episode_0024

Let’s go back to a little while ago.

This is what happened before I finished cleaning and parted ways with Senior Saya and Yuna.

I felt a little nervous because Senior Saya suddenly said she wanted to talk to just the two of us.

“If you do it here, everyone outside will hear it… Bold senior… .”

“Junior… ?”

Of course, looking at those eyes that were free of even the slightest flaw, it became clear that it was just my wishful thinking.

“Yeah, what’s going on?”

“That… That person… You said you were going to talk to him a little longer… ?”

“Yeah. You have to explain the situation and ‘persuade’ them to accept it.”

“Yuna and I said it would be better not to watch it… .”

“Depending on the situation, it could turn out badly.”

I don’t think ‘persuasion’ is impossible, but it might not be possible.

In that case, you may have to use a tight combination of ‘commands’ to create an action script or to deal with it.

It’s a sight neither of them wants to see.

Senior Saya seemed to be mulling over those words, then asked a question that was slightly out of sync.

“My junior said something like that to me earlier when I was acting. He said that I am a person who is below average and lacks something, so he hopes to have that opportunity. Those words… really impressed me.”

“That’s right. That’s what the person I love most in the world said.”

“?!”

The senior looked extremely shocked.

“That, that, I see… . There was someone like that… .”

“Huh? Why are you talking like it’s someone else’s business? It’s about your senior.”

“Ma, I never said anything like that… .”

A senior who doesn’t know English.

Oh, if you think about it, that’s true.

“That’s what the senior said. It was something he said in the future.”

“You don’t know, stuff like that… .”

“The person I love most in the world said that, so you should think about yourself. I was hurt when I thought there was someone else.”

“Is it my turn to get in trouble…?!”

He smiled, hugged his senior, and kissed his cheek.

“Don’t be angry~ I was wrong~.”

“I didn’t get angry… .”

And for a moment, I enjoyed the feeling of our cheeks touching in silence.

“Excuse me, junior. Can I ask you a favor?”

“Yeah. Anything. But can I ask you a favor?”

“Yes, anything.”

They looked at each other and smiled faintly.

“Next time, don’t ask me that question. If you want something, just ask. Anything is fine.”

“Can anyone really say anything to someone who says that… .”

He was a skeptical senior.

“Okay, tell me anyway. What do you want?”

“That person… Mr. Suin… I don’t know for sure… but I think what he said earlier is true.”

“I think so too. I don’t think it’s a lie.”

Whether it’s wanting to change or not wanting to disappoint.

It can’t be a lie.

It’s not a lie, though.

“But I don’t think it’s meaningful. Even if the words you say at the time are sincere, if you can’t maintain them, they’re meaningless in the end.”

“Yes. Me too… I know very well.”

Words require emotion to have meaning, and promises require effort to have meaning.

Without it, even the most lengthy and elaborate speech would be nothing more than an empty echo.

“But junior, someone like me… It takes a lot of… courage to say something so empty. Because I know full well that it probably won’t work. Because I know better than anyone in this world… .”

I can’t say it because I’ve failed countless times so far and I know I will fail.

“I know. It takes a lot of courage for my senior to say this now.”

“… .”

“I wish you would do it more often because it’s so damn cute when you hide your face like that. It’s so dangerous for my heart.”

“Then you can’t do that… .”

“I’ll definitely die if I don’t see that cute thing.”

I thought as I looked at Saya-senpai’s embarrassed smile.

When deceiving Su-in, the final scene went a little differently than expected.

Suin seemed more moved by the fact that someone had appeared to try to help her out of danger than by the fact that someone had tried to understand her from the same position as her.

And you even said you didn’t want to disappoint.

Maybe it was a kind of courage that was unique to cowards.

The courage of a coward who, no matter how hard you try to pull it out, is so fragile and light that it quickly blows away, making you forget the very fact that it even existed.

What if there was someone to catch it?

What would happen if you wrapped it carefully, planted it in the ground, and protected it until it sprouted?

I wonder if my senior is expecting that kind of role from me.

†

End of flashback.

When Su-in said she wanted to ruin it, I suddenly remembered the conversation I had with my senior.

Could this self-deprecating and self-punitive statement be seen as a kind of cowardly courage?

“Of course I intend to ruin you whether you want it or not… .”

There are quite a few tools.

I picked up a fairly long dildo from a neatly organized tool cabinet on one side of the basement.

“Is this what you mean by wanting to be ruined?”

It’s not something made to be wielded, but I found a way to hold it properly by tweaking it.

And then he hit the person in the face with all his might, even though he didn’t know English.

“… !!”

The dildo stopped just before her cheekbone, but the momentum of the swing did not disappear. With a squelch, Su-in’s bangs blew in the wind.

“If you smash the clown like this and break the eye socket, the face becomes very funny. [open mouth].”

Next, I opened my mouth and pushed the dildo in, then gave the command “[close your mouth and don’t move].”.

He lifted the head of the person biting the dildo and pushed it down with his knee.

As expected, it stopped just before reaching her, but I could see that Su-in’s eyes were trembling with fear and she was having a hard time swallowing her saliva.

“If you do this, your front teeth will be secure, and two or three more teeth will definitely break. If you do what I said earlier, your face will be easy to sympathize with.”

It’s such a shame that you finally have such a cute face.

I took the dildo out, gave her the command not to move, and asked.

“You didn’t want it to end up like this, did you?”

“That’s not what I wanted… .”

of course.

Even if there is no particular masochistic tendency, there are cases where ‘pain’ is demanded, but in most cases, the pain should be restrained and dramatic.

Few people want pain in the form of dirt or ugliness.

“Then let’s stop talking nonsense… .”

“No, but… still, I think it’ll be okay… .”

Suin was sobbing.

“One side of my heart keeps… keeps hurting… I can’t stand it… . This is just another whim… I might regret saying something stupid soon… But still… Still… .”

But are you saying that you still want to ruin it?

Are you so distressed that you would choose that side?

That’s stupid.

What’s done can’t be undone, and whether Su-in destroys that body or not, nothing will change.

If you want to ruin yourself like that, you’d better ask your former slave to do it when he contacts you later.

But I couldn’t say that and ignore it. He was looking at me so earnestly.

He was waiting with a completely submissive attitude, leaving all the decisions to me. It would be no exaggeration to say that he was even filled with anticipation. He was completely passive, handing over his control.

I guess you could do that to your own body.

Well, let’s talk about that later.

Now is the time to give Suin what she wants.

“Do your lies in moderation. Who would believe that a guy who didn’t care about what he did just a few hours ago suddenly starts feeling guilty?”

“Oh, no! I really… evil!”

He grabbed Su-in by the hair and headed to one side of the basement, to a room with iron bars. There were hooks all over the place that could be used to hang people.

The struggling Suin’s wrists were tied to the ceiling. They were tied slightly higher so that the tips of his feet were barely touching the ground. Even that alone was difficult because his weight was on his wrists.

I checked the whips in my toolbox, but they were all for play and none of them were useful.

He held the whip he had found with regret and headed towards Suin.

Suin was looking at me with frightened eyes.

I could tell there was a little bit of anticipation in it.

“I don’t know if you really don’t know or if you’re just pretending not to know, but you just need an excuse. An excuse to get bullied. Because your body will have completely melted by dawn.”

Although it was limited to anal, I teased her by soaking her in a lot of medicine for six hours.

“Ah, no… Ugh!”

Due to the regeneration effect, no trace of those six hours remains, but the ‘memory’ still remains.

Even though it was through her clothes, Suin moaned as the whip handle pressed hard against her anus. She cried out in shock at the sound she made.

“No! It’s not because of this, this kind of thing… !”

“When you asked me to make a mess of it, you really didn’t imagine this? Isn’t that too much of a lie? When you’ve learned that pain and joy can coexist?”

Suin was speechless.

It may be unfair, but it cannot be denied.

You can’t be sure of your own emotions, even if they are emotions that you felt so intensely. When someone strongly insists on something, you end up giving up control of your own emotions, wondering if it is really true.

“First of all, this. [Seal the ability to create a potion until permission is given.]”

The puzzled gaze returned.

Yeah, I thought you didn’t know.

[Drug production] is the ability to create medicine within the body. It can take effect immediately within the body without having to take it out and create it in the form of medicine.

If you ask me to destroy you and then create medicine inside your body and take it, nothing will happen, right?

He moved on to the next step without explaining.

“Don’t worry, I’ll make it fun for you in a different way this time.”

After taking off the shirt and pants that Su-in was wearing, he picked up a whip and struck her arm.

A small crackling sound, accompanied by a cracking sound. It is the sound of a whip that was pressed so tightly against the skin being torn away, accompanied by a bit of skin.

A red line is left on the pure white skin where the whip passed, and a small amount of bleeding occurs there. It doesn’t just hurt and leave a mark, it tears and tears away the flesh.

“Aaah!!!”

I looked at Suin, who was screaming in pain of a kind she had never experienced before.

It must have been quite an intense pain. I watched her continue to struggle and scream, and when I thought the screams were starting to die down, I suddenly asked her a question.

“Are you still feeling bad? Do you wish you were broken?”

Su-in looked at me with tears still welling up in her eyes even though she had already shed a lot of tears.

He slapped the cheek that was moving to say something.

Of course, I was quite careful because it was different from hitting the upper arm.

The skin wasn’t torn to the point of bleeding, but instead the scar swelled several times its size. It was as if a valley had formed on the face. Even just breathing would make you aware of the scar.

“Huh… Huuu… .”

Now a distinct sound of crying was heard, which could not be called a scream.

When he lifts the whip, he flinches and tears fall down. His frightened gaze is fixed on the whip.

“Should I ask again? Are you still in pain? Do you want to break down? Do you regret what you said?”

Suin was trying to cover her face with her tied arms. Only when the whip was turned back so that it was out of sight could her hear her labored voice.

“I regret… it… . But… still… .”

“So now you’re completely into this kind of thing?”

I thought he would immediately say no, but for some reason he hesitated to speak. After a long time, he finally managed to say, “I don’t know… .”.

“I don’t know… . It hurts… It hurts so much I want to die… I wish it hurt more… .”

Is it because of the inescapable guilt, or is it because of the awakening of a masochistic desire?

Of course I don’t know which one it is. I intentionally directed it this way to make the two ambiguous.

What is certain is that the guilt in Soo-in’s heart is not so light that it can be evaporated with at least one or two lashes of the whip.

“Yeah. Then I guess punishment is necessary.”

As he raised the whip again, Suin trembled.

A few minutes later, Suin, who had whip marks all over her body, was taken to the bed and laid down.

There aren’t many places where they whipped you. Instead, they leave marks all over the place, so you can’t help but be aware of the pain no matter what you do or what you’re doing.

Because the wound is stimulated, I can’t even lie down properly on the bed and twist my body. And even if I do that, it only stimulates other parts, so I don’t know what to do and twist my body again.

There were bloodstains scattered here and there on the white sheet.

“How are you now? Are you feeling a little better?”

“I don’t know… .”

My throat is completely sore from screaming so much that I can’t even speak properly.

The newly formed skin that was once flawless is now full of torn areas from the whipping. If not treated properly, it will become so scarred that her once pretty appearance will be ruined.

“It would be fun to just leave it like this until it festered. If you leave it until it rots and oozes pus, it’ll look terrible. If you suffer from a high fever, your head will also become cloudy.”

The expression on Soo-in’s face at those words was a strange mixture of fear and relief.

“This could be… really messed up… .”

“But I can’t allow that.”

“… ?”

I blocked him out, telling him not to laugh, because there was a hint of sweetness in his hoarse voice.

“I’m sorry, but I didn’t mean to ruin you like that. How could I allow such self-destructive methods?”

“Huh… ? But then… .”

He climbed onto the bed and climbed onto Suin.

The wound from the whip stimulated the body of the man who twisted, but he ignored it and pressed down on it.

Whisper in your ear.

“It’s a shame that you don’t know such an obvious fact.”

The most powerful force that can destroy a person is affection.