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It was a series of happy days.

The breeze blowing makes me feel better.

When the weather was warm, I was happy as it was warm, and when it was cold, I was happy as it was cold.

Because it was truly a series of moments that I couldn’t help but look forward to.

The young lady seems to be learning how to cook these days, so she made all kinds of food and gave it as a gift at every meal.

Although he was a bit clumsy at first, his skills quickly improved as the days went by.

Thanks to you, I am now good at cooking everything without having to worry about anything.

“Shall I learn to cook too?”

Suddenly, it was something I said after finishing my meal.

At Kamiel’s words, Leasian shook his head with a stern expression.

“No.”

“Yes?”

He was moved by the young lady’s sincerity.

It’s been quite a while since I’ve had the idea of cooking and serving food myself.

However, being stopped right away made me feel a little discouraged.

However, Kamiel was moved again by her words.

“This is the only pleasure I can give you. Are you trying to take that joy away from me?”

“Lady… … .”

Kamiel looked at me with deep emotion, but asked as if he was saying something like that.

“Why doesn’t she do anything for me? Are you happy just to be by my side?”

“… Really?”

Leasian smiled broadly.

Since then, it has been a change of its own.

Because she was always busy grumbling in this kind of atmosphere.

She no longer denied her feelings or pretended to do so.

If you are happy, you are happy. If you’re sad, you’re sad.

I showed it as it was in front of him.

The mansion managed by Lee Ho was now almost like the couple’s honeymoon home.

I would have to escape at some point, but now was not the time as the atmosphere had matured for a while.

After putting away the dishes, they headed to their room.

The two walked down the hallway and talked about various things.

Then, without diverging at the fork in the road, we walked straight and entered a room ‘together’.

Now, the two were openly sleeping together.

“Camiel. Your complexion doesn’t look good these days… Is this really okay?”

Leasian asked with a worried tone.

Caressing his face as he lays on his side.

Kamiel nodded slightly, looking carefree.

“Yes. I’m really fine. And if I take the medicine or food you give me every time, even if I get sick, will I get better soon?”

“I mean… .”

I never get tired of hearing sweet words.

Leasian blushed slightly and muttered softly.

Kamiel looked at her like that and gently lowered the corners of his eyes.

The black appearance under his eyes reminded me of an insomniac who had stayed up all night for several nights, but he smiled as if nothing was wrong.

* * *

It’s a sentiment I always feel, but I’m also happy today. but… .

If happiness was light, worry was a shadow.

Worry followed happiness like a shadow.

Kamiel always woke up earlier than Leasian.

No, more precisely, she greeted the dawn, which she would never see, as if it were everyday life.

He, who had always been sleeping soundly at this time, suddenly opened his eyes.

It was not voluntary.

It seemed like someone was crying.

As if to say that if I sleep like this, I might die.

He gently pulls away from the young lady who has her arms wrapped around him.

It was something that should not have happened.

What he was going to do from now on was very secret.

He sneaked out of bed and went out into the hallway.

There were a lot of empty rooms in the mansion.

Among those rooms, Kamiel entered the room as far away as possible from the room where Rheasian was sleeping.

It was a room at the end of the hallway.

No matter what he did here, his voice would not be heard well.

But I felt reluctant to feel reassured by that alone.

Because the young lady’s ears may be much brighter than expected.

There was a disheveled blanket scattered on the empty bed in the room.

As if it were a familiar occurrence, he laid down on the bed and covered himself with the blanket.

If you do this, the blanket that acts like a cover will block out any sound.

It was hard to get here, and this is just the beginning.

I coughed so faintly that I thought I was going to die from the effort of coming all the way here.

“Cough! Cluck, cluck!!”

At first I thought it was a cold.

I thought it would get better easily.

But even after several days, the cough showed no signs of stopping.

I didn’t even sleep cold at night.

The young lady who saw Kamiel coughing brought various medicines that were said to be good for the body.

He took it without exception, but the effect was minimal and almost non-existent.

‘why?’

Only then did I realize that this wasn’t normal.

They say that if your body’s immune system is low, you will easily catch a cold.

I had already started to feel that my body had become weaker than I imagined these days.

I never thought I would catch such a severe cold.

“Cough! Cough… .”

A few days later, Kamiel began to suffer alone.

The good news is that the cold starts to really kick in at this time in the morning?

It was a relief to know that the young lady did not show any signs of pain when she was awake.

“Cough… … .”

The reason he was doing this was nothing special.

Because the young lady will be worried.

No matter how much good food you feed them, if they don’t give birth and show that they are still getting worse, my daughter will definitely be worried.

Kamiel didn’t want that.

Who would want to worry about their lover, who is as precious as their own life, perhaps even more precious than that?

So this was a white lie.

They say that in life, there are times when people have to tell lies for others.

I thought now was the time.

like this… Now is the time to hide the fact that I will die soon. If not then, then when?

* * *

“Camiel. what’s the matter? Isn’t it really painful somewhere?”

Kamiel, who had been dazed by the young lady’s question, belatedly came to his senses and answered.

“Yes? ah… A little bit these days, no. No.”

My words almost came out in vain.

No, should I say that it has already come out?

The young lady’s worried eyes sting.

“No. I’m really fine.”

“How many times have I said that already? If it hurts, say it hurts. Don’t be foolish.”

My voice rose slightly.

Kamiel realized his mistake once again.

He said it was okay so much that, like a shepherd boy, he realized that the girl no longer believed what he was saying.

‘Not like this… .’

I ended up causing worry because I thought I didn’t want to worry.

How should I resolve this?

For the past few days, I’ve been having headaches and my head hasn’t been working properly.

It was when he was suffering.

“Camiel. you… Am I that unreliable?”

“Yes?”

“If you have any concerns, please let me know. Of course, I know I haven’t been very good to you. Even if you do well now, you might think it’s too late.”

The young lady’s eyes turned red.

It didn’t look like he wanted to cry.

It was just like tears of sadness.

“Lady… .”

At this point, I couldn’t help but say it.

Of course, I couldn’t say everything.

It was just a solution to one of the worries I’ve been having these days.

“Actually… I feel strange these days. I’m so anxious.”

“What? Since when?”

“It’s been a few days.”

“Do you have any guesses? Are you just sick for no reason?”

“That… Actually, I keep worrying about my family back home.”

“… What?”

“I’m not sure either. It’s not that I miss you that much, but I’m kind of worried.”

I didn’t lie.

It was also true that it somehow reminded me of my family back home.

Kamiel couldn’t even guess the reason for his anxiety.

Why? why?

Although his entire family did not disappear from his mind, he decided to spend the rest of his life with the young lady.

So I just hoped that Cassatt and her parents would live well.

It was absolutely not my intention to go and see it now or anything like that.

When I told this to Leasian, her stiff expression seemed to loosen a little.

She said that she understood everything and smoothed the back of his hand.

“Camiel. if… Who will you choose if it comes between your family and me?”

“Yes?”

“Can you tell me?”

“This suddenly?”

“Yes.”

It was a very unexpected question, but it was easy to overlook.

It was because the young lady’s eyes were cold, as if she was forcing an answer.

‘I don’t often see eyes like that these days… .’

It was also a truly difficult question.

If you say both, you will likely get scolded, so you will have to choose only one.

“I… ”

What he chose… .

“Lady.”

“Really?”

Would just one word like this make me that happy?

To the point where this thought occurred to him, Leasian became bright-colored.

Kamiel also smiled.

In a way, it was a perfectly reasonable reason for him to choose her.

Because your family will live well without you.

But it wasn’t the lady.

“What about the lady?”

Kamiel also had no intention of returning such a naughty question, but he suddenly became curious.

“You like me, lady. or not… ”

“Camiel. I don’t need anything else.”

She spoke with a bright smile on her face.

At first glance, it was difficult to question him because he seemed so decisive.

That must mean she is sincere.

“Is that so… .”

Although he was a little reluctant, Camiel soon responded with a bigger smile.

The fun time passed by so quickly.

* * *

One evening, the young lady went out, saying she had to go away for a while.

Kamiel tried to get ready to leave, but she shook her head.

I meant that it would be a good idea not to go out since I don’t look well these days.

Kamiel also had no choice but to agree.

Because there were many things he was hiding from his young lady.

From what I heard, it would take a day or two.

Kamiel wanted to do that even though he was wondering how far it was.

* * *

Kamiel had a dream.

In his dream, his younger brother Cassat appeared and apologized deeply to him.

Kamiel was embarrassed at first, but his younger brother’s crying was so heartbreaking.

Since I never resented him in the first place, there was nothing to forgive.

As he said that, Cassatt wailed even more deeply.

Kamiel was by his side and took care of his younger brother.

It was truly a dream-like and happy time to meet each other after such a long time.

* * *

From morning on, his mind was more disturbed than usual.

Why?

Even though it’s been a while since I had a pleasant dream featuring Cassatt.

Something made me feel uneasy and distracted.

Perhaps, this morning, I was anticipating the discord that was to come.

The sky was sunny and the day was neither hot nor cold, so everything was perfect.

The gentle breeze was still blowing.

however… For some reason, the air that brushed against my skin felt so unpleasant today.

I felt like I got goosebumps every time the breeze, neither hot nor cold, blew my hair.

Late in the afternoon, Lee Ho’s voice saying that the young lady had returned made me feel uneasy for some reason.

He walked down the hallway heading to the room where the young lady would be.

The mansion was unusually quiet and desolate.

Adding to his extremely unstable state, Camiel felt like it was all like the calm before the storm.

‘No, you shouldn’t think like this.’

I will meet you soon.

I had to look as gentle as possible and hide my anxiety.

When he finally arrived, he opened the door.

I was able to see the young lady soon.

She faced Kamiel with her back turned, wondering what she was thinking.

“Are you here?”

The voice was somehow strange.

Kamiel thought he might have heard wrong, but he exchanged greetings first.

“Lady. Did you have a good trip?”

“Yes… … .”

Now I was sure.

The lady’s voice is strange.

“Lady?”

“… … .”

Kamiel sensed that something unusual had happened and approached her.

“Lady. What happened… ”

“Camiel.”

She suddenly turned around.

Because of that, he was finally able to see the young lady’s face.

Leasian is… I was crying as if the world had collapsed.

“Why didn’t you tell me? Why did you hide it from me? Why on earth!!”

“What is that all of a sudden…? ”

“You… ”

They say there isn’t much left to live.