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“Patient~Please come in~”

“Yes.”

Surprisingly, or unfortunately, I survived.

When I went to play with Jena, I opened the windows everywhere because it was hot, and the fact that I didn’t close them properly caused me to postpone my death.

After that, seeing the smoke leaking out, a woman passing by reported me and rescued me.

It is said that if he stayed just a little longer, he would really have died.

As a result, the person who was hurt by me saved me.

“There is nothing strange about your body.”

“Yes… .”

“Would you like to make a fist like this?”

“Like this?”

“Yes… It’s normal… Would you like to raise your right leg?”

“Yes.”

“Left… Yes, you are normal… Your name is… .”

“Park Ji-cheol.”

“Yes… Could you tell me about something that happened recently?”

“I submitted my resignation letter… In the car… yes… .”

The visitation did not come.

No, except for the police officers, everyone who came refused.

I didn’t want to see anyone.

I wanted this situation to appear in a simulation somewhere, or to be a fantasy that passed by like a flash of light.

“Yes… You said you were shaking last time. Are you okay?”

“Yes… I think it’s okay.”

“The results of the test performed yesterday were normal… You can be discharged from the hospital, but would you like to be discharged?”

“I will.”

“Yes, I understand. Please wait outside.”

“Yes… thank you… .”

It’s amazing that I survived after inhaling gas like that, and it’s also amazing that there were no aftereffects.

why.

Why is there nothing left?

Why are normal accidents possible?

Other innocent people often suffer aftereffects.

Why are people like me safe?

I hated how thankful I was for being on the good side of this unfair reality.

And that this reflection will someday be forgotten.

“Ha… .”

After being investigated, treated, and discharged for two months, I feel like my already devastated mind is becoming even more devastated.

It wasn’t an accident, it wasn’t handled as an industrial accident, so the money went out the way it was supposed to.

The most important thing at this point is what to eat and live from now on.

Judging by the fact that the severance pay has arrived, he was probably fired and all administrative processing was completed.

“Wow, dust… .”

The house I returned to after two months was full of dust, perhaps because I hadn’t ventilated it because of the bugs.

Fortunately, my luggage didn’t seem to have been touched, and it was neatly organized, probably just as I remembered.

After opening the window and front door, I started unpacking my belongings one by one.

Even this was so dusty that I had to wear a mask while working.

“Phew… .”

Just as I was finally done and about to rest, I saw a missed call sign on my phone.

Just in case I was worried, I called right away.

I answered the phone in less than a second.

“Hello.”

[where are you?]

“I cleaned the house after I was discharged.”

[Do you have time now?]

“Yes. For the time being.”

[I’ll go there.]

“… … Okay.”

If I had known this would happen, I would have at least wrapped my clothes in plastic.

My clothes were all covered in dust, so I had to stay in the clothes they gave me at the hospital.

Ding. Ding. Ding. Ding.

The sound of someone unlocking the door.

Soon the door opened, I took off my shoes and came in.

“I’m here──”

A crackling sound came from my right cheek more than ever.

A louder sound than when I hit my butt.

“You’re crazy!”

“… … .”

The tingling sensation in my cheeks turned into sadness.

“Because of you, I… Oh I… !”

“… … .”

I never meant to make it like that.

I was just trying to quietly exit, but it left me with lifelong scars.

“How long… !I was worried, but ugh… !”

But Yena actually worried about me.

He beat my chest and washed away the pain with tears.

To that person, I caused irreparable harm.

“I won’t do that again.”

“… … I know.”

Jena wiped her tears with a tissue, spread the table, and started taking things out of her bag.

He pretended like nothing had happened and asked me like I was drunk about what had happened.

“Ha… You didn’t eat, right? Eat.”

“… Thank you.”

“The spoon will be dirty. Eat with this.”

“… … Mmm! It’s delicious.”

Jena’s lunch box that she ate after a long time.

My favorite menu items, including rice balls, sausages, and egg rolls, were packed in a pretty blue lunch box.

The skill still hasn’t changed, and it’s even more delicious than before.

Is it because I only eat healthy food?

“This is really delicious?”

“Why, why are you making such a fuss… .”

“No, it’s because it’s really delicious.”

“I can’t live… .”

Maybe it was because I enjoyed the food so much, but Yena sighed, saying that if she was going to be like this, she should have brought more.

Still, the expression didn’t look that bad.

“What about laundry?”

“… … You have to wash it.”

“Ugh… .”

“I was busy cleaning up as soon as I arrived.”

“Okay… I guess so. Are those? Your clothes. ”

“Yes.”

Yena took out the randomly mixed clothes one by one and piled them up, dividing them by type.

“This is today… Oh, I forgot. Wash this now. Wash this tomorrow. Wash this the day after tomorrow.”

“Yes… .”

“I’ll wash the rag too, so don’t forget to wipe every nook and cranny.”

“… … .”

Yena’s comments, which were usually welcome, were really painful today.

Even though he did that, he still genuinely cares about me as a person.

The fact that love was not mixed with that criticism hurt me the most.

“… … I enjoyed it.”

“Yes, give me the container. I’ll take it.”

“… … .”

Yena, whose movements became faster, got up from her seat and put on her shoes.

“Ah… After all, it won’t work like this, right?”

“Yes.”

“Sorry. I’ll put on some makeup.”

“Yes.”

Yena started putting on her makeup while looking at the mirror near the entrance.

The face that had been distorted by sadness returned to its original state.

It was the middle of summer, so it was only now that I could see that I was wearing thin clothes.

“Now that you’re here, it’ll get warm again. Do you know how cold it was?”

“I guess there was a ghost.”

“Don’t say such scary things… .”

After exchanging a few jokes, Jena, putting on her shoes, opened the front door.

I took a deep breath and looked into my eyes.

“Now change your password. Should it be your brother’s birthday? No… Anyway, let’s call a number I don’t know.”

“Yes.”

“… … Be sure to meet someone better than me.”

“… … It’s Yena.”

“Huh?”

“… … No. Thank you. Goodbye. ”

So, I couldn’t live up to Yena’s expectations until the end.

sent her away

♠

“My mom is really upset!!!!”

“… … .”

When I returned home after a long time, I got hit on the back by my mom.

Whether it was then or now, when my mom hits me on the back, it really hurts.

“That won’t happen anymore, so don’t worry.”

“This guy is really. I’m going to get scolded again!”

“… … .”

1 hour of mom’s loud wailing and nagging.

“What are you doing? Really… !”

“… … Sorry.”

“Is it because you broke up with your girlfriend?”

“… … Let’s say so.”

“But you drove the car like that… Uh!Ugh… !”

Then, I listened to my sister nag me again for another hour.

“… What about Yerim?”

“I didn’t come out of my room after class ended, so I came alone.”

“It doesn’t come out… ?Why.”

“It must be because of you. Wouldn’t you be shocked to hear that your closest uncle attempted suicide?”

“… … .”

After all, life does not end when one person dies.

I can’t believe that because of my death, more people are hurt.

In some ways, it might be a good thing I bought it.

Because I got a chance to atone.

“Yerim is at home, right?”

“Yes. Don’t go today.”

“Why?”

“If I see you, I might kill you.”

“… … .”

“I’ll tell you when it’s okay. Come then.”

“Yes.”

For now, I decided to stay at home for a few days to ensure my mother’s mental and physical stability.

It didn’t matter because I didn’t have a place to work anyway.

“Let’s have a drink.”

“Suddenly… ?”

“Yes. I wanted to drink it.”

“I can’t drink because I take medicine.”

“Medicine?What medicine?”

“I go to a psychiatrist… .”

“… … .”

I had only bad thoughts in my head, so I went to a psychiatrist for the first time.

I also developed panic disorder and became unable to survive without medication.

It already doesn’t go well with alcohol, especially since it’s a narcotic, so you shouldn’t drink alcohol.

“It’s okay. Only I can drink it.”

“… Like that.”

“Mom, I’ll go out and come back.”

“Go with me. Mom, take me to the senior center.”

“Yes.”

A vehicle where the whole family gathered for the first time in a long time.

My mom sat next to me, and my sister sat behind me.

“What… ?”

“Okay. I thought you were dead and planned a funeral again?”

“… … I almost got in big trouble.”

“Why, I saw it somewhere. If you die and come back to life, it says resurrection on the death report.”

“I don’t want to go that far… .”

I’m already living an unusual enough life, and I don’t want to make things more complicated by adding the achievement of resurrection.

Still, resurrection is really cool.

“Let’s go, Mom.”

“Okay, come in on time.”

“Okay~”

These days, my mom says she enjoys going to the senior center and swiping other grandparents.

If you do well, you will win first place every time in the senior boat competition.

It’s surprising that there is a senior center in a city like this, but it’s great anyway.

“What do you want to drink? Beer?”

“Yes. I want to eat chicken and beer.”

“You’ll gain weight… .”

“They say grilled chicken doesn’t make you gain weight.”

“Yes. If my sister is okay with it, then what.”

After ordering chicken and beer, I also ordered some snacks like fish cake stew.

The atmosphere was ripe with the alcohol and oil entering the body and the noise made by people.

“What about your sister?”

“Me?What.”

“That… You went on a trip with your brother-in-law.”

“… … .”

My sister’s expression darkened when she heard the word brother-in-law.

“Ha… .”

“Something happened.”

“It’s nothing special. It’s just… I did it just in case, but it turned out to be me… .”

“… … .”

I think I understand that feeling well.

Of course, I have a different reason, but I understand how my sister feels.

Because of that, I broke up with Yena.

“Honestly… I think that’s the clearest proof that you love someone… You can stand even if you don’t love… If you don’t stand, all your feelings will go away… Is it the same relationship between a square and a rectangle?”

“What are you talking about… I guess he was just tired. Or maybe he was starting to lose his libido… .”

“That’s definitely not it.”

“… … .”

My sister said, slamming down the glass of beer she was drinking.

For a moment, the people at the table next to us looked at us, and then went back to saying what they wanted to say.

“Besides that… The other day… .”

“Huh?”

“Last time… It was caught on me.”

“What… ?”

My sister shook the air slightly.

Of course, I stopped him right away.

I vaguely understand why we decided to drink.

To be honest, I guess I’d say it’s a frustration of desire.

“What are you doing in a place with so many people? .”

“Anyway… I was doing it alone… .”

“Alone… ?”

So, has it really become a body that cannot be satisfied or even excited by being a sister?

Of course, men always have an instinct to want to have a new woman, but that doesn’t mean they aren’t excited about the previous one.

It is clear that something is wrong with my brother-in-law, whether physically or mentally.

“Are you sure this has cooled down?”

“I don’t know about that… .”

There are various reasons why an erection becomes cold.

There are so many reasons why I can’t do it, so I don’t know.

“… For reference, how did you approach it?”

“What?To my brother?”

“Yes──”

At that moment, my sister got up and came towards me.

He swept his bangs to the side and looked at me with strange eyes.

“… … Like this?”

“… … Sit down.”

“Woong.”

One thing that was clear from this was that it was not my sister’s problem.