episode_0038

“How about it? Do you think it worked?”

“… … I definitely don’t think it’s my sister’s problem.”

Is it really true that all men can be women, or am I not able to sort things out with my sister?

That temptation, I don’t know where I learned it, worked for me.

It’s strange that he gave in to his older sister’s temptation in the first place.

First of all, I gave it a passing grade.

“Clothes… What did you wear?”

“Clothes? Just a normal dress. It sticks tightly.”

“Okay… .”

If it were me before, I would have rushed right in.

Why doesn’t my brother-in-law find his sister attractive?

“Cheol.”

“Yes.”

“It’s really not my fault… ?”

“… … That will happen.”

What if the cause of my brother-in-law’s current behavior is not now, but back in the past.

I can’t guarantee that it’s not my sister’s fault.

Perhaps, I may have been in the wrong.

I was afraid that it might be true, so I decided to stop telling this story.

“I’m here.”

“Ugh… Get up quickly… .”

“Sleep well.”

I arrived home with my older sister, who was almost exhausted.

It was my sister who showed off her lust in an unnecessary place, but after that, I drank the remaining beer on my own, got drunk, and returned with my sister in the passenger seat.

Now that I think about it, if I had been drinking, I wouldn’t have been able to come home.

“Ugh… I don’t feel well… .”

“That’s because I eat so many snacks with beer.”

I roughly laid my sister, who was shaking, on the bed in my room.

“… … .”

Now that I look at it, my room hasn’t changed at all, except that the computer is missing.

Perhaps because my mother cleaned it every day, dust did not accumulate even though it had not been used for a long time.

‘ah… Fuck… .’

My sister lying on the bed in my room.

And the memories of that day come to mind.

It all started when I first touched my sister’s breasts and my sister also touched my cock.

It became a trauma, and my heart suddenly started pounding.

It’s a different feeling from simply running or exercising and your heart racing due to exhaustion.

My chest feels tight, but my limbs are shaking.

In severe cases, there are times when I feel extremely shaken, as if I am having convulsions.

“Ha… .”

After taking the medicine and waiting a while, it calmed down.

I think I understand a little bit why there are scenes on TV where people die without being able to take medicine.

‘Was the floor this hard?’

There is no bed in the master bedroom.

For over 20, no, 30 years, my mother has been sleeping on the floor.

On this cold, hard floor. Lay out a blanket.

I realized once again that the time I spent with my mother was precious.

Until now, Mom has been taking care of us while lying on this hard floor.

“Cheol. Wake up and sleep in your bed.”

“Yes… ?”

My sister wakes me up by kicking me.

I think I closed my eyes for a moment, but before I knew it, sunlight was coming through the window.

Perhaps because it was a day for work, I wore a neat dress.

“Where… ?”

“I have to work.”

“Yes… .”

As soon as I lay down on the bed, I feel my sister’s scent.

I can’t believe I’m still fine after drinking so much yesterday.

Even though I didn’t drink, I was acting like this.

“When will you wake up?”

“I’m going to sleep a little more… .”

“Anyway, nothing has changed.”

“What should I do if I can’t get a job?”

“You’re just not going.”

“Well… I’m going.”

“Yes… .”

“Oh, and… .”

My sister suddenly approaches me while I’m lying down.

I was startled and reflexively turned my head.

“Don’t talk about yesterday.”

“Why do you say that… .”

“I was just saying this just in case.”

“Did you spray perfume?”

“Yes. Do you spray it every day? Why?”

“Aha.”

I didn’t tell him because I thought he might get offended if I told him I asked because the smell from the bed was different from the smell I was smelling now.

“No. Have a nice trip.”

“Because mom went out too. Take care of your own food.”

“What… ? Mom went out? What are you doing?”

For some reason, it was my older sister who woke me up, not my mom.

You left a long time ago.

“Yes. They say they climbed the mountain with the senior citizens.”

“True, selling is also good.”

“Anyway, I’m really going.”

“Yes… .”

Left home alone, I fell asleep again, smelling the perfume my sister left behind.

♠

“Hello.”

“You came.”

I couldn’t just live on unemployment benefits like this, so I only received one month’s worth and started looking for a job right away.

Fortunately, thanks to my experience, I was able to quickly get into the place I wanted.

“Chief, this is where you sit.”

“Yes. Please take care of me.”

“Thank you very much.”

The new company has the same job type.

Office worker coding.

For me, who was an outcast in school, this was the only path open to me.

I was worried about what I would do if I started again as an assistant manager, but fortunately I started as a manager.

“This is our DB… Account management goes like this… .”

I was handed over to the manager who was retiring soon.

When I asked him why he was leaving the company, he said his family was moving to the countryside.

what… Seeing that they are handing over the work so well, I am not worried that they will do well when they go down.

I should worry about myself.

There’s more than one thing to worry about.

What is Yerim doing right now?

It would be a big deal if I were still stuck in my room… .

“Hello?”

[Cheol… What are you doing… ?]

“Now I’m on my way home from work.”

[thank god… .]

The first day after work, I got a call from my sister.

The voice was very urgent and crying.

“Why, what’s going on?”

[Yerim… !]

It is said that uneasy premonitions are always correct.

This time, Yerim was taken to the hospital.

♠

“What’s going on!”

“That… .”

According to what my sister said, she always ate food even if it was in her room, but she didn’t come out that day, so she opened the door.

It is said that the pure white bed was stained with blood.

“My brother-in-law is.”

“I’m on a business trip today… They said there was no train coming… I didn’t say anything.”

“Ha… okay… good job. It’s better not to know.”

“Are you the patient’s guardian?”

Fortunately, there was no life-threatening injury.

It is said that this is because the wound was shallow to begin with, and the bleeding stopped naturally as the blood coagulated.

How long has it been since you became a patient guardian?

─Do you want to be Jihwaja’s guardian?

“Ah… .”

“Why! Why are you doing this too?”

“It’s not like that… I just need to take medicine… .”

If I had to be a patient, I would be a patient.

However, I no longer want to be the patient’s guardian.

I don’t want to see other people dying.

… … Is this how Yerim felt?

“I will tell you after the hospital room information.”

“… Yes.”

After Yerim’s hospital room is assigned and the bed is occupied.

The hospital room was tightly closed.

“I’ll tell you.”

“What.”

“Yerim said she was locked in her room because of me.”

“… … .”

“Because it’ll be okay. Noona go to mom.”

“I don’t like it. Where can I leave my daughter?”

“Then wait outside.”

“… … Okay.”

When I carefully opened the hospital room door, Yerim woke up and sat on the bed.

“… … .”

“… … .”

At his sister’s request, his left arm was bandaged and his right hand was restrained.

The hospital room where only the two of them remained was filled with an awkward atmosphere.

“Yerim.”

“… … .”

Yerim didn’t even listen to what I said and just stared into space.

“Yerim… .”

“… … .”

“I won’t ask you why.”

“Why did you do that?”

“… … .”

“Why did you do that?”

“Sorry.”

“Is it because you just broke up with that person?”

“It’s not just that… .”

“Then why? Why can my uncle commit suicide, but I can’t?”

“… … .”

Yerim is glaring at me as if I’m going to kill him.

I had a lot to say, but I couldn’t say it.

Yerim couldn’t say that you were included in the cause.

“Do you know how worried I was? He doesn’t answer the phone and doesn’t want to visit.”

“… … .”

“But… I hope he comes back alive and well… Are you disturbing me? .”

“Did it hurt?”

“… … of course… It hurt… .”

“Wasn’t it scary?”

“… … I was scared.”

I grabbed his bandaged arm.

In suicide, the feeling of slowly dying is more scary than the pain caused by the wound.

This is because pain can be adapted, but breathing cannot.

Fortunately, in Yerim’s case, the chance of death was significantly low.

Still, the horror is indescribable.

“Then don’t do it again. Got it?”

“Uncle too… Don’t do that.”

“… … huh. I won’t do it.”

You can do something once, twice, but it’s a little different if it involves your life.

This is because the brain, which has already recognized danger, makes the survival instinct even stronger.

With the belief that it would never happen again, I untied the hands on the other side.

“Uncle.”

“Yes.”

“Please hug me one more time.”

“Yes──”

At that moment, Yerim’s lips covered mine.

Even though he had to use his uncomfortable arms, he hugged me.

Very loudly, as if he didn’t want to let go anymore.

This time, I also hugged Yerim.

I shared the emotions that had been building up along with my saliva.

“Ha… .”

“Yerim… .”

“Huh, huh… !”

When the kiss ended, this time she hugged me and cried.

“Really… How worried were you… !”

“Me too… I was very worried… .”

For some reason, tears came out of my eyes too.

“… … .”

“Yerim!”

“Mom… !”

When I came out of the hospital room, my older sister hugged Yerim and cried.

The tears that had already poured out on me began to flow again.

“… … .”

The atmosphere calmed down, and Yerim decided to stay in the hospital for a few more days until the bandages were removed.

“Mom. Dad knows… ?”

“I don’t know… .”

“Thank goodness… .”

Yerim sighs in relief.

Maybe he did it out of fear that someone else would get hurt because of him like me.

Because he was hurt a lot because of me.

“Mom… Sorry… .”

“No… Mom was wrong. I should have done better… .”

Yerim’s older sister wrapped her right hand with both hands.

I felt like I was finally realizing the mistakes I had made.

My foolish actions almost ruined a family.

No, it almost ruined our family.

“Ha… My head hurts.”

“Go down first.”

“Yes… Okay.”

My sister, who was having a hard time, went down to the parking lot.

Only me and Yerim were left in the hospital room again.

“Uncle… .”

“Yes.”

“Can I ask you a favor?.”

“What is it?”

“Please come visit me every day.”

“Yes. Okay.”

“… … Doesn’t it bother you?”

“What’s bothering you? Yerim, please.”

Like this, I promised to visit Yerim every day.