episode_0023

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“Glug, glug, glug.”

Returning home, I wanted to cool my head down, so I grabbed a bottle of vodka from the fridge…but just the smell of alcohol made me feel like I was going to get drunk, so I put the alcohol down and drank some water instead.

After cooling my head down, I tried to forget about what had happened earlier and was massaging my throbbing head with one hand while organizing my thoughts by looking at the messages on my smartphone with the other hand.

“Name: Park Ayoung♡◆◆◆◆

Nickname: Arrogant woman

Desire: 20

Status: Satisfied, internal ejaculation (dangerous)

Special traits: Suction, honorifics, mating urge, first experience of pleasure

Talents: !Determination !Focus 2

Traits: !Porsche 7 !Climax reveal 6 !Scent 5 !Submission 5 !Enlightenment 4 !Heat response 4 !Blood pleasure 3 !Sensitive hands 3 !Semen tasting 3 !Internal ejaculation 3 Masturbation addiction 2 Loyalty 1 !Submission 1 !Corruption 1 !Obedience 1 !Throat 1

Mission: None

Penalty: Promise fulfillment (10/10)”

I couldn’t properly check it earlier, but when I came home and checked, there were quite a few strange things, and the expression “rag” was not wrong at all.

Especially the ♡◆◆◆◆ next to Park Ayoung…I don’t know what it represents, but I have a feeling that the hearts will increase inexplicably.

What does it mean?

Desire seemed to automatically generate a dissatisfaction when it reached around 25, and the status of internal ejaculation (dangerous)…seemed to indicate that a large amount of sperm had entered the uterus.

It’s shameful, but…I feel strangely comfortable and relieved that my uterus is filled with sperm, creating a sense of disconnection between my body and mind.

Talents…it seemed like they were expressing characteristics that emerged from the traits I originally had, but this was also quite ambiguous.

It’s like it’s showing.

“!Focus 2”

Feels pleasure from the gaze of unspecified others.

I don’t know what this is supposed to mean…what? Does it mean I feel good when multiple people look at me? Sorry, but I’m not some attention-seeking clown. This couldn’t be considered my talent at all.

“!Determination”

Briefly reads the mind of an excited opposite sex.

This…I feel like I know a little about this.

When having sex with a woman, there were times when I felt like this place felt good without realizing it.

Does that mean I feel desired?

Thinking about feeling that way towards a man makes me sick, but…

I didn’t feel like checking anymore.

Even if I check and try to understand and come up with a solution, there is no solution.

It felt like checking each one was no different from wasting time investing in stocks and looking at graphs every day.

Instead, there was a more pressing issue to think about.

“Justice Hoon”

Sexual fantasy: Loss of empathy

Acceptance/Rejection

…As I look at the mission window that is still floating without accepting it, various thoughts come to mind.

If I think about it…wouldn’t it be okay to just endure without accepting or rejecting it from the beginning?

But if I do that, I can’t go back to being a man.

And that black magician probably made sure that such thoughts wouldn’t come back…

…My mental state is already shattered, and I’ve lost quite a bit of self-esteem.

If there’s no way, it’s inevitable.

If you recklessly attack a knife-wielding robber and get hurt, no one will call you a courageous person.

They’ll call you stupid and impulsive.

Thinking that it was a robber holding a knife, I tried to fight back, but what could I do when the opponent was flying a plane and shooting nuclear bombs? There was no way for me to do anything.

Reluctantly, I pressed accept, thinking that it was better to quickly get hit… and that’s when I checked the mission window for the first time.

As soon as I accepted, a large window popped up with a beep, and information about the mission target began to be forcibly injected into my mind.

Mission: [Gong Jeong-hoon]

Sex Fantasy: Empathy Loss (0/1)

Complete/Give up

“What, what is this….”

The mission window didn’t show much change, but my mind was a different story.

Just seeing the name [Gong Jeong-hoon] made the face and age of someone I seemed to know pop up in my mind, along with where they lived and their current location.

Hobbies… maze and warrior? Their hobby is online games.

Special skills… damn, is their special skill really insulting women in their imagination? Is that something worthy of being called a skill?

The most surprising thing is that this guy lives not far from where I live.

Originally living in Busan, suddenly winning second place in the lottery and fulfilling their long-time dream of becoming an illustrator by paying for academy fees and living in a goshiwon.

Winning second place in the lottery feels incredibly unnatural.

Could this be what the dark wizard mentioned… pulling in the people I deceived near me?

If so, there could be many people around me who I deceived.

There was a high possibility that they were already gathered in the same apartment, the same neighborhood, or the neighboring neighborhood.

Confusing.

Is this really reality? Suddenly becoming a woman, having information about a stranger engraved in my mind as if they were someone I knew… it didn’t feel realistic at all, but still, the fact that this was the reality I was facing felt very alien.

“Sigh….”

Yet, despite the alien feeling in my mind, my rationality acknowledged the fact that this was reality and convinced myself.

There was nothing to gain from resisting… like picking up a piece of bread that fell into the toilet while being held at gunpoint, I had no choice but to comply.

Disgusting, but… really, so disgusting… the most disgusting thing was that even though their appearance was really not something I wanted, with my current body, it didn’t feel uncomfortable at all.

I may like good-looking appearances, but even if someone is ugly, it doesn’t necessarily lead to dislike.

This strange logic was being forcibly imposed in my mind.

“Damn, damn, damn… sigh….”

As I focused a bit more, the moment I deceived them also came to mind.

It all started two years ago when I started chatting with my character while playing a game.

And a little bit of the chat content from back then came to mind.

{Why do you only play male characters? ㅇ_ㅇ?}

{Because they’re cool??}

{Hehe, you must like male characters… are you a girl?}

{Huh?}

“Sigh….”

…what is this?

No, it feels like I remember… from the old RPG game I briefly played… I was dressing up a male character coolly and hunting, and then this guy came up to me, saying that if I was a newbie, I should join the guild and started giving me items.

Then, he mistook me for a woman, so I said I won’t respond, don’t say this to other people, and he just confirmed that I was a woman and kept bothering me with whispers, claiming it was a secret only he knew.

He was like a lunatic who said that hitting newbies is a tradition in this game~ and that he would hit me with my nickname and make me a diamond. He was a crazy guy.

I decided to calmly think about it for now.

…As the mission window appeared and information about the guy came to mind, I knew.

It was similar to what I usually did when seducing women.

Understanding the surroundings, what they liked, what kind of food they enjoyed… what atmosphere made them feel a little naughty.

It felt like supporting someone to do something they really didn’t want to do, but at a much simpler level.

On the bright side, there was no need to follow men around just to gather information.

Just thinking about Gong Jeong-hoon made me recall his current location and the reason for it.

His current location was a game academy in Sinchon Station, and the place he would go to in a while… was to a convenience store because he was hungry. What’s this? Regularly participating in an anime chat room gathering…?

He was 25 years old… No way, seriously? This guy faked a mental illness to avoid military service. He completed his service as a mental health public service worker, but continued to sexually harass women while working. He had no intention of getting a job at a company. He claimed to study while drawing pictures just to avoid his parents’ nagging.

Curses involuntarily escaped my lips.

Truly, he was a loser to the point of disgust… a loser who had no intention, no tact, and did nothing but spew garbage.

…And I was going to be the one to spread my legs for him.

“Sigh….”

I was craving a cigarette like crazy.

Instead of a cigarette, I had bought a bunch of chocolates and was melting them in my mouth one by one.

I needed something to relieve stress, and for some reason, I felt extremely weak to alcohol and cigarettes, so I couldn’t help it.

As I ate chocolate to clear my mind, I made an effort to calm down and slowly began to plan.

At this point, it was practically like giving him a huge hint to come to me.

Places where we could meet included the convenience store in front of the goshiwon, nearby restaurants, the game academy, and… the anime chat room.

Among them, I chose to meet him first at the convenience store.

If I pretended to meet him by chance and continued the conversation, we would gradually start contacting each other…

When it came to women, it usually took about 5 days to have sex, so maybe with this guy, 2 days would be enough.

That would do.

If I endured for 2 days, it would be over.

“Ugh~ Seriously, I feel dirty!”

But feeling dirty was inevitable.

After organizing my thoughts, I quickly dressed neatly, got in the car, went to Sinchon Station, and followed the guy’s location in my mind.

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After arriving at Sinchon Station, parking the car in the parking lot… I could easily come across the guy who was on his way to the convenience store.

It was surreal, but even though I thought it couldn’t be real, he had actually come looking for me, and I was… quite flustered.

It felt like the person who suddenly came to mind was actually present in reality.

Gong Jeong-hoon had a skinny body like a anchovy, messy hair, tangled beard, twisted glasses… and a truly unbelievable fashion sense with all black hoodie, black shirt, black pants, and black sneakers.

Who is this guy? He wore so much black that he might not even be visible from behind at night.

I stood outside the convenience store, quietly observing Gong Jeong-hoon… then slowly approached him and started a conversation using the same methods I had used with women before.

“Excuse me, can I talk to you for a moment?”

“…Yes?”

“Would you like to talk to me for a moment?”

“…Yes?”

Asking like this, anyone would become interested in having a conversation.

Of course, not everyone can be perfect, but whether as a man or as a woman now, my appearance can only be described as exceptional.

Even though I’m not happy about being shorter than that guy… I didn’t like the fact that I had to raise my gaze even though I came wearing slightly heeled loafers, so my eyebrows furrowed slightly.

But that’s beside the point, as his gaze fixed on me, I could feel it scanning me up and down.

Yeah, a guy like you must want to see a body like mine that you won’t see in a lifetime.

After looking, obediently listen to me and follow me. Pathetic guy.

That’s what I thought, but… Gong Jeong-hoon… did something truly unexpected.

“Oh, no… it’s fine. No.”

“…What?”

Gong Jeong-hoon seemed to be very wary of me, taking a step back, clapping his hands, and gradually moving further away… assuming a posture as if he would run away at any moment, the closer I got, the further he moved away.

“No, wait… excuse me. Please…”

“You, you mistook me for someone else!”

And just like that, Gong Jeong-hoon, who ran away, made a strange noise as if he had stumbled, and I, not understanding the situation where I had started a conversation but he ran away, froze in place, and in an instant, Gong Jeong-hoon disappeared into the distance.

And then… suddenly, I felt Gong Jeong-hoon’s thoughts in my head, and I could clearly hear his thoughts.

[“Oh, f*ck, her chest… f*ck, it’s so hot. Judging by her clothes, she must be a b*tch…? F*ck, I really want to f*ck her body… Why did she talk to me? What’s going on, seriously? It’s lucky she ran away before taking my money.”]

“…Huh?”

Gong Jeong-hoon… was even crazier than I thought.

After the first meeting with the mission target… no, the conquest target, I felt that there was no point in chasing after him anymore, so I returned home and immersed myself in thought.

Surely this guy wouldn’t dare to reject me.

No, this was beyond unreasonable.

Even if he’s a loser, an idiot… would a woman with this appearance run away when approached?

Sitting on the sofa, eating chocolate, I got up from my seat and leaned against the large window.

A large chest that looks like it’s the size of a head on each side.

And conversely, a small head that only seems to be the size of the chest.

A slightly imposing face that looks haughty and sharp, but just teasing a little seems to elicit an interesting response.

A petite height, a slender waist… a large pelvis and buttocks, overall looking thin but showing everything in a strange body.

Even in my own eyes, my body was undeniably provocative.

No, anyone who sees this body would agree that it’s provocative and perfect.

With a cute, sexy, haughty appearance that would make anyone turn around at least once, it’s inevitable to fall for this appearance at first sight.

“…Could it be that guy is a pervert?”

It’s a reasonable guess.

From the start, it doesn’t make sense for the mission to have a loss of empathy.

Thinking rationally, there are men who would pay to go if they’re really desperate, right? Just pick a woman you like and seduce her, why pay for it? I found it hard to understand, but… those guys existed in the world.

Thinking that way, I thought that there might be some other reason for the mission to have a loss of empathy.

Well, it was too easy.

If losing empathy was a fantasy, just putting it in and taking it out once would mean the mission was successful.

But… it bothered me that I heard his thoughts and considered him a pervert.

Most of the other incarnations seem to only give me penalties, but the talent that has emerged as [Doksim] seemed a little different.

The sudden thought that came to mind was much clearer than expected, and it seemed like an ability that could give me tremendous benefits by understanding the thoughts of others.

When considering the conditions, the fact that the thought came to me meant that the person was very excited to see me… And, judging from the content of the thought that they wanted to take advantage of me, I could tell that they were not hostile for now.

However… If I think that way, I don’t understand why I ran away in that situation.

“Yiljin…? They said I look like a yiljin… Is that the reason?”

Unlike the mission information that only provides past information and the location to move forward, the thoughts read through Doksim were giving me very crucial information.

I clearly thought I looked like a yiljin, and they were relieved that I ran away before taking my money.

That means… I must have been taken advantage of before, and the fact that they were scared of taking advantage of me… It must mean that I have a similar vibe to the yiljin in that person’s memory.

In that case, I just need to change my approach.

If I avoided them because I looked like a yiljin, then I just need to not look like one.

After searching for information about yiljin girls on the internet… I found out what high school yiljin girls look like, what their characteristics are, and that wearing luxury items is a trend among kids these days.

“Is it because of this?”

Immediately, I remembered that all the clothes I was wearing were luxury items, and in disbelief… I changed into clothes where logos and the characteristics of luxury items were not visible.

Thinking that I might be intimidated by a strong atmosphere, I thought of dressing up with a softer atmosphere, and I put on a white sweater with a slightly loose and flowing fit, along with light-colored jeans, and lightly tied my hair to the side.

I had never properly tied my hair before, but it wasn’t that difficult to do something like this.

After searching for videos and recalling how to tie my hair, I managed to create a style that wasn’t too professional but was enough to make it look presentable.

After fixing my hair, I thought about going out again the next day with this look, but… Feeling a bit nervous, I tried to relax my facial expression, and after seeing a completely different face in the mirror, I changed my mind.

Looking this different… It was to the extent that I could pass as a completely different person.

By smoothing out my furrowed brows and trying to widen my eyes a bit as if I knew nothing, I ended up with a cute and innocent, slightly teary-eyed rabbit-like appearance, which seemed gentle… Thinking that a larger sweater might make my chest look a bit smaller, I decided to give it another try.

Thinking that it would be okay this time, I held my smartphone and felt that the guy was at the cafe, so I immediately got back in the car and went to the cafe.

Was it stuffy inside the goshiwon? I’ve never been there, so I don’t know, but it seemed like he enjoyed drawing pictures in the cafe.

Glancing at the guy sitting in the corner, I ordered a hot chocolate to look natural and slowly approached while observing from a distance.

Jung Hoon Gong, who was drawing with an old iPad, seemed to be so focused on his drawing that he didn’t notice me approaching at all, and when I arrived in front of him and looked at his iPad… I was a little surprised.

“…You draw well.”

He was drawing quite… well.

He was drawing a female character that looked like a cartoon, with a face that was cartoon-like but a body that was very detailed.

There seems to be a slight problem with the fact that the large chest doesn’t seem to be affected by gravity at all, popping out as if it’s being pulled by a rubber band beyond the point of floating in water, and the hips are too big compared to the waist…? No, thinking about my own body now, it wasn’t that big of a difference.

Since there are women like me in reality, there’s nothing to say about this picture.

Gong Jeong-hoon was diligently drawing a girl with her hair tied in two braids, something… that really looked like a cartoon character.

His concentration on the drawing showed a passion for it, and he seemed completely lost in his imagination, detached from the surrounding world.

Seeing that, I could think of a simple way.

If everyone has the same hobby, they easily become friends, and seeing someone praise themselves makes them like that person.

Well, I’m not completely ignorant about art… I saw a woman drawing while passing by, showed interest, got to know her, and ended up having sex.

That could be the story.

To catch Gong Jeong-hoon’s attention, who was completely absorbed in his drawing without even knowing I was there, I lowered my hot chocolate onto the table where my iPad was placed and bowed my head.

“Wow, you draw really well. It’s cool~.”

“Huh? Huh?!”

[Oh, oh, chest! Wow! Crazy! Wow!]

But as soon as I bowed my head and spoke… I could hear his thoughts.

What? What is he getting excited about…? And looking closely, the loose sweater tightened around his neck when he bowed his head, revealing a considerable amount of his collarbone.

…It’s not a problem. It might actually be a good thing to take an interest in it.

To compliment Gong Jeong-hoon’s drawing and start a conversation, I imitated a college student who genuinely liked art, bowed my head, and looked into Gong Jeong-hoon’s eyes.

“Can I take a look at that drawing? It’s really well done, and I was actually admiring it a bit, but I wanted to see it up close.”

“Ye, yes?”

[Wow, oh, wow! What, what… It’s so pretty, wow….]

I clenched my fist in my mind.

Alright. I must have said it’s pretty.

It’s probably the same as when women admire something. He’s definitely interested in me.

He seemed very excited to the point of hearing his thoughts, and it seemed like I could easily end the conversation if I spoke now.

When someone deeply immersed in something confirms that the other person has a similar level of knowledge, they tend to like them more and want to continue the conversation.

Pointing at Gong Jeong-hoon’s drawing with my finger, I praised the line that went from the waist to the hips and buttocks with a gentle tone.

“This part here~ It seems like you’ve seen and studied a lot of women’s bodies. It really does. Have you seen and studied a lot of this kind of thing?”

“Ye, yes, yes, yes, yes? Oh, no! I, I, I don’t look at that! It’s weird, no!”

However, upon hearing my mix of praise and question, which was meant to start a deeper conversation, Gong Jeong-hoon immediately hugged his iPad and got up from his seat.

“I, I’m sorry! I’m sorry!”

He quickly packed up his things and ran away.

I… was truly dumbfounded, frozen in place….

After gulping down the now lukewarm hot chocolate in one go, I nervously placed the cup back on the table.

“Well… this is how it is. Is this it?”