episode_0037
by adminAfter going to the bedroom, the child still did not move, holding the doll tightly in his arms as if she were his mother.
To him, Jujak gently stroked him.
“Now I should go down and sleep. Yeon-ah?”
The way she was quietly stroking him was like soothing a whining child who didn’t want to be left behind.
The child sounded like he was slightly displeased, but at her words, he quietly went down to bed.
I sat next to him and watched the child.
The child, looking a little uneasy in the form of a white tiger, slowly began to roll up his body into a shape like a loaf of bread.
The Blue Dragon and the Red Bird also sat next to him.
“It’s okay. It’ll be okay. There’s me and this guy.”
At those words, a rumbling sound could be heard, but the posture did not change.
It also meant that the child felt uneasy inside this place, inside this mansion.
It would be most accurate to say that they have no idea what that anxiety is… .
The most important thing was to prevent the child from developing the disease again.
“We can’t take them either.”
First, the Blue Dragon began to speak in a lowered voice so that only the Red Bird could hear.
“So we promised to take care of each other’s children often.”
We continued our conversation about how to treat your child while he or she is sleeping.
It was clear that the child would remain in this mansion, guarding the other small white tigers and living as a long-term horse that protected this country.
Because that’s the path the child chose.
“Is there nothing you can do?”
“Looking at it, it seems like you’re holding your emotions in one place, suppressing them, and pretending they don’t exist.”
“… . Ha. So, you’re saying I have to secretly release those shackles one by one-”
In order for children to be able to choose and find what they want, they must first be made aware of desire itself.
To do that, the child had to first find each and every one of the things that were tied together and put them in their proper places.
To do that, first of all….
“We need to help the child think for himself, at least when we are there.”
That was their conclusion.
The day passed by in a flash.
During that time, the young white tiger continued to sleep with its body curled up.
Soon, time passed.
-Suddenly… .
The white tiger opened its eyes quietly.
-Kuguguk
After a slight stretch, he slowly transformed into a human body.
“… .”
A young white tiger quietly looking down at those next to him.
He remembered the strange, sun-like sensation he had felt yesterday.
At least, it was something different from what I felt from Madam.
It was similar. But it was different. With her, I felt more often a desire to be recognized for some unknown reason. But with this woman… .
I just wanted to hug and rest. Maybe it was because of the warm feeling of being looked at as just another person.
When I woke up, it was already decided what to do.
Because I had to keep to the schedule.
Slowly, I changed my clothes.
“Two people.”
After I finished changing my clothes, I quietly woke up the two people sleeping next to me.
“Uh… . Uh… . Ah, you’re awake.”
The blue dragon looked a little lethargic. The red dragon just sat there, looked at me, and continued speaking.
“How’s your body? Are you okay now?”
I could tell she must have been tired from taking care of me, but she just looked after me first.
From that part on, I think I felt warm emotions.
Even now, just a little bit, an inexplicable emotion was rising.
… I try to tie up and get rid of these feelings right away, but… when they suddenly appear like this, there’s nothing I can do about it.
“Yes.”
“Yeah, that’s good. So? What are you going to do now?”
“Yes?”
She continued, glaring at me fiercely.
“You’re thinking of going to work, right?”
“ㅇ-yes… .”
Actually, isn’t that the right thing to do?
No matter how much it hurt, I was the one below.
If I had gotten better, it would have been right to go to work.
It seemed like my abilities kept sending me messages telling me to rest, but the fact that those who acted like they could save me when it mattered most ultimately didn’t, was the only thing that hurt me, so I decided to go to work anyway.
Then, the blue dragon gritted his teeth and shouted.
“No! The doctor ordered it. You lie down right now.”
“Yes?”
The doctor’s orders? Where can you find such extravagant words?
Since I was feeling okay, I just had to get up and go to work.
“It’s okay.”
At those words, Zhu Zhu sighed deeply.
“No. At least eat before you go to work. You haven’t eaten in three days.”
“… … … Okay… I understand.”
At least that made sense, so I opened the door and headed to the restaurant with them.
Then what I saw was this.
“… . Madam?”
There was a woman standing there who looked like Jujak.
day.
Two days.
Three days.
It didn’t matter whether the child was awake or not. The fact that the child collapsed in front of me and vomited blood was the most worrying thing.
“Let me get in there.”
It was the first time I had told Baekhan about this.
Whether the child vomits or not, whether the child can fly or not.
It didn’t matter to me. My child was out there, struggling, hurting, dying, and that, what’s the big deal?
However, it was blocked. It was rejected. Even though he said he would take Hyunmoo’s things, it was blocked by Baekhan.
“Please!!!!! You fell down in front of me, spitting blood. You know, honey! How much I-”
“I know too!!!!!!”
-bang.
He slammed the table.
But that wasn’t the case. He already knew that he had shown them something that could cause them to misunderstand.
“Let’s say we tell them that the child is our child, our twin child. Then, what will happen to the child?! What kind of hurt will the child receive!?”
“… .”
“Rather, why don’t we continue to treat him as an illegitimate child, and when he retires, then – then we can just treat him like our own child?
Or, if you do it in a way that the child achieves the goal and then dies, then the child won’t get hurt. So-“
“… . I can’t admit it.”
“Honey, Choi Jin-ah!”
I eventually tried to force open the door and enter the child’s room, but it was blocked.
Because of the soldiers guarding in front of it.
There were even soldiers in front of him because he didn’t know when or how he would run wild.
He’s in, so why can’t I?
Two days, three days. I also knew that he stayed there with little sleep, and that he only left the room to stand the knights when he had to hold a meeting.
But then.
Moreover, shouldn’t you let me see your face at least once?
“It’s because of me… . It’s my fault… .”
The reason that kid got hurt and started vomiting blood was because I tried to give him candy.
I knew very well that this kind of thinking was not good. I knew it, but it wouldn’t leave my head.
I always thought that I was taking care of that child somehow.
It was to the point where I felt ridiculous for thinking I was doing something for the child.
Even when I watched the child being carried away, I couldn’t get close.
Because the knights stopped them, saying it was the Lord’s order.
Still, it was possible to wait in front of it at least until the child woke up.
Because I didn’t stop it any further.
So, on the third day.
“… . Baby… .”
“Madam… ?”
The child came out of the room.
Tears flowed. I could see his gaunt appearance. To my eyes, who had always seen him from afar, or when he was training, or when he was with his younger brother, he looked so skinny.
“… Let’s go right now. Let’s eat first. Eat-”
“Madam, I’m fine.”
The same cold words as always. Those words fly back to me like a knife and stab me.
The fact that that person ruined the child even more, the fact that that education ruined the child even more.
It seemed more real to me.
“… … That-… . I see. Yeah. I guess I’m too surprised. ”
Feeling cold after being hit in the back of the head, I just looked at the young monks behind me and said.
“Please take care of me.”
It was a polite greeting. She was the owner of the same house. It was something that didn’t even need to be done. Nevertheless.
I had to protect this child.
I will do everything I can.
Did they know that my heart was like that, that my heart didn’t want this? They nodded and whispered to me.
“Don’t worry.”
At the strength felt in those words, I felt tears flowing again.
After they left, I sat there, exhausted, and cried for a long time.
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