episode_0034

I returned from an unexpectedly uneventful time in the elf village.

No, in a way, it went according to Leasian’s plan.

On the way back, I took the carriage again.

Lee Ho was still driving the horse in the coachman’s seat, and Leasian and Kamiel were behind him.

… … .

It was very quiet inside the carriage.

Normally, even if one person was quiet, the other would speak up and the conversation would continue.

But now, both of them looked lost in thought, as if they each had their own thoughts.

“… Camiel. Did anything happen yesterday when you said you had to go to the bathroom?”

“… yes? ah… Yes.”

Kamiel’s eyes were slightly shaken as memories of yesterday came to mind.

‘Come to think of it… ‘I haven’t said a word since yesterday.’

When I returned, I saw that the young lady had also left the place by herself, saying she was going to get some fresh air.

Kamiel waited anxiously for the young lady to arrive, but was finally able to meet her when the meeting was over and it was time to return home.

‘And then…’ I went back to the house I was staying at without saying a word.’

I never slept in the same house as Lee Ho.

As if he had made a promise, Kamiel followed after Leasian.

‘Of course I slept far away.’

I can infer his feelings at the time, even though he didn’t know it.

He probably wanted to appease the young lady.

‘But I ended up in this situation without any income.’

Kamiel glanced sideways at her sitting next to him.

‘still… Are you sulking?’

“Lady.”

“… … .”

“Lady?”

“… Huh?”

Leasian, who finally answered the second question, reflexively raised his face.

‘what?’

Kamiel was puzzled by that appearance.

I expected that I would feel uncomfortable because of what happened last night.

But she answered calmly as if nothing had happened.

At this point, I couldn’t help but notice that Leasian’s condition was quite strange.

“The weather is nice today.”

“… okay? There were a lot of dark clouds outside?”

ah.

Kamiel looked out the window.

The weather was really dangerous as there were a lot of dark clouds and it looked like rain might pour down soon.

‘It’s true… .’

I was just throwing out random words, but… Unfortunately, I wasn’t lucky.

His face turned red from embarrassment.

“… Phew.”

“… Lady?”

Kamiel looked to the side in slight surprise.

Leasian was smiling brightly.

“You are really cute. Do you know?”

“Yes?”

Kamiel looked embarrassed by the sudden compliment.

My face, which was already red, became so hot that I could almost say it was a tomato.

“What is that… ”

“I love you.”

It was a surprise action.

It happened so much that Kamiel had no time to react.

The result made his heart pound.

Side, side, side, side.

Starting from the bottom of the neck, to the nape, jawline, cheeks, and… .

“… … .”

“… … .”

The sound of lips coming together briefly and then falling apart was not heard this time.

Because we were together for a long time.

The first time they mixed their tongues, both of them were clumsy.

Their hearts wandering as they lose their way.

But once they started touching, I didn’t think they would fall.

A strange sound moved around the carriage.

Leasian slightly opened his tightly closed eyes.

Kamiel, who happened to be narrowing his eyes, also made eye contact with her.

‘You had such a wound.’

It was a deeper wound than I thought.

Even though I have never experienced it as a Leasian, I feel the pain as if it were my own.

Since I have not been in his shoes, I cannot offer hasty comfort.

Even if she also experienced pain, pain is not something that can be compared.

‘But I can love you even if I can’t comfort you with words.’

‘Forget all the pain from the past… .’

love you.

The rain that fell at that moment filled the vast forest.

The sounds coming from inside the carriage were also buried inside.

* * *

After returning to the mansion, Leasian and Kamiel each decided to relieve their travel fatigue.

Actually, I did it as if I was running away out of shame from what happened in the carriage.

“Lee Ho.”

Lee Ho, who was walking down the hallway at Leasian’s call, looked back.

“Lady? Why are you doing that?”

“Can you find out a few things like Ilho?”

“Yes? What kind of thing do you want me to find out? ”

“Where Camiel lived.”

Leasian said that with an emotionless expression.

The conversation soon continued.

“Where is the Atran village? Please find out.”

“Hmm… . For now, I understand. I’ll do my best.”

After instructing Lee Ho to investigate, she walked down the hallway in silence.

Camiel’s shy face suddenly appeared.

‘To a child who can smile like that… ‘You did something like that, right?’

The pain that burst from my heart gradually flowed upward, eventually reaching my head.

If you hadn’t heard this, you wouldn’t know it, but now that you’ve already heard it, you can’t leave those guys alone.

‘for now… ‘I’ll have to go and see.’

Kamiel might not like it.

Leasian learned well from what he overheard last night that he loved his family.

‘Is it love/hate?’

No, a man as pure as that cloud would not hate anyone.

I just love you.

Even though he knew he would never get back anything similar to what he gave.

‘You would have been a complete wreck at the end.’

Rheasian, who stands tall, has red eyes.

She covered her face with both hands.

‘How sick were you? I wouldn’t even dare to imagine, would I?’

But I keep imagining it.

Haha, hoho, the image of a boy squatting alone among people laughing and talking.

Although he lives in the same house, he is unable to participate in conversations due to being abandoned and ends up returning to his room.

The sight of Kamiel hesitating and contemplating several times while holding a sword… .

Rheasian also knows.

It’s strange to see yourself crying endlessly.

‘It’s not something I’ve experienced… .’

I was angry.

If I had been by his side at that time, I would have comforted him… .

If I picked up a knife, I would have begged him not to do it… .

You are precious to me… I would have said… .

Are you very sensitive?

I couldn’t stop crying.

Like a bottomless poison, blocking it with one’s hand was of no use.

‘love you. Sorry… .’

Because I couldn’t protect you.

Because I acted unreasonably and foolishly towards you.

I felt like I finally understood.

The reason I’m crying like this right now… .

For Rheasian, Kamiel was no longer someone he could stay away from or break up with.

It was one.

There were two bodies, but one mind.

She sobbed.

My heart hurts.

Your heart must have hurt too… .

* * *

How many days has it been already? .

“Cough!”

A coughing sound heard in the dark.

After that, there was silence, and soon light came in to brighten the darkness.

“… … .”

The person who opened the door and entered the basement was an elder of the Atran tribe.

He was holding a bowl and put it down on the ground.

It contained Arantz.

“Eat. You have to eat to live.”

“You… And you’re still an elder?”

Perhaps because it was my first time speaking in a long time, my voice was cracked and in poor condition.

The owner of the voice had a bandage wrapped around his head.

“Cassat. I’m not doing this because I want to be like this. Even if you hadn’t made a fuss with that diary… .”

“… … .”

Cassat glared at the elder as if he were going to kill him.

There was nothing they could do because their hands and feet were tightly bound, but the momentum was fierce.

But the elder did not just sit there and see this.

“Are you okay if this disappears?”

Cassat gritted his teeth.

What the elder held in his hand was none other than Kamiel’s diary.

The elder knew that this was fatal to him and could have gotten rid of it right away.

He didn’t.

Cassatt has nothing to see.

but. The only thing is, I couldn’t stand up in front of my brother’s diary.

“The thought of trying to relieve my brother of his injustice is imaginary. I hope that wish comes true someday.”

The last words were mocking.

Anyway, as long as Cassatt is doing that, there will never be a situation where this diary will be exposed.

‘When should I let it go… .’

The elder had a vague plan.

‘Once he’s healed, we can burn the diary and then release him.’

The village was already noisy.

Kamiel was an abandoned child, so he might have been upset if he disappeared overnight, but Cassat was not.

He was definitely a precious son to his family, and a close neighbor to the village people.

‘Now that that kid is gone, it’s bound to be noisy.’

Before leaving, the elder smiled kindly at Cassat.

“I’ll come again next time.”

Sigh-

The elder thought as he closed the door.

‘No matter how much more trustworthy the child’s words are than Kamiel, they will be of little use if there is no evidence.’

You never know.

There’s a rumor going around that I inherited my father’s personality from ancient times.

“Well, if you say yes, I would be grateful… .”

* * *

A beautiful night with soft moonlight.

Kamiel, who was getting ready for bed, stopped when he heard a knock on the door.

‘Who is it? No one is coming… .’

There was one person.

But did she, who was supposed to be relieving her travel fatigue, actually come?

“Hello.”

“Lady.”

No way, they are going to catch people.

Kamiel’s prediction was correct.

Standing in front of the door was Leasian, wearing a relatively thin dress, probably in pajamas.

“But… What is that pillow?”

“… Can I sleep like today?”

It was an embarrassing word, but his eyes were so bright that I couldn’t refuse him.

‘I never refused in the first place.’

Even though he had hesitated until now, he was ultimately following the same path.

This time was no different.

“… Please come in.”

Although Kamiel was embarrassed, he opened the door wide.

Rheasian enters and the door closes smoothly.

How much time has passed like that?

The room the two people were in was quiet.

Two people lying side by side with the lights off.

At that time, Leasian, whose eyes were closed, suddenly opened them.

“… … .”

She smiled as she silently looked at her hand holding Kamiel’s.

Leasian adjusted his posture and sat down, then quietly observed the sleeping Kamiel.

‘You sleep without knowing anything about the world…’ .’

Just now, after I first entered the room. Camiel was surprised to see his face reflected in the light.

Because traces of crying were evident to anyone who saw it.

‘I said I had a nightmare.’

Although he seemed to accept it at the time… Kamiel would have known that was a lie.

‘Because you’re surprisingly quick-witted in places like this.’

She liked to worry, but today she didn’t want to worry him.

‘But I think it’s wrong… .’

I smoothed out his sticking out hair with my free hand.

‘soft… .’

Now that I think about it, I remembered the day I woke up in the elf village.

Kamiel woke up earlier, but Rheasian was in a half-asleep state at the time, so he couldn’t remember the details.

He was clearly coughing violently.

‘Am I not feeling well…? ?’

If you need medicine that is good for your health, you can ask Lee Ho.

‘But actually, there’s nothing I can do.’

It may be possible to heal the internal wounds, but Rheasian felt like that was all he could do, so his mind was complicated.

‘No, maybe even that… .’

‘Have I lived too comfortably?’

I haven’t even had a drop of water on my hands… It wasn’t wrong.

I had to learn something.

‘To help Camiel… … .’

It was a particularly deep night of thought.