episode_0026

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My older sister, who had been prescribed morning-after pills, poured the pills into her mouth when she returned home.

My sister, who drank as much water as she could, lay down on the sofa and was snogging.

“Still, I’m glad my parents are gone somewhere for a while.”

I had my parents’ luggage, but no matter where I looked around the house, I couldn’t see them.

As I was wandering around the house, I approached my older sister and stroked her back.

When I stroked it, it seemed to be relieved to some extent, and the moaning lessened.

“Is it okay if it’s like this?”

“… A little.”

When I started rubbing my sister’s back with my hand, she seemed to like it so much that she completely turned over and lay down.

I chuckled at my older sister’s actions and started stroking her back in earnest.

When I slowly lifted my head to look at my sister’s expression, she turned her head in the opposite direction and answered quietly.

Are you making a strange expression? Why is he suddenly hiding his face?

I twitched my mouth and focused on rubbing my sister’s back again.

“Huh? Are you here?”

“Have you been there?”

For a moment, the sound of the door lock button being pressed was suddenly heard, and then the door burst open.

When I peeked my head out, my mother opened the door and came in.

Seeing them greet me warmly, joy spread across my face.

“Son, it’s been a while. how have you been doing? What about Hayun?”

“I had a good time. My sister is lying over there. He said he was tired because he couldn’t sleep last night.”

My father came in after my mother and smiled and said hello.

My dad looked for my sister, and I rolled my head as I remembered the setting up where I went to MT yesterday.

When I remembered my sister’s excuse that she wasn’t feeling well because she couldn’t sleep, I deliberately spoke loudly so that she could understand what she was saying.

“Oh my, the kid is exhausted.”

“Are you okay? Didn’t you sleep? Do you want to get some sleep?”

“You’ve been there… ? I’m fine.”

After coming home, my mother walked over to the sofa in the living room and looked at my older sister.

I sat down by my sister’s bedside and looked at her face, as if I was worried.

Dad followed behind Mom, placed his hand on my sister’s forehead, and tilted his head.

I don’t know if my sister heard me, but she said hello to my parents and smiled bitterly.

“Should we cancel eating out in the evening?”

“No. You’ll be fine after taking a nap.”

Perhaps because my sister’s complexion was a little pale, my father seemed to think for a while and then tried to cancel the dinner plan.

Then my sister shook her head and got up from the sofa.

I guess that’s probably because I’ve taken the morning-after pill twice recently.

I was a little worried about my sister’s physical condition, but there was no point in asking about it here.

I acted normally so as not to let my parents find out about my relationship with my sister.

Just like usual when my parents are around.

“Rather than that, did you come here after finishing MT today?”

“Ah, yes.”

I glanced at my father, who was paying attention to my sister, and carefully took out the clothes from my bag.

My mom, who saw that, quietly came up behind me and asked.

I nodded and roughly answered my mother’s question.

I wasn’t old enough to say much, so this reaction was enough.

“Then it must be because I drank too much.”

After hearing my answer, my dad burst out laughing next to my sister.

I felt like I just chalked it up to a hangover when my body started to feel sluggish due to the morning-after pill.

“Then it will be okay in the evening.”

“Honey. So, are you going to go where you wanted to go for dinner today?”

Dad patted my sister on the back and continued talking.

I guess they say that because they think hangovers don’t last long.

After hearing what Dad said, Mom tilted her head and took a step forward.

After putting everything in my bag away, I stuck my head out and looked at my parents and older sister in the living room.

“Of course.”

When my parents were alone, they only talked about what they knew about each other.

Dad shrugged his shoulders, answered Mom’s words, and then stood up.

After putting my sister neatly on the sofa, my father went into the room.

“Sister. Are you okay?”

After Mom and Dad both went into the room, I carefully went out into the living room and approached the sofa where my sister was lying.

He asked with a worried voice because his complexion did not look good.

Then my sister lowered her arm that was covering her eyes and slowly opened her eyes to make eye contact with me.

“… It’s not okay, but it should be okay.”

My older sister, who seemed to be having trouble even opening her eyes, took a deep breath and opened her mouth.

My heart became a little heavy.

“It wasn’t this bad to begin with, but maybe it’s because I drank alcohol and couldn’t sleep properly… ?”

Just as I was about to feel a little guilty, my sister suddenly changed her mind, as if she was thinking of me.

I didn’t know that my older sister, who skipped class because she wasn’t feeling well the last time I ate, would lie to me because she thought of me.

I smiled bitterly as I looked at my sister like that.

“I’m sleepy too. I didn’t sleep well.”

“Then get some sleep too. Because I have to go out in the evening.”

I flopped down on the floor in front of the sofa where my sister was lying.

As I leaned back on the sofa and gently closed my eyes, my sister laughed and played with my hair.

I yawned as I felt the touch of my hand. Then my sister answered in a slightly drowsy voice.

Hearing that voice, I began to fall asleep little by little.

My vision was slowly collapsing, and eventually I laid down neatly on the floor and closed my eyes.

The sunlight streaming through the veranda glass made me sleep comfortably.

*

“Umm… . What time is it… ?”

“Oh! Is your son awake?”

I stood up, rubbing my eyes.

When I turned my head to check the time, my dad was watching me with the TV on next to me.

I just woke up from sleep, but I never dreamed that a voice would greet me so warmly.

I yawned and nodded.

“Everyone seems to be in a good state after staying up all night.”

“If not in college, when else would I play like that?”

Dad smiled bitterly and patted my head.

Then my mom sat down on the sofa and smiled at me.

My sister must have woken up before me, so I couldn’t see her in the living room.

“My sister went out to get some fresh air.”

“No, I’m not looking for my sister.”

It was true that I turned my head to look for my sister, but when my father laughed and told me my sister’s whereabouts, I unconsciously denied it and lowered my head.

Since it was most important not to seem too friendly, I looked away and stood up.

I carefully entered the room, took out my smartphone that I had put away, and stared at the screen.

Rather than making friends in college, I spent a lot of time with my older sister, so I didn’t really have any friends to keep in touch with.

Should I borrow the name of a friend from high school and go out? I swallowed my saliva while thinking this.

“I’m going to call my friend for a moment. Uh, tell me.”

I held the smartphone in my hand as if I was answering a phone call.

The moment I left the room, I put my smartphone to my ear, asked my parents for their understanding, and quickly walked away.

I left, speaking naturally as if I was talking to a friend, and my parents nodded and let me out.

I was able to leave the house just like that.

I pretended to be on the phone until I left the hallway, but the moment the floor number changed, I shut my mouth and lowered my hand.

“Sister. Were you here?”

“En. Why did you come out? It’s time to go to dinner soon.”

After wandering around the complex, I was able to find my older sister sitting on a playground swing.

When I approached my sister and spoke to her, she looked at me with her eyes wide open.

The time is 5 o’clock. It was time to leave soon, but there was no particular reason for me to go looking for my sister.

I was just worried about my sister.

“Sister, you’re not feeling well, so why are you out and about?”

“Are you worried about me?”

I flopped down on the swing next to me and stretched out my legs.

With his eyes facing straight ahead, he expressed his concern indifferently.

My older sister, who heard those words, smiled and seemed to be happy about what I said.

I liked my sister’s reaction, so a smile spread across my face without me knowing.

“That’s it. When I woke up, I felt pretty good.”

My older sister tilted her head up and started moving her body to ride on the swing.

As I turned my head, I saw the shaking rope and my sister’s body moving back and forth.

I had no intention of going on the swing, so I just sat quietly and looked at my sister.

“Should I just take birth control pills next time?”

“… what. Was it really because you wanted to do it raw that you were worried?”

After observing her feelings, I cautiously expressed my opinion, and my sister stamped her foot and stopped the swing.

My sister, who was staring at me with her eyes wide open, spoke to me in a dissatisfied voice.

My sister sighed as I broke out in a cold sweat and avoided eye contact.

“That’s not it, this is to prepare in case the condom is defective again like this incident.”

“Ha, yes, that could happen, but… Just in case, I thought it would be safe to eat raw after taking the pill.”

Even though there was only silence for a moment, time seemed to stretch forever.

In the end, I couldn’t stand the silence so I opened my mouth and spewed out an excuse.

As I spoke while holding the swing rope tightly, my sister nodded as if she understood what I meant.

But that wasn’t the problem, it seemed like he was thinking about the problem that would lie behind it.

When you said that, I had nothing to say.

Of course, since the goal is contraception, it was clear that it would be good to take measures in various ways. But my sister knew me very well.

I just said something, but my sister looked at me with sharp eyes as if she had seen through everything.

“How about doing both?”

“… do it yourself. Anyway, just one won’t work as contraception.”

I spoke, sweating profusely, holding up the index fingers of each hand.

I guess I need to be reassured like this.

That’s what I was thinking when I said this, but my older sister looked at me and pursed her lips.

After a moment of silence, my sister cautiously opened her mouth.

“Huh?”

“… Because it didn’t feel bad to just do it raw.”

When I made a dumb voice and looked at my sister blankly, she turned her head and avoided my gaze.

I wanted to see what kind of expression my sister made, but she turned her head and didn’t move, as if she didn’t want to show it.

But what was certain was that my sister’s ears were very red.

My sister trembled for a moment, probably because she was feeling embarrassed, and then spoke again.

Your sister allows this? Could it be that I still have some memories from the night, but I just don’t talk about it?

I’m not sure, but if not yesterday, do you remember what you did a few days ago?

I swallowed my saliva and quenched my burning throat.

“Really?”

“Ah, do whatever you want. Don’t keep talking like that. It’s just me anyway. Be quiet.”

I spoke with my eyes shining to confirm again.

Then my sister spoke out loud.

My older sister got up from the swing and started walking without showing me her face until the end.

It seemed like my sister was trying to hide her face, so I got off the swing and followed behind her.

“Honestly, I don’t just hate you.”

When the silence began to fill between us, my sister cautiously spoke.

In a slightly heavy atmosphere, I listened to my sister.

I couldn’t say anything to my sister, who seemed to be very worried about something.

“But that doesn’t mean I can accept it willingly.”

My sister seemed to really think deeply about my confession.

I bit my twitching lip and listened to my sister.

What should I say? Should I at least ask a question?

You don’t have a heart at all? Is there even the slightest possibility?

I lowered my eyes, swallowing the questions rising to my throat.

“Some time must have passed. Let’s go get some food soon.”

“Yes.”

My older sister spoke, changing her mood in an instant, as if telling her to forget everything she had just said.

However, I felt like my heart was pounding because I couldn’t forget the atmosphere, voice, and lines I felt from my sister earlier.

I answered my sister’s words blankly and placed my right hand on my chest where my heart was.

“What are you doing? Come up and come back or call me.”

“I’ll go up and come back!”

As I stood there blankly answering, my sister glanced at me.

Then he sneered and ordered me to do it.

I answered loudly as if to run away and ran into the building.