episode_0033

The problem wasn’t the fingernails digging into the flesh.

I never imagined that the teacher, who was always kind and warm, would make an expression like this.

I was embarrassed, and because of that, I couldn’t answer properly.

“I know your daughter well, don’t I? If you were her, I think you would have harmed yourself to understand their pain. You are such a kind person. You.”

“ah…!”

I felt unbearably embarrassed by the leader’s words.

You know me really well.

Didn’t you actually go into the alley to do that?

“You have to answer, Fran? Have you really defiled this body?”

“that is…”

There is no way I can easily confess that I did something foolish.

Moreover, the feeling of being touched by men in the alley came back to me again.

If he hadn’t saved me, I would have done something I would have greatly regretted.

“Ha, didn’t I tell you clearly that this body would be put to special use? Tell me. Did you disobey me?”

“Yes? No, that’s it… I was touched, but the uncle… So, the uncle is the person I am preaching to…!”

Maybe it was because I couldn’t organize my thoughts, but I couldn’t come out with words.

Seeing that I was confused and unable to explain properly, the leader yelled at me as if he had made a strange misunderstanding.

“What kind of guy did you hand over this precious body to? How much does it cost?”

“Yes? Teacher, what do you mean?”

“It’s absurd. I heard that a well-behaved cat climbs onto the stove first. Isn’t that exactly what happens?”

“No, no, it’s not like that.”

“Don’t lie! Excuses don’t work. There are all these foolish people out there!”

“Cyo, cult leader!”

“I gave you so much trust and love, but you betrayed me!!”

betrayal? Did I betray you?

Was the problem that I dared to doubt the religious leader without even knowing the topic?

“No, I didn’t. Trust me, cult leader! I was wrong.”

“You better be prepared from now on. Come inside!! Quickly!!!”

“Tsk!”

It was my first time seeing the leader speak so loudly.

When people get too embarrassed, their hair seems to turn white.

Looking at the unfamiliar religious leader, I could not make any excuses.

‘I have to tell you that you misunderstood…!’

After receiving the call, those who were outside came inside.

The leader, who was holding my wrist tightly, pushed me towards them.

“Ouch!”

“Lock that whore up.”

“Yes? Are you okay? Aren’t you a saint?”

“Didn’t I just give you an order? If you received an order, just do as you’re told. Don’t talk back unnecessarily.”

When I warned in a cold voice, the believers swallowed their saliva and held onto my body.

“I’m going, I’m going.”

These believers know that she is an awakened person.

I could see that he was afraid that he might rebel.

It was a familiar gaze from my childhood.

“……”

“……”

“……”

I didn’t want to use my power on people who were afraid of me.

Instead of resisting, I obediently followed their lead.

I could have escaped if I tried hard enough, but I couldn’t find a reason to do so.

“This is the place. Would you like to come in?”

The place the man was taken to was a shabby prison with bars that could not be considered a place for people to stay.

“Why is there a place like this in the church?”

“…..”

Of course, they didn’t answer my question.

“Ha, is it okay if I stay here?”

“Yes. Sorry.”

“No, it worked out better. I needed time to gather my thoughts.”

The person who called herself my mother and treated me like a daughter was the religious leader.

I couldn’t understand why the leader’s attitude changed as soon as he misunderstood that he had lost his virginity.

“Now that I think about it, you said, ‘How much does this cost?’”

Was he trying to sell the virgin for an expensive donation without his knowledge?

Why the leader and not anyone else?

What on earth is your reason for doing such a thing?

Because something is lacking.

“Is it true that they forced prostitution from above?”

After leaving my uncle’s house.

We investigated in more detail the situation the sisters were in.

And in the process, I realized that it is harder to find a sister who does not engage in prostitution than a sister who engages in prostitution.

This was even happening in other branch churches.

‘I couldn’t believe it. I didn’t even understand why this was happening.’

Are you forcing sisters into prostitution just for donations?

The church was not that kind of place.

It is the warmest, coziest, and only resting place in the world.

Such a denomination was covered in filth.

He was so happy that he didn’t even know that.

“Does it cost a lot of money to run a religious order?”

So, did you tell the sisters to earn money?

Due to unavoidable circumstances in order to collect more money from poor people?

Doridori-

That doesn’t make sense.

Suddenly, I remembered the splendid appearance of our church that I had not seen in a long time.

‘Anyone could tell it was expensive furniture and decorations.’

The religious leader’s clothes were extremely soft, probably made of silk.

‘If I were a religious leader I know, he would have used the money to wear something like that to serve the sisters…’

Now it seemed like the leader wanted to use the donation for himself rather than for service.

What I couldn’t understand was that I thought that if the religious leader enjoyed peace through donations, the sisters should also live a happy and peaceful life under the religious order.

Rather than suffering physically and mentally by engaging in prostitution for the sake of missionary work.

‘That’s the role I think the denomination should play.’

But now the denomination was going down the wrong path.

“It looks like the leader has changed.”

I felt like I had to stop it.

If I had time, I would try to persuade her, but the religious leader seemed to not want to talk to her any more and imprisoned her.

This is also an action that does not fit with the doctrine that the church leader has taught.

“When there is a misunderstanding, we must resolve the issue calmly through conversation. But the leader did not do that.”

The denomination relies a lot on its leader.

His warm heart and will created a denomination, and believers emerged under it.

But the leader changed.

The kind nature that gave him a warm embrace disappeared, and he began to do cruel things to believers by asking them to bring donations.

‘You pretended not to know, but in the end, you couldn’t hide your lie until the end.’

A person’s evil disposition can be corrected.

Even if something is evil, it can be changed if you give enough teachings from the side, which is what the religious leader himself said.

And the leader’s faith changed me.

‘Just as the religious leader changed me, shouldn’t I also change my religious leader?’

Just like you gave it to yourself.

The religious leader may also be hoping for that.

“iced coffee…!”

The problem is that I am not sure if I, being foolish and stupid, can lead the religious leader correctly.

“I should have been a more upright person…”

Didn’t she almost make the wrong choice just a few days ago?

I am not sure if I will be able to receive proper correction if I teach the teacher in this way.

“What should I do…what should I do?”

I need to receive instruction from the teacher…

Since the person involved had become corrupted, it became impossible to receive teachings.

I know very well how painful, difficult, and lonely it is to go down the wrong path.

When I thought that the religious leader was also feeling the same emotions, I burst into tears.

“I’m sorry…I’m sorry…I’m sorry…”

I should have known this a long time ago.

Since when did the religious leader start walking down the path of corruption?

I didn’t notice when the sisters were suffering, and I didn’t notice when the leader was suffering.

I acted childishly and foolishly in his arms.

It needs to be fixed now.

It had to change.

Giggigigigigig-!

Guguguguguguguguguguguk!!!!

After making up my mind, I tore off the iron bars with my hands and escaped from the prison.

I greeted the believers with apologetic expressions as they were staring blankly at me like that.

When she went outside, it was raining, as if the sky knew how depressed she was.

Ssaaa-

I moved in the rain to meet the religious leader.

“You can do it well, right? You have to do it. If you don’t, the church might be in shambles.”

clenched fists

shaking-

My hands are shaking from nervousness.

I decided to take a deep breath and cheer up.

Knock knock-

When she arrived at the teacher’s office, she knocked politely first.

“Who is it? I was in a bad mood so I told you not to let anyone in.”

The teacher’s voice was heard.

His voice was full of irritation, perhaps because of what happened with him earlier.

‘As expected, the leader…’

There was a need for teaching.

I thought again about what teachings he had given me.

‘Because the teacher taught me, I can do it too.’

After internally shouting ‘I can do it’ ten times, I opened my mouth.

“Master, it’s me. Fran.”

“…..”

He feels a bustling movement inside, as if he didn’t know he was coming.

I calmly waited until the church leader gave me permission.

“…I was told to keep him in prison, but how did he get out?”

“I’m sorry. I have something I haven’t told you yet. It’s something I have to say when I meet you.”

“I never gave you permission to come in. Please go back. I don’t want to see you right now.”

“Master, please allow me. I have something I must tell you.”

“I’m warning you again. If you don’t go back now, you’ll never see me again.”

Are you saying I’ll never see the leader again?

My heart is pounding! I sat down.

Not being able to meet the religious leader is the same as being abandoned by the religious community.

For me, it was a terrible thing that I couldn’t even imagine.

‘Even if it’s painful, I will endure it. Just like the leader did!’

Knock knock-

I knocked on the door again.

“Please open the door. Please.”

“…..”

There is no sign of anything inside.

The teacher’s answer too.

I was sighing, wondering if I should go back like this, but to my surprise, the door opened directly!

Thinking that the leader had opened the door, I smiled brightly and said,

“Kyojuni… gasp!”

Phew!!!

The burning pain I felt in my stomach took my breath away! And it got blocked.

It happened in an instant.