. But at this age, there aren’t many people who arbitrarily talk about other people’s hobbies or tastes. It’s not like there aren’t any at all.”

and.

Park Mu-shin added.

“More than anything… …Your very existence is a bit fraudulent. You idiot! It’s no different than drawing a female character and calling her a man. What crime did the men who fall for you commit? ”

“I’m glad to hear that.”

Gulp-.

Ding-ding-.

That day.

Park Mu-shin dropped his chopsticks 11 times on purpose.

There was nothing to see.

“Hey, you little punk! Stop dropping your chopsticks!”

Rather, it was only the boss who scolded me.