episode_0022

Today, I’m going to tell a slightly longer story.

One day last year, the day I was invited to Geonwoo’s house.

“Hey, no sex today.”

“What?”

Geonwoo said something different from usual. Normally, I would have just gone along with it without a word. He was someone I had been hanging out with every day, so why would he refuse sex? It was puzzling to me at the time. But it was a welcome change.

“Then… Can I go home?”

“No.”

“I said we’re not having sex.”

“Yeah. Not today. Instead, you’ll do it now.”

“What?”

“Masturbate. Don’t you know what that is? Oh, if you’re a girl, it’s not called masturbating, right? Let’s just call it ‘touching yourself.’”

I was taken aback by Geonwoo’s crude demand. It was humiliating for me, who considered myself a man, to react like that. It was humiliating to even receive such a request.

“Why should I masturbate in front of a guy?”

“What? Are you embarrassed because there’s a guy here?”

“No, I’m a guy too. A guy shouldn’t…”

“I did it, though.”

“…What?”

“Your friend. Do you know that Choi In-sung made me masturbate in front of him?”

I had no idea. Upon hearing those words, I stood frozen as if in shock. Of course, at the time, I was skeptical of his words. Now… I think it’s probably true.

“I did it, so you do it in front of me. That’s only fair.”

“I, I didn’t know such a thing happened…”

“He’s your best friend. You were hanging out with the guy who made me do it, so you’re also responsible. Besides, unlike that gay guy, I don’t enjoy watching men masturbate. So, you do it instead.”

It was an absurd argument. But at that time, I couldn’t bring myself to defy Geonwoo… I eventually succumbed to his words.

“What are you waiting for? Aren’t you going to touch yourself?”

“….”

Swish- I pulled down my skirt. With only one pair of panties left, my lower half felt incredibly exposed.

“Hurry up and take off your panties… No, don’t take them all off, just halfway.”

“Like this?”

“Yeah, good. Have you touched yourself yet?”

“No, I haven’t!”

Since becoming a woman. Anyway, when I took off my panties, my vagina was fully exposed… Although I had shown my vagina to Geonwoo several times before, that day, for some reason, I felt particularly embarrassed.

“Start.”

“A-Are we really… doing this?”

“Do you want to pretend? Or do you prefer being used?”

“N-No… What should I…”

At that moment, I didn’t want to be used… For that reason alone, I placed my hand on my vagina. It was my first time masturbating as a woman, so I wasn’t sure how to proceed.

“What are you doing?”

“I don’t know how to do it…”

“Do I have to tell you how to do that too? Just rub with your fingers when you feel good.”

Terrified of Geonwoo’s anger, I inserted my finger into my vagina. It felt strange and unfamiliar. It was different from when I used to hold my penis and shake it. It was somewhat arousing but slow to build up.

“Ugh… Ah…”

However, as I continued to rub, the sense of arousal gradually intensified. It felt like a rush of excitement was building up, similar to water filling a cup. This act of female masturbation… It was very different from a man’s. It felt inadequate and ticklish.

“You’re not doing it well.”

Slap-

“What are you doing?”

“Don’t just rub, touch yourself there too.”

Watching me masturbate, Geonwoo struck my clitoris. I reacted extremely sensitively. It hurt… unbelievably, it felt good. I couldn’t believe it. Why does it hurt but feel good?

“What are you doing? Not touching it?”

“This is weird. It feels strange when I touch there…”

“That’s because the clitoris is a sensitive spot.”

“S-Sensitive spot?”

“Each woman’s erogenous zones are a bit different, but the clitoris is definitely an erogenous zone. The vagina only functions as an erogenous zone. It’s different with men.”

Geonwoo said while talking about sex education materials, mocking me.

“Do you understand? That’s proof that you’re a woman, you bastard. If you understood, masturbate again. If not, I’ll make you understand in a different way.”

I felt immense humiliation from Geonwoo’s words, but at the same time, my head was spinning. Until then, even if I had become a woman, I had always thought of myself as completely male mentally. But that was my misconception. Just by hitting the clitoris once, I became immersed in the pleasure that only women can feel.

My male identity was simply denied by that pleasure… In fact, I had been slightly denying it through the climaxes I had felt before. But until then, I had vaguely thought that it was similar to male pleasure… It was nothing like that at all.

I was already following my mind along with my body.

“Hmm…”

“Yes, stimulate the clitoris too. Tease the vagina with your fingers.”

With that thought, I started masturbating again with a sense of resignation. As I began to follow not just Geonwoo’s guidance but also my own, the tempo gradually increased. As the tempo picked up, the pleasure rushed in faster. It was a sensation so intense that it needed to be suppressed.

But even as I tried to suppress it, there was a limit, and when the pleasure overflowed, I ejaculated, reaching climax with a rush, right in front of Geonwoo.

“Ah… Ahh…”

“…That’s enough for today, go.”

After finishing masturbating, I was panting heavily. Geonwoo didn’t look particularly pleased watching it. Rather, he seemed uncomfortable and sent me back home.

That day, I entered my house looking completely dazed. My mom was worried when she saw me like that. I reassured her that I was fine, closed the door firmly, and went into my room.

“My heart is still racing…”

Even lying on the bed, my heart was still beating rapidly. The orgasm I felt from masturbating was unforgettable. It was somehow different from the orgasms I had experienced during sex. Surprisingly, the masturbation felt even better than sex; looking back now, it seemed like it was because it was the first time I had felt something ‘self-induced.’

I had felt pleasure on my own. For the first time.

I wanted to deny it. But at the same time… I wanted to feel it again. The pleasure of that masturbation was unbelievably addictive.

Later, it’s a fact that the pleasure felt in actual sex between men and women isn’t as great as one might think. Artificial masturbation is said to be more stimulating and pleasurable.

So, the pleasure I would have felt from masturbating on my own would have been greater than when forced by Geonwoo. Of course, psychological factors cannot be ignored, making it different from now…

Anyway, at that time, I was completely captivated by the pleasure of a woman’s first masturbation.

“Ah… Ahh…”

Lying on the bed, I found my hand on my groin without realizing it. Unlike when I did it in front of Geonwoo, I was just touching over my panties, but it still made me feel a bit dizzy.

As much as I felt self-disgust, that feeling was enjoyable. However, the self-disgust was weaker than when I did it in front of Geonwoo.

It almost seemed like it felt better in front of Geonwoo because it was in front of him. Disliking that, I vehemently denied it.

But such denial crumbled in the face of Geonwoo’s subsequent humiliations.

“Today, touch your breasts too.”

“Don’t just touch your nipples, touch your breasts too.”

“I don’t care, focus on your own pleasure or your pussy.”

After that day, Geonwoo did not have sex.

Instead, he made more escalated demands. He demanded that I masturbate my breasts as well as my vagina. Especially tormenting my nipples, and if I didn’t comply properly, he would torment my breasts himself.

That was not enough. Geonwoo took out his penis in front of me and even took turns hitting each other.

It’s humiliating. But it feels good. Humiliation and pleasure were mixed. I couldn’t distinguish whether it was bad or good. Whenever I returned, I comforted myself alone at home. But I never felt as good as when I did it in front of Geonwoo.

And every day, I headed to Geonwoo’s house. Dressed in a skirt, I nervously waited for Geonwoo’s command. Hoping he would command me to hit him again today.

“Today we’re going to play a game.”

“A game?”

“Yes. It’s also an opportunity for you. If you win, I’ll lift the curse for you. You might even be able to turn back into a man.”

“…What kind of game is it?”

“A Big Dick Showdown.”

“What’s that?”

“It’s simple. Whoever makes the other come first wins.”

It’s a simple game. At that time, I couldn’t say it was something I wanted to do, but as long as I made Geonwoo come first, that was all that mattered.

If I win, I’ll turn back into a man… When that thought crossed my mind, my enthusiasm soared.

“Are you going to do it?”

“…I will.”

“Then take off your clothes.”

In the Big Dick Showdown, both Geonwoo and I undressed. We set the rules. Facing each other, using only our right hands to touch each other’s genitals to make them come. Of course, penetration was prohibited, so I thought I had it easy.

“Let’s begin.”

Zip-

“…!”

As soon as Geonwoo said “start,” he roughly touched my vagina to the point where it was unbearable. I trembled with immense pleasure running through my body as I was about to touch Geonwoo’s penis.

“Why are you like this? Don’t you want to play the game?”

“Ah… Ah…♥”

It was strange. Very strange. The feeling was incomparable to when I touched myself.

And when Geonwoo started touching my clitoris without hesitation, pleasure surged so intensely that I had to desperately hold back from climaxing.

“You’re so sensitive… Have you ever played with yourself at home?”

“No… Ah…♥”

“Don’t lie, you bitch. You did.”

“I didn’t…”

“If you didn’t, why are you so sensitive?”

Zip- Zip-

“Huahh…♥”

With Geonwoo’s unreserved touch on my vagina, pleasure escalated almost to the point of climax. I barely managed to hold back while standing there awkwardly.

“Stop it♥”

“Are you giving up? The game? It’s your last chance.”

“I-I won’t give up♥”

“But why are you stopping?”

“Just wait a bit♥ I’m too embarrassed♥”

The sounds coming from my throat were all lewd. Only lewd sounds came out. I begged for mercy shamelessly. I didn’t want to lose. I wanted to go back to how things were.

Or… Did I really want to go back to how things were?

“Is that so? Then try it. I, the pathetic Park Sihyun, completely surrender to Kim Geonwoo.”

“I-I can’t say that…”

“You can’t? Then what should we do…”

“Hee♥ I-I’ll do it.”

I began to speak as Geonwoo demanded.

The pathetic Park Sihyun

Completely surrenders

To Kim Geonwoo…

Squish-!

“Eek!”

Before I could finish my last words, Geonwoo pinched my clitoris.

It was the final blow that burst the dam filled with pleasure. I collapsed while moaning.

“Oh…”

“I won, didn’t I?”

“Y-You cheated. I was about to say…”

“Did I ever say I wouldn’t touch you while you were talking? I let you finish three sentences before.”

“……”

I sat down in defeat, overwhelmed by a sense of failure. Strangely, a feeling of relief washed over me. I couldn’t understand why.

“Since you lost… you’ll have to keep submitting to me, right? So suck it.”

Geonwoo presented his erect penis in front of my face… It looked incredibly powerful. Enveloped in the ecstasy of the peak, I obediently grabbed his penis with my hand as if entranced. Then I brought my mouth close to the glans.

“Before you start sucking, finish saying it.”

And following Geonwoo’s command, I obediently said:

“…I surrender.”

That I completely surrendered as a woman.