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“Take it~! Dung sting~!!”

“…………!!”

A chilling ache between the buttocks, causing involuntary clenching of the jaw.

An excruciating pain beyond words, felt after a long time.

In an instant, the intense sensation piercing through my lower body to my brain made me dizzy.

When I regained my senses, I found myself sprawled on the ground, buried under the rags of that damn swine.

“Ughhh…!!”

The momentarily paralyzing shock subsided, only to be replaced by a secondary pain rising from between the buttocks.

Being dung-stung by that damned piglet was humiliating, but the overwhelming agony emanating solely from my buttocks was unbearable.

“Damn it…. It hurts like hell, this damn bastard…!”

Awkwardly reaching for the fallen rags on the floor, my posture exposed my buttocks vulnerably.

The weight of the stabbing finger was intolerable, almost beyond endurance.

The torment searing through my lower body was so agonizing that I momentarily forgot that the repulsive rags belonged to that despicable piglet.

“I never imagined he would stoop to such a level…”

I always harbored thoughts of retaliating if he dared to provoke me, but I never fathomed he would engage in such despicable behavior when left alone.

Damn it. There’s a limit to endurance.

Whether I end up getting killed by Harold later or not, what does it matter?

I’ll deal with the consequences; future me will handle it.

If I don’t extend my fist to the revolting face of this piglet right now, I might lose my mind….

“Haha! How do you like my ultimate move!”

“…….”

“Always being ignored by the maids, serves you right!”

…Laughing?

Turning someone into such a pathetic mess and then laughing?

“…….”

My brain, cooled by anger beyond limits, analyzed the situation I was in.

Deliberately acting nonchalant to prevent that wretched piglet from noticing my change, I casually rose from my seat.

There was only one exit for escape, and I had closed it upon entering, leaving me trapped.

With the window shut and no worries about noise leaking outside, even if Ethan tried to flee through the exit, I was closer to the door.

…Not the ideal conditions, but the minimum requirements were somewhat met.

To kill that damn trash piglet right here…

“…….”

“…Maid?”

As I approached without a word, the clueless Hyundan, unaware and unable to even consider fleeing, came within my reach.

When the piglet got close enough, I wrapped a piece of cloth I held in my hand around his neck.

Suddenly finding his life at stake, Hyundan couldn’t resist, his throat tightening as he began to struggle.

“Ugh…?!”

-Thud!

Attempting to escape belatedly, he found himself immobilized by my grip, unable to move freely.

The surprisingly heavy body of the piglet fell back with a dull thud.

I mounted him, pressing my knee against his chest while still holding the cloth around his neck.

I refused to release my grip on his neck, pondering why things had escalated to this point.

Initially, I had intended to resolve things amicably, but now…

Struggling to free my hands by pulling with both arms, but unable to overcome the strength of a level 5 adult woman’s grip with my weak, flesh-covered arms.

My writhing body, due to its weight, was inadvertently tightening his neck even more.

“Grr… Ghh….”

“….”

Despite momentarily weakening at the sight of his desolate gaze and head shake, I steeled myself, tightened my grip, and exerted more pressure.

Whether I released my grip or continued choking him to death, the punishment awaiting me wouldn’t change much by now.

“I didn’t want it to come to this.”

Though I had imagined killing this bastard hundreds, thousands of times in my mind, the thought of actually taking a life in this world was rare.

Even though he was just a character in a game, seeing a living, breathing person before me made it hard for a sane person to commit murder.

Even that prank just now, if he hadn’t smirked at the end, I might have been able to endure it somehow.

But now, I had reached my limit.

No matter how much I endured, the escalating torment from this bastard’s antics and his unchanging nature made it impossible to envision anything other than ending him, rather than becoming his plaything.

If enduring a life as a slave to his torment was worse than what awaited me beyond the Blackwood Territory’s borders, then a future filled with unbearable suffering was almost certain.

Even imagining what enraged Harold might do to Isabelle and Katarina left me speechless.

However.

All of this made it unfathomable why I should endure, at the expense of my own dignity.

To die accidentally and finally have a chance to fulfill my dreams in my favorite game world, only to live a constrained life because of this bastard?

If this world was going to control my life for such a shitty reason, I’d rather strike first.

Give it a shot.

Create an antagonist and core members for the already defeated “Luminor Academy.”

“Ghh… Ghh….”

Whether out of fear or agony, tears streamed from both of his eyes.

Unable to bear his expression any longer, I closed my eyes and turned my head to the left.

Unless I killed this bastard now, I would forever live as the “Regretful Maid Release.”

If I didn’t kill the tormentor.

If I didn’t kill this damn bastard now.

For Release.

For me.

There could never be a happy ending.

…

…

…

I resolved to tighten the cloth around his neck one last time and end the tormentor’s life, but for some reason, my hand hesitated to make the final decision.

The cloth that had been in my hand had slipped away and fallen to the ground.

“Argh, ugh…?”

“Guh, ghh….”

Damn it….

As much as I wanted to kill this bastard….

I really, truly wanted to kill him so badly….

Thinking about the consequences of killing this damn bastard, I couldn’t bring myself to make the final decision.

Before I regained my memories, Isabelle had been my only friend who had helped me for a long time since the release date.

And miraculously saved from the brink of destruction after turning the unjust crime in the original game upside down, Katarina.

Perhaps when I kill Edan, Harold’s punishment will somehow befall both of them.

If it were a problem that could be solved with just one life, I would have committed without hesitation.

However, in this world, the lives of nobles and commoners differed in weight.

If I were to kill Edan at this moment, even if the throats of all the servants at Blackwood Manor were cut off, it wouldn’t have been surprising.

Therefore, I couldn’t make a decision.

This damn bastard was too high a figure for me to mess things up with my own anger and caprice, and I was nothing more than a powerless and miserable maid.

“Ugh, ugh….”

“…K-Katarina, m-maid?”

“Ugh, sniff, ugh….”

“Maid… crying?”

Unconsciously bringing my hand to my face, tears that had started to flow endlessly from my eyes, I quickly turned my head to hide my tears, not wanting to show my ugly sobbing face to that bastard below me.

“M-Maid?”

“…Don’t speak. Edan, you son of a bitch.”

“……!!”

Edan, surprised by my expression as he hadn’t imagined profanity coming out of my mouth, nervously bit his lip.

Sensing that this moment was probably the last in my life, I poured out all the emotions I had been holding back against the little brat beneath me.

“Son of a bitch. You damn piglet.”

“……”

“It’s one thing to endure your antics as a joke once or twice. You, this trash-like bastard who is disgusting just to look at.”

“Maid?”

“Don’t talk, you damn bastard. You should probably hold back the nausea rising just by breathing the same air as you.”

“……”

“Live your whole life like that, you piglet. Don’t give a damn about other people’s feelings or yours and live like that forever.”

“M-Maid….”

“Living cluelessly like that for a lifetime, not knowing what a moron you are, and someday getting stabbed to death by a commoner assassin who pops up in front of you.”

“……”

“Bury yourself in a grave where no one except your father will ever visit, die without achieving anything, and be forgotten forever, you fucking bastard.”

As my head, which had cooled down due to anger, heated up again with excitement, all sorts of curses in my mind came out haphazardly.

Regrets about the despicable things I had endured so far, cursing the future this brat would face.

Since the little brat’s intelligence was limited, he probably didn’t understand half of what I was saying, but it didn’t matter anyway.

A life to end. Just pouring out before going for the last time was enough.

…Oh, I almost forgot something important.

“Hey, Edan.”

“Y-yeah?!”

“What just happened, I did it just because I hate you.”

“What do you mean…”

“I didn’t conspire with anyone to plan to kill you; I just wanted to kill you, you son of a bitch.”

“……!”

“So if you’re going to tell your father, tell him like this. Your personal maid, Lillies, acted alone and tried to kill you.”

This bastard may not take my words at face value, but I still have to say it.

At least to minimize the possibility of harm to Isabelle or Katarina.

Anyway, it’s attempted murder, not noble assassination, so the punishment will be somewhat lighter.

…Perhaps, it was a matter that could have ended with my life being lost.

If I can’t bear it anymore and kill this despicable person, that would truly be committing an unforgivable sin against Isabelle and Katarina.

“As my exclusive maid for three months, you were truly disgusting.”

“……”

“That’s the end of that now. If they find out I tried to kill you, your father won’t let me off.”

“M-maid…. Please…!”

“It was shitty being together, let’s never meet again.”

– Bang!

With little time left as a release, I didn’t want to see that trash’s face for even a moment longer.

Abandoning what I was doing, I hurriedly left the room of disgust.

Leaning against the wall beyond the door, I numbly organized the embarrassing things I had just done in my head.

Noble attempted murder.

And it was the illegitimate son of the Blackwood Marquis who did it.

It was more comforting to consider that there was simply no way to survive.

Rather, if they were to kindly kill me by hanging or beheading, it would be a major crime for which I could be grateful.

“Haah….”

If I had known this would happen, I would have used all the magic I wanted before dying.

To think that after half a year of actions in my favorite game from my past life, my entire existence is just Edan’s tailing in life.

Indeed, even if the content changes, the thought that ‘Foolish Maid Lillis’ can only be ‘Foolish Maid Lillis’.

“Damn it…. Fuck, damn it….”

Tears that had been held back for a long time burst out endlessly.