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Camilla’s spear, covered in electricity, collided with my staff, which was vibrating so much that a small afterimage was visible.

Then Camilla, who widened the distance with a bursting sound, began to laugh.

“I guess you didn’t sleep well yesterday because you were chatting all night with your sister? My cane skills are terrible.”

Sure, I talked to Liesel all day last night and even sent her off this morning, but that didn’t affect my performance one bit.

“… I felt a little rusty recently. Since I don’t have much time left to live.”

“Please…!”

A spear filled with stronger electricity than before flew towards my solar plexus.

“Don’t take a joke seriously! Do you know how much our stomachs explode?!!!”

“It’s a pity. My ability to distinguish such things is quite weak.”

I swung my staff and twisted the javelin’s trajectory. Of course, my hands feel quite numb.

“Ha…”

Camilla, who naturally retrieved the spear, clicked her tongue and lunged at me again.

“In the first place, you suddenly asked to spar with a body that wasn’t ready… What did you suddenly get into?”

“The first reason is that I wanted to face you face to face.”

Camilla’s face turned red for a moment and she began to back away.

“The second reason would be that I wanted to check the status of my skills, which were getting weaker day by day. There will no longer be an opponent like you.”

“In the end, the second one is the main one. Damn raccoon bastard.”

“As a bonus, I can see your face more clearly under sunlight than under moonlight.”

“You unconscious gigolo bastard…”

Camilla began to shake her head, resting her forehead.

I couldn’t understand what she was saying, but it seemed clear that my surroundings were having a negative impact again.

“Ha I’m not in the mood to fight. Today’s sparring ends here.”

“That’s not something you can decide on your own. You must have forgotten that you studied under Master. Sparring until one side becomes speechless…”

“Over there.”

Camilla suddenly grabbed both my wrists and knocked me down.

“You’ve become weak enough to fall if I knock you down.”

“No matter what, it has enough power to explode a giant.”

However, one thing was true that he was no longer able to defeat Camilla with mere strength.

“Would you please consider my feelings as I have to fight with you who has become so weak?”

“Does this mean you don’t want to fight with me when I’m weak?”

“It means to think about how I feel having to personally experience my friend becoming weak. You’re already ignoring the fact that I’m trying to look away.”

I couldn’t understand. She must also know that I am terminally ill. But why do you want to look away?

“Do you know how much it hurts me when I don’t know whether it’s naivety or stupidity?”

“… Let me apologize.”

“Don’t apologize if you don’t know what your mistake is.”

It was always like this.

Camilla really hated it when I lowered my head meaninglessly.

Since I was young, she was the person next to me who criticized me the most.

“… From now on, try to refrain from doing things you don’t like.”

As always, my efforts will end in vain, but I made a promise for now.

“Ha…just sit down.”

She released my wrist and let out a deep sigh.

I don’t know what kind of supernatural power comes from those white and beautiful wrists, but thinking about the veins somewhat answers the question.

She, Storm’s only daughter, squatted down next to me and gulped down Taeyangju while munching on the cheese she had brought for lunch.

“Still exciting.”

“You don’t say things like that to girls.”

“I say this because I am not an ordinary woman.”

“It looks like you want to be a normal corpse.”

We exchanged such humorous jokes.

We enjoyed the drinking party without the dignity of sharing a single bottle. Because there was no need for any pretense of decency between us. When we were young, we even saw each other naked once.

“I want to ask you something, Camilla.”

“What is it? Should I at least teach you the color of my underwear?”

“… I want to know why you guys are so nice to me. I’m a guy who doesn’t talk much and is someone who hangs out with others. It’s just not worth it.”

“…… Can’t you just tell me the color of your underwear?”

“……. What is the meaning of knowing such things?”

“Ha, that’s it, that’s it. There may be different reasons for each, but that’s one common reason. Not all of us were raised by proper parents.”

Even from my perspective, Seonje was an abnormal man. He had a natural talent for architecture and making money, but in the end, he was an extramarital person who did everything as he pleased. It is an affair that lacks humanity.

Her Majesty’s parents were people who only valued honor. Personally, I also did not prefer meeting them.

“Well, we all have trash parents, right?”

“Not me.”

“Shut up. Your mother is like that. What are you talking about? Your family is not in a position to be called normal?”

Camilla even pointed at me and pointed out errors in my words.

” Well, who will criticize whom? My father is a dog addicted to alcohol, my mother is a bastard who had an affair with a servant when I was young and ran away, and my older brother is a man who only knows how to work.”

“… definitely.”

Her family was so famous that it was often talked about even among the common people.

The military minister is such an idiot that he even recently had a record of walking down the street naked while drunk. Camilla’s mother was a woman who ran away at night when Camilla was young. Camilla’s brother was such a tight-lipped person that even I felt frustrated.

“Your house is abnormal.”

“Something that has a very dirty tone.”

Camilla pouted and started poking me with the knife she had brought to cut the cheese.

“It’s dangerous, so put it in.”

“… But you never once told me about your father. What kind of person are you?”

“…… Father.”

He was a very difficult person to summarize in one word.

He was such a difficult person that he had to spend a long time adrift in the sea of language to retrieve the appropriate expression.

“He was like a clown.”

“If it’s a clown, is it the one you see in places like the circus?”

“Okay. Clown would be the most appropriate expression. Because you worked hard every day to make me laugh even though I was sick.”

He looked so happy that it would not be strange if he died at any time, but he was always smiling because he was so happy. Even when his condition worsened and he vomited blood in front of me, I asked, ‘Who wants tomato stew~~~?’ He was a person who had fun with us.

People asked me if I found it funny even though I was always falling, falling down stairs, and falling. Every time that happened, I responded, “Why would it be funny if someone got hurt?” Then, my father lamented that it was a waste and promised to try to fall more dramatically next time.

He often played pranks by poking my mother’s cheek, once filled my tea with pepper, and once applied fluorescent paint to Liesel’s dog, causing her to cry at night.

“…… He was roughly like that.”

“When I saw him occasionally, he was a very serious person.”

“In fact, the first day I saw you, you said you had crickets attached to your dress.”

“Was the criminal your father?”

Anyway, my father was that kind of person.

There was even a rumor that he played such a prank on the Emperor, but even the Emperor was so dumbfounded that he just passed it over.

“And he was against my going to the battlefield until the end.”

That day, my father got angry for the first time and lashed out, swearing and saying, “You should only dream of such ridiculous things.”

That day, my father went to visit my teacher and shook his fist for three hours, but returned after only wiping the dust off my teacher’s clothes while he was looking at his papers.

I couldn’t understand why he did that even though he was so weak. I could never understand why he got so angry for someone like me.

“Someone like me probably won’t be able to understand Him until we die.”

This is why, on days when my mother scolded me, my father brought me sweet candy and kept saying he was sorry.

The reason why my mother covered her mouth when she said, ‘After giving birth to someone like you…’

The reason why, on the days when my mother hit me, she came in front of me and made exaggerated gestures and fell down.

I will probably never understand for the rest of my life.

“I don’t understand, but he was so great that I thought it was too much. Because of that kind of father… Yes, because of that kind of father. My mother won’t forgive me even more.”

“… Are you really talking about how you couldn’t save your father from his death?”

“A son who didn’t even step foot on the deathbed of such a great father. Aren’t you an unfilial person who deserves to be hated?”

“You know best. At that time, the situation was…!”

“No matter what the circumstances are.”

okay. Whatever the situation may be.

“I am an unfilial person who did not even repay what I received.”

All the antics you did in front of me, all the sweet treats you gave me, all the reasons you opposed my going into battle.

I don’t know how it was created, but they didn’t even give me the slightest repayment for the things that gave me a little comfort.

“… It will soon be the anniversary of your father’s death.”

“Yes.”

“I think I will have to go up to the capital soon. I also have to give the letter you wrote to your fiancée. While I’m at it… I’m also writing a letter to put on your father’s grave.”

I couldn’t understand.

My father was already buried in the ground.

What on earth does it mean to deliver a letter?

“Repay the minimum.”

“… Will my father really forgive me? ”

“Don’t make your father such a narrow-minded person. Because that is truly the worst form of unfilial piety.”

Camilla started scolding me again, just like she did before.

Even though I was clearly scolded, I felt a sense of nostalgia and my expression relaxed just a little.

Very slightly. It means that the corners of the mouth are raised, albeit very slightly.

“Whenever you get scolded again, you act like a gigolo!”

“… Camilla.”

I looked at Camilla and asked the question again.

“You said it. There are other personal reasons for taking care of me besides the common reasons.”

“Okay. Why is that?”

“I want to know your personal reason.”

Camilla seemed to have suddenly become intoxicated and ran away with a red face.

“… I was really curious so I asked.”

I probably won’t be able to understand the reason until I die.

Because I am a duller man than anyone else.