episode_0022

Leasian left the room after checking Kamiel’s condition and quickly walked down the hallway and returned to his room.

Sweet.

She locked the door and sat down.

Drop, drop, drop… .

“I… What should I do?”

She shook her head blankly.

Light brown hair swayed aimlessly.

“I don’t know… . I just wanted to get a little more attention… … .”

This was my first time in my life like this.

I was desperate for someone’s attention.

The fact that such an object was created.

“Because of me, because of me, Kamiel… … .”

She trembled slightly.

Excessive greed brought about anger.

Was it a greed that should not be indulged?

At some point, a blue-haired woman standing next to her spoke.

didn’t i tell you In the end, you have no choice but to stay away from that child.

“… … .”

You are similar to me in many ways. my daughter

A welcoming hand caressed the girl’s tear-soaked cheek.

So you can tell.

A soft voice continued. but… The content contained therein was nothing but a stab to Rheasian’s heart.

If the current relationship with that child continues, what kind of ending will it lead to?

“… I am.”

huh?

“Why can’t I be happy? I finally met someone I wouldn’t regret even if I promised them eternity… .”

… The only thing harder than dying is living happily.

Since she had already experienced it once, it was advice she could give.

Is there any tragedy worse than life?

It was a word that seemed to have a lot of lingering meaning.

An uninvited guest came to the room where Kamiel was recuperating.

“It feels like it’s been a while since I last saw you, so I’m even more glad to see you.”

“… … .”

Kamiel had nothing to say.

I just stared at the person in front of me.

Her black hair was as neat as always, and her skin was a slightly more vibrant white than it had felt that day.

Dark blue eyes were staring straight at him between eyes that were both relaxed and confident.

“What’s going on here… … .”

“I heard that you suddenly collapsed due to pain, so I came here in person. How is your body?”

Even as she spoke, she did not stop walking.

Kamiel responded by taking a step back.

“It’s okay. No big problem… ”

“That can’t be possible.”

An unknown scent rushes in and tickles the tip of my nose.

Luanel, who had his face pressed up to the point of being burdensome, continued speaking without blinking even though the distance was very close.

“The face represents so many things. Why don’t you hide the dark spots under your eyes and tell me?”

“… … What does my being sick have to do with you?”

Kamiel had cold eyes that he had never shown to anyone before.

“Um… It would be long to explain it, though. Could you listen to me for a moment?”

“No… ”

“Thank you.”

She started talking on her own, as if she wasn’t going to receive any rebuttal.

“Was I ever a child? Back when it was a few heads smaller than it is now. Mother had many things.”

Whether it’s an object or a person, Ruanel’s mother has to have whatever she wants. He had a persistent personality.

“Since when? As if blood can’t fool you, I started craving my mother’s things and couldn’t control it.”

The only thing I wanted at that time was a ring.

Considering the number of rings her mother had, it would have been worth as much as the candles in the hallway.

However, Ruanel was severely punished that day.

Her mother said as she looked at her daughter’s blood-stained calf.

“Ruanel. If there was something you wanted, why didn’t you tell me?”

Did they really give it to me just because I said it?

Maybe they would have saved him something else, but they wouldn’t have given him the same thing he said.

Because it was my mother’s.

The sound of discipline tickled my ears along with the tingling pain in my calf.

“Daughter. Even if you stole this, I wouldn’t care if you didn’t get caught.”

That day, Ruanel, who had been beaten to the point of bursting his calf, remained alone in a dark room and thought about it.

‘My mother… ‘He was so angry because I touched his things.’

If you warn me like this, don’t you think I won’t touch what’s yours?

but… To do that, Ruanel had already found out.

The fun of stealing from others.

“You said it would be okay as long as you don’t get caught. It is still questionable whether you were warned about such an easy task.”

The first time was just a mistake due to lack of experience.

Her growth was extraordinary compared to her peers, and her abilities as a member of the Larun tribe were even more outstanding.

Still, it wasn’t enough to drive my mother crazy, but it wasn’t enough to leave a trace for me to take the item I wanted.

“Once, twice… As each turn goes by, the degree of what I want increases.”

It was one day.

A rabbit that my mother brought home, either out of curiosity or for some reason.

It was clear that if I took this, I would definitely be caught.

“So I killed him. Without leaving a trace.”

A long tongue licked blood-red lips.

“There was no way my mother wouldn’t know that I did it, but as she said before, she wasn’t the kind of person who would scold me without any evidence.”

Rather, I highly praised my daughter’s abilities.

One day, her mother, Lumina, returned from somewhere and said,

“There was a child I really liked… Unfortunately, I couldn’t bring it. It’s really unfortunate.”

It was just a passing comment.

That was enough to bring out Ruanel’s curiosity and greed.

Who is it? What was it that aroused my mother’s interest to that extent?

Ruanel knew that his mother was clearly telling him to listen, but he did not.

The disappointment in that voice was unmistakable, so my interest was piqued.

“… That’s how I came here.”

“… … .”

When the story ended, Kamiel opened his tightly closed mouth.

“Why is Ruanel’s life… Is it not in yourself?”

“… What?”

Is it because it was absurd?

She reacted a beat late.

Kamiel looked at her with his immaculate blue eyes.

any… A feeling of pity was evident.

“If you feel pleasure only by taking something from someone… Ruanel will not feel any happiness if he is left alone in the world.”

“… … .”

“Because there is nothing to take away.”

“… okay. You might be right. Am I actually happy except when I steal something from someone else or kill a rabbit? I’ve never even felt anything similar.”

Hands as beautiful as jade were stretched out.

Eventually, she held his neck in one hand and asked softly.

“Why don’t you tell me a little more? It would be a will.”

“… … .”

You could die.

Just like the rabbit story she told me a while ago, if she couldn’t have it, she might try to kill it.

In the past, in a similar situation, the young lady miraculously came to the rescue.

Since it was all just a fluke, I couldn’t hope for such dramatic salvation one more time.

so… If we do well, Kamiel’s life will end here, today.

“Is that so.”

But he didn’t look shaken at all.

Ruanel’s eyes were drawn to his calm yet still voice.

“Aren’t you afraid? I can say that because I’m not giving any strength right now. If you apply the right force, you can break your neck in one breath.”

“Is that so.”

“… Was he being insincere? I can’t believe I can only say the same thing.”

Like the black fog that enveloped my body in my dreams.

Her hands had a strong scent of death.

It means I don’t want to get close to you.

However, Kamiel seemed to have no idea what was going on, so he just used his own hands to join in, as if to encourage her.

“What are you doing?”

“Killing me would be easy, as Ruanel said. I don’t care if I die.”

“… … .”

I could see confusion in her expression.

I can’t believe my always relaxed face took on that kind of expression… He seemed embarrassed.

Kamiel pressed her hand tightly and strangled his neck.

Because of this, a slightly suppressed voice came out.

“But… I hope Ruanelle finds another happiness.”

“Why are you meddling?”

Despite the harsh tone in his voice, he brightly arched his eyes and answered.

“Because you are similar to someone I know.”

That person got all the joy of the day from just one friendly conversation with another person.

He used to do things that bothered everyone else and feel proud of himself.

Even though the boy is denied everything he is by the parents who gave birth to him.

It was just good.

Because there was a good deed he did without them knowing.

He had a warm heart that saved the lives of people who treated him poorly.

Because there was a time when they were living well.

Even if someone sees it, they will laugh at it and say that there is no such thing as a fool like this.

It would be impossible to deny the happiness he felt.

‘But when I left the village, the world was wide.’

Some people may laugh again after hearing this.

Are you just comparing the mansion to the world?

This was just a shame, even for Camiel.

‘Because I don’t have enough time to see the world.’

instead. I found new happiness.

“I came here and found new happiness.”

“What kind of happiness are you talking about?”

“My feelings for Lady Leashian.”

“… her. I thought it was going to be something great. In the end, the happiness you found again is just happiness that wouldn’t be possible without him.”

Kamiel shook his head slightly.

“No. Keck… .”

I could not breathe, perhaps because the force constricting my neck was getting stronger.

Nevertheless, he was the one who kept saying the wrong thing.

“It’s okay to say I can’t meet you anymore. As long as the lady is happy… Is that my happiness?”

It was the same but quite different from the happiness I felt in the village.

If things in the village were one-sided, here, both sides feel it.

“You do it for me. He loves me, and sometimes he complains, but I don’t know that it’s because he likes me.”

The villagers and family did not love themselves.

The young lady loved herself.

That was enough for Kamiel.

“I can no longer recreate my previous happiness. Because I have already tasted a better moment called now.”

“What if I am left alone in the world? I will disappear somewhere, wishing the happiness of the girl who will be reborn again. I hope I can go there again someday.”

“I… It’s a way of thinking that I can’t understand at all.”

She lightly shook off the force holding her hand and walked away.

“It’s a new happiness… … .”

Ruanel glanced sideways at Kamiel, who was coughing.

It was my first time. The person who said this.

The one who gave for his own happiness.

“… I don’t know.”