episode_0022

After Sang-min ran out into the rain fully armed, Hayeon faithfully followed his instructions and locked the door.

As time passed, the pain in her thigh itself wasn’t that bad and it didn’t hinder her from walking, but the weight of guilt weighing on Hayeon’s heart was overwhelming.

It wasn’t just his beloved Sangmin who was ruined.

Although Sang-min was the person of the opposite sex who loved her, Da-young was her beloved younger sister who had a special meaning to Hayeon.

As I returned from the dining room to the living room, I looked at the messy floor and noticed that the dish that Dayoung had been scratching like a dog was broken.

Where did it go wrong?

A scary thought came over me that I might not be able to return it like this broken bowl.

‘At this rate… I can’t tell my master my secret…’

Hayeon tried to sort out her complicated thoughts by cleaning up the broken dishes and tidying up her surroundings.

I only hoped that these thoughts would also be organized as Sangmin organized the interior of the mountain cabin, which he had neglected in a freewheeling or disorderly manner.

I cleaned every nook and cranny with a toothless broom with a broken handle and a rusty and dented metal dustpan that I found in the corner of the room.

The room was devoid of any significant amenities except for a storage box with mostly rag-like bedding and a queen-sized bed pressed against the wall.

Even though she seemed like a young lady who had never had a drop of water on her hands, her hand movements were quite unusual, perhaps because she was always manually dusting, sweeping, and mopping while thinking of the people who came into her room.

Of course, due to her unusual sexual perversion, she also wanted to avoid having her treasured items discovered.

Living in a mountain lodge that surprisingly has everything you need.

Although it cannot be compared to the mansion in Samseong-dong in terms of convenience and comfort, there is something special here that cannot be found anywhere else in the world.

The man I love is Ji Sang-min.

Hayeon felt happy for a moment because she now had a man she could call master.

I thought I had risked everything.

Even so, as long as I can have Sangmin, it’s okay.

So, the moment I connected with him.

It is enough to live today with your beloved master, forgetting about the fears of the future or the regrets of the past.

Finally, I was able to throw off the pretense and look at myself.

Now, under the Master, let us no longer think about complicated things, but live our lives in service with a heart of repentance and atonement.

Hayeon’s careless thoughts were broken by her younger sister, Dayoung, and she ran away.

Hayeon thought that Dayoung’s murderous intent and anger towards Hayeon’s thighs was not simply jealousy, but an expression of madness that had lost purpose and direction.

‘Understand the past, look to the future, and live today.’

The words Sangmin often told passed through Hayeon’s mind.

Hayeon, who was similar in age to her younger sister Dayoung and often joined in conversation with the philosophical and contemplative Sangmin, did not take his words lightly and always memorized them and pondered them.

‘Am I living today, denying the past and turning my eyes away from the future?’

Hayeon finished cleaning the guest room, put two pieces of firewood into the weakened stove, and headed to the room next to the main entrance.

‘This… is the room the master uses…’

An overwhelming number of cigarette butts and empty alcohol bottles rolling around.

There was a musty smell and I wanted to ventilate, but there was no way because of the strong rain.

She tried not to touch Sangmin’s personal belongings as much as possible, but Hayeon picked up the notebook that had been stepped on, the cover torn, and had cigarette burn marks on it, and opened it as if fascinated.

‘Master’s… diary…’

The notebook containing the diary that appears to have been written after coming to this mountain cabin showed Sangmin’s movements relatively calmly.

May 4, 2019

Finally came here.

There is nothing here that I came back to for a preliminary inspection for revenge.

The only thing that fills this empty place is my anger and hatred.

afraid.

I’m afraid that I will burn myself and everything in my revenge.

I wish I could stop, I wish I could turn back time.

Even if I kidnapped you, I still want to talk to you.

I’ll have to come back in a week.

May 14, 2019

It arrived later than expected.

I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder.

After being hospitalized, I rejected the doctor’s recommendation to receive treatment in a closed ward and retrieved a shotgun that had been left at a nearby earthen stand.

Fortunately, I was a familiar police officer, so I was able to receive it without much suspicion.

There are a lot of restrictions for a crazy person like me.

On the contrary, I no longer care about the constraints of the world.

There will be no guns pointed at them.

I don’t know if a bullet will go through my head.

Tuk.

The note fell from Hayeon’s hand and fell to the floor.

Tears flowed down Ha-yeon’s trembling body.

I couldn’t sit still.

I had to check the next diary.

Hayeon’s vision was blurred because tears were blocking her vision.

May 30, 2019

I am going crazy.

Even though I am aware of it, my mind spins faster than ever and I even feel like I have become wiser.

When I think about how I will kidnap arrogant girls and torment them, I feel good, as if I were on drugs, even though I never got drunk no matter how much I drank.

I want to see those trash people rolling on the floor with their expressions distorted.

June 28, 2019

It’s a roller coaster ride where my mood goes back and forth between hot and cold baths several times a day.

Today, my mind is at least intact, but my insomnia has worsened and my head hurts.

I can’t sleep even if I take sleeping pills or drink alcohol.

Preparations for revenge are progressing smoothly.

Train your body and check the variables by walking around the mountain hut.

However, even though his body was being destroyed by alcohol and cigarettes, he could not let go.

The day when I finish all my revenge and when they fully understand and realize my sadness and pain.

I will point the gun to my head and pull the trigger without hesitation.

I’m exhausted.

After completing my revenge in a world where there is nothing left, I want to leave this world without any more regrets.

And I hope that you will live your whole life carrying my memories and repenting.

I don’t remember the last time I had a good night’s sleep.

If you hold on just a little longer, you will soon fall into eternal sleep.

That was the last diary.

I turned the pages to the next chapter, hoping that there would be some change of heart, but at the end, only Sangmin’s heart-wrenching, heartbreaking confession marked the end.

“Kkeok… Ugh… Ugh… Ugh… Ugh… Ugh… Ugh…”

Hayeon cried so hard that she couldn’t even make a sound.

The canned food that I had devoured a moment ago mixed with gastric juice and spilled onto the floor.

Hayeon couldn’t control these feelings, so much so that she had trouble breathing.

‘I… what on earth did I do…’

Hayeon was scared as she finally realized the weight of the crime she had committed.

I cursed myself for thinking it was something I could handle.

No matter how earnestly it was desired, something like this should not have been done.

In the end, he was nothing more than a scum who achieved his own goals by taking advantage of his innocent younger sister’s love.

And she was a rare evil woman who caused the person she loved to fall apart so cruelly that he even contemplated suicide.

Even after confirming the sincerity of Sang-min, who accepted me after the kidnapping and said that he would give me true education after knowing the truth, I couldn’t think of what to say.

Hayeon, who realized that Sangmin, who pretended to be indifferent and calm on the outside, had already rotted away, felt like hiding somewhere.

‘But… I have to take responsibility… If I don’t change my master’s heart, then… I won’t be able to live without my master…’

Hayeon’s body was convulsing as she was shocked by such a huge fact, but she managed to gather herself enough to calm down.

I firmly resolved that I must somehow take responsibility and overcome this situation, even if it means wearing a mask if necessary.

‘If I am the one who took away your past, future, and today, then this time I will be by your side, understanding the past and looking into the future to create today!’

Hayeon’s mind was also in a state of disrepair like Sangmin and Dayoung, but she hypnotized herself by saying that it was too early to be frustrated, like the fortune telling on the phone and the story of Saeongjima that Sangmin used to comfort her.

‘Yes… I’m a person who always tries to keep my words once I say them… That’s why you don’t often say nonsense…’

He also said that he would definitely bring Dayoung.

They say that even though he did such an incredible thing, it doesn’t change the fact that he was still a disciple.

He also said that he would not let him run away until all his debts were paid off.

Hayeon trusted Sangmin.

And I thought it would be a reason for him to change his mind after getting revenge.

I want to be by your side so that you want to live longer, so that you have no regrets about life, and so that you don’t have any more sleepless nights.

It is not a love based solely on one’s own needs and desires, but a supreme and pure love that hopes for the happiness and peace of the loved one.

Hayeon’s twisted love was being mended little by little.

As Hayeon’s heart, which had been like a bottomless dam, was being mended, the door of the lodge opened and Sangmin entered, carrying Dayoung on his back.