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A beautiful landscape with colorful autumn leaves.

Vita and Carlyle.

A week has passed since the two reconciled.

The sports festival is tomorrow. And recently, Vita has resolved her troubles and is in a good mood. So, she stretches and looks out the window, and a faint smile comes to her face.

“Are you feeling refreshed this morning?”

He has reconciled with Carlyle Schultz and has recently gained hope of returning to being a man.

I’ve definitely become a little closer to Emily, too.

After getting out of the shower and drying her hair, Vita took out her phone.

Go into the group chat room where Sasha and Emily are.

-Good morning everyone!

Saying hello in the morning is a regular routine these days.

Actually, the content of the conversation is not that different, but we become closer as we talk like this.

Stories about what happened at school every day, the upcoming sports competition, and midterm exams.

-Good morning, Bianca.

Oh, here’s the reply.

-I just took this picture, isn’t it really cute?

When Vita checked the photo, she saw a small white cat yawning.

Of course cats are cute.

‘Not as good as you, Emily…!’

While thinking that way.

Vita quickly responded, as it was none other than Emily Swan.

-Oh, so cute!

Below that, Shasha’s bold words continue.

-The cat is really cute! But more than that, guys. Look at my outfit.

Vita was taken aback.

“Ah, no…?!”

She’s wearing a Burma and making a V sign. That’s good. But what’s with the outfit-

-Hey, Shasha? I can see your underwear.

It almost feels see-through. So I told Vita, but he got an unexpected reaction.

-Yeah, on purpose. I’m going to seduce one person this time.

-Wow, fox!

Emily’s smiling emoticon.

-What the fox! Emily. Well, well. Bianca doesn’t know about this kind of thing.

The original Burma costume was just for show, so I’m definitely going to snatch one for myself tomorrow.

Embarrassed by the ensuing conversation, Vita closed her phone.

‘Girls are so bold…’

Anyway, I’ve gotten used to this kind of girl talk now.

“Let’s go soon.”

The long hair that has now become familiar hangs on her arms and sways.

Vita chose underwear.

Since I was alone in the first place, I came out naked after showering.

Then, suddenly, Vita blushed a little when she realized that the underwear she had chosen without thinking was the one she had worn on the day she reconciled with Carlyle Schultz. It couldn’t be helped.

“읏… ”

Vita finds herself frozen in time at the memory of that time.

***

‘Looking back… that day was so strange.’

That guy Carlyle too. And himself too.

Both of them must have had a headache for a while.

It’s just because my face feels hot for no reason.

[Let’s fight, me.]

An unexpected confession.

Yes, if you ask me. Surprisingly enough, it was Carlyle’s confession.

No, why?

‘Why me of all people…?’

I definitely had an inkling of it to some extent, but I didn’t know it would be that serious.

Vita is unknown.

He was always arrogant, unlucky, and a bum.

What kind of fate is it that my rival fell in love with me, a man of all people?

And why yourself-!

[Give me a chance.]

[…I like you, Bianca.]

Did I just respond to that ridiculous nonsense?

Vita’s face became flushed, her hands and feet shriveled up, and only her innocent hair became disheveled.

“Ha, really… ”

I guess I accepted it for nothing. The more I think about it, the more I regret it.

It was really by accident. By accident, Vita ended up accepting Carlyle’s confession of victory for a moment.

Like I was dumb for a moment.

[… Uh, uh.]

After just one thought.

‘I’m originally a man…!’

I decided to accept it because I thought there was no way I could lose that match.

Even so, I feel quite troubled –

Several complex reasons.

It also feels like you’re making fun of someone who is sincere.

‘I was originally a man, and I will go back to being a man.’

It’s a fact that doesn’t change no matter what the opponent does. It feels like a match where the winner is already decided.

On the other hand, do you also feel like you are being manipulated by the other person?

‘Even if you didn’t accept it in the first place…’

Because it was a close match. Strictly speaking, even if Vita wins this match, there is no particular benefit to him.

It’s because I accepted the challenge for no reason. Vita, who had even put on her school uniform, checked her phone again. These days, Carlyle is contacting her a lot. It doesn’t matter whether it’s morning or night.

-I miss you, Bianca.

Vita blushed at that direct statement. Not because she was embarrassed, but because she was simply dumbfounded.

‘How can someone be so… shameless all the time?’

It’s become even more so lately.

This is a call that just arrived.

Vita replied a little curtly.

-What are you talking about when you saw it yesterday?

Then, immediately, the phone rings again, as if it had been waiting for it.

-It’s always like that, what should I do?

A smiling emoticon.

“Ugh… ”

This time, Vita closed her phone in embarrassment.

“This is what I’m saying…! Nothing’s changing.”

Maybe that’s what I just said to myself.

Isn’t it weird, really?

As a man, I have no reason to be excited about the other person. Carlyle, who has become more aggressive, feels burdened.

But Vita thought.

Right now, it’s just because I have a female body, and hormones are at work. The little heartbeats are just an illusion.

If I go back to being a man, the emotions that will disappear and turn into bubbles are completely meaningless.

‘So the match is definitely…!’

Vita was absolutely certain that it would end in her victory. Without a doubt.

***

But what is this feeling? It feels like I’m getting caught up in the other person’s pace.

Tiring- Tiring-

The lunch bell rang.

Vita headed to the annex building as usual.

Stairs leading to the rooftop.

Carlyle appears.

A refreshing smile appears as soon as Vita sees her. Vita can’t help but pause at that smile.

‘Why does he look so happy these days?’

That’s the idea.

Actually, Vita doesn’t know how excited Carlyle is lately. In fact, Carlyle interpreted it as the other person accepting his confession.

Well, that’s a whole month. He’s confident he can seduce you within a month.

From Carlyle’s point of view, this is a match he cannot afford to lose.

“Emily, isn’t she coming…?”

I hope it’s not too hasty an expectation. For now, Bianca came alone and he got his hopes up.

“Because tomorrow is the sports day. I guess I’ll eat with my friends.”

“It’s unfortunate, but there’s nothing I can do about it.”

Even though they say that.

Carlyle was secretly pleased.

It’s been a while since I spent time alone with Bianca Shamal.

Vita sensed something in Carlyle’s expression and flinched slightly. But then she declared to Carlyle.

“You, you…! Don’t think of anything stupid!”

“I don’t know what you’re talking about. Is something bothering you?”

“Don’t pretend not to know.”

Carlyle smirked as his opponent spoke those words, his face flushed and his fist held out.

“Of course, if you want. I’ll do as you wish.”

The two made a promise.

It’s like a detailed contract for a match. Carlyle has been so aggressive lately that Vita has been having a hard time.

Even when there was only Emily and Seth.

When three people walk together.

When Emily is in the middle, and Carlisle and herself are on either side.

Suddenly, Carlyle Schultz grabbed her hand and Vita was startled.

To be exact, he holds the little finger very lightly and then gently sweeps the palm.

At that moment, Emily was smiling and talking next to me.

“Still, I think it’s fortunate that the two of them made up. I wonder if they fought because of what I said. I feel a bit guilty.”

“Ugh, no…!”

Vita blushed and tried to deny it. Carlyle shamelessly blurted out his words.

“Yeah, that’s fortunate.”

Actually, at that time, Vita felt a strange sense of guilt.

What on earth is this, right next to Emily, my favorite person? For some reason, I can’t face Emily.

“What’s wrong, Bianca…?”

“No, nothing…!”

My face burned brightly. I don’t know why, but I felt guilty about Emily’s innocent reaction.

Afterwards, Vita got angry and confronted Carlyle. She made two demands.

First, no contact whatsoever when Emily Swan is around.

And secondly.

“The school said that dirty things are absolutely prohibited. I said it clearly.”

Recently added provisions.

Carlyle nodded.

“Yeah, because it’s a promise. Just do it in your room.”

“No, what! That’s not what I meant… ”

How can you interpret something you were told not to do at school like that?

Vita’s face turned red, but in the meantime Carlyle was lowering his body towards me.

“Okay, then hug me.”

Because it’s unavoidable to go up to the rooftop.

“Tsk-”

Vita slightly sticks out her lips and hugs him rather gently. She also puts her arms around his neck to keep him from falling.

For some reason, Carlyle seemed to be smirking, but it couldn’t be helped. That’s what Vita thought.

The fact that he didn’t say a word while going up was a feeling of last pride. However, if interpreted differently, it was tension.

After finally arriving at the rooftop, as soon as Vita opened the door, her flat, soft lower abdomen was hugged by strong arms.

“What the…!”

As Vita turns her head, she is hugged tightly into the other person’s wide arms.

“Ha, good.”

Carlyle buries his head in Vita’s neck, hugging her slender waist, and caressing the small crown of her head with his other hand. There is quite a bit of innate affection in all of it.

So much so that Vita, who was being held, had no choice but to realize it.

“You’re so good, you are.”

In the arms of her partner, her eyes widened. Vita’s cheeks gradually turned red.

Like a baby struggling in its mother’s arms, it is unable to move at all and then timidly pushes away little by little.

“Let go, a little… ”

But it doesn’t push through.

What a stupid, idiot.

‘Do you think that doing this will make any difference?’

Even though the already determined win/loss outcome will never change.

Anyway, it’s like this these days.

Vita was in a lot of trouble because of the match he had accepted rather absentmindedly.

Even though my body couldn’t move, the beating continued.

‘… No, no.’

I, I…!

***

“I’m a man-!”

Vita clenches her fist and screams loudly.

“Ah, senior!”

The junior guy next to me, Ru, was almost terrified.

It was a rather chilly autumn evening. I met up with my junior, Lou, whom I hadn’t seen in a while.

We are exercising together at an outdoor sports field in the city.

“Stop it!”

“What, why.”

“People around me keep looking at me!”

Vita flinched slightly at those whispered words.

Well, people passing by were looking at him strangely. Vita felt a little embarrassed and shrugged her shoulders slightly.

“… But it’s really true, right?”

Lou sighed.

Doesn’t this senior know what he looks like now?

Wet, blond hair sticking to her cheeks, or her cheeks flushed red.

Even the flexible curves revealed under the loose purple hoodie are the epitome of a woman.

Seriously, I feel like I have no place to look.

‘Calm down, Lu! This person is none other than your senior.’

In fact, I’ve recited these words dozens of times in my head.

A hot-blooded boy with a strong competitive spirit, my eccentric senior.

If I didn’t know the truth, it would have been hard to see her like this. She’s the prettiest girl in the city, as they say in anime.

“Ahem-”

But after a cough, Lou sympathized for a moment. If he didn’t sympathize, he would definitely get a beating.

“Of course I know… but other people see me as a crazy bitch!”

“Correct me to crazy.”

“Oh, yeah.”

“I thought to myself as I answered in a trembling voice,” said Lou.

Recently, my senior seems to have lost his taste.

I wondered what was going on when he suggested we exercise together. The reason was somewhat absurd.

“Masculinity Recovery Project-!”

It is said to be a meaningful plan that secretes male hormones by sweating a lot.

“That sounds plausible… ”

Lou was somewhat indifferent.

“But is it really necessary to put in this much effort? If you just take the medicine again, you can go back to normal.”

“That’s not even a certainty. That’s a different issue.”

The senior continues speaking with a rather solemn expression.

“… It’s dangerous, something.”

It’s really dangerous these days.

I’ve been acting strange lately.

I feel like my femininity has been enhanced by hormones.

Vita is scary for no reason.

“Going back and whatnot, I feel like something’s been weird about me lately… ”

I keep feeling like I’ve changed. It’s like another version of myself that I don’t know about is coming out.

Of course, since Lou has never turned into a woman, he would never understand.

“Physical strength is national power!”

And there are also studies showing that sweating and doing strenuous exercise secrete male hormones.

“So you have to try.”

Vita is putting in effort.

Because I made up my mind to put in as much effort as the other person is putting in to me with all their heart.

‘I will never let it go.’

That will never happen, and it can’t happen.

Anyway, tomorrow is the sports day.

So Vita has been working out with Lou for a week.

‘I absolutely have to get first place.’

I’m talking about the sports competition.

After running practice, it’s time for pull-ups.

He was doing chin-ups next to Ludo, groaning.

“Wow, I’m dying.”

“Ugh…! Set!”

Vita is now on her third. It feels unfair because even doing chin-ups is hard after turning into a woman.

‘When I was a man, I could easily do about ten.’

I really have to go back. I feel so wronged that I can’t live.

I have no doubt about going back to being a man.

I’ve lived as a man for over a decade. It’s only natural that I go back, and I don’t have the confidence to live my whole life as a woman.

So Vita promises.

He must return to his original state, to being a man again.

It’s pointless to be swayed by Carlyle.

The next day, the academy’s sports competition was held.

Girls in burmas, boys with excited expressions.

“Wow-!”

Under the clear, blue autumn sky, the playground was filled with passionate cheers.