episode_0022

This is my first time leaving the room.

Of course, I went out once a day to receive blessings, but that was because I went down to the underground with Jerome and came back up, so I always walked the same path.

So officially, this is my first time going out.

Of course, the word official means that it is like that for now, so please take note of it. Whatever the reality is.

Countless people who have received my blessings have walked around this area.

So the map for this area is almost full.

So the point of walking is not to look around, but to move your body. What did they say? They said you have to run for an hour?

When I think back to my old memories, when all the colors had faded and now only gray remained, that image came to mind. But back then, I just worked out for two days and gave up.

I guess I’ll have to exercise more this time.

As I was walking out of the room, Hyungkeshni followed me.

“Hey, Rebecca. What are you here for? If you want to eat warmth, I have no choice but to stop you.”

“They prepare 3 people a day, right? I came out to run. They say that people need to run to maintain their bodies.”

It’s just a tone that I’ve seen it somewhere. I think Rebecca Rolf knows it, but in reality, she saw it on video.

I don’t lie.

“Running. Yes. It’s definitely not a bad way to train your body. But would you run with that body?”

He said that while pointing to my body. I looked down at my body. I couldn’t see well because of my chest, but my body was healthy. I turned my body and checked the range of motion.

It’s going well. Move around flexibly.

I can even easily do positions I never did when I was a man.

I also tried splitting my legs into an I shape, doing a handstand, and then standing on the floor.

“Your body moves well.”

When I looked at Hyungkeshni, she looked at me with an expression that said she had seen something she shouldn’t have seen. Then she scratched the back of her head and came towards me.

And he lifted my chest with his hand. It’s a very small hand. I think I can lick the light through my hand. It’s close enough to get warmth.

Of course I’ll put up with it.

Yes. Not yet.

I still have to endure it.

As I was practicing patience like that, Hyukkesuni lifted my chest a few times, grabbed my clothes, and touched them. Then, I sighed deeply.

“If you move around with such a heavy load on and such thin clothes, not only your clothes but also your whole body will be ruined. There is a fixed piece of clothing, so wear that. Do you remember?”

It’s clothes.

There are many memories from other people. For example, after Isla received my blessing, she suddenly became an adult and had a hard time moving.

I remember trying out different clothes back then.

But Rebecca Rolfe doesn’t remember that.

“There is no such thing in Rebecca Rolf’s memory.”

“Then I’ll prepare it for you. How about we go back to the room first?”

Oh, indeed.

Hukkeshni doesn’t want me to leave my room. I need at least some time to prepare.

Were you just waiting for an opportunity to tell me to go back?

Or are you just trying it out because it seems like a good reason?

I know this guy hasn’t relaxed yet.

Sometimes when people look at me, they laugh painfully. Most people think it’s because they find me funny, but in reality, it’s the opposite.

It’s a habit. A very old habit.

When she was scared, instead of making a scared face, she laughed. And she laughed for so long that no matter how old she was, she forgot what her expression was when she was scared.

If she says that while she’s scared, I’ll do as she says.

“Yes, I understand.”

So I turned around and walked back to the room where I was living. As I did so, I sneaked a glance at Hyunkeshuni’s expression. She looked relieved.

And beneath that expression. There is light at the center of the person. A considerably large light compared to the average, and a very small warmth compared to the light.

Great light and lots of warmth.

Great light, little warmth.

Little light and little warmth.

There are these three.

But I’ve never seen so much light and so much warmth.

Light is a vessel, warmth is something else.

At first, I thought it was a possibility, but if that’s the case, it doesn’t make sense that babies have little warmth. So the identity of the warmth is still a mystery.

I’m guessing that the reason the color of the light changes when I’m in it is because I’m in the bowl. It’s originally a clear glass cup filled with water, but when I go in, it becomes muddy water.

That is, the Hukkeshni has a very large bowl.

I look forward to the day when it gets warm inside me.

I want to get as much warmth as I can, so not yet.

I went back to my room.

So I went back and sat down in the chair I often sat in, and then Hyungkeshni left, saying she was going to look for underwear.

It’s probably true that he’s looking for underwear, but that’s not all he’s going to do. He’s probably going to tell Hieronymus.

But that’s okay.

That’s okay too.

The way Hieronymus looks at me is as if he sees me as his subordinate.

Yes. I think he has completely bred me. I can see the contempt he shows towards those who are inferior to him in his gaze, actions and expressions.

It’s really amazing how he gets upset, especially when people speak to me formally.

But I don’t care.

Yes, I can read them all, but I won’t say I know unless you tell me. Because you didn’t ask me. If you asked me if I could read my own expressions, I would say yes.

I have no intention of lying.

So, it is likely that Jerome thought this way.

Rebecca Rolf’s body weakens when left alone. She went out because she needed exercise, but returned at the words of Hukkeshni.

It’s a creature that’s perfectly submerged in water.

Ta-da.

It shows the weakness of the creature.

Obey orders.

There is no problem anywhere.

Since I have always shown myself as having low intelligence, there is no need to think too hard about what he thinks when he sees me. Unfortunately, I am not very intelligent, I just see a lot. I can’t do complex calculations, that’s all.

If I were to become a monster, I would like to become a genius like a monster.

Even if you wish for something that isn’t there, there’s nothing you can do about it.

So, I just need to lower myself so that it’s easier for me to guess.

For warmth, I have no choice but to move forward while thinking hard with the cards I have in hand now.

I need more warmth.

As I was making plans for the future, the door opened and Joanna came in carrying a new comforter and covers.

“Welcome, Joanna.”

“Yes, Rebecca. I’m back. Oh, and could you please move to the side a little bit so we don’t bump into each other?”

Joanna’s arms are full of blankets, but when I follow her gaze, I see her reflection in a mirror or metal object, so she knows exactly where I am.

How could I disturb someone who diligently cleans the room I live in?

I stood up from my seat, picked up the chair I was sitting on, and walked over to the corner to stand.

Joanna saw me and smiled slightly, took the blanket in her arms and went to the bed. Then she skillfully made up the bed.

The mattress inside is so large that it looks like it would be difficult for a woman to lift, but Joanna can lift a person-sized water jug with one hand.

Among those who have received my blessings, he is quite strong.

But the light isn’t that great. Average to below average.

So, it seems that a large vessel does not necessarily mean that it can exert great power.

I’m not sure.

“Rebecca, where did Hunkeshuni go?”

“I went to find underwear.”

“Oh, underwear? Shouldn’t they all be in this drawer? Are those Rebecca’s underwear?”

Joanna says as she puts the cover on the mattress. She said underwear, but then she realized that they were not Hulkeshni’s clothes but mine.

I answered yes, feeling inwardly amazed.

Then Joanna spread out the cover and tidied it up. Then she tapped the blanket on top of it a few times, and it was folded neatly.

The technology is amazing.

And then she came towards me. When I say blue, you might think of a blue bruise, but I see a woman with blue skin, which is a little different from that. If you look at her appearance, she looks more like a girl than an adult.

The eyes are reversed, with the whites of the pupils being black, and in certain works they are called demon eyes, so their heterogeneity is obscured.

Joanna came up to me and smiled gently.

“Looking at the clothes I’m seeing for the first time, were you planning to go out?”

Okay, I see.

Joanna isn’t exactly a gentle person. On the contrary, it’s quite fascinating how she makes such expressions.

After being abandoned by her husband and kicked out of the house, she did all kinds of hard work, such as deceiving people and even sending them to dangerous places knowing that they would die.

And a few pennies for your help.

That’s how I lived. If you don’t spend money by taking them to a place called a temple that has magical healing, then in this world, the legacy pretty fatally destroys the human body. It destroys not only the body, but also the mind.

He is a typical person who became a villain because of his misfortune. And it was the same even after he entrusted himself to the Future Hope Church.

A life of harming others and pulling them down in order to survive.

Then, when my damaged body could no longer endure and began to rot, I was eventually cast out. And while I was dying, I was brought before me as a test subject by Hieronymus.

“Yes, that’s right, Joanna.”

“So, Mr. Hyungkeshuni, you went to look for workout underwear? I know someone who knows a lot about such clothes. Should I bring them?”

As Joanna spoke, she picked up the chair in front of me and put it back where it was.

“It’s not too late to check what Hyungkeshni brought.”

Joanna nodded. There was no light of faith in her gaze toward me. She was just looking after me because I was a high-ranking person. In my memory, she had been relying on the Future Hope Church as a pillar of her heart, so I thought she could be obsessed with me, but I don’t see any such distortion at all.

Rather, it has become very healthy. During the day, he takes care of me, and at night, he goes to the place where the warriors of faith train and trains.

So, I’ve had my share of conflicts with Isla and Wide, but neither of them seem to care.

And yet, they don’t tell anyone their opinions. They just quietly bow their heads and pass by. Most of the people who have received my blessings have become egos that are inflated and have come to believe in their own power rather than God.

Or maybe it was because she knew from her experience what I was thinking?

Maybe I’m just an animal, and I take care of it with the same emotions I would take care of an animal at a zoo.

So, we’re just maintaining an awkward relationship.

Oh, I surprised Joanna once. One day, far away, my harvesters were fighting a knight with a light on his sword, so I put Rebecca Rolf to bed and focused on that.

After the battle, I saw Joanna reading a book next to Hunkeshni. As soon as Rebecca Rolf got up, Joanna closed the book.

So at that time, I just told them to look and do what they wanted to do.

I was strangely surprised at that time. Of course, nothing changed after that.

What has changed is that when I’m just sitting still, I read books from the bookshelf in Hyungkeshni’s seat?

But it’s no fun dealing with me just sitting there, so you have to make me do something.

Because when you die, you take it all away.

I hope I can pack as much as possible, so I can take more when I go. The most important thing is still warmth. But it’s also fun to lick memories.

It’s something like this.

I live in this large room like this.