episode_0022

you were worried about me

Maybe he did it as a formality considering his status as a fiancé.

Because the time we spent together was too short to thaw your frozen heart.

However, that kind of thing was probably good.

Because I was so happy to know that you were worried.

It was as if I could see what that day was like.

You handed me a neatly folded piece of paper with an expressionless face.

Perhaps out of embarrassment, you made eye contact for a moment and then turned away.

I left you behind and headed to the battlefield.

You must have been waiting for me like that.

But what we ended up facing was a breakup.

The paper containing your worries eventually tore, and I faced death.

It was the day when your always dull expression changed for the first time.

Red face, tears flowing down cheeks.

They say that most people look ugly when they cry, but how did you manage to look so beautiful?

When I was worried about you, those things came to mind and I became depressed for no reason.

[What a relief.]

[…] It’s a row.]

[…] … are you.]

Letters shining like the Milky Way scatter into the air.

I suppressed my emotions while looking at that scene.

Because you don’t know.

Because we never know in the future.

It’s just my personal matter, and I didn’t want to waste the moment I had with you with something like that.

So he smiled.

“Isn’t it fascinating?”

[Yes, it’s fascinating. Who on earth came up with something like this?]

“I don’t know what kind of person she is, but thanks to her, I was able to give it to Princess Luna as a gift, so I am truly grateful.”

I came up with the pen because I wanted Luna to be at least a little more comfortable.

But there was no way I could say that honestly.

Because I was so embarrassed to find out that I was thinking about you that much.

I’m also worried that he may be sick of heavy love.

Although I feel a little pathetic for being a coward, I always end up like this when I face Luna.

Thanks to her, I found the right path, and I am living hard for her.

You can say she is a milestone in my life.

If I am hated by her like that, if I lose her forever in the end, what will be left for me?

nothing.

Nothing remains of me.

In the end, if Luna disappears from my life, I will be no different from a carriage that has lost its destination.

If you run towards somewhere forever, you will be broken and broken and you will no longer be able to move forward.

That’s why I’m cautious.

Because I am so afraid of losing you.

I gathered my pounding heart and continued speaking.

“Do you like the gift?”

[Yes, I am very happy. But isn’t it a fairly expensive item? I am worried about whether I can accept something like this.]

“I hope the princess will accept it.”

[But, I haven’t yet been able to repay the gift I received last time… .]

“It’s okay. If the recipient of a gift is happy, the giver is also happy.”

So did I.

I used to laugh while imagining you receiving this pen and using it.

I was self-satisfied with the thought that you could become more comfortable.

So I hope you don’t feel any pressure.

Because I was already satisfied enough.

Of course, it would be really difficult for you, who has a kind heart.

“If you’re that worried… Could you please give me a book as a gift?”

[A book?]

“Yes, what the princess had is enough.”

[Are you really okay with that?]

“Not enough, but too much.”

Expensive magic tools and old books that I have read over and over again.

It is true that there is no comparison in terms of value alone.

However, isn’t it a gift, not barter?

I just wanted to receive the feeling that you chose it for me.

Luna got up from her seat and walked over to the bookshelf.

Her gaze slowly moves from top to bottom.

He seemed to be thinking about what book to give me as a gift.

A warm breeze blows through the window, and the curtains sway gracefully.

The sun, which had been hidden by clouds, poked its head out, and the sunlight that came through the window illuminated the moon and you together.

Everything I could see was like a painting.

I rested my elbows on the table, rested my chin on my hands, and watched in silence.

The heart that gives for me is so willing that a smile spreads across my face without me knowing.

Like that for a while.

Seuuu-.

Luna pulled out a book and dusted off the outside.

Then he returned to his seat and carefully placed the book on the table.

It was a book with many traces of reading.

Although it seemed to have been kept neatly, wounds that could not be hidden were noticeable.

Maybe I wanted to give as a gift what I enjoyed reading the most.

But.

‘Why is it so thick?’

The book is quite thick.

So much so that it can be used as a blunt weapon in an emergency.

I lived as a bastard, and after that I took up the sword.

There is a saying that reading is cultured for nobles, but that did not apply to me at least.

Was that why?

I felt a little afraid of the book in front of me.

To the point where I wondered if I could even read all of that.

But that doesn’t mean I’m not interested… .

Well, it wasn’t.

Isn’t this a book Luna enjoyed reading?

I wanted to know what she liked.

“What kind of book is it?”

[This is a common romance novel. If it doesn’t suit your taste, I’ll change it right now.]

“It’s okay. love story… I like it too.”

I was worried that Luna might be disappointed, so I blurted out something I didn’t even mean to say.

Let alone a romance novel, the last book I read was a picture fairy tale.

‘What should I do?’

I was anxious.

Because when she asks me about romance novels, I can’t answer anything.

It would be found out that I lied.

But my worries were for naught.

She didn’t ask me anything and just carefully handed me the book.

[I’m glad you like it.]

“Thank you. I will definitely read it.”

I bowed my head slightly and expressed my gratitude.

And with that, I breathed a sigh of relief.

First of all, I am grateful that I survived.

However, you won’t be able to hide it forever.

If we live together, we will inevitably find out.

The truth is that I don’t read books or anything.

‘Let’s read it starting today.’

I have lived a life far from books, but that ends today.

To keep her from being disappointed, you have to read it even if you don’t like it.

At least for the day when I can talk about books with Luna.

It was when I was making such a promise to myself.

A blue line began to be drawn in the air.

[why… .]

[Why do I… .]

It definitely took longer than I said it would, but I had no complaints.

On the contrary, I was so thankful that I was able to have a conversation with her like this.

Eventually, the long blue line came to an end.

When I saw the words written in the air, I was momentarily dazed.

[Why are you so nice to me?]

It was decided what answer I should give.

Because I was saved by you, because I love you, and because I want to make you happy.

But I couldn’t stop talking.

Because you don’t know why I have those feelings.

Of course, you can just say it was love at first sight.

There are many loves that start that way in the world, so it wouldn’t feel particularly strange.

However, I couldn’t bear to do that.

It feels like I’m denying you, who remains in my memories.

I hated having my memories packaged in words like that.

As I hesitated, Luna started moving the pen again.

[I can’t speak. A conversation like this with Confucius is only possible through writing. It will definitely be uncomfortable.]

I wish it would stop.

I hate to see you putting yourself down.

But contrary to my wishes, her pen did not stop.

[I don’t understand why you’re so nice to me. If it’s because of your engagement, you don’t have to worry about it. I have no intention of breaking off the engagement… .]

Luna wrote with an expressionless face.

As if putting yourself down is a natural thing.

Her argument was not wrong.

It is true that she is mute, and it makes people around her feel uncomfortable.

But, I felt like my heart was breaking.

My heart tightened because I felt like I knew why you thought that way and what kind of life you lived.

I guess it’s because I’ve had so many scars that I’ve become dull.

So much so that it doesn’t matter if new wounds arise.

By the time I came to my senses, you were already strong, so I didn’t know.

And now that I know that, I feel so pathetic.

10 years.

It’s been 10 years.

The years I spent hurting you, who had such great pain.

I thought he was just a guy to beat to death, but in reality, he was a guy that wouldn’t be enough to kill.

However, I became a little curious.

Why did you love me?

It must have been so difficult, so why?

No, actually it wasn’t that important.

I was saved by your love and efforts.

So now it’s my turn to save you.

widely-.

I held her hand as she wrote in the air.