episode_0029

“It’s a complete revival! You bastards!”

It seems like Jiwon’s condition has improved.

It’s going to get noisy again, which is annoying, but still, it’s good that everything’s better now.

Thinking so, I gently stroked Jiwon’s head.

“Ah… Hey… Don’t touch my head…”

As Jiwon seemed flustered and lowered his head, he looked at me.

What’s wrong? Is he hurting again?

“Is there anywhere that hurts?”

Jiwon said it was nothing in response to my question and began to avoid my hand.

What’s going on? Did I do something wrong?

Or maybe it’s because of that moist incident.

I looked at my finger that had entered Jiwon along with Jiwon’s appearance.

It didn’t feel moist at all, not even damp.

Strangely, a sensation of moisture continued to linger on my hand.

I should have apologized.

Not being able to do it then still seems like a problem.

Should I go now and apologize, even if it means kneeling naked and apologizing?

No, maybe just bowing in front of him would be enough for forgiveness.

I don’t know for sure, but as much as I know I’m not in a righteous position right now, I think I understand better than anyone else.

“Damn it… I should apologize.”

**

Why are you touching someone’s head?

For the first time, I felt scared to see Jiho’s face.

I hope Jiho, who was kind to me that day, continues to be so.

It seems like he knows I feel embarrassed and hurt when he sees me like this.

Should I pretend to be in more pain?

I want more comfort from Jiho.

Today seems to be the first time I’ve thought about pretending to be sick to receive care from Jiho.

Why am I like this…

I know I shouldn’t be like this.

Even though I know that if I act sick, I’ll just be a nuisance to Jiho, all I can think of is wanting to be with him a little longer.

Maybe that’s why I’m holding Jiho’s hand.

I can feel Jiho’s warmth in my hand…

“Ugh, damn it!! What’s wrong with me…”

Blushing for a long time, I covered my face.

Why am I like this?

I started to feel something I had never felt when I was a man.

Is something wrong with me?

Taking a deep breath, I decided to return to Jiho.

Now that I’ve calmed down.

I’ll be fine now. So please, heart, stop pounding wildly and just stay calm.

Grabbing my wildly beating heart, I went into Jiho’s room.

Now that I’m okay, I’ll talk to Jiho again and ask him to buy me food.

Thinking so, I opened Jiho’s door.

“Uh… Jiho?”

Upon opening the door, all I saw was Jiho’s naked body.

He seemed to be changing clothes, hence why he was shirtless…

“Hey… you pervert!!!!”

Getting angry, I slammed the door shut and returned to my room.

“Haa… Haa…”

Why am I like this?

My heart starts pounding wildly. A bit of muscle definition on my body. Muscles that weren’t there before when it was my body.

They were on Jiho’s abdomen.

Now I understand why women scream like crazy when they see a man’s abs.

This is why… This is why they scream.

Without screaming, I can’t stop the pounding in my heart…

**

“Why is that jerk acting like that.”

I was getting ready to kneel naked and apologize.

Jiwon suddenly opened my door, called me a pervert, and left without me doing anything yet.

I’m still wearing pants, so why suddenly call me a pervert. Can I really live with this injustice?

Putting my shirt back on, I entered Jiwon’s room.

Inside, I saw Jiwon covered in a blanket.

Why is that guy acting like this?

Looking at Jiwon quietly, I’m not sure if I should apologize.

Looking at Ji-won like that.

“Hey.. I.. I…”

I can do it. Just one word of apology should be enough.

With the determination that it can be done, I approached Ji-won and spoke directly.

“Hey.. you crazy b****! You were the one who messed up first!!!!”

No, this isn’t it.

I asked for an apology, not a quarrel.

“What did I do wrong!”

Soon, Ji-won also stood up from her seat and started getting angry with me.

Damn, I know I’m in the wrong, but I don’t know how to calm this situation down.

While pondering over this for a while.

“Hey! Let’s get out of here!”

For now, it seems like the best solution is to get Ji-won out, so I told her let’s go out.

I don’t know. Maybe things will work out somehow once we’re outside.

In response to my words, Ji-won began to speak as she looked at me.

“Got it.”

It’s a relief that she simply said “got it.”

At least I should say something, feed her, and offer an apology.

**

Taking Ji-won with me, we headed to the mart.

As we headed to the mart, Ji-won pointed to a particular food cart.

There, she was pointing to a place selling hotteok and chrysanthemum bread.

“I want to eat chrysanthemum bread.”

Well… It’s a nice nostalgic treat, so one chrysanthemum bread should be fine.

Thinking like that, I bought a chrysanthemum bread for Ji-won.

And as Ji-won ate the chrysanthemum bread, she came up to me and said,

“Which part tastes like chrysanthemum bread~”

And then she placed one chrysanthemum bread next to her.

I wanted to say there are two big pieces of bread there, but refrained because the police station was visible across the street.

My response was simple.

“Dead bread~”

I began to hold my fist in front of Ji-won as she started to act up.

“Stop messing around and let’s go to the mart quickly.”

Grumbling, Ji-won entered the mart.

“How much can you buy for me?”

Upon Ji-won’s question, I thought for a moment.

“Never mind. How much? Just buy what you want to eat.”

With my response, Ji-won smiled widely, grabbed a shopping cart, and urged us to hurry.

Her expression truly brightens up when buying something.

Following Ji-won, I bought what she wanted to eat…

Seeing Ji-won’s expression lighten up, I decided it was time to apologize.

I wasn’t going to end it with just a casual sorry; I needed to sincerely apologize today.

Thinking like that, I decided to accompany Ji-won to the mart to buy the necessary items and even cook the dish she wanted.

Not yet. When Ji-won’s condition improves somewhat.

I’ll talk to Ji-won.

Thinking like that, I returned home with Ji-won from the mart.

Back home, unpacking and preparing for dinner.

Suddenly, Ji-won approached me, asking if something was wrong with me today.

“What’s wrong with you today, did you take the wrong medication or something, why are you acting like this.”

Damn it, I’m trying to apologize to you right now.

Whether Ji-won knew that or not, she just stared at me, tilting her head.

Alright… There’s no point in delaying it further.

Let’s just apologize now.

Standing up, I looked at Ji-won with a serious expression.

Ji-won seemed momentarily startled, twitching her body.

She looked at me with a flushed face.

No, if I do this, it might seem like I’m confessing my love.

I don’t know what to say to apologize in this situation.

Apologizing to a woman only reminds me of the inexplicable apologies I made to Seong-ah noona every day.

When sincerely admitting my mistake, I don’t know what to say to apologize.

Sweating nervously, I gazed at Ji-won.

Memories of Ji-won’s mentioned apology method came to mind.

“If I were a girl, apologizing by suggesting ‘pregnancy mating breath’ would make everything forgivable.”

“Pregnancy mating breath, what the f*** kind of nonsense is that.”

“No, the true meaning of reconciliation is sex.”

Even now, I don’t understand what that bullshit means.

If this is the way…

“Hey, Kim Jiwon!”

“Uh… Yes..”

“Hey, you bastard!! Let’s have sex!!!”

“What…?!!”

Jiwon seemed startled and confused by my words.

Sex!! Sex sex!! Only now do I understand the meaning of life is sex.

I… I want to try it too.

With that thought in mind, I approached Jiwon.

Although my original intention was to apologize and say sorry.

I don’t know how it turned out like this.

As I approached, Jiwon started to step back, beginning to run away.

“W-Wait, last time I joked about us having sex… but for real…? Really?”

Jiwon seemed flustered as he spoke, but he didn’t run further than a couple of steps.

Slowly, I approached Jiwon.

I took Jiwon’s hand.

Just by holding hands, Jiwon began to tremble.

“Ji… Jiho…”

Roughly, I directed Jiwon towards my bedroom.

Then, I retrieved an ultra-thin condom from the towel box in the bathroom.

“You said it yourself. If we engage in pregnancy breeding breath, you’ll forgive me.”

“I have something to apologize for. Just stay still.”

At my words, Jiwon simply nodded quietly.

Is this really okay?

Could I be arrested for rape if I make a mistake…

My spine chilled, fear creeping in.

But soon, Jiwon opened his arms wide and said,

“It’s okay… come here.”

At that moment, my rationality snapped as well…