episode_0040
by fnovelpia“What year is it?”
I’ve been thinking nonstop whether there’s a way for me to get out of this situation.
But no matter what I think, I can’t escape Yujin’s grip on my collar.
“I… I guess I was mistaken. Of course I thought I would have gone.”
“Why did I think it was natural?”
“It’s strange that we haven’t gone on a sea trip in the 14 years we’ve been together. It’s a date course you should visit at least once.”
“You, tell me honestly. Did you meet any woman before you were 23?”
“There really isn’t any. I told you. You were my first girlfriend.”
The hand that had been pressing hard on my collar weakened somewhat.
Just when I was about to think that my sincere words worked.
-Wow!!
“Yu, Eugene… ? I can’t breathe.”
It tightened my throat even more.
When I think about whether there has ever been this much pressure on me, there has never been a single time.
“Look me in the eye and tell me straight.”
Yujin’s gaze is so intense that it feels like my eyes are going to be ripped out just by looking at me.
That’s how full of life and burning hot it is.
It’s not impossible to kill someone with your eyes.
“I can honestly say with everything I have that you were my first girlfriend.”
“Should I believe this or not.”
“Of course, there is no exact evidence for what I say, but there is no accurate evidence for you to doubt either. Isn’t that right?”
“Well, that’s right.”
“So now let’s let go of the collar and shop in peace.”
Nevertheless, when the hand holding my collar did not loosen, I shook my head frantically in a last struggle to survive.
And finally.
I found the reason.
“Wow, workshop!!”
“Workshop?”
“Ugh, yes. Do you remember when you said you would go to a workshop when you first joined the company?”
“I remember. We weren’t married yet.”
“At that time, I went to the sea for a company workshop, and I was momentarily confused.”
At this level, wouldn’t it be a mistake to say something like that?
but.
-Wow!!
“Keck… !! Stand, teacher. I’m really going to die like this… ”
“Are you confusing me with the fact that you went to the beach with another girl?”
“What kind of woman is this… You, you know. The company I worked for was a very male company!!”
“There wasn’t a single female employee?”
“ji, it really wasn’t in our department. Really!!”
“Well, I don’t think I’ve ever seen a female employee.”
“Yeah, right? Of course it’s my fault for being confused, but it’s not a lie that you are my first girlfriend.”
When I spoke passionately about what I thought was my last chance in life, Yujin released the hand that was holding my collar.
If I had been grabbed by the collar even a minute harder, I would have said goodbye to this world.
“I believe. If it’s a real sphere, I’ll kill it.”
“If this is really a lie, I will accept it even if it kills me a hundred times.”
Eugene glared at me sharply and continued walking around the department store.
For now, it seems safe to think that the crisis has been passed.
***
While walking through the department store, there was no conversation at all.
All I can hear are cold footsteps.
Even if it’s not a lie that she was my first girlfriend, being confused is a deadly sin in itself and I don’t know how to resolve it.
While walking around trying to think of a way, I saw a product featuring Eugene’s favorite panda character.
“Eujin, there is a panda you like.”
“Huh?! Where?”
“here.”
“Is it true?! Why is this here?”
“How many should I buy?”
“To buy it for you?”
“Yes, I will buy it for you.”
Without hesitation, Eugene entered the store and put various types of panda character products into her shopping cart.
After calculating all of that, the amount came out to be close to 100,000 won.
In 2009, 100,000 won was so much money that my bank account became empty.
“Ah, I’m happy. Thank you, Yuchan.”
Still, it’s a cheap price to pay for making Eugene feel better.
“What should I buy now?”
“Wait a minute. But why should I hold this?”
“Huh? I’m holding it too.”
“Didn’t you say that you would carry all your luggage?”
“I bought so much that I couldn’t help it.”
Combined with the items I had previously purchased and the panda goods, my house has become incredibly large.
When I realized that my mood had eased, complaints naturally poured out.
The feeling subsided quickly.
Eugene’s smile. That face looking at me.
This is because it showed a brighter light than ever before.
When I look at that face, the corners of my mouth turn up without me realizing it.
As if he had promised to do so.
“Yoochan, let’s go buy a swimsuit.”
“Okay, let’s go buy it. I don’t have a choice anyway.”
“You have to buy it too. Buy mine and buy it together.”
This time I was taken to a swimsuit store.
Eugene’s eyes began to shine in an incomparable way compared to before, as if he was most looking forward to coming to the swimsuit store.
Normally, when Eugene does something like that, related memories should come to mind, but no memories come to mind.
The same goes for Eugene wearing a swimsuit.
Judging from this, it certainly seems like I haven’t been to the beach with Eugene in 14 years.
“Hmm, is this good? Or this?”
“Left.”
“Left? Is this better?”
“I think it would be better for you.”
“What is on the right?”
“The right side is okay, but the colors are too splattered.”
Even though I wasn’t asked, my evaluation of the two options came out instinctively.
This is why habits are scary.
Since I’ve been criticizing Yujin so much, it’s become like an instinct.
“Oh!! Yuchan.”
“Why?”
“How about this?”
“Det… ”
The swimsuit that Eugene was holding was a swimsuit with a design that was not commonly seen.
A design that seemed to be a feast of flesh colors when worn and seemed to do little more than cover important parts flashed before my eyes.
Are you really going to wear that? On a beach with so many people walking around?!
“It doesn’t suit me.”
“Doesn’t it suit you? I think it will be okay.”
“What suits you? Even if you try it on, it’s just like a child imitating an adult.”
“Then should I remove this from the options?”
“Pu. It doesn’t suit me so much.”
Fortunately, Yujin nodded and hung up the swimsuit she was holding in her hand again.
To be honest, it wasn’t a design that would look out of place.
It will suit you. Eugene’s body suits her well.
However, I really didn’t want to see myself wearing that swimsuit.
The reason is…
I do not know.
“Then there are three. Yuchan, which of the three is best?”
“Second.”
“Is it enough to say it without even thinking about it?”
“That’s best.”
“Then I’ll have to do this. Hey, can you try it on?”
“Yes, sir. As much as you want.”
While Yujin was changing into her swimsuit, she looked around to see if there was anything to see around her.
It’s definitely a new product, as Eugene said when buying the sunscreen, but to me, it just looks like an ordinary product.
It takes about 14 years to come out with something decent.
-Wheee!!
[Yoo-chan, where did you go?]
“I’m just wandering around for a bit. Have you tried it on?”
[Yes, I am going to buy this.]
“I understand. I’ll go now.”
Maybe it was because I was looking forward to a trip to the sea even more after buying a swimsuit, but the expression on Yujin’s face as she welcomed me was infinitely brighter.
His face is smiling brightly and without any worries, like a child.
Why did I never go on a sea trip with Yujin, who wanted so much?
Even if the couple’s relationship was not good, the dating period and early marriage when the relationship was good would have been enough.
“What are you thinking?”
“Thoughts about why I didn’t go on a sea trip with you.”
“If you think about it like that, it seems like I was really your first girlfriend.”
“How many times do you say it’s true? Anyway, haven’t you ever said you wanted to go to the beach?”
“I don’t remember the details, but I don’t think I ever told you.”
“I probably never told you either.”
During college, even if we didn’t do anything, as long as we were close to each other, those were memories and precious days.
That’s why I didn’t think about spending my time doing anything special.
At that time, I was satisfied and happy with that time.
As time passed and our relationship began to deteriorate, that time became firewood for us.
Firewood that further ignites the ill feelings they have for each other.
After thinking about it this way, I feel like I can understand why we fought so much.
Maybe it was because I didn’t have any special memories made in special places.
“What’s important about the past? The present is important.”
“Oh… Those words come out of Eugene’s mouth.”
“You always did that for me. I’m going to think like that now too.”
“I like that. If you think that you are just letting the past go by, you will have a lot to think about.”
“Now let’s choose a swimsuit for you to wear. What do you like?”
“Well, it’s an okay one.”
“It’s okay. How about this?”
As soon as I first saw the swimsuit that Yujin chose, it was a design that perfectly suited my taste.
It seemed like a light choice, but I just laughed at the fact that it immediately targeted my taste.
“It’s okay. Black and no pattern.”
“But doesn’t it feel like shorts too?”
“Well, isn’t that a good thing?”
“The problem is that you only think about things that are normal. Sometimes, wear something that stands out.”
“Ugh, I hate that kind of thing. The average one is the best.”
Eugene had already chosen a swimsuit that I liked, so I bought it right away. I think the size will fit anyway.
I’m walking around thinking that if I buy this much, there won’t be anything else to buy.
“Huh?! This is pretty.”
A voice that immediately made me anxious came to my ear.
What object made Yujin stop this time?
“What is it again?”
“Sunglasses. Should I buy one?”
“It would be good to buy one pair of sunglasses. But isn’t the right one expensive?”
“You make money by tutoring to use it for times like this. I need to buy one. What about you?”
“I don’t want to buy it.”
“It’s summer at the beach, so the sunlight will be quite strong, right?”
“It must be so strong that you can’t even open your eyes. It’s okay.”
Fortunately, this time it was quite a practical item.
If I only bought things like that, my dissatisfaction wouldn’t have piled up, but among the things in my hands and Eugene’s hands right now, there are things that are useful.
Almost impossible to find.
In the first place, I didn’t expect to only buy practical things.
“Ah, I bought them all!! It was a fruitful shopping.”
“The porter cries today too.”
“Instead, I’ll make you something delicious for dinner tonight.”
“Tteokgalbi.”
“I’m really curious. Are you a ghost who died from not being able to eat tteokgalbi?”
“No matter how many times I eat Tteokgalbi, I never get tired of it.”
“Okay, I’ll make what you want.”
Although my plan to stay at home was interrupted, I felt undesirable.
Seeing Yujin so excited, I don’t think there’s any need to think negatively.
You can think of it as creating new days as you live in the new present.
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