episode_0040

“Are you kidding me?”

“Uh..huh? What..?”

“No…ha…”

Athena looks at me with a look of disbelief.

‘What did I say wrong..?’

I thought she was upset because I pushed aside the chicken she was happily eating.

So I was trying to feed it…

Are you the type of person who hates being fed by other people?

Considering Athena’s fierce pride, I thought that might be possible.

“..Ah..You’re not going to eat it..?”

As I spoke with a trembling voice, she looked at me. Eventually, she closed her eyes tightly and took a big bite of the chicken I offered her.

Athena chewing and swallowing meat so slowly.

“….It’s delicious.”

“Hehe..”

I felt strangely pleased by her evaluation.

The world was amazing.

Until just a moment ago, I was struggling with feelings of guilt and emptiness.

I never imagined that a few words from her would make me feel this good.

‘I’m not bipolar either..’

But there’s nothing I can do.

When she complimented me on how her food was the best in the world, all the negative emotions inside me melted away without me realizing it.

I guess that’s why I came to rely on her so much.

I looked at Athena furtively, and she was continuing to eat chicken with a somewhat sad expression on her face.

For some reason a small smile spread across my face.

As time passed, we finished eating. Athena got up and cleared the dishes from the bed.

“I’ll tell them to bring me a new blanket. Rest.”

She said as she picked up my blood-stained blanket.

“Huh..?”

You’re leaving already..?

Can’t you stay with me a little longer?

All the terrible emotions I had experienced before Athena arrived came flooding back to my mind.

A feeling of loneliness and loss that makes you feel like your mind is going to break.

I had a feeling they would show up and torment me if I were ever alone again.

But when I looked at my watch, time had already passed.

It would be a nuisance if I asked for more.

“See you tomorrow Hera.”

Athena gave me a kiss on the forehead and started walking out the door.

“…”

no.

I don’t like being alone.

Don’t leave me.

As her figure faded away, my body began to tremble again.

Instinctively, I jumped up on the bed, ran towards her, and hugged her from behind.

“…Hera?”

She slowly turned around and took my trembling hand.

I know it’s a nuisance.

But I wish she would never leave my side.

I suppressed my trembling voice as much as I could and asked her earnestly.

“Oh..Just today..Can’t we..go together often..?”

Athena’s eyes began to shake as if there was an earthquake.

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“Ha….”

Is it because I’m feeling down?

The reason I’ve been sighing so much lately is because of this.

He looked at his annoying slave who was sleeping soundly next to him.

“….Pretty..”

How can someone sleep so beautifully?

Rather, it made me even more annoyed.

If only I hadn’t lost my eyes, I wouldn’t be this upset.

I pinched her cheek hard in frustration.

“Ugh…”

“…Surely you’re not doing this for everyone, are you?”

If not, Hera must have been born with the female talents sent from heaven.

How dare you tempt me so destructively without me even intending to.

When Hera asked him to spend the night with her, he asked her if she was in her right mind.

I tried to question what his intention was.

– We’re just girls… so it doesn’t matter, right..?

I was starting to get angry again.

Girls alone. Those damn girls alone.

It was a good excuse to approach Hera, but when the situation was the opposite, it felt like a huge wall that was suffocating me.

How on earth do I get her to recognize me as her lover?

At first, she regretted being born a woman, but upon thinking about it, it seemed that Hera had never been particularly interested in men.

Maybe you weren’t interested in love in the first place.

“……I’ve really changed too.”

My previous self was not picky about the means and methods to achieve his desired goals.

If there was something I wanted, I would take it even if it meant stealing it.

If there was anything blocking my path, I would not show mercy, even if they were a fellow human being.

If it were his old self, he would have already poured out all his desires to Hera without being able to hold back.

Even if she screamed for him to stop. Even if she cried and begged him. Even if she fainted.

He would have raped her for weeks, day and night, without rest, until he was satisfied.

‘And you’ll regret it for the rest of your life.’

A question I asked at a dinner table before.

She said she would rather die than be raped.

Now, if Hera were to die because of her own fault.

I couldn’t imagine how crazy I would become.

No. I didn’t even want to think about it.

Perhaps he would go mad and burn everything in sight, following her to her death.

It has changed.

He has definitely changed.

He had tried to completely ruin Hera. He had tried to make her into a fool who couldn’t do anything, and make her rely only on himself.

I kept stepping on her to make her my only slave who would follow and obey only my orders. That’s how I easily broke her spirit.

But when I saw her earlier.

Specifically, when I saw a large amount of blood flowing out of her head.

For a moment, my mind was blank and I couldn’t think of anything.

I still vividly remember that eerie feeling of my heart sinking to the floor.

Slavery, submission, all such things did not cross my mind; I only wished for her safety.

Since then, whenever she cried sadly, an unknown pain in her heart tormented her.

An unfamiliar pain felt for the first time.

What on earth is this?

I would rather be stabbed with a knife.

Even if you’re sick, it’ll be fine if you get treatment.

But every time I saw her sad expression, the throbbing pain seemed like it would never find a cure.

I wish she would only look at me. I wish she would only wag her tail at me.

The thought of isolating her so thoroughly that it could be done still remained.

But at the same time, I hoped she wouldn’t cry.

My head is in a state that even I cannot understand.

I couldn’t believe that I, who had the mental power to reach the 8th circle, was falling into this kind of dual agony.

“…What did you do to me, Hera.”

Even if I muttered to her while she was sleeping, there was no way I would get an answer.

okay.

If you have changed, you just need to change your plans accordingly.

Instead of breaking her, you just have to make her rely on you in some other way.

If you think about it slowly, there will definitely be a way.

“I’ve been getting swayed by Hera too much lately.”

How dare you talk about slaves.

I felt like I had to make Hera understand clearly who was in charge starting tomorrow.

‘You’d better be prepared, Hera.’

Thinking of a way to make her completely submissive,

I slowly closed my eyes and tried to fall asleep.

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but.

‘….This is driving me crazy.’

I just couldn’t sleep.

I tried to ignore it as much as possible,

Hera’s fragrant breath touching him from the side continued to stimulate him.

Because of her, my lower abdomen, which had been burning hot for a long time, was already telling me that it was at its limit.

I looked at Hera, who was sleeping soundly, not knowing anything.

Just like a pie in the sky, she was lying defenseless in front of him.

My eyes naturally went to her snow-white fingers.

‘….This will be okay.’

I pulled down my pants quietly so as not to wake her.

Then, he grabbed Hera’s wrist with one hand and pulled her hand towards his body.

He was my slave anyway.

It doesn’t matter, she’s all mine from head to toe.

“….Just hold my hand and sleep.”

It’s all your fault, Hera.

So please allow me to do this much.

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“Hmm..”

When I woke up, the first thing I noticed was the warm sunlight.

It was a refreshing morning.

The sunny weather seemed to make me feel much better.

…huh?

“…What is that smell?”

A strong smell, as if I had smelled it before, entered my nose.

It didn’t smell bad, but it had a dangerous smell that made me feel like I was going to get addicted.

‘I need to get some ventilation.’

As I opened the window, a cool breeze blew across my cheeks, refreshing the room.

“…I feel good..”

The cool breeze continued to touch my body. I felt a little cold, so I closed the window again.

When I turned my gaze, I saw Athena lying stretched out on the bed, sleeping soundly.

I approached her cautiously and examined her face.

The slight blush, her golden hair sticking around her cheeks, and the…

“You have dark circles..?”

Dark shadows stretched beneath her eyes.

Didn’t you sleep well?

When I looked again, there was a tired look on her face.

hmm..

I guess I’ll have to let him sleep a little longer.

I tried to wake her up so we could have breakfast together, but seeing her appearance made me think I shouldn’t wake her up.

Looking at the time, I saw that it was slightly past breakfast time.

My stomach was slowly sending me signals that it was hungry.

Since I won’t be able to eat much anyway.

But I had no reason not to eat, so I decided to go out for breakfast.

“I don’t want to eat alone…”

It’ll be okay.

I was still afraid of being alone, but thanks to Athena staying with me until morning, my heart felt much better.

I thought it would be okay to eat alone once in a while.

I eventually decided to eat breakfast alone, so I decided to quietly leave the room so Athena could sleep more comfortably.

As I reached out my hand to the door, I noticed that my fingers looked different than usual. To be exact, the tips of them.

‘..huh?’

His middle finger became wrinkled as if he had been soaking it in hot water for a long time.

There was a slightly sticky liquid on his fingers, which was too sticky to be just water.

“What is this?”

I licked it lightly with my tongue and felt a salty yet slightly sweet taste.

Did you sweat while you were sleeping?

It’s probably nothing.

I thought nothing of it and left the room to have breakfast.

To appease one’s hungry stomach.

But life is like a blessing and a curse, isn’t it?

I was faced with something unimaginable from the morning.

“You are…”

Why on earth is this guy here?

And that too, in broad daylight.

“Oh! You are a beautiful young lady.”

A middle-aged man with a bushy beard, black hair tied back in a ponytail, a thin, long scabbard on his waist, and small scars on his face.

It was a character I had seen as an illustration in a novel.

“Do you happen to know where Athena is?”

This man approached me with a smile that seemed like the friendly neighborhood uncle’s.

A swordsman from the East.

At the same time, he is the sole Grandmaster of this empire.

They say it can even cut down space.

A man at the tip of a sword.

It was the Sword Saint Carlos.